don't force me

Du Xuan almost shouted angrily: "Why did I fail? Did I fail in the third middle school? Did I fail in the middle school attached to Normal University? What to do? Re-study or die?"

Zhou Man was taken aback: "You What are you yelling about? "

"I've had enough!" Du Xuan stood up abruptly and roared, "I'm really fed up! Let me tell you, I will never take the central finance exam, and I will never study finance in my life. Listen Got it? I don't care what you say, what plan you have, I won't study finance anyway, I hate this major!"

Zhou Man jumped up from the sofa, without even thinking about it, she raised her hand and slapped Du Xuan on the face. She trembled all over and said, "You bastard who doesn't know what to do, am I hurting you? Ah, I Hard work..."

Du Xuan didn't care about the burning pain in his cheek, or his grievance and anger had overwhelmed all the pain. He pointed to his chest and shouted, "I'm working hard too. I've been learning English, piano and Go since kindergarten. , Calligraphy in the first grade, Mathematical Olympiad in the second grade, Taekwondo in the third grade...until now. I have fulfilled all your requirements except that I failed to enter the middle school attached to Normal University. You have counted how many awards I have won since I was a child. Do you know that I took the first grade in all subjects in junior high school? Did you praise me for the first math and physics test in the third grade of junior high school? Can’t all of these be considered success? "

"Why did I ask you to learn that?" Zhou Man's face was pale and his voice was trembling, "You know that according to your school status, you can't get into the elementary school you go to. It's all because of your piano and go skills, and the family paid another 6 yuan." You only paid for the school selection fee. Then why did I insist on letting you go to that elementary school? Because its counterpart school is No. [-] Middle School, and you only got into No. [-] Middle School based on your first grade, Mathematical Olympiad, and Cambridge English scores. Going to No. [-] Middle School and Why? Isn’t it just to get into a key university attached to the Normal University?”

Zhou Man took a few quick breaths and said hoarsely: "You just say you worked hard, have you ever calculated how much money you spent learning these things at home? Is this money easy for parents to earn?"

"But I don't want to learn."

"Is this a question you want or not?" Zhou Man said, "Go and ask, how many children are not in the remedial class now? Just say your class, are there any who are not in the class? Yes!"

Du Xuan: "No! You don't understand what I'm talking about..."

"Why don't I understand," Zhou Man sneered, "You just think I'm too much in charge, you want the so-called freedom and individuality, you want to be independent. But do you understand how cruel this society is? You are not the second generation of rich officials The second generation of the army and the second generation of the star, even if you are a second generation, I will not force you. But your parents are nothing, but you know two friends who work in the bank and want to get married during the holidays for your future employment convenience. Giving gifts in small packages makes people smile every day. Why can't you be considerate of us?"

"I can find a job by myself, and I don't believe I won't be able to support myself in the future."

"Feeding and living a good life are the same thing!" Zhou Man roared, "Look at your Aunt Song, she goes abroad at least twice a year, lives in a townhouse, buys brand-name bags and drives a Mercedes-Benz, what is she living like? Life? Huh? Isn't that all money? Let me tell you, she's in the financial industry."

"But I don't want that life."

"You don't want it because you don't know what that kind of life feels like." Zhou Man yelled, "Did you want to wear those Jordan shoes from the beginning? Didn't you want them only after some classmates wore them? ?Your current circle of friends, when you are on holiday, is like a tourism product promotion meeting, don’t you envy? Don’t tell me, ‘live your life well and don’t envy others’, that’s all self-deceiving self-consolation, hypocrisy!”

Du Xuan stared at her mother for a few seconds, then suddenly picked up the schoolbag on the ground and ran away.

"Why are you going!" Zhou Man shouted from behind, and the ending of the last word echoed in the room with the loud closing sound of the door.

She was the only one left in the whole family. Zhou Man rushed to the door to open it but stopped.She heard Du Xuan's footsteps stop quickly, heard someone talking in the corridor, and then heard the sound of a door closing on the second floor.She breathed a sigh of relief, then stood numbly for a while, staring blankly at the empty room, and suddenly collapsed on the ground and cried bitterly.

Du Xuan didn't wear a coat, and the wind in the corridor was very cold, but he didn't feel it at all, and just rushed down with his head covered.As soon as I ran to the corner of the stairs, I ran into a hug, with a familiar smell and temperature.Without even thinking about it, Du Xuan hugged Lin Tingan and began to cry.

Ma Jing came over: "You take Xiaoxuan back first."

Lin Tingan tightly hugged Du Xuan's shoulders, then walked into the room with his half-armed arms.

Lin Yi looked at Ma Jing and shook his head disapprovingly: "No, it's family business after all."

"No, I can't stand it." Ma Jing said, "I don't push the child like that. Don't say that I like Xiaoxuan very much, even if it is an ordinary neighbor, I want to persuade him. Besides, it's midnight, we Take the child home, you have to tell someone."

Ji Dong hesitated for a moment: "Okay, I've already been involved anyway, go and persuade me. But speak tactfully, don't sound like you're scolding me."

Ma Jing nodded: "I'll go up later, I guess Zhou Man is also angry at the moment."

Lin Yi went back to the house and took a coat for his wife: "It's very cold in the corridor, you should wear more."

Ma Jing put on her clothes and asked, "Where are the two children?"

"It's in Xiaoan's room," Lin Yi sighed, "I just saw Xiaoxuan's face was swollen."

"Oh, why bother." Ma Jing looked up at the closed door on the third floor and said, "Let me go and have a look."

Ma Jing knocked for a long time before the door opened.Zhou Man's eyes were red and swollen when he opened the door, but his hair was combed neatly, and he changed into out clothes.The trousers and slim shirt set off her slim figure.

"Is Xiaoxuan with you?"

Ma Jing nodded and asked again: "Why bother?"'

Zhou Man stroked his temples: "Boys should always be stricter. He will understand when he grows up. Today I will trouble you. "

The refusal in Zhou Man's words made Ma Jing helpless: "I'm not good at saying something. I understand that raising children is for their own good, but what should you do if you complain in the future?"

"There must be complaints." Zhou Man lowered his eyes and said slowly, "I admit it."

Ma Jing: "Xiao Xuan is already very good, you don't need to put so much pressure on him."

Zhou Man was silent for a long time, and said: "Xiao Ma, you don't understand. Lao Lin is a technical talent, and he is held by everyone everywhere. You never have to worry about his job and promotion. But what about Lao Du? A manager The major he studies has nothing to do with work, and he is chased by his subordinates who have graduated for only a few years with a small master's degree and a small doctorate. He has spent almost two years trying to advance to a half-level without success. Because of what? Isn't it because of education and connections? So I must not let Xiaoxuan repeat the same mistakes."

Ma Jing: "However, education is not a problem for Xiaoxuan."

"So major is very important." Zhou Man said, "He wants to study medicine, but do you know how high the time cost of studying medicine is? In this city, if you want to enter a tertiary hospital, you have to be a doctor, or you have to be a doctor." Studying abroad. From undergraduate to doctoral degree, even if you take the undergraduate and master’s degree, it takes seven years plus three years. After graduation, three years as deputy chief physician and three years as chief physician, a total of 16 years, which is still a direct promotion without delay. Well, even if you become a chief physician, so what? There are not many people who died suddenly at work or were hacked to death by patients?"

Zhou Man took a deep breath and tried to restrain himself: "I don't let him study medicine, what's wrong?"

After hearing this, Ma Jing sighed silently: "But he has to go there by himself in this life."

Zhou Man looked up at Ma Jing, shook his head and said, "You still don't understand. If one day Xiao An made a wrong decision but he told you that it was his freedom and independence, he would not regret it anyway. .At that time you will know how painful it is to watch him go astray, and you will understand my mentality."

Lin Tingan closed the door of his room, sat on the bed with Du Xuan half-embraced, holding a box of tissues and silently accompanied him.Du Xuan never knew that she could cry so much, she seemed to want to use tears to wash away the depression in her heart.After a while, he gradually calmed down, staring at the old-fashioned biplane printed on the bed sheet in a daze, feeling completely empty.

"Are you sleepy?" Lin Tingan asked, "you can sleep at my house today."

Du Xuan stared blankly at the bed sheet, his mind was turned blank by the anger just now, and he couldn't respond to what Lin Tingan said.

"I'll get you a glass of water." Lin Tingan stuffed the tissue box into Du Xuan's arms, "Sit here and wait for me to come back."

Du Xuan didn't even blink his eyes, Lin Tingan's voice was always separated from him.

Lin Tingan looked at him worriedly for a few seconds, then quickly ran to the kitchen to pour a glass of warm water, then quickly ran back to the bedroom.From the beginning to the end, Du Xuan didn't even move his fingertips.

Lin Tingan supported his shoulders, and brought the mouth of the cup to Du Xuan's mouth: "Take a sip whether you are thirsty or not, your voice is hoarse."

Du Xuan passively took a sip, and as soon as the warm water entered his throat, all his feelings returned, and he began to feel pain, tiredness, despair and powerlessness.There was also thirst, as if he had never drank a sip of water in his life, he couldn't wait to get close to the cup, and drank water in big gulps.

Lin Tingan tipped the glass carefully, and said softly, "Slow down."

It wasn't until Du Xuan drank the whole glass of water that she felt alive again, her blood began to flow again, and the pain swept over again.He looked up at Lin Tingan, his eyes were full of despair.

Lin Tingan put the cup aside and asked again: "Are you going to sleep at my house tonight?"

Du Xuan didn't say a word, he heard Lin Tingan's question, but didn't keep a single word in his mind.

"Your mother is angry, so don't go back and hit the nail. My mother has already gone up. She said she would talk to Aunt Zhou. Sometimes it is easier for adults to understand each other."

Du Xuan was stimulated by the word "Mom", her cheeks throbbed, and the chaotic fragments in her mind began to flash and reorganize.He frowned and shook his head slightly.

Lin Tingan pressed Du Xuan's shoulder: "Okay, don't shake your head. It's settled. I'll find you a pair of pajamas. You go to take a shower first and then go to bed." After speaking, he pulled Du Xuan out of the bed and forcefully put Du Xuan, who was still in a daze, pushed into the bathroom.

Du Xuan supported the sink and saw herself in the mirror. Half of her face was red and swollen, her eyes were red, and she was lifeless.He turned on the faucet, splashed a handful of cold water on his face, and felt his eyes start to hurt.

The bathroom door rang a few times, Lin Tingan opened the door and came in, put a pajamas on the washing machine: "Take a shower, and then change into these clothes."

Du Xuan looked at Lin Tingan from the mirror and said, "No need..."

With a sullen face, Lin Tingan said decisively: "It's up to me to decide whether it's up to me or not. That's it." After finishing speaking, he closed the door.

Du Xuan was stunned for 2 minutes, and then his frozen brain began to slowly dissolve and start working again. He wanted to think about what to do in the future, but as soon as his mother's face appeared, he felt a buzzing headache in his head. Cracking, distraught and wanting to scream.

Du Xuan closed her eyes, thinking desperately of Lin Ting'an, his shining eyes, and his fiery embrace.Only then did he recall Lin Tingan's uncontrollable trembling when he hugged him just now, and the unconcealable worry and panic in his eyes.

But even in such a panic, he didn't let go of his hand.

Du Xuan took off his clothes slowly, turned on the shower, and the warm water rushed over his body. Although his heart was still cold, his body warmed up anyway.

Lin Tingan has been waiting at the door of the bathroom. When Du Xuan came out, he didn't say a word, but just dragged Du Xuan to the room.Du Xuan followed along in a daze, thinking that Uncle Lin and Aunt Ma should not be at home, and felt at ease again.

Lin Tingan is afraid of the cold. Central heating hasn't started in the north yet, but the electric heater in his room has been turned on, and the room is warm.The heat warmed Du Xuan, and he finally tried to speak: "I..."

"Sleep." Interrupting Du Xuan, Lin Tingan said without doubt, "To be honest, I don't know how to comfort you, nor how to solve this problem, but I know it's useless to say anything in this situation. Go to bed first and talk about it tomorrow, okay?"

Du Xuan breathed a sigh of relief. In fact, he said that he didn't even have the energy to listen to Lin Tingan's words. He just wanted to hold this person and stay quietly.

Lin Tingan lifted the quilt and let Du Xuan lie in: "You sleep, I will accompany you." After speaking, he took off his shoes and sat on the outside leaning against the head of the bed, with one hand on Du Xuan's face.

Du Xuan turned sideways, stuffed Lin Tingan's hand into her neck, and closed her eyes.

Du Xuan thought she couldn't fall asleep, but she didn't expect that when she closed her eyes, she would faint. She didn't even know when Ma Jing and Lin Yi came back.

When Lin Tingan heard the doorbell, he tiptoedly withdrew his hand, then went out from the room and asked, "How is it?"

"What's the matter?" Ma Jing sighed, "Her deep-rooted ideas cannot be explained clearly in a few words."

"Go to bed too," Lin Yi said to his son, "We'll talk about everything tomorrow, it's almost twelve o'clock."

Lin Tingan: "Then what shall we do next?"

Lin Yi: "Let's take one step at a time. Who knows what will happen in the future. Let Xiaoxuan come back to our house after school tomorrow, and persuade him first."

Lin Tingan said unconvinced: "Why persuade Du Xuan? It's not Du Xuan's fault."

Lin Yi: "Of course Du Xuan is right, but he has to go home. The matter has to be resolved."

Ma Jing snorted: "I think Zhou Man has a psychological problem. Why is this person so paranoid?"

Lin Tingan's eyes widened all of a sudden.

The next day, Du Xuan was woken up by Lin Tingan. He didn't hear the alarm clock at all, and fell asleep as if he was in a coma.But even so, he still felt weak and dizzy.

"Are you still going to school?" Lin Tingan said worriedly, "Your face is too ugly."

Du Xuan hugged the quilt and sat on the bed in a daze for a while, then shook her head and said, "I'm going to school."

Lin Tingan stretched out his arms to hug Du Xuan, and whispered in his ear: "I can accompany you, take a day off today."

Du Xuan let go of the quilt in his arms, and hugged Lin Tingan tightly. Lin Tingan's body was very hot and his muscles were tight. Du Xuan felt a real sense of fulfillment in hugging him, and his arms were full.

"I'm going to school, I'm fine." Du Xuan said again.

"Okay." Lin Tingan let go of him and went to look through the closet, "Forget about the school uniform, can I wear long johns, and also my cotton clothes."

Du Xuan took a few pieces of clothes, and Lin Ting'an's style swept over him, all of which were unassuming colors, always showing his inexhaustible vitality.

Du Xuan was in a daze for a moment: "Last year I said you don't want to borrow my swimming trunks."

"I was embarrassed at that time," Lin Tingan threw himself on the bed, kissed Du Xuan, and said after a while, "Now you are my boyfriend."

Du Xuan reached out to touch Lin Tingan's face, and saw deep worry in Lin Tingan's eyes.

"Don't worry, I'm fine."

Lin Tingan raised his eyebrows: "Really?"

"Really." Du Xuan unbuttoned her pajamas and said while taking off her pajamas, "This is not the first time we quarreled. I have quarreled with her for several years."

Lin Ting'an pressed his hand on Du Xuan's bare chest. Du Xuan was very thin, his ribs could be touched under his thin muscle layer, and his heart was beating violently under his palm.

"Du Xuan, I want to find Teacher Yang." Lin Tingan couldn't help but leaned over and kissed Du Xuan's neck, clearly feeling Du Xuan's trembling.

"Is it useful?" Du Xuan put his arms around Lin Tingan's waist. He liked to hug him and felt full of fulfillment.

"I don't know, but he must have met a lot of parents like this, maybe he knows what to do." Lin Tingan put his forehead on Du Xuan's shoulder, his voice trembling a little, "Yesterday, I was very worried about you, For the first time, I know what it feels like to feel distressed, it really hurts."

"Okay." Du Xuan nodded, "We'll go find him after school."