don't force me

After Lin Tingan finished speaking, he realized that there was a problem with what he said, and his little thoughts were obvious.He opened his mouth to explain something, but after thinking about it, he gave up. Anyway, sooner or later, if he vented tonight, then so be it.

So he looked at his father calmly and fearlessly with the attitude of "life is precious, love is more expensive", ready to dedicate his 15-year-old life at any time. The only regret is that he didn't say goodbye to Du Xuan before he died.

Lin Yi frowned, and exchanged glances with Ma Jing, Lin Tingan's palms immediately clenched sweat.

"Xiao'an, you have to talk to Xiaoxuan," Lin Yi said, "I'll take care of the adult's affairs by myself. As long as you two study hard and have a future, we as parents will be satisfied."

The outspoken Ma Jing said: "Your father is right. Tell Xiaoxuan not to bother to find money for his father. This is not about business. What are you doing here? It hurts feelings. Besides, speaking of it, we The family should also thank him."

"Ah..." Lin Tingan opened his mouth. Although his mind was so fast and he had so many ideas, he couldn't figure out how to respond to his parents' words at this time. He felt that his parents' way of thinking was really outstanding.He paused for a moment, the mental strength to go to death just now disappeared in an instant, he felt that he should live for two more days, and he was not tired of being tired of Du Xuan yet.

Ma Jing went on to say: "Xiao An, you should also know something. Du Xuan said that he should be in the third year of high school, and he can't take care of you anymore. You have to work hard yourself."

Lin Tingan nodded: "I know, don't worry, I will work hard."

Lin Tingan said "I will" countless times in his life, but the validity period of each time does not exceed one month, so Ma Jing and Lin Yi did not expect to say that it would work once.But miraculously, Lin Tingan really changed into a different person.

The most obvious change is that he comes home late.It turned out that after training every day, it was after 09 o'clock, and it was almost 30 o'clock when I got home.But recently every Wednesday and Thursday, he would arrive home around [-]:[-], the reason is that after training, he went to the self-study room of the training department for evening self-study, and then went home with Du Xuan.

Ma Jing asked why she had to go to the training department instead of studying at home.The explanation given by Lin Tingan is that the temptation is too great to bear when you go home with a TV, computer, WIFI and a bed.So I went to the training department for an evening self-study, and I happened to be able to go home with Du Xuan who had finished mathematics and physics.

Although this reason was very upright, Ma Jing was a little worried because of Lin Tingan's bad behavior. She even called the training department to verify it.

After Lin Tingan received a call from his mother that day, he said to Du Xuan: "Go to my house first, my mother has stewed seaweed ribs soup, you drink some and then go upstairs, it will be a supper."

"It's late..." Du Xuan hesitated for a while, feeling a little inappropriate.

Lin Tingan tugged at him: "Come on, let's go, what's wrong with this? You will have to eat at my house for decades in the future."

"Huh?" Du Xuan was taken aback.

"What else?" Lin Tingan spread his hands, "Go to your house to eat? I'm afraid Aunt Zhou will beat me out, so you should stay at my house in the future. My mother cooks delicious food."

"Student Lin Ting'an," Du Xuan shook his head and said, "You really amaze me, your thinking is... too advanced."

"Where is it ahead?" Lin Tingan said unconvinced, "Sooner or later, let them get used to it."

"You never thought that what if..."

"I never thought about it." Lin Tingan interrupted Du Xuan, "What is there to think about this kind of thing? I like you, but I like you, so naturally I want to be together forever. If you don't like it now, what should you do? I still don't like you enough."

Du Xuan understood the same tongue twister, and he warmed up from the bottom of his heart.

Lin Ting'an pulled Du Xuan and said: "You used to ask me what to do in the future. In fact, I was quite scared at first, but now I want to understand."

"Understand what?"

"I understand that if I work hard now, I will be fine in the future. If I don't work hard now, there will be no future. So I like you now and stay with you well, so we can always be together in the future."

"There will be a lot of trouble."

"It's not that I'm in trouble alone. If you accompany me in trouble, I'll be more psychologically balanced." Lin Tingan waved his hand freely, "So, hurry up and go home with me to drink soup. My mother will definitely like you to go."

really.When Du Xuan and Lin Tingan returned home, they were immediately dragged into Lin's house by Ma Jing, who drank a big bowl of hot pork rib soup and felt ironed all over their bodies.

Du Xuan said: "Auntie, if I want to eat at your house for a month, I must be too fat to walk."

Ma Jing said with disdain: "You look thin, you should eat more. Boys look better when they are stronger."

Lin Ting'an said on the side: "Don't look at him as thin, he is so strong, I can't even beat him."

Du Xuan said: "But you can outrun me, and your escape speed is top-notch."

Ma Jing: "Xiaoxuan, don't be polite to Xiaoan. If he does something wrong, you can say what you have to say, and you can beat him if you want. This kid has a thick skin."

Lin Tingan put down the spoon and protested, "Mom, you told our teacher the same thing. Our teacher Xu is only in his 30s. Last time your parents told her that you should beat them just like your own children. I listen to you." It's embarrassing!"

Ma Jing glared at her son: "Then let Xiaoxuan treat you as his own younger brother, that's fine." "

Lin Tingan shook his head: "Of course not my own brother."

Du Xuan looked at Lin Tingan from the top of the bowl with crooked eyes.

"Then why can't it work?" Ma Jing said, "What a wonderful little Xuan, I'm so happy to have such a son."

Lin Ting'an let out a loud "hum", turned around and picked his chin at Du Xuan.

Du Xuan was holding a piece of pork ribs and gnawed on them, the corners of his mouth were stained with oil, and he laughed so hard that he couldn't see his teeth.

Ma Jing put another spare rib in Du Xuan's bowl, and said, "Xiao Xuan, eat more, why do I think you've lost weight again?"

Lin Tingan said: "It's tiring. He has to participate in a city-wide competition in biology during the winter vacation. During this time, the homework in the biology training class is overwhelming."

Du Xuan put down the ribs and said: "Auntie, don't listen to him, there is more homework, but it's not that exaggerated."

"Really!" Lin Tingan rushed to say, "Hey, mom, do you know that Du Xuan is in biology, tsk tsk tsk, the professor in the genetic laboratory pushes him to go to the Agricultural University every day."

"He said that to everyone, you are too exaggerated." Du Xuan felt that Lin Tingan was like a salesman.

Ma Jing exclaimed: "It's great to participate in the competition in the city."

"I'm ready to go on a three-day tour. I guess I'm not that good at biology just to take part in it," Du Xuan said.

Ma Jing shook her head: "That's not the case. Of course, there are many experts in this kind of competition. If you have to rush to win the championship, it's boring. The key is that you have to enjoy the process of the competition. Communicating and competing with people with the same interests is a thing. It’s a very happy thing, and I also have the opportunity to listen to the lectures of some top-level experts. These are very learned things, and I usually don’t have the opportunity to listen to them. And it’s a good thing to see more of the world, at least I can talk about it in the future. We're the ones who participated in the municipal competition."

Lin Tingan said proudly: "Look at me, look at me, we are the ones who participated in the municipal competition and won the prize."

Ma Jing: "Well, you're not bad, you're great. Come on, I'll reward you with another rib."

Ma Jing said: "Xiaoxuan, if you win an award, no matter how many prizes you receive, I will treat you to a big meal."

Lin Ting'an said sourly: "This kind of treatment, I only had a good meal after running for the second time."

Everyone laughed together.

After finishing the two bowls of soup, Du Xuan was about to go upstairs. Before leaving, Lin Tingan said, "By the way, I'll go up with you to get that exercise book."

Du Xuan was stunned for less than a second, and then realized in an instant: "That's fine, I'll bring it for you tomorrow."

Thinking of Zhou Man's face, Ma Jing said: "After taking it down to do your homework, don't play like crazy again."

"Don't worry." After Lin Tingan finished speaking, he followed Du Xuan out the door.

Lin Tingan carefully closed the door when he left the house, and the voice-activated lights in the corridor did not turn on.

Du Xuan sighed, and said softly: "This skill is really good, young man, you have no trace of treading snow, you have quite the talent of a gentleman in the middle of the night."

"There's so much nonsense." Lin Tingan muttered, "Why are you nervous?"

"No ah."

"Come on, I can tell at a glance whether you are nervous or not, so tell me, what's the matter?"

Du Xuan sighed: "Why are your parents so nice? They say that, and I'm ashamed to be with you."

Lin Tingan said ferociously: "What are you going to do? Start chaotically and end up abandoning?"

"Tsk, you know more and more idioms."

"Don't talk nonsense, is it too late for you to regret it now?"

Du Xuan smiled: "You misunderstood, I mean, although I'm not ashamed, I have a thick skin."

Lin Tingan rolled his eyes: "I want to hug you."

Du Xuan opened her arms: "Hug it."

Lin Tingan stepped forward, passed his hands under Du Xuan's armpit, and hugged him firmly in his arms: "But Du Xuan, I'm a little scared."

Du Xuan sighed: "What are you afraid of?"

"You have too much heart, and you think too many problems to die. I'm afraid that if you think about it by yourself, you will feel sorry for me and my parents, and then you will break up with me."

Du Xuan: "You also said that I have a heavy heart. I think you think more."

Lin Tingan: "I have something to tell me."

"Yes, yes." Du Xuan smiled and pushed Lin Tingan away, "Why are you like Mrs. Xianglin?"

"Who?"

"You will meet her in Chinese class next year." Du Xuan said, "Okay, I'm going upstairs, today is much later than usual."

Lin Tingan let go of his hand reluctantly: "What do you want to eat tomorrow morning? Shall we go have noodle tea?"

"It's up to you." Du Xuan waved his hand, "I'm leaving."

Lin Tingan watched Du Xuan go upstairs anxiously, and said after walking up three steps, "Wait a minute."

Du Xuan stopped and looked at him strangely.Lin Tingan rushed up to grab Du Xuan's schoolbag in two or three steps: "Just give me this exercise book."

Du Xuan: "I forgot."

Lin Tingan looked at the exercise book in his hand with distaste: "Next time I will use another excuse, I feel disgusted when I see the exercise book now."

"You've been learning a little bit recently, why are you suddenly excited?"

Lin Tingan shook his finger: "Xuesheng's boyfriend, even if he is not a Xueba, he can't be too far behind."

Du Xuan chuckled: "Aren't you going to leave the experimental class?"

"Tsk, the most annoying thing about you is that you have such a good memory. Why don't you study liberal arts with such a good memory?"

Du Xuan pushed him with a smile: "Okay, go back quickly, it's quite cold outside."

"Why do you keep urging me?" Lin Tingan said unhappily.

"When I went back late, my mother scolded me again. I don't want to hear her rambling."

Lin Ting'an said seriously: "Just tell Aunt Zhou that you came back late because I asked you a question. It's okay, she won't come to nagging me anyway. Besides, you did give me a lecture."

"It's none of your business."

"Did I...cause you to be talked about often?"

"Before I met you, I was often told."

Lin Tingan: "If I cause you to be accused...then bear with it, I don't want to leave you anyway."

Du Xuan laughed: "I am very happy to endure you, I am happy to see you."

Lin Tingan smiled smugly, and then said willingly: "I'm going back", and went back with an exercise book of an unknown subject.He walked the few steps back to the house so happily that he almost fell down the stairs.

Du Xuan watched him enter the house before going up half a floor and took out the key to open the door of his house.

Zhou Man sat on the sofa and made a phone call: "Work overtime, where do you work so much? Isn't that project over?"

"You work overtime for five days and three days a week and one day for dinner, are you finished?"

"How do I know who you're eating with? You won't take me there!"

"What do you mean I'm suspicious? It's because you don't come home after get off work"

……

Du Xuan whispered, "Mom, I'm back."

Zhou Man raised his eyelids to look at him, nodded casually, reprimanded Du Chengcheng a few words indiscriminately, told him to come back quickly and hung up the phone.

"Why did you come back?" Zhou Man said impatiently, "What time is it? You should have arrived home half an hour ago."

Du Xuan snorted: "I was delayed for a while after class."

"The old ones don't go home, and the young ones don't go home. Your surname Du is really hereditary."

Du Xuan couldn't help but said, "I didn't go home, so I was half an hour late."

"Why didn't you call back when you got home late? Is it just a display to give you a mobile phone? If you don't want it, hand it over."

Du Xuan knew that her mother was throwing herself out, so she wanted to bear it and let it go.

But Du Xuan's silence made Zhou Man angry: "Tell me, why did you go!"

"I went to the remedial class and talked to my classmates for a while when I came back, which was delayed. If you are worried, you can pick me up next time. It just so happens that you haven't picked me up a few times from the second year of junior high school to the second year of high school."

"How do you talk, kid? What do you mean? I can't be a mother yet..."

"Yes!" Du Xuan raised his voice and interrupted Zhou Man. He threw his schoolbag on the ground and said almost angrily, "But I want to know, are you worried about me or angry because Dad came home late?"

Zhou Man: "Of course I..."

"If it's because of me, then I apologize. Next time I will remember to call back in advance and try to get home on time. If it's because of Dad, go and tell him not to get angry at me."

Zhou Man opened his mouth, but was blocked by his son and didn't know what to say.Seeing her mother's astonished expression, Du Xuan felt a little uncomfortable again.He took a breath, remembering what Lin Tingan said, "To live well now is later." After struggling for a while, he decided to try again.So he walked over and pulled Zhou Man to sit down: "Mom, can I tell you a few words from my heart?"

Zhou Man: "Say it."

Du Xuan was silent for a while, the things he wanted to say had been accumulated in his heart for a long time, so he didn't know where to start, so he had to choose the one he felt safest and said: "The teacher in the biology training class said that I learned very well. Okay, he wants to recommend me to participate in the biochemistry competition in the city during the winter vacation."

Zhou Man said casually: "That's pretty good. This class is not in vain. If you win the prize in this competition, will you be given priority in the college entrance examination? Also, you have to take math improvement classes during the winter vacation. Remember to arrange the time yourself good."

Du Xuan closed her eyes for a moment, and told herself not to worry, but to talk to her mother carefully, the reasoning made sense.He said as calmly as possible: "We need to train before the competition, about a week and a half, and then the competition schedule is three days. It is exactly two weeks before and after, which is a bit of a conflict with the math class. But if you win the first prize, you can get Beihang Biomedical Sciences Regarding the independent enrollment quota for engineering majors, Professor Zhou said that I am quite hopeful."

Zhou Man began to shake his head when he heard it: "What is biomedical engineering? Doctors are not doctors, and biology is not biology."

"Beihang's biomedical engineering ranks second in the country."

"It's not a matter of ranking." Zhou Man took a deep breath, as if he was also enduring something, "Xiaoxuan, you have to understand, what are you going to college for? Looking for a job, right? What is the reason for looking for a job? Live a better life." Right? In today’s society, it’s most convenient to study finance and get a job, and parents still have resources in this area.”

For a moment, Du Xuan felt hopeless. Her mother was like a wall, and she would stand still even if you hit her head and bleed.He was a little irritable: "Mom, what I want to talk about is not about employment, but about my interests. I don't want to study finance, not at all. I'd rather fail the exam and retake the exam next year. I don't want to study finance. You understand Is it? I said from the very beginning that I wanted to study medicine, and biomedical engineering is very cutting-edge, it is related to the medical field, and it is very promising.”

"And then? What will you do after graduation? Do research? Sell medicine or medical equipment? Then what? In the future, you will be too busy to earn money, buy a house, and marry a wife?"

Du Xuan closed her eyes, tried hard to suppress her urge to scream, sneered and muttered self-deprecatingly: "You don't have to worry about marrying a wife."

Zhou Man: "How can we not worry? Huh? You see, our family has been living in your father's dormitory until now. How can we have the money to buy our own house? If we earn more money, we can also live in a big house. "

Du Xuan felt that her mother's way of thinking was really different. He was talking about marrying a wife, and her mother was talking about buying a house. This has been the case from the beginning until now. The family's thinking has never been on the same channel.

"This major does not sell medicine or medical equipment. It is a research direction, an emerging fringe discipline. If you don't understand, you can look it up, and don't talk nonsense."

Zhou Man's face changed suddenly: "What do you mean? Do you think I don't understand your high technology? You said that it is marginal science, marginal!"

"I don't dislike you..."

"Your father always said that I don't understand anything, why do I not understand? Just say that I am not as educated as him, and I am not illiterate, why do I not understand?"

Du Xuan sighed in despair, and finally gave up. He thought about it and went back to his room to do his homework.Before leaving, he casually asked, "Dad, is there a social event today?"

"Entertainment? Huh, who knows who he has been entertaining with. He is busy every day, and he has not seen how much money he has earned for a long time." When Zhou Man talked about her husband, she didn't get angry.

"Isn't he always so busy? You followed him around to entertain, you should know."

Zhou Man sneered: "he won't let me go now, let me watch your homework, think I can't speak, don't understand their business terms. Let me tell you Xiaoxuan, you must pass the exam University, social education is too important now. Your mother and I suffer because of insufficient education. If your father had been a part-time graduate student, he would have been promoted a long time ago. So you have to study hard. You have failed the high school entrance examination once, and you must pass the college entrance examination. "

Du Xuan clenched her fists, feeling that her heart was a wasteland, and what her mother said was like throwing a torch into it.The wildfires all over the mountains and plains blazed, burning his whole body into a rage.