add to the chaos

Qiu Cen has been going to school for the past few days, going home after a day of class every day, and going to school the next day.

Fortunately, their major classes this semester are all after nine o'clock, so he can still sleep in, have breakfast at home, and then return to school leisurely.

It's convenient to go out to the subway and go directly to the university town.

Queen Song finally returned to the days when she made breakfast for Qiu Cen every day. She woke up early every day with an egg, a cup of milk and some steamed buns and pancakes.

The days went on like this, but Qiu Cen always had thoughts in his heart.

Another day of class was over, Qiu Cen went back to the dormitory to get some things, said goodbye to Lin Jian and the others, and left under the curious eyes of the three who had passed for a long time.

Qiu Cen knew that they were curious about why he left school suddenly.

But he didn't say anything, and he was calm on the surface. They just pretended that there was nothing serious and didn't ask any more questions.

Except for Lin Jian who looked at him thoughtfully from time to time.

As for why he went to day school, there is actually no other reason.

It's nothing more than the duplicity of Li Xiaogou.

——Since he has feelings for him, he is willing to give it a try.

So I simply started to go to school, living in the same community and building, there is always a chance of meeting each other.

It's better than staying in Xiangda and not seeing each other all day.

As for why he didn't go directly to Li Tian to solve the problem.

It's because - he didn't give him this chance at all!

Qiu Cen took a step forward, and Li Tian took ten steps back.

Qiu Cen came out of the subway station, facing the chilly wind, he couldn't help shivering.

The weather forecast said that a strong cold air mass has come recently and it will snow soon.

He gathered the neckline of his coat and tightened the scarf again before he buried his face in it and entered the community.

While standing on the first floor waiting for the elevator, the unit door behind him clicked.

As if telepathically, the person with his back turned around, and the person with his hand on the doorknob looked up.

——The opportunity has come.

Qiu Cen was stamping his feet on the spot, but now he also stopped.

Looking at Li Tian from a distance, he found that the expression on the man's face was dark and uncertain.

For a moment, both of them stopped moving, and stood there staring at each other.

It's like two actors who suddenly forgot their words when they went on stage.

Looking at this person, Qiu Cen felt a little sore in his heart.

Compared with the last meeting, Li Tian lost weight again.

Obviously winter clothes look bloated on everyone, but he is also wearing a short black cotton jacket, but his whole body looks thin and thin.The chin was pointed at the neckline, and the flesh on the cheeks seemed to have been cut off, faintly sunken, showing a dark shadow.Those eyebrows, those eyes looked gloomy a lot.

Although Li Tian had an indifferent expression in the past, and had dark eyebrows from time to time, he never gave him such a feeling.

For example, a cancer patient who has experienced something so bleak and desperate, or received a critical illness notice, no longer has any expectations for the whole life.

how so.he asked himself.

How can a person change so much in such a short period of time?

Qiu Cen thought silently.

Little did they know, while he was looking at Li Tian, ​​Li Tian was also looking at him.

There is a corridor, the distance from the door to the elevator.

In fact, it was only seven or eight steps, but it seemed so far away.

If there were outsiders there, they would definitely be able to see the soft light shining on the body of the person at the elevator entrance, while the deadly grayness lingered around him.

This man... is still the same.

He seems to be very afraid of the cold. When I saw him last winter, he was dressed layer after layer. Outsiders couldn't see the figure he should have at all.

Camel windbreaker, scarf, a pair of cotton shoes.

It looks very warm.

"You..." Qiu Cen was the last one to speak.

Before he had time to say anything, he saw that person seemed to be surprised by him, and suddenly glanced away, pretending that he didn't know him, and walked over.

Qiu Cen just looked at him like this, and approached him step by step.

The eyes slowly opened wide, and joy gradually rushed into them.

The moment Li Tian passed by, the light in his eyes suddenly went out.

--Fake.

The elevator has been opened and closed in the silence between the two of them just now.

The two entered the elevator one after the other. Qiu Cen stood behind Li Tian, ​​saw Li Tian pressed 7, waited for a while, saw that he was no longer moving, then stepped forward silently, and pressed 6.

Feeling very down.

From the beginning to the end, Li Tian didn't say a word.

It's like being a stranger.

The elevator "ding" and stopped on the 6th floor.

The door opened slowly, but Qiu Cen didn't want to go out.

Li Tian stood straight in the elevator, Qiu Cen couldn't see his expression clearly.

The door closed again, and on the 7th floor, it opened again.

Li Tian walked out steadily and walked towards his door.

Qiu Cen poked his head and looked at him until the elevator door closed again.

He took a deep breath, suppressed the astringency in his heart, and raised his hand to press the floor.

"Boom!"

Suddenly, a strange muffled sound came from outside the elevator.

"!"

Qiu Cen's hand trembled suddenly, he didn't know why, his heart was shocked for no reason, and he hurriedly opened the door.

It's a pity that in the panic, I finally pressed 6, and the elevator slowly descended.

Helplessly, Qiu Cen stood nervously in the elevator, very anxious in his heart, and shouted: "Li Tian!? What's wrong with you!?"

It was quiet outside.

"Li Tian?!"

- Something is wrong!

Not right!Not right!Not right!

Somehow, something was telling him so.

Eagerness, fear, and anxiety all poured into his body at once, as if trying to break his whole body.

When the elevator reached the sixth floor, Qiu Cen didn't even have time to press the elevator again, so he jumped out and ran to the stairs, taking three steps at a time, climbing up hastily.

"Li Tian! Here I come!"

"Li Tian!"

In the empty stairwell, only my own voice kept wandering.

The fear in my heart gradually expanded.

Obviously there were only two flights of stairs, but there seemed to be something in his heart that couldn't be suppressed, and it rushed out, his legs were trembling, he was panting heavily, and his voice was even a little choked.

Three steps, two steps, one step...

At the end, look to the right.

"Li..." As if time stood still, Qiu Cen froze in place.

The key was dropped by the door, and his master was leaning against the corner with his head in his hands, trembling violently.

Like a wounded cub, it curled up hard, waiting for someone to come to rescue it.

What's wrong? !What's wrong? !What happened to Li Tian? !

Qiu Cen's eyes turned red all of a sudden, and he stretched out his hands tremblingly, wanting to touch him, but stopped abruptly, not knowing where to start.

If you touch it randomly, will it hurt him?

He slowly stepped forward, squatted down slowly, and approached the trembling man cautiously.

It's like treating some treasure, for fear of breaking it if it doesn't fit.

"Li Tian..." Qiu Cen lowered his voice, and hesitantly landed his hand on the man's shoulder.

The person who was curled up suddenly froze, and suddenly raised his head.

"..."

The face that should have been plain and smooth was terribly red at this time, the delicate features were also hideous together, there were fierce wrinkles between the brows, and the sharp teeth were biting the white lips tightly.

As if his master was in terrible pain.

The person in pain seemed to see him clearly, shook his head hastily, and wanted to say something, but his mouth couldn't be controlled, he could only make a faint hum.

Qiu Cen only thought that he was suffering, seeing that he didn't push him away, he endured the deep uneasiness in his heart, opened his hands, and hugged him.

He comforted in a low voice: "It's okay, I'm Qiu Cen, I'm here, I'm here. Don't be afraid..."

He kept repeating in his ear, as if trying to hypnotize him.

In the quiet corridor, only Li Tian's panting and his murmurs remained for a while.

The gasps and breaths hit Qiu Cen's body.

He could hardly control his thoughts, and he drifted to various places in a hurry, but he couldn't fully return to his mind, allowing him to think about the situation at this time.

——So, is this Li Tian's secret?

In a daze, he thought so.

After an unknown period of time, the person in his arms gradually stopped shaking, and his body temperature seemed to drop.

Qiu Cen raised his hand and slowly wiped off the sweat on the back of his neck with gentle movements.

Neither of them spoke.

When Li Tian's breathing calmed down, he struggled and raised his hand to push Qiu Cen away.

His mind was in a state of confusion, but there was only one sentence that was exceptionally clear.

- It's over.

"Don't move," Qiu Cen said in a low voice, with no emotion in his tone: "Hug me again."

"...It's cold on the ground." After a long time, Li Tian said in a hoarse voice.

His mouth was dry, and his throat had a faint taste of rust.Like the physical condition after a long-distance run.

exhausted.

He knew that Qiu Cen often went home recently, and he was afraid of running into him, so he didn't want to go back to that empty home, so he stayed on the 8th for a few days.

I suffered from insomnia again yesterday, almost opened my eyes until dawn, and went home with my exhausted body on a whim, but the sky failed, and I happened to bump into him.

I thought I could end this peacefully, but after getting out of the elevator, there was a sudden familiar whirlwind, and I slammed my head against the wall.

In a trance, he saw the person who was supposed to leave rushing in front of him.

When I came back to my senses, I was in that person's arms.

He hadn't been like this for a long time.

I've probably been too tired recently.

At this moment, Qiu Cen, who was hugging him, couldn't think of so much, and only followed Li Tian's words: "Then let me hug him after entering the house."

This toss, both of them were exhausted.

Naturally, Li Tian didn't have the strength to deal with him, so he just said "nonsense and stalking", and pushed him with his hands.

Qiu Cen was afraid that he would be uncomfortable, so naturally he didn't dare to make any movements, so he let him go hastily, stood up and helped him up.

He didn't ask about Li Tian's secrets, and Li Tian didn't need to hide it from him anymore.

Unexpectedly, when the two entered the room, Li Tian's face no longer showed the fragility just now, but turned cold.

Qiu Cen shook his head, thinking that the two had reconciled, he jokingly said: "Sure enough, you won't be allowed to hug you once you enter the house."

"Are you a child?"

"Alright," Qiu Cen nodded grimly, "I'm a child, you're a puppy, we should stay with each other."

Li Tian looked into his bright eyes, and his heart skipped a beat.

A small cusp emerged from the emotion that he had suppressed tightly.

His face became even colder.

"You go."

"Wow." Qiu Cen stared at him with wide eyes, as if he had been wronged a lot, and said inexplicably, "Do you want to drive me away when I run out?"

What he was thinking in his heart was, how could he give up so easily after he managed to pry a small corner of the dusty Li Tian.

ridiculous.

"..." Li Tian secretly clenched his fists.

He took a deep breath: "Are you going to drag me into the water too?"

"..."

Qiu Cen, who was joking on the surface, froze for a moment, feeling a dull pain in his heart for no reason.

That sentence came to mind again.

——I'm not gay, don't let me be.

Heck.

He struggled to suppress a wave of discomfort, and when he spoke again, he said something meaningful: "Aren't you in the water, Li Tian."

Qiu Cen stared closely at Li Tian's eyes, as if he didn't want to let go of any movement of him, and wanted to catch a meaning different from the expression on this man's face from those beautiful eyes.

Li Tian turned his eyes away, and after a while, his tone was exhausted:

"I'm tired, don't pester me anymore."

Don't add to the mess.

I'm already deep in the quagmire, much more dangerous than your water, how could it be possible for you to accompany me.

a long time.

"The wound on the head, deal with it."

When Qiu Cen brushed past him, he only left this sentence.

The author has something to say: probably less than half of it will be over.

Continue tomorrow.