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Spring goes and autumn comes, and a year has passed in the blink of an eye.I looked at the yellow leaves falling outside the window, watched them dance gently from the branches by the wind, and then fluttered down again.There was a cool autumn wind, and I couldn't help shrinking.

My arm has regained feeling, but it is not as flexible and strong as before.In the first year, because my body was still weak and I hadn't recovered from the trauma, I couldn't do any rehabilitation programs. I could only use acupuncture and massage to delay muscle atrophy.There is still no sensation in the lower limbs, as if they have long since ceased to exist.

The scary thing is that I've gotten a little used to it.

Lin Xi came to see me. She has been staying in China for a year to manage the affairs of the Su Group, and she came here to visit me when she had time. She also brought me a recent photo of Qing Han and told me a lot about her recent affairs.

I flipped through the photos one by one while listening to Lin Xi talking about trivial life anecdotes.

In the photo, she seems to have lost a lot of weight and grown a little taller. She was still very petite in the past, but now she is taller and more charming, with a thin chin and a cool and mature side face.

Lin Xi said that the Su family has stabilized. She had taken a break from school for a year to manage the Su family, but now she has gone back to class with part-time work and half-study, and the pressure on her shoulders has been reduced a lot.

After talking a lot, Lin Xi paused for a while, looked at me hesitantly, and asked cautiously: "She still can't let you go, and starts to blame you a little bit, do you want...?"

"No." I interrupted her remaining half of the sentence, she hesitated and glanced at me, and wanted to say something, but she didn't say it after all.

"You can take care of the prison. That person has a lot of connections, so maybe something will go wrong." I added.

Lin Xi nodded, chatted with me a few more words, and got up to leave.

"Xiao Mu, I know I can't persuade you, but don't be so hard on yourself." She said to me before leaving.

I was silent for a while, then raised my head and smiled at her. Over the past year, I have often smiled like this, and I have become very proficient. Others can hardly see my emotions. I said, "Thank you, sister."

After my body recovered, I started to rehabilitate.Do some simple standing and walking with the help of a walker and a therapist.At the beginning, my lower limbs were limp and weak, and my hands couldn't support the weight of my body at all. I couldn't hold on for even a second before I collapsed, and this continued for several months afterwards.

I was a little annoyed and irritated, and even more disheartened and chilled.

All along, any diet, massage, acupuncture, medicated bath, rehabilitation, as long as it can help the treatment and recovery, no matter how much suffering and pain, I will actively cooperate. I thought that as long as I work hard, there will be Turnaround occurred.

As long as I work hard, I will still have a chance to stand by her side.

But the cruelty of reality makes people feel chilling and desperate.

I was alone in the hospital bed at night, my mother came home, the nurses went to sleep, there was no footsteps in the corridor outside, I took the metal hammer in the bedside table, it was used by the doctor to stimulate the patient every time after rehabilitation. I use it on the reaction points of my lower limbs, and it doesn't work every time.

I clenched the hammer tightly and lifted the quilt. The doctor must have hit too lightly every time. I thought so, so I beat hard on my leg, and bruises soon appeared on the pale skin. I thought about what happened just now. The strength should be enough to hurt, but why is there still no feeling?I knocked hard a few more times, and when I hit the red and swollen wound that had been pierced by acupuncture, I suddenly felt a tingling pain. I was shocked, and the joy in my heart was about to explode. It had been a long time since I felt the touch of my lower limbs. Even though it was just pain, I felt addicted to do it all over again.

It wasn't until the movement was so loud that it attracted the attention of the nurses. When they saw me frantically beating my legs with a hammer, they were horrified. They hurried to find a doctor and injected me with a sedative. Then I calmed down.

The lower body is a little numb, and I don't feel much, but I am happy enough.The nurse bandaged my bloody legs, and the doctor checked it several times. He was a little surprised to hear my pain, but he still couldn't bear it when he saw my legs, and his expression was complicated for a while.

After my mother found out, she sent someone to remove all the weapons in the ward, and looked at my legs with tears, "Don't do this to yourself, okay?" Her voice was trembling, and she could hear that she was trying to suppress, "I know you are impatient. , but shall we take our time?"

I felt so guilty seeing my mother, I broke her heart again.It's just that I can't take my time anymore, it's already slow enough, I need to go faster, and faster, otherwise... I won't be able to keep up with her footsteps.

Although the price was high this time, fortunately, I already had a little awareness.I slowly extended my time in the recovery room, from two hours a day to four hours a day, to being in the recovery room all day.

From the beginning of standing up with the help of others, and gradually walking slowly with a walker, from three seconds to 30 seconds, and then to 3 minutes, I don’t know how long it took. How many falls and bruises on knees and thighs come and go as if they never went away.

Pain and bruising are two essential parts of my dull, monotonous days.

But feeling my legs feel more conscious every day, I feel incredibly fulfilled and...hopeful.

It seems that day by day, I am getting closer and closer to that wish: to return to her side and touch her face again.

Lin Xi often brings me her news, whether it is photos in e-mail, or video materials, or tells me some trivial things about her life by phone.I don't know whether it was intentional or unintentional, but they always told me when I was in pain and almost couldn't bear it, which gave me the motivation to persevere again.

She is becoming more and more mature, and her talents are becoming more and more amazing. It took her two years to open up the Su's sales market, and achieved the No. 1 quality reputation in the industry. The media reported her personal deeds extensively. , Famous experience, called her the "new goddess" in the business world.In the news, she has been able to answer reporters' answers calmly, and she is no longer the shy little girl she used to be.

The more colorful and radiant she is, the more I feel distressed. The world knows her glamorous appearance, but how many people understand the sweat and loneliness behind her, supporting a whole group by herself, the burden on her shoulders, How much heaviness and pressure.

When she was sad, hesitant, painful and helpless, I was not by her side, and I was even the one who raised her pain.

Every time I think of these things, I feel like my heart has been poured with mercury, with a heavy dull pain, and a sense of pale powerlessness lingering in my heart.

I can't do anything, I can only ask Lin Xi to take care of her, and I can only borrow some means to make the road ahead of her smoother.

Time slipped away quietly at the fingertips, as small as the sunlight between the fingers. During the long rehabilitation life day after day, I met another very important friend.

Xu Wan came to Dr. Xu.

The first time we met was when I sent off my father who was visiting me with a smile. Before the smile faded away, I saw a slender and tall Chinese woman leaning against the door. She was wearing a white coat, but her face was very raw. She should be a newcomer. .

She looked into my eyes and asked me: "Aren't you tired of smirking like this all the time?" Her voice was gentle and meaningful, and her sincere question seemed to reach my heart.

I was a little surprised that she was the first person to see my mask.

She approached my bed, and then I noticed her face, with soft facial curves, exquisite and delicate features, and she looked very comfortable, and she said softly: "I noticed you For a long time, you have been smiling so seemingly peacefully, but in fact you must be very bitter, why do you have to force yourself so much?"

Maybe it was the gentle breath on her body that made me let go of my heart, or maybe it was the long-standing disguise that made me tired and bitter, and I wanted to find someone to confide in myself, so I sighed and replied: "This will reassure them. "

"But have you ever thought that your forced smile might make them more worried." Her eyes seemed to be able to contain the sea, "Besides, how do you know, it's a fake smile that they can't see."

Her gentle and sincere words seemed to have opened a small gap in the wall that had been accumulating in my heart.

Because we chatted speculatively, we chatted a lot, and found that the interests, hobbies, and views of the two were very similar. I understood that she had just graduated from a medical school in Canada, and came to this hospital for an internship. She is about the same age as her, and her master is my attending doctor, so she naturally paid attention to me.

We quickly became good friends. Her arrival also brought a little light to my boring life. She often has a lot of profound insights. When we talk, we often forget the time.

She is tolerant, tolerant, gentle, kind and talkative, and I don’t have to worry too much about getting along with her. As time goes by, I trust her more and more, and even tell her all my experiences.

She respects my choice and my persistence. She is like a relative who has no blood relationship.

Although her undergraduate major is not rehabilitation therapy, she will study some rehabilitation methods from the book, discuss with the rehabilitation therapist, and then apply them to me. Thanks to her wisdom and novel ideas, my rehabilitation Kin went well.

Fortunately, the sky paid off. In the fourth year, I was able to walk slowly alone without a walker. The doctor said it was such a miracle. I took the time between treatment and studied law and economics. course.

Finally, in the fifth year, I basically recovered all the functions of my lower limbs, and I can walk freely as before. Although there are many sequelae, such as not being able to catch cold, I need regular massage and acupuncture to prevent muscle atrophy, but no matter what, I have already Very satisfied.

Although I tried my best to carry out rehabilitation treatment, it still took five full years. The time of five years is fleeting, but the traces left by it are enough to be remembered for a lifetime.

I decided to go back to China according to my original idea. No matter what the result is, I will go back and give her an explanation. If I can, I will silently guard her side.

Before I left, I looked back at this hospital where I had been in for five full years. The blue tiles and white walls were not my destination after all. I was glad to think that I was walking on a road I hadn’t seen for a long time.

The author has something to say:

The second half is interspersed with the scene of Xiao Mu and Dr. Xu getting acquainted, which can be regarded as explaining the background of the doctor.

The doctor is a very gentle person. I like this character very much. If possible, I want to write about her destination later.

You said, is it okay to match cp with my cousin? (￣ˇ￣)

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