mourning dove

"Don't accompany me, I'm scared of being accompanied."

Yu Gu's words poked Chen Yu's heart a bit, and Chen Yu asked, "Are you sad?"

Yu Gu almost couldn't restrain himself from jumping up and asking what fart the other party was farting, in the end he restrained himself, replied coldly and was about to hang up the phone.

Chen Yu added in time, "Is it cold?"

Even if the other party couldn't see his movements, Yu Gu still raised his eyebrows and asked: "What?"

"...It shouldn't be easy for cats to find something to eat."

"Want me to feed the cat with you?"

The purpose was exposed directly, Chen Yu hummed a little embarrassedly, and Yu Gu couldn't help but sigh with emotion, "You really talk like a girl."

"..."

"Let's do it." Yu Gu looked at the mimosa on the window sill and said to himself, "Anyway, I'm bored."

He threw the phone casually, jumped off the bed to touch the mimosa, the leaves curled up shyly, he didn't tear them apart violently like before, but instead moved gently with teasing.

The sun was shining on his body, Yu Gu felt a little warm, squinted and opened the window to look at the sun-shrouded place outside, it was warm and cold.

His lips were chapped and turned white by the wind, Yu Gu licked his lips, thinking about the abandoned park that he went to with Chen Yu last time.

What a peaceful place.

He lowered his eyes and tore off the barb on his finger. He tore it into the flesh with too much force, oozing blood, and the flesh also hurt.He put it in his mouth and sipped it, and there was a bloody smell in his mouth, which was really uncomfortable.

He suddenly thought of Yu Zhen, the one who bent his spine and said sorry to him.

The slender and thick eyelash feathers trembled, but Yu Gu didn't feel that Yu Zhen needed to apologize to him.

Whoever tells the other party is telling the truth.

The truth is always harsh, and reality needs to be faced.

Yu Gu didn't want to hear the truth, and didn't want to face it, but he didn't want to shrink back to escape either.He was contradictory, but he didn't allow anyone to break his contradiction abruptly, and spread out the bloody everything for him to see.

He doesn't allow it.

He hit Yu Zhen with his car just because he became angry out of embarrassment, and it was just out of selfishness. Who has the right to force him to admit what he doesn't want to admit?

Yu Gu felt that after studying abroad for so many years, Yu Zhen really regarded himself as a god.He despises the other party's self-righteousness and always thinks that others are fools so he can play with it, and Yu Zhen also despises his arrogance and domineering, just a bastard without status.

These words can already stab Yu Gu without pain or itching, but he recalled the wrong taste in Yu Zhen's words.

So why did he look so ugly that day?

Yu Gu looked at the sky and squinted his eyes. In fact, what he was most afraid of was the days that would remain the same without any changes.

But the irony is that he has been living such a life, even if there is an episode, he can quickly return to the original track.

Yu Gu always felt that he hadn't been out of the house for a long time, so when he stood under the sun, he already felt in an uncomfortable trance.

The servant handed over the car keys with a low eyebrow, and when Yu Gu took the keys from his hand with slightly cold fingers, he rubbed his fingers with some nostalgia.

Yu Gu recalled the last time Chen Yu took him to the road, vaguely remembered the place names, and simply followed the navigation system to drive, and when he turned to the destination, Yu Gu knew that he had come to the right place by looking at the familiar place.

He parked the car and thought about leaving his cell phone in the car before leaving. When he got out of the car, he heard a creaking sound from the soles of his feet. The silence around him made the sound particularly obvious.

Yu Gu was startled, and when he lowered his head, he saw a pile of dead leaves under his feet. He moved his feet away, said sorry, and carefully avoided these leaves blown down by the wind.

Before Chen Yu came, Yu Gu planned to go around by himself first.

It was cold in winter, and Yu Gu didn't feel much when he was at home, but after he went outside, he realized that he didn't wear enough clothes, and complained to him that his ears were cold.

There are branches and fallen leaves along the way, and when passing a trash can, there is a dusty can next to it.

Yu Gu clicked his tongue immorally, knelt down and threw the can into the trash can, a dull thump hit his heart, it was really quiet here.

It was so quiet that Yu Gu could hear his own breathing.

There are also some physical equipment in the abandoned park, and Yu Gu is not sure why it is abandoned here, maybe there is a better place to replace it.

He felt a little cold in his palms, clasped his hands together and blew warm air, thinking why Chen Yu hadn't come yet.

He was so cold that even the sun couldn't warm him.

Yu Gu didn't bother to go back just to put on another dress. He came to the swing and looked up to see that the iron chains hanging on it had rusted and faded, revealing some rust spots.

He stretched out his hand to hold the iron chain, the cold feeling stimulated his touch, and goosebumps seemed to be rushing out because of the sudden coldness.

Yu Gu tried to shake it, and the swing started to shake, making a heavy creaking sound, hoarse and unpleasant, like someone howling.This voice was heard in an uninhabited land, and I panicked when I heard it, even Yu Gu frowned and let go, regretting that he owed it.

The consequence of owed hands is to stimulate one's eardrums.

The faded layer of iron filings on the iron chain also stuck to Yu Gu's hands, Yu Gu looked at the layer of iron filings on his hands, and then at the swing that also faded, feeling sorry.

In fact, he wanted to sit on it and play.

Yu Gu thought carefully about the number of times he sat on the swing, it seems that he only sat on the swing a few times when he was a child, and the last time was when he was thrown away again.

However, Yu Gu still loves the swing very much, and loves the things that he has never had or satisfied since he was a child.

Be it a toy or whatever.

Yu Gu cleaned up the dirt on his hands little by little, and he knew that his hands smelled of rust even without smelling them.

Yu Gu almost struggled to wipe his hands on his clothes, but finally restrained himself, he seemed to hear some voice that he didn't bother to pay attention to.

There is also a fairly clean slide for two people, Yu Gu is still childish and wants to climb up and play.Finally, he sat under the slide, looked down at the withered grass at his feet, and thought about life.

Suddenly a hat that was still warm was put on his head, warming his cold ears.

Frightened, Yu Gu looked up, and what caught his eyes was the warm smile on the corners of Chen Yu's eyes, and he swallowed back the swear words he was about to blurt out.

"...you are here," he said, "how did you come?"

Chen Yu sat on the other side of him, and explained with a good temper: "I didn't see you when I came, I only saw the car. I called you and no one answered, so I searched everywhere. I just saw you here, I'm coming."

He continued: "Aren't you cold?"

Yu Gu who asked this question wanted to have a runny nose, he said it calmly, but Chen Yu had lowered his eyebrows and held his hand, looked up at him with a frown, "You're lying."

The cold hand touched the warm touch and shrank a little uncomfortable.

Yu Gu looked at Chen Yu who could vaguely see the traces on his face when he got closer, and said slowly, "Release."

Chen Yu pursed his lips and said firmly: "No."

He held Yu Gu's hand tighter.

Yu Gu turned his head and didn't want to talk to him, the other party asked for it.

He also wanted to be a kind-hearted person reluctantly and tell the other party that his hands were dirty.Look at his deadly attitude, it's useless to say it, and you might think he's lying again.

Chen Yu warmed his hands, and didn't mind at all that Yu Gu's hands were as cold as ice cream.

Yu Gu suddenly turned his head and asked him, "What's wrong with your face?"

Chen Yu's eyes wandered for a moment, then he lowered his head and said vaguely, "I hit it."

"Slammed into the door?"

"Ah."

Yu Gu laughed, "How did you bump into it?"

"..."

"Accidentally fell while walking?"

"Correct!"

"..."

This time Yu Gu really laughed out of anger, "You raise your head up."

Chen Yu's hands warmed his palms, and Yu Gu felt that the other party's hands might also smell like rust.

Yu Gu looked at the other party calmly and said: "The one who lies is a bad boy. Remember it, this is the second time you have been a bad boy."

He suddenly withdrew his hands and got up, and as soon as he got away from the warm touch and exposed his hands to the air, Yu Gu felt that the cold became more piercing and unbearable.

this is not good.not good.

He turned his back to Chen Yu to leave, and Chen Yu asked him, "Where are you going?"

The corners of Yu Gu's eyes and brows were casual and lazy, he turned to look at Chen Yu indifferently, "Let's go."

"Let's go together."

He said, let's go together.

"...You will become a bad boy if you follow me." Yu Gu looked down at the withered grass that he had trampled on the ground, and silently said sorry in his heart.

"I won't." The young man who had always been young and gentle, smiled warmly like spring, and said very seriously and patiently: "You are not a bad child."

Yu Gu tilted his head and smiled, "But you will lie."

"That's my business." Chen Yu's eyes reflected Yu Gu clearly, "Even if I die, it's none of your business."

"..."

Chen Yu asked suddenly, "Do you like to watch fireworks?" Before Yu Gu could answer, he had already said by himself, "I really like to watch fireworks, when the epiphyllum fades away."

He asked softly, "Pretty, isn't it?"

Yu Gu silently nodded.

Chen Yu was very happy to get the response, and tried his best to enliven the atmosphere that he was not good at, saying, "A few nights ago, there seemed to be fireworks on the other side of the mountain, and they were very beautiful. I heard the sound of the fireworks and saw its appearance. I wanted to show you, but I found that the fireworks were too far away from me, so I didn't dare to show you."

"You probably don't like things that are too vague."

Some things can only be seen.

Yu Gu still nodded silently.

Chen Yu said with emotion, "The fireworks were set off twice that day. When I watched them again, I thought, if only you saw them too."

Yu Gu suddenly asked, "Is it pretty?"

Chen Yu nodded inexplicably, looked at Yu Gu and smiled and said, "That's good."

"Yeah." Chen Yu whispered, "I like you."

"Thank you."

"……I like you."

"Thank you."

Chen said depressedly: "Thanks are useless."

"Your liking is useless."

Chen Yu is a straightforward single-celled creature. He can tell at a glance that he has never liked anyone. How could he suddenly choose such an abandoned place while chatting and confessing suddenly.

Out of his mind, he suddenly said that the consequence of liking you is to be sent away. Yu Gu didn't look at his expression, swallowed with a rather dry voice, and said jokingly, "Do you know that only fools would Give what you like to those who don't care."

Chen Yu looked at him and said with emotion, "Then I'm so lucky, I happen to be that fool."

"..."

"I think so too." Yu Gu looked at him and said softly, "You are such a fool."

He didn't understand why he was so sour all of a sudden.

He turned his head and walked away, walking very fast, Chen Yu asked him, "Where are you going?"

"Hey cat."

"Let's go together."

"Ah."

Chen Yu caught up with him and walked side by side, suddenly he stepped on something, and with a creak, Chen Yu stopped.

Yu Gu took a step forward and looked back at him.

Chen Yu looked at the crushed dead leaves, moved his feet and said, "I'm sorry."

He scratched his head in embarrassment, his face turned red after looking at Yu Gu again, explaining his behavior, "I think it should hurt."

Yu Gu said, "I think so too."

They looked at each other and smiled at each other.

Waiting is torture.

Words spoken are like water poured out, it is best not to regret it, everything has a price, Yu Yuanzhen is not afraid of not being able to pay the price, but is reluctant to pay the price and lose the beauty that may exist.

So he has to be patient.

The sky in winter gets dark quickly, even if it is still early, the sky is already dark and sinking.

Yu Yuanzhen glanced at the time and then at the sky, exhaled irritably, the servant asked him what to cook tonight, he still thought about it carefully, and gave the order to the other party.

As for Yu Gu's good health and nourishment, Yu Yuanzhen has almost kept it in his mind, and he can recite it without thinking.In particular, he also knows that Yu Gu likes to eat fish, so it is also good for Yu Gu to smoke some nourishing medicine into the fish.

Yu Gu hasn't come back yet.

Yu Yuanzhen thought, fortunately, it took a little time and effort to fume the medicine into the fish, otherwise, if the other party came back so late, the dishes would be cold, and the nourishing effect would not be as good as it was at the beginning.

He talked himself into restraining himself from thinking about it.

Looking at the dark night outside, Yu Yuanzhen's mobile phone on the living room table vibrated. He glanced uninterestedly, and suddenly his pupils shrank.

The photos were passed on one after another.

He reached out to pick up the phone, and the bitterness in his eyes was gradually swallowed by gloom and terror.

It's not that he hasn't seen Yu Gu showing a patient and gentle side, it's just that he hasn't seen him like this for a long, long time, so long that Yu Yuanzhen has almost forgotten Yu Gu's original face.

There are times when his eyes are so gentle.

Yu Yuanzhen tasted a sour and unbearable taste, and no matter how angry he was, he didn't dare to smash the phone. There was Yu Gu on it, who was squatting down and feeding the cat with a smile on his side.

Does he like cats?

Yu Yuanzhen thought about it, and vaguely remembered that Yu Gu liked these animals very much, and he didn't know when it faded away, and then he completely refused to approach them.

Yu Yuanzhen looked at the other person in the photo with a moody expression. If it wasn't for Yugu, Yu Yuanzhen might have smashed his phone.

It's him again.

Yu Yuanzhen's eyes welled up.

He thought he would wait for Yu Gu until very late, but he didn't know that the other party came back early without his urging, even though it was later than usual.

Yu Gu was ready to be bombarded by phone calls, who knew that when he got in the car, there would be nothing else except Chen Yu's missed call.

Thinking of what Yu Yuanzhen said again, he lowered his eyes and pursed his lips.

When he returned home, the latter did not have the usual oppressive and frightening aura. He didn't say a word about his late return, but only smiled and said that the fish was still steaming in the pot, and he would have dinner later.

Yu Gu responded extremely uncomfortable.

Yu Yuanzhen chatted with him about other things, and when the fish was served, he helped him pick the thorns as before, but this time the other party was not happy.

"I will do it myself."

Yu Yuanzhen tried hard to suppress the increasingly uncomfortable feeling in his heart, and said softly, "What's wrong?"

Yu Gu fiddled with the rice with his chopsticks, "...I can't spit stabs anymore."

Yu Yuanzhen felt more comfortable again, and said with a smile, "Then I'll help you, peel off the thorns of a lifetime."

That's really, really scary.

A shadow passed over Yu Gu's heart.

Yu Yuanzhen said: "I'll be busy during this time, after that, we'll go where you want to play."

He thought for a while and joked: "We can go to France to feed the pigeons."

Without raising his head, Yu Gu said, "I'd rather feed the cat."

Yu Gu didn't raise his head to look at Yu Yuanzhen's dark eyes and suddenly clenched chopsticks.

Really, I can't pretend anymore.

Pretend to be a good person and give this person freedom, of course we must continue to pretend to be a bad person.

Yu Yuanzhen looked at him expressionlessly.