ma'am i want to be quiet

"I'm dizzy, Xiangcao, bring the food to the room, don't let my father see it." Feng Tiantian told Xiangcao to be careful.Feng Chengzhou indulged Feng Tiantian, but asked her to eat in the living room.The reason for this is that the maidservant Feng Tiantian assigned to Feng Tiantian by Feng Chengzhou was too strict when she was a child, Feng Tiantian didn't like her, so she didn't want to see Feng Chengzhou either.Feng Chengzhou was afraid that he would not see his daughter, so he deliberately made the request, not wanting to be followed by Feng Tiantian until now.

"Okay." Vanilla agreed quickly.But in my heart, I find it funny that the master and the lady know but don't ask the game. Didn't the master know that the lady had dinner in the room?Just because he didn't want Feng Tiantian to be unhappy, Feng Chengzhou turned a blind eye.

"Vanilla, why do I feel that our cook's skills have deteriorated?" Feng Tiantian didn't have high requirements for food, but obviously felt that the taste of this dish was not very good.

"Maybe it's because Mr. Shu's food is bought in Zuixianlou, of course the cook in the house can't compare to it." Xiang Cao looked at the food and said clearly.For Zuixianlou to become the best restaurant in Feng County, it goes without saying that the cooks are skilled, no matter how good the cooks in Fengfu are, they cannot be compared.

"It makes sense, the food in Zuixianlou is really delicious." Feng Tiantian commented honestly.

"The food in Zuixianlou is good, Mr. Shu is also generous to Miss." No matter how good Zuixianlou is, without money, you can't eat such delicious dishes.

"Xiangcao, I think Shu Fan is a nice person, why do people think so badly of him?" Feng Tiantian asked suspiciously when thinking about how Boss Zhao said Shu Fan was unlikable and how Shu Fan made fun of himself.

"Everyone doesn't like Mr. Shu's attitude towards his daughter's family. It doesn't mean that he is not a good person." As the bottom person, Vanilla is still very clear about these things.

"Besides, evaluation of reputation is all false, people are real. Vanilla has always thought that Miss is a good person, but everyone is still full of malice towards Miss." Vanilla defended Feng Tiantian.

"I think you are full of malice towards me." Obviously talking about Shu Fan, but the topic turned to himself, Feng Tiantian looked at Xiang Cao with great dissatisfaction, is there anyone who belittles his own lady like this?

"Is Vanilla sincerely apologizing for Miss?" Vanilla complained for herself.

"Okay, okay, I see." After drinking the last sip of soup, Feng Tiantian beckoned Xiang Cao to clean up the table.

"Is my father at home?" Feng Tiantian, who was more energetic after dinner, wanted to go out again.

"The master is not at home." When serving the meal just now, Xiangcao specifically inquired, Feng Chengzhou went out in the afternoon and has not come back yet.

"Then I can go out?" Feng Tiantian's expression changed.

"It's getting dark, so don't go out if it's too late. Besides, it's too cold now, so it's better not to go out at night." Vanilla said worriedly.

"Well, anyway, my head still hurts, so I'll have a good sleep." Feng Tiantian didn't force it, she was already in a very happy mood today, and it didn't matter if she went out or not.

Feng Tiantian overestimated herself, she was in a good mood, and she slept in the afternoon, so she didn't feel sleepy at the moment.After repeated attempts to no avail, she got up, wrapped in a thick coat, opened the window, and listened to the faint moonlight, the sound of the wind, and the faint voices of people outside the house.

Without counting the time, I don't know how long it has passed, Feng Tiantian heard his father's voice, listening to him asking if he was at home, asking if he had fallen asleep, and after knowing that he was asleep, Feng Chengzhou went to his bedroom.

Feng Tiantian knows that her father loves her, knows that he dotes on her, but her father can be coquettish and dependable, but he can't speak his mind.Feng Tiantian once imagined the appearance of her mother, the image of herself and her mother lying on the same bed and talking intimately, and the scene of her mother tying her hair for her when she got married.Such a picture made Feng Tiantian's eyes red, and Feng Tiantian's heart ached.

But Feng Tiantian knew that his thoughts were far less than that of his father.She had seen her father drinking alone under the moon, her father playing the flute alone, and her father who was as strong as a mountain drinking alone, crying bitterly while drinking.Feng Tiantian didn't know how gentle and beautiful his mother was, and how deeply his father and mother loved each other so that his father could live his life alone with his longing.Compared with the three wives and four concubines of those aristocratic families, the love between father and mother is so beautiful that Feng Tiantian dare not touch love.

The imagination is too beautiful, the reality is too cruel, such a gap will make people despair.The princes of the aristocratic families around him have a fake demeanor, fake smiles, and even the gentleness is not as good as their eyes.This kind of person has disappointed Feng Tiantian, not to mention the disgusting things like the eldest wife and second wife concubine.Feng Tiantian felt that he couldn't share the same man with others, and he couldn't pretend to get along with many women in harmony, not to mention that there would be such a thing as his husband going to the brothel to steal. Such a scene, Feng Tiantian Can't even imagine it, let alone endure it.

Looking at the waning moon passing through the clouds, Feng Tiantian felt inexplicably sad.In this life, can I meet someone who makes me believe in love, can I meet someone who can grow old together, can I meet someone who allows me to wait for my whole life.Is there such a person, like a father and a mother, who only loves the other person, and will live together until the end of life, even if the other party leaves first, the person who stays will be alone for the other party, can there be?

It is late autumn, and the trees on the river bank have long been withered and yellow, leaving only bare branches, and the scattered leaves stubbornly sticking to the treetops will only make people feel the coldness of the autumn wind.

After dinner, Shu Fan didn't go home, he didn't have the habit of going to bed early, he walked slowly along the river bank, the people on the street were in a hurry, either busy with making ends meet, or busy going home.The dim oil lamps on both sides of the river, at first Shu Fan thought it would be easier to blind his eyes with this thing, but now he feels very warm.That light is waiting and watching.Pedestrians are in such a hurry, isn't it because there is a light that is on for you at home?

Shu Fan listened to the slight sound of the chaimen opening, as if a saw was being pulled in the atrium.People's hearts will change.At the beginning, he insisted that as long as he was alive, as long as he lived freely, now, Shu Fan began to look forward to it.Although she doesn't want to have more involvement with this world, because Shu Fan doesn't know that this world is imagined because she is too tired, or maybe she will leave at some point.But, why, why do I still hope that someone will wait by the lamp for me, and someone will wait for me.However, with so many people coming and going, no one stayed for him, and no one greeted him for an extra second.The world is too big, why call it home?This world is nice and warm, but not enough to make her smile.

Regarding the question of dream and reality, Shu Fan has thought about it countless times, and the answer she gave herself is, no matter whether it is real or not, just live according to the way you like.Shu Fan stopped for a long time, until the autumn wind froze her legs.Bending down, kneading his numb legs, Shu Fan smiled self-deprecatingly, lack of heart.Even Zhuang Sheng's dream of a butterfly is a beautiful dream, so what more can you ask for?Walking home with stiff legs, Shu Fan smiled wryly, this was the second time she went home in such a mess today.

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