NPC opens eyes to see the world No.1

Li Bai felt a long-lost shock.

Just like what she said to Yang Jia, in fact, her own emotions rarely fluctuate.So sometimes, she really feels that she is not a human being, just living in a human shell, or as some people say, a humanoid weapon.

She is always separated from everyone, and this feeling makes her lonely.

Loneliness is a very delicate state that is very different from loneliness.Loneliness is a feedback to the outside world, while loneliness is an inspection of the heart.So lonely people need company and want to change, but lonely people don't.People in loneliness often enjoy loneliness. What they need is not a companion, but a confidant.

Yang Jia is such a confidant.

This summary perfectly fits Li Bai's heart, making her subconsciously on guard.But because the person who said these words was Yang Jia, it seemed natural.

Others don't understand, of course Yang Jia understands, because the predicament of the two of them is so similar.At that moment, Li Bai even felt a kind of joy of "finding the same kind", although it is shallow, but it is there.

"However," at this moment, Yang Jia said again, "I don't think you can feel emotions at all, right?"

Seeing that Li Bai didn't object, she immediately cheered up, "Have you ever been in contact with children? Probably not, right? In infancy, these children actually didn't have any emotions such as joy, anger, sorrow, joy, etc., only instinct. Eat and sleep, sleep and eat." , crying when hungry. All other things that belong to "human beings" are actually learned little by little in the contact and interaction with other people. For them, it was just a simulation and imitation at first."

Li Bai turned his head to look at Yang Jia.

She felt that she had already guessed what Yang Jia was going to say, but she was not so sure.

"Don't look at me that way." Yang Jia laughed, "You grew up in a different environment than others, and you haven't learned anything about it before, so of course your reactions are very weak. In other words, although you look like an adult But in this respect, they are still in their infancy, as long as they continue to learn, they will soon be like normal people."

After she finished speaking, she looked at Li Bai sincerely.Li Bai also looked at her with no expression on his face.

"You're angry." After a while, Yang Jia said.

Li Bai frowned slightly, somewhat puzzled.Is this feeling anger?

She just thought Yang Jia's statement was unbelievable, because to Li Bai, everyone around him seemed to be born with these things. ——Of course, the people she came into contact with were all healthy adults, so it wouldn't be surprising.

In Li Bai's impression, children are small and soft, very weak, without any fighting power.So it was difficult for her to accept that Yang Jia compared herself with them.

Seeing Li Bai like this, Yang Jia smiled again.Now, her attitude towards Li Bai has changed a bit.In the past, because of Li Bai's strength, she looked up to him somewhat.But now, realizing that the other party is actually a blank slate in some respects, she suddenly became more at ease, and was able to calmly explain Li Bai's doubts with the attitude of someone who has experienced it.

Of course, it is obviously impossible for Li Bai to study like a child.

The environment in which she grew up made her calm, indifferent, and reticent. It was impossible for her to have emotional changes as easily as a child, and to show any emotion on her face.That kind of deliberate imitation is not suitable for Li Bai.

"Relax," she said to Li Bai, "Human emotions are far less complicated than you think. To put it bluntly, it's nothing more than thinking and not thinking."

"Want and don't want?"

"Yes, what you want is liking and happiness, and what you don't want is disgust and anger." Yang Jia said, "Humans, in the final analysis, are a kind of selfish creature, everything is self-centered. You have yourself, and How can there be no emotions?"

Li Bai thought for a while and asked, "What about feelings? What is love?"

Yang Jia was a little happy to find that she was still struggling with relationship issues.Because this topic started with his own confession, even though he had deviated from the original intention later, Li Bai did not forget it.She always... wanted to give herself an answer.Although she said that she didn't understand these things at all, but she still thought about them now, which is already a good example of the problem.

"What is love? Even human beings can't answer this question clearly? Many people are looking for its answer. I can only give you my thoughts as a reference. In my opinion, love is when a person who is completely self-centered A person who brings other people into the scope of "self". Within this scope, they are selfless, they can risk everything about themselves, and they can also regard others as the center. But in the final analysis, the real center is still himself , because doing so is 'he is willing'." Yang Jia said.

"But how do you know that this person is included in your scope?"

"No, sometimes we don't know, we just do it naturally." Yang Jia said, "But, when you want to know, ask your own heart. It will give you the answer."

"Heart?" Li Bai was a little puzzled.

Yang Jia turned to face her, put a hand on her chest, and said in a low voice, "Yes, your heart...Look, your heartbeat is getting faster."

Li Bai pressed her hand.

She carefully held this hand in her palm, and then said slowly under Yang Jia's suspicious gaze, "Yang Jia, I think..."

"Huh?" Yang Jia looked at her encouragingly.Maybe Li Bai can't express her emotions to others for the time being, but when facing herself, she can try and practice.So she said to Li Bai, "No matter what you think, you can tell me."

But Li Bai didn't know how to describe her mood at this moment, she wanted to get close to Yang Jia, but she didn't know what method to use.She just subconsciously felt that this issue cannot be discussed with Yang Jia.

Thinking and not wanting.

She let go of Yang Jia's hand and said, "I seem to understand a little bit."

Seeing that she didn't say anything, Yang Jia didn't mean to urge her, and said with a smile, "Don't worry, there is no need to worry about this kind of thing. Let's take our time."

Li Bai nodded, but he was thinking in his heart where to find the answer to this question.

Yang Jia was unaware of this. She glanced at the time and said in surprise, "It's already so late, go and rest, you'll be busy tomorrow. It would be bad if you can't restore your physical strength."

But despite saying that, she didn't move.Li Bai didn't move either.

After a while, Yang Jia said, "Go back first."

Li Bai shook his head, stared at Yang Jia for a while, and then said in a low voice, "I don't want to leave now."

When she said the last word, she paused for a moment, and Yang Jia inexplicably felt that there might be something else behind that, but she didn't say it.

And that object is actually easy to guess.

I don't want to leave you now.

It's a pity that Li Bai didn't say it, otherwise Yang Jia felt that this might be the best love story in the world.

Of course, they are not a couple yet.Maybe there will always be a chance to hear Li Bai say it in the future. ——I don't know why, after tonight's exchange, it was obviously rejected in a vague way, but Yang Jia suddenly became full of confidence in the future of the two of them.

If it was said that when he confessed his love, he had a desperate mentality and didn't expect the result, but now, Yang Jia has relaxed instead, with a kind of ease that is getting better.The future fate is still unpredictable, but she is not as urgent and anxious as before.Because she knows that she is not alone in facing these.On the way forward, there are companions.

She tilted her head and said with a smile, "Okay, then let's talk about something else. Li Bai, do you have any plans for the future? How do you plan to deal with the affairs of the Li family?"

Li Bai thought about it seriously, and replied, "I don't want to be the same as before."

Yang Jia nodded understandingly, no one would want to continue living in this environment, right?Resistance is certain, the key is to what extent.She said, "I don't know much about the situation outside, but the Li family should be very powerful, right? It may be difficult to get rid of them."

Li Bai pursed her lips when she heard the words, and at this moment she regained her usual sharpness and calmness, no longer as ignorant as when she was discussing human feelings with Yang Jia just now, "The Li family is the biggest force in China. .”

There is no need for any comments, this sentence alone is enough to explain everything.

But Yang Jia was not very shocked after hearing this.Firstly, she had already guessed before, secondly, the situation she was facing was already so bad, I am afraid that there will be no more difficult thing than this, even if the Li family is indeed very powerful.

Compared with himself, Li Bai's predicament is at least within the category of "human beings" and can be resolved.

Although it is difficult.

But the most difficult thing is not leaving the Li family, because there is always a way to do it.But Li Bai herself is a living target set up, after leaving the Li family, she will become the target of public criticism, and no one will protect her anymore.

Yang Jia thought for a while and said, "You have to have your own influence."

In fact, Li Bai's current situation is indeed very similar to Yang Jia's.To find a way out for oneself, one must have a power in hand, so as to have the bargaining chip to deal with other powers and break out a way.

Thinking of this, Yang Jia suddenly had an inspiration, "Although you have many people around you now, most of them are related to the Li family, right? Besides, you are a soldier and your scope of activities is limited. It is difficult to develop power in reality." It's very difficult. Didn't you say before that this game will also affect reality? Maybe we can consider this way."