fast food love

If this happened today, I would easily forgive myself—well, I was young and impulsive and ignorant, and I never tasted the taste of passion (desire).Just be an extra gun (friend), and maybe we can get together again when we find opportunities in the future.

But at that time, I was only 19 years old, neither willing to forgive myself, nor could I extricate myself.I was tightly bound by Gu Jia's love.

I once asked him about his girlfriend, and Gu Jia replied that they were over, and the last time we met was to talk about breaking up.A big stone fell to my heart, although I don't know if their breakup has anything to do with me.

He took care of me like a real girlfriend, with sweet talk, affection and caress, and he never wanted to be separated from me for a moment.I have grown up so much, I have never had a serious relationship with anyone, and my heart was completely captured by him.

Gradually, everyone around us felt something was wrong.The two of us are much better than the proper distance between friends, we are tired of being together all day long, and we behave with the intimacy and attachment unique to lovers.

Liu Yichuan was the first person to ask me what happened. He was my classmate for three years in high school, and his relationship is much closer than others.I didn't want to hide it from him, but I didn't dare to tell him the truth, for fear of frightening him.

"Are you and Gu Jia in a relationship?" Liu Yichuan always spoke quickly.

I hesitated, not knowing how to speak.

"It doesn't matter if you don't want to say it, anyway, this is your private matter." Liu Yichuan said very reasonably, "I just want to remind you, be careful not to suffer losses."

I actually want to ask him why he thinks I will suffer.But I quickly came up with the answer, because in this special relationship, Gu Jia will always be the one standing on top, he can choose to love me or leave me, anytime, anywhere, I can only accept it, there is no other options.

But even so, even if my mind is clear, it's too late to say anything, and I can't do without him.

Gu Jia proposed to rent a house with me outside, I thought it would be fine, there are already enough rumors in the school, I am really afraid that one day it will reach his father's ears.Living outside might be a temporary cover-up, and I'm tired of being burglar-like every time I go to his dorm.

With my approval, Gu Jia quickly found a small house not far from the school.The place is not big, but it is clean and equipped with everything, I am very satisfied.

For the first time, we disagreed about the rent.Gu Jia insisted that he was my boyfriend and he should pay the money alone.I choked on him, am I not your boyfriend?

In the end, we finally reached an agreement that he would pay the rent, and I would be responsible for the utility bills and the Internet.At this point, our new cohabitation life has finally begun.

To tell the truth, the living expenses of two young students are just that little.Although Gu Jia's family background is superior, the discipline of his parents is still very strict, and the monthly pocket money is strictly controlled, but now it is used to pay the rent.My family background is mediocre, and my mother will secretly give me another hundred yuan every month behind my father's back, but it is not enough for now.

I started working part-time from time to time, helping middle school students make up lessons and doing private education outside. Of course, I kept this from Gu Jia, and I didn't want him to have a psychological burden.Sometimes when I came home late, I used various reasons to prevaricate it. Although Gu Jia suspected it, there was no evidence.

Apart from the challenges in reality, such a life is really sweet.

As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw the person I was thinking about lying beside me.When you are happy, go up and kiss him, or rub the rough skin on his back, and linger on the temperature of your fingertips.At night, the two cuddled together affectionately to read, and when they came across something they didn't understand, there was a free Xueba to guide and teach.Even if you cook a simple dinner, you can eat it like honey.

But as the old saying goes, beauty is meant to be destroyed (who said that?).

After New Year's Day, I finally decided to start cleaning.It's not that I'm lazy. I usually have to go to class, work part-time, and meet someone's needs from time to time at night. I really have neither energy nor time.

I put away Gu Jia's scattered books on the desk one by one, and suddenly, a GRE test preparation guide appeared in front of me inadvertently.My heart skipped a beat, as if a hidden switch had been turned on, and I was depressed and distracted for the rest of the day.

Gu Jia came home at night and found that I was not in the right mood, so he insisted on stalking and questioning me, so I told the truth.

"Are you going to go abroad?"

Gu Jia was taken aback for a moment, maybe she didn't expect me to ask such a question.He thought for a while and said, "I have considerations about this... Chen Li, do you want to prepare with me? Let's go together."

I had a sore nose, "You have thought about everything, why didn't you tell me?"

"Chen Li, you also know my parents...what can I do if I don't go abroad?" Gu Jia apologized sincerely, "I'm sorry, I should discuss it with you in advance, I was thinking, there is no exam yet."

"You want to tell me after the exam, right?" I replied stiffly, "With you, Gu Jia, can you still fail the exam? After you get the admission letter, let's just break up, right?"

"Chen Li!" He was also anxious, "That's not what I meant, I never thought of breaking up with you..."

"So what if we don't separate by then?" My eyes were red, "Gu Jia, I can't keep you if you want to go abroad, and I don't have the skills. But if I knew today, why did you come to provoke me in the first place? "

I dropped the chopsticks in my hand, stood up and was about to go out.Gu Jia stood up and hugged me from behind.

"Chen Li, calm down and listen to me... Our relationship won't work here, not to mention outsiders, even our relatives can't tolerate us... There is only one way, go abroad!" He died He grabbed me tightly, "Listen to me...not only me, you have to go too! Let's leave here, we will be free when we go abroad, and no one can control us...Chen Li, prepare for the exam with me .”

I gradually calmed down, but my mind was still blank.After a long time, I finally said, "Gu Jia, I'm different from you. I'm only a sophomore, and my English is only so-so. How can I get a scholarship?"

Gu Jia pulled me back and turned around, "Then you should study hard from now on. I'll help you."

I was deeply skeptical of his words, but was still seduced by the bright prospects he painted.To be honest, I don't care where I go. At the age of 19, even if I go to Africa, even if I am hungry and cold, as long as I can be with him, as long as I have love, everything seems to be worth fighting for.

Gu Jia helped the two of us sign up, and the exam was scheduled for two months later, saying that this would make our studies more motivated.I began to study English crazily, setting myself a vocabulary to recite every day, and walking with earphones on.All TV news or newspapers related to Chinese have been banned in my house.I was immersed in the ocean of English, and gradually came some feelings.

Gu Jia saw my efforts and felt very happy.He took the initiative to take over all the housework, and accompanied me to get up early and go to bed late.I am very grateful for his help, you know, he is also preparing for the exam himself.

One day in April, I walked into the exam room with a chocolate bar and coffee in my arms.After the exam, I feel pretty good about myself, thinking that maybe my dream will come true!

On the computer screen, the score came out quickly, 1980 points—very good, not even 2000 points.

Walking out of the examination room, Gu Jia's phone call came like a shadow. "How is it? I got 2350, how about you?"

Very high score...

He could hear the unconcealable joy in his tone.I'm interested, what are the only 5 questions he got wrong?To know those mock exam papers, Gu Jia has always scored a perfect score of 2400...

"Chen Li, why don't you speak? How many exams have you taken?" He asked anxiously.

I wanted to find a tall building nearby and jump off it, "Gu Jia, I failed the exam..."

"Oh..." (He has reason to be disappointed.) "How much is that?"

"1980." I smiled wryly, "Sorry, I'm afraid I can't accompany you to America."

"It's okay, let's keep working hard." He still tried his best to encourage me, "Many people fail the exam the first time, and only succeed in the second."

"Thank you." I hung up the phone and put the phone on silent.I don't want to say another word, even with Gu Jia.