don't force me

"Why should I hate you? Because of my father?" Lin Tingan said hurriedly, "No, don't worry, you are you, he is him, and I will not hate you because of him."

Du Xuan smiled wryly: "But I will hate myself. Your whole family is very kind to me. I feel very guilty about the two of us, plus my father..."

"But I know all of this," Lin Ting'an grabbed Du Xuan's hand, "Didn't we agree before that the adults should let them solve their own problems. Besides, why do you feel guilty? I am the one who chased you." your."

"It doesn't matter who chases whom, we are destined to disappoint and anger them from the beginning."

Lin Tingan lowered his face: "Du Xuan, what do you mean? Are you trying to say that it's wrong for us to be together?"

Du Xuan thought for a while: "At least it's not mainstream."

Lin Tingan said: "It's not the mainstream to like someone. People all over the world like to come and go. Why can't it work when you come to me? Why is it not mainstream for me to like you? I'm not mainstream. ?”

Lin Tingan smiled: "Yes, liking itself is mainstream."

"That's fine. I don't think there's anything wrong with me liking you. It's quite mainstream." Lin Tingan nodded vigorously, seeming to strengthen his tone of affirmation.Then he said, "As for the parents' affairs, they can always solve it themselves."

"But we can't stay out of it," Du Xuan said slowly, "we will all be involved in the end, your parents will not forgive me, my parents... I don't even know if I will have parents on that day. So Lin Tingan You see, at the end of the day we still have to deal with that."

Lin Tingan was stunned for a moment, he felt that he heard a different meaning from Du Xuan's words.Lin Tingan hurriedly said, "So what do you mean? What do you want, break up?"

From the moment he heard him say "I like you for a long time" at the door of Penumbra, Lin Tingan never thought that one day they would break up.From the very beginning, the reasons that made Du Xuan worried did not exist in his opinion.Falling in love, after all, is the two of them's own business. Who has ever seen a conversation with their parents?Furthermore, Dad clearly promised himself that he will solve those things himself, so there is no need to worry.Lin Tingan always believed that since his father said it, there would be no problem.But he doesn't think so now, and all the reasons he thought were not valid are now valid.

Du Xuan grabbed Lin Tingan's hand and said in a deep voice, "I want to tell you something."

"what?"

"My father..." Du Xuan plucked up his courage and forced himself to say clearly, "My father has set up a situation in the past six months. He promoted Uncle Lin through his relationship, which made them all the gossip in the unit. There is a deal between two people. Does that mean anything to you?"

"Jumping into the Yellow River can't wash it away." Lin Tingan's heart was cold, "I thought I couldn't win over, Uncle Du would..."

"Squeeze out?" Du Xuan chuckled, "No, ostracism is not my father's style. My father's style is to make everyone his own." Du Xuan paused, and said with a wry smile: "Except for his My own son."

Lin Ting'an stared at Du Xuan blankly. The complicated human relationship made him confused and scared him, and made him even more worried. Just like what his mother said, his father is indeed just a technical geek.

Du Xuan went on to say: "I'm hiding from you not to break up with you. In fact, the matter has come to this point. It doesn't make any sense whether I break up with you or not. I just haven't thought about how to tell you about this. I'm not afraid. If you break up with me, I'm afraid you hate me."

Lin Tingan blinked, and said hastily: "Du Xuan, don't think so, I won't hate you, really."

Du Xuan shook her head: "No, you will hate it. When you see Uncle Lin being forced into a dilemma, you will hate my father, and you will hate me as well. There is a connection between people, you My parents are very good to me, not only because of how good I am, but also because of you. When Uncle Lin and my father turn against each other one day, we will eventually be involved, and then hate each other-it will be. So, today I talk to You said this to tell you, I think..."

Lin Tingan's heart was pounding, fear and anger swept over him after the panic, he didn't dare to listen to the second half of Du Xuan's words.A voice in his head was screaming "interrupt him, interrupt him, he can't let him continue", so he stood up abruptly, interrupted Du Xuan, and growled with a smell of gunpowder: "That is to say, leave me alone Whatever you say, you don’t even believe it, so you insist that I will break up with you because of my parents, right?”

Du Xuan gritted her teeth and said with difficulty, "I'll wait for your decision."

"What do you mean waiting for me to decide?"

Du Xuan didn't speak, just looked at Lin Tingan.

Lin Tingan was furious, and he waved his hand vigorously: "I understand, what you mean is that I have the final say on our affairs, and you listen to me. If I don't break up, you can continue talking with me. If When I say break up, you pat your ass and leave without saying a word, right?"

Du Xuan: "Xiao An..."

"Don't call me 'Xiao'an', why do you call me so nasty? You usually call me 'Lin Tingan'." Lin Tingan was really anxious, he walked around the small room, and kicked a wastebasket The kick flew out, the wastebasket hit the glass door of the bookcase, made a crisp sound, and then rolled back to Lin Tingan's feet.

Lin Tingan stared at the wastebasket and said, "You said you liked me for a long time, but you never told me. If I hadn't confessed first, you wouldn't have said a word, right? Now you don't know What to do, you are afraid, and then you wait for my decision, and whatever I say is what I say. Do you think this can make you feel at ease? Are you at ease? "

Lin Tingan closed his eyes hard and forced back the tears. He didn't want to shed a tear in front of Du Xuan: "If I say break up, will you agree immediately, without any thought of redemption?"

"I actually..."

"Du Xuan," Lin Tingan kicked over again, kicking the wastebasket far away to the side, then approached Du Xuan with strides, and pressed him on the sofa.Lin Tingan leaned down, pressed his hands firmly on Du Xuan's shoulders, and stuck his thumb on his collarbone vigorously. He knew that Du Xuan would hurt, but he just wanted to make him hurt, because Du Xuan would never know what was wrong with his heart now. How painful.Lin Tingan stared into Du Xuan's eyes and said: "You never thought about it, because your father cheated on your boyfriend's father, so you should treat him twice as well, accompany him well, and like him seriously. Let him Even if he was so angry that he couldn't bear to break up with him, even if he was beaten to death by his own father, he would still stay with him in vain. Ah, aren't you a school bully? Aren't you awesome? Don't you want to take the exam? Does it matter how many times you get in the test, besides studying, can't you also be domineering when you are in love?"

Du Xuan was thrown into confusion by Lin Tingan's yelling, all the forbearance and struggle, reluctance and pain seemed to have all become a joke at this moment, and he was abandoned like a shoe.Du Xuan grabbed Lin Tingan's wrist, pulled him down forcefully, and fell into his arms, then pinched him by the neck and pushed him down to the side of the sofa: "Do you think I feel better? Do you think I can just sit and watch?" Seeing you break up with me, did you? I have secretly liked you for so long, and I haven’t been your boyfriend for a year, and I still hold my whole heart in your hands. Do you think I’m willing to break up with you? Lin Tingan Do you know who you are to me? Is it just a lover? Get the hell out, if I, Du Xuan, lack a lover, I won’t be able to find a sweet one in all three middle schools?"

"My day, Du Xuan," Lin Tingan struggled fiercely, and hurriedly grabbed Du Xuan's shoulder fiercely, "What the hell do you mean you don't regard me as a lover at all, do you?"

Du Xuan hissed in pain, but never let go of Lin Tingan's hand: "Lin Tingan, you are an idiot. Not only are you poor in Chinese, you can't understand Chinese at all. Is that what I mean?"

"Okay, Du Xuan, who is not an idiot, what do you mean? Your Chinese is good, your Chinese is good, and your expressive ability is so poor!"

Du Xuan opened his mouth, looked at Lin Tingan's flushed face and eyes full of water, and suddenly forgot what he wanted to say.Seeing that Du Xuan was not moving, Lin Tingan struggled to break away from Du Xuan's restraint, rubbed his neck and muttered: "That's what you mean."

Then, the tears that had been suppressed desperately fell down.

"Xiao An." Du Xuan came to his senses in an instant. He hurriedly grabbed two tissues from the desk and pressed them on Lin Tingan's face, "Don't cry, I really didn't mean that. Hey, listen to me."

"Say fart!" Lin Tingan grabbed a tissue and covered his face, then raised his foot and kicked in Du Xuan's direction, "Don't say it, if you want to talk about breaking up, I have to say it, it's not your turn to say it."

Lin Tingan's size 42 sole left a clear footprint on Lin Tingan's dark school uniform pants, but it didn't hurt much.

"I won't break up, I won't break up, can you stop crying?" Du Xuan hurriedly shook Lin Tingan's hand, trying to wipe his tears away, but Lin Tingan closed his eyes and kicked him again, "Say no Break up without breaking up? Do you have the final say on this matter?"

"It doesn't matter what I say, you have the final say. Don't cry first, you listen to me." Du Xuan panicked, he just couldn't see Lin Tingan crying, Lin Tingan's tears were too lethal, and he couldn't stand it at all.

"I have the final say? You mean I broke up as soon as I said, and you won't even make it up?"

Du Xuan sighed, and decided not to say that Lin Tingan's language skills were not good anymore. He actually spoke clearly when the logic was so tortuous. This is really a talent for language, and he can write argumentative essays in the future.

Lin Tingan wet a piece of paper towel from crying, twisted the paper towel into a ball and put it on the ground, then sniffled, stared at Du Xuan and said, "Who do you think I am?"

Du Xuan was stunned for a moment, and followed the conversation for a few sentences before picking up Lin Tingan's train of thought. He smiled slightly, sat next to Lin Tingan and wrapped him in his arms, and said, "You are not only my boyfriend, you It’s still my family, the psychological kind. Actually... I’m quite dependent on you, and I’m very down-to-earth when I look at you, and I feel that there are still people who really like me, the kind of liking without any additional requirements.”

"Because you depend on me, so you want to break up with me?" Lin Tingan said reluctantly, but the corners of his mouth curled up slightly.

Du Xuan was completely defeated by him: "We won't break up."

"Just don't break up?"

"Even if you say break up, I will stalk you back, okay?"

Lin Tingan sniffled, and said in a low voice after a moment of silence, "Do you think I'm a fool?"

"No 'special'."

Lin Tingan heard the meaning of the words, and gave Du Xuan a hard look, but there were still tears in his eyes, and the mist full of water made the originally fierce eyes become passionate.Du Xuan smiled, pressed her lips against Lin Tingan's eyelids, and lightly pressed the tip of her tongue, tasting the salty taste: "Even if you play around, I like it too."

"Actually, I'm not so idle." Lin Tingan said in a low voice with a red face, "Du Xuan, you can't go, you are my goal. I run sprints, go to the third middle school, and want to study hard, all because I want to catch up You, if you leave, I... I... I will have no direction."

Du Xuan hugged him tighter: "You will be under a lot of pressure."

"I know," Lin Tingan thought for a while, "Anyway, my mother is reluctant to beat me to death. She still likes you so much, so it doesn't matter."

"Not only this."

"My dad's matter, I honestly don't know what to do, but I won't break up."

"It doesn't matter." Du Xuan couldn't help but sigh again. Is this child sick from sitting down?

"In the future..." Lin Tingan said hesitantly, "I don't think so, but as long as you are here, I don't worry."

Du Xuan pushed the man away a little, looked into his eyes and said, "What if, I mean, if Auntie and the others want to take you back to your hometown?"

"I won't go back, I'll stay here."

Du Xuan shook her head: "No, you must go back with them."

"Why?" Lin Tingan narrowed his eyes, "What do you want to do?"

"You follow them back. You have to believe that as a top student, I can get into any place where you are, so we won't be separated. You don't need to get into trouble with your parents for a year or two, and there's no need to embarrass Lin. Uncle, he's hard enough."

Lin Tingan thought for a while, and reluctantly gave a "hmm".

Du Xuan wiped Lin Tingan's eyes, pulled him over and kissed him.Very gentle touch, the tip of the tongue slowly licking, tasting him inch by inch, until his mouth is full of his taste, until the taste invades his internal organs.

Du Xuan sighed, all the problems have not been resolved, and the future is still at a loss, but why can he be so at ease and at ease with this person in his arms?