not lonely

Each with a can of beer, the two sat on the carpet in the living room, talking without saying a word.

"Xiao Yi... Have you ever been broken in love?" Shen Lu asked him, looking sideways at him.

Zhong Qianyi thought of the things before she was with Du Mingcan, the memories that were so painful at first, but now, she can recall them without the slightest emotion.

"Of course..." He nodded, turned his head and glanced at Shen Lu, "It's still my first love...a person I've had a crush on for a long time...been sentenced to death before I could say it..."

"Then...were you in pain like me at that time?" His voice was trembling, and he even put down the beer can directly, and turned to face Zhong Qianyi.

"Shen Lu..." Zhong Qianyi also put down his drink, "I don't know what happened between you and Song Haichuan. But you have to believe that there are no hurdles that you can't get over. Reason and sobriety are always the solution. The quickest way to solve the problem. You are too excited today, what you can do is either cry or get drunk, then have a good sleep, rest, and wait until your body is comfortable and your mind is clear, and then think about the two of you Problem. If you really can’t let go, fight for it, and if you can’t fight it, let it go.”

Shen Lu did not refute his guess that the protagonist was wrong at all, and continued to ask him: "What about you at that time? It was the same, comfort yourself?"

"I'm different from you..." Zhong Qianyi took a sip from the wine glass, smiled faintly, her eyes looked more ethereal and clear in the living room where only one floor lamp was turned on: "The person I love is In my life, it's an instinct, it has nothing to do with love, it's more like a kind of...worship? Haha..."

Zhong Qianyi laughed, and then said: "So his happiness is the greatest gift to me. Even if it is painful, I will be happy."

"You...haven't thought about...being with him?"

"He... doesn't like me..." Zhong Qianyi shook his head, "I don't want to embarrass him..."

"Hehe...Are you stupid, or am I stupid?" Shen Lu smiled wryly and shook his head.

"what?"

Shen Lu was a little excited, the tears that had just disappeared seemed to rise again, he got up and pinched Zhong Qianyi's shoulders with both hands, "How do you know...how do you know that person doesn't like you...if...if that person also... "

like you…

The person you like also likes you, Zhong Qianyi, you fool...

What was about to be said was interrupted by the shrill ringing of the phone in this quiet midnight.

He quickly picked up Zhong Qianyi's cell phone and Du Mingcan's call. Because of the sudden interruption, he didn't listen to what Shen Lu said.

"Hey, Mingcan..."

"Why are you awake at this hour?"

"Ah, there is something urgent for my friend. I left you a WeChat message, but you may not have seen it..."

"It's okay, you go to bed quickly, you have to go to work tomorrow..."

"Don't worry, it's fine..."

After hanging up the phone, the sweetness was still on his face. Seeing Zhong Qianyi like this, Shen Lu really didn't have the courage to say what was interrupted.

"Go back, don't worry Du Mingcan, I'm leaving too..." Shen Lu stood up staggeringly, his night blindness prevented him from seeing the stool by the table, he tripped before taking two steps, and hit the table with his calf horn.

"Shen Lu... are you okay?" Zhong Qianyi hurriedly got up to help him.

"Zhong Qianyi, don't fucking touch me!!!" Shen Lu erupted suddenly, and Zhong Qianyi was so frightened that Zhong Qianyi stood still and didn't dare to move, "I hate your face so much, don't Pretend to care about me, okay? You can't save me...you can't..."

Zhong Qianyi was frightened by his appearance, but she was not annoyed. She only thought that this was Shen Lu's venting after suppressing it for a long time, so she stood quietly not far from him, letting him vent helplessly, and accompanied him. him all night.

When the sky was approaching dawn, it was the coldest, darkest, and most vulnerable time of the day. Shen Lu slept quietly leaning against the sofa and clothes, whimpering once or twice in his sleep.Zhong Qianyi looked at Shen Lu's sleeping face and stayed up all night.

At dawn, he stood up and opened the curtains. The first ray of dawn came in through the window, and every dark corner in the room was about to be illuminated by light. Can the pain disappear with the darkness? No deposit?