don't force me

Ma Jing sat on the sofa holding her son, and said slowly: "The old people in our family are all in the south. Your father and I are only children, so it is impossible to stay away from our parents for a long time; besides, I am really not used to the climate in the north." , It’s cold in winter and hot in summer, you know, this summer, my mother suffered from heatstroke several times; Discuss with your father, or we'd better go back. Xiaoan, you are grown up, and you have a say in family affairs, what's your opinion?"

"I don't want to go." Lin Tingan replied without thinking, "I like this place, and I don't want to go back to the south."

"But, after all, our family is in the south." Ma Jing said worriedly, "Your father and I are not quite used to the life here, especially your father, as you know, your father is a technical geek, and now the head office The various relationships here... are too difficult for him."

Lin Tingan bit his lower lip tightly, and he could refute it with other reasons, but he couldn't say anything about this one. He remembered that in August, some days when his mother came back from work, she fell down in the living room and even drank two Huoxiangzhengqi water. Even if I can't get over the discomfort, I feel distressed.Indeed, for a city where 28°C is hot in summer, a sauna day of around 40°C is tantamount to torture.Furthermore, what my mother is working here is a temporary job, which is completely different from her previous job, so it is reasonable for her to find it difficult to adapt.And father... Lin Ting'an sighed, and even Du Xuan came to persuade his father not to care about Uncle Du's affairs, which showed how tightly he was pushed and how difficult it was to be in the cracks.How can a father who only knows about engines figure out the stakes in this relationship?

Lin Tingan realized a problem at this time. For a long time, he had been confined to his own small world. He was angry because of Zhou Chen's eyes, jealous because of Sun Rui's ridicule, and ecstatic about Du Xuan's smile, but he ignored it. The dearest relatives around.In my mind, I have always felt that my parents are omnipotent, there is nothing my parents can't handle, and I take it for granted that my parents live happily and fulfillingly in this unaccompanied strange city like myself.

But in fact, this is not the case.

Ma Jing looked at Lin Tingan's expression, and said tentatively, "Are you particularly unwilling to go back?"

Lin Tingan gritted his teeth and shook his head: "No."

"Tell the truth to Mom," Ma Jing said, "This is a big deal for our family. Dad and I want to hear your opinion."

"I..." Lin Tingan couldn't continue after saying a word, his heart hurt so much that he could only take a small breath, and a layer of tears rolled up from the bottom of his eyes.

Ma Jing was taken aback, and hurriedly went to the tea table to grab a tissue and covered her son's eyes: "What's wrong, what's wrong, what's wrong, mom just asked, and didn't say that she must leave, are you crying?" what."

"No." Lin Tingan took a deep breath, "It was too sudden, Mom, you didn't even give me any buffer time."

"It's just a suggestion, what buffer do you want..." Ma Jing sighed, "Forget it, don't talk about it, I understand."

Lin Tingan felt even more uncomfortable, he almost said impulsively: "Let's go back", but before the words came out, a voice echoed in his ears - I like you, I have liked you for a long time.

Lin Ting'an took her mother's hand: "Can I... can I finish my sophomore year of high school before going back?"

"Huh?" Ma Jing froze for a moment, "What do you mean?"

"If I go back to the south, I want to go back in my third year of high school."

Ma Jing frowned: "But the textbooks here are completely different from those in the south. The sooner you go back, the better. I'm afraid you won't be able to adapt to it if you go back in the third year of high school."

Lin Tingan shook his head: "It's okay, I can do it. I'll ask my friends from my hometown to ask the teacher to find out what the South's requirements for physical education students are. My sprint performance is quite good, and I can also take the physical education exam in colleges and universities when I return to the South." Students, anyway, it’s all about falling entries, it’s just the difference between falling more and falling less. I don’t think it’s a big problem for me to study science. Pretty much the same."

"Xiao An..." Ma Jing looked at her son in surprise. Although she kept saying "you have grown up", this sentence was only for Lin Tingan's age. A fool who would fight over a word from his classmates, and almost flip the table over because his parents praised Du Xuan.I never thought that he would think carefully about his own future and analyze his own strengths and weaknesses clearly. Before he knew it, this child had really grown up.

"Then why do you have to finish high school?"

Lin Tingan just said: "Let me finish the second year of high school, okay mom.".

After finishing his sophomore year of high school, Du Xuan also finished his college entrance examination. Beijing Medical University is Du Xuan's dream. Lin Tingan doesn't want any changes to affect his entry into this school.

"Xiao'an," Ma Jing intends to persuade Lin Tingan again, "you have to think clearly, if you go back a year later, you will have to study one year less. I heard that the questions in my hometown are much more difficult than here, and my mother is afraid that you will go back later. It doesn't fit."

"I can adapt." Lin Tingan said categorically, "It will be fine, Mom. If I want to go back, I will finish my sophomore year in high school before leaving."

Then, desperately, I have to take the test back.Lin Tingan thought so.

That night, Ma Jing lay on the bed and told Lin Yi about the conversation she had with Lin Tingan during the day. Lin Yi disagreed and said, "This matter is too hasty. We haven't discussed it yet. What are you telling the child?"

"I want to hear his opinion," Ma Jing sighed, "Don't you think our son has grown up?"

Ji Dong smiled subconsciously, "I also feel this way recently, he is much more stable."

Ma Jing: "I think Xiaoxuan really has a great influence on him."

"That's right, or else it's close to Zhu Zhechi."

Ma Jing asked: "Do you think our hukou can really be settled? At the beginning, it was said that it would be settled in one year, but now it has been two years."

Lin Yi: "It shouldn't be a problem. I'm introducing talents. There are policies on household registration. It's only a matter of time before we settle down. If we decide to go back, the household registration will not be a problem. We can just move back. But it's not good for Xiaoan. Seek truth from facts. Said, the difficulty of the college entrance examination here is far lower than our hometown."

"Is it much worse?" Ma Jing asked worriedly.

"A lot. I asked some friends, and they also gave the college entrance examination papers here to the children in their hometown. It is generally reported that the difficulty here is low, and the rate of admission here is much higher than that in my hometown." Lin Yi looked at Ma Jing. At a glance, "Actually, I've wanted to go back a long time ago. The head office is really messed up. I'm in my hometown, and I'm a technology research and development worker. Although I don't make a lot of money, I feel at ease, but here... every day I just analyze who Anyone who belongs to the same faction can die from exhaustion. But when I think about the future of my children, and when I think about the same effort, I can only read three books in my hometown, and I can take a heavy exam here. Grit your teeth and hold on."

Ma Jing leaned on her husband's shoulder and whispered: "I just love you. You have always been a technical idiot. You can't handle the intrigue in interpersonal relationships. This is too difficult for you."

"It's okay," Lin Yi patted his wife's hand, "We'll talk about it if it's too bad, I mean wait until Xiaoan finishes her college entrance examination."

Ma Jing held Ji Dong's hand instead: "The matter of Du Jiancheng..."

"I will try my best to avoid him." Lin Yi held his wife's hand and kissed it. "When I look at Du Xuan sometimes, I always think it's a miracle that the couple can raise such a son."

"Tsk, a pretty good kid..."

"What's rare is that he is very sensible. Look at the words he said to me at the beginning of the year. It doesn't sound like a 15-year-old child."

Ma Jing: "It's not a good thing to be so precocious, it's all a family problem. Look at our silly son, he's childish."

Ji Dong smiled involuntarily: "Are you naive? Not necessarily. You said, Xiaoan doesn't want to go back, why?"

Ma Jing turned over and sat up: "I also want to tell you about this. I can understand that Xiao An is unwilling to go back after adapting to life here, but his reaction is too big. I haven't said anything to him yet." I just cried. Think about it, when he was in the second and third grades of junior high school, I didn’t see him cry before when I beat him like this, so I said, ‘Go back to my hometown’, and tears came down.”

Lin Yi asked with great interest, "Isn't it? When we moved here, we never saw him so hard to part with. He lived in his hometown for more than ten years, and he was very happy when he left."

"Isn't it strange?" Ma Jing raised her eyebrows, "Tell me why."

"how could I know."

"They're all men, so why don't you know that?" Ma Jing couldn't help showing a smile, "Guess?"

"Look at you..." Lin Yi said helplessly, "Do you still look like a mother? Everyone is worried about this, why are you so happy?"

"Huh, it's really hypocritical." Ma Jing sneered, "I don't know who it is. When I took the Chinese language test in the second grade of junior high school, they wrote me love poems on the back of the paper. There were more wrong words than correct ones. This must be heredity. Position inheritance."

Lin Yi sighed: "Xiao Jing..."

"What?"

"Forget it, you have time to talk to your son. If it's true, he's in deep enough, so don't make any trouble."

Ma Jing nodded: "I have a measure of this, I will implement it first."

"How to implement it?"

"I'll go to the school and ask their junior high school head teacher. If the head teacher doesn't know, then I'll ask Du Xuan. Du Xuan will definitely know."

"Why is it from junior high school? What if we talked about it in high school?"

Ma Jing rolled her eyes: "He's only been in high school for less than two months, so it's good if he can remember the names of all the girls in the class."

A few days later, Lin Tingan randomly put together a speech and handed it in. Because of his mother's words "go back to his hometown", he lost interest in everything at once. In such a big campus, he would subconsciously think of "farewell" when he saw everything. :

The runway that is always complained about its poor elasticity is so beautiful.

The canteen meals that I despise every day are also very tasty.

The Chinese class, which is sleepy every time, is also much more vivid.

Zhou Chen, who is not pleasing to the eye anyway, seems to have become handsome.

And... Du Xuan.

Lin Tingan would subconsciously avoid Du Xuan, and he couldn't help being sad when he saw Du Xuan, he was afraid that he could not pretend well.Du Xuan is too sensitive and can grasp every emotional change. Lin Tingan is not sure that he can act as if nothing happened in front of Du Xuan. He can only wait for his emotions to calm down before facing him.

Just in this waiting, midterm exam week is getting closer.

To be honest, there is no pressure on Lin Tingan for this mid-term exam. As the student with the lowest score in the experimental class, Lin Tingan's goal is to win if he is not in the bottom [-] of his grade. If he can get out of the last exam room , then Daqing can be celebrated.One week before the exam, Lin Tingan received a WeChat message from Du Xuan:

Study hard and do well in the first exam.

Lin Tingan looked at the line and felt a little strange. He swiped the screen, and the previous communication was three days ago.Lin Tingan stared at the screen in a daze. They hadn't contacted each other for three consecutive days.Lin Tingan suddenly realized that while he was avoiding Du Xuan, Du Xuan didn't seem to take the initiative to find him.Lin Tingan flicked the screen slowly, scrolling through the conversation between the two people screen by screen.Most of them are small talk, with no real content but intimacy. Mixed in these small talk are words such as "I miss you" and "Come and let me kiss", which make people blush and heartbeat.

Lin Tingan called up the input method and wanted to reply to Du Xuan. He wanted to say a lot, he wanted to say "I really like you", he wanted to say "I don't want to leave you", he wanted to say "Du Xuan, if you promise, you will always like me Do you still remember?", and even wanted to ask "Du Xuan, what should we do in the future", but he dared not say these things, he was in a mess, and it was the first time he deeply realized that Du Xuan asked "Have you thought about the future?" the true meaning of the sentence.

The world is full of variables, and it’s not something that I think I can control. The so-called “deposit” in the drawer is a joke for the word “later”, and the “simple” that I humbly say is indeed “ It’s too simple”, it’s probably accurate to say that it’s naive.He only thought about the difficulty of coming out, but he didn't think that he might not even have the chance to come out.Before coming out of the closet, there is still parting, and there is also the "unknown" that makes people flustered when they think about it.

Lin Tingan was suddenly stunned as to what was going to happen in the future. He sat blankly for a long while before replying to Du Xuan: You also work hard, Grand Slam.Then he locked the phone screen, sat at the desk and spread out a Chinese book, forcing himself to stare at "Hongmen Banquet". Only in this way can Du Xuan be squeezed out of his mind.