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My name is Mi Quan, the rice of rice, the spring of hot springs.

.... I don't know why this sentence is a bit inexplicably familiar.

My memory is incomplete. They told me that I was in a car accident, and the first person I saw when I woke up was a very seductive and very beautiful girl.

I don't know why, but I felt a sense of loss for no reason.

This girl told me that I was her lover.

I'm not surprised that I like girls, but,

A voice told me from the bottom of my heart that it was not like this, but seeing her exhaustion and full of expectations, my heart softened, I put aside the strange voice in my heart, and hugged her gently.

I was also very happy when I was with her. Her smile was contagious. At the beginning, she was always very careful with me, like a child who was afraid of being abandoned, which made people feel very distressed.

I think since it's a lover, it's my fault for making her feel so insecure.

So I was as gentle as possible, watching her smile become more and more real day by day, and getting along with me became more and more like a pair of lovers-wait a minute, why did I use the word like?

I shook my head and shook off this strange thought with a smile.

Every day after the amnesia, I was recalling the past, but there was nothing but a vast expanse of whiteness.I also asked my mother and Lin Chen, but Lin Chen always diverted the topic with an unnatural expression.

And my mother always changed her face suddenly, and said angrily, it's better to forget it, we can't provoke it, can't we hide it!

The more they are like this, the stronger the doubts and curiosity in my heart.

I can only rely on myself. Except for the daily memories, I try to find the traces of the past, but I don’t know if it was hidden on purpose or what.

My past was wiped out like this, so that I often wondered if I was dreaming, but this dream was a bit too real and too long, and I didn't know when I would wake up.

The movie I watched two days ago said that judging dreams and reality depends on whether you remember how you came to this scene.

Because dreams always appear suddenly in a scene,

But having said that, when I opened my eyes, I saw the white ceiling of the hospital, and the real smell of disinfectant filled my nose, and I didn't even remember how I got here.

I can't tell whether I woke up from a dream or woke up in a dream.

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Every day is ordinary but warm. For this situation, although my heart is always empty, I am quite satisfied.

Maybe life would go on like this forever, if Shangguan Yao hadn't appeared in City B.

I accompanied Lin Chen to the shopping mall that day, she was always very happy, and she didn’t feel nervous when we first met, but when we came out from Pizza Hut, she seemed to see something terrible, and her face suddenly turned pale .

I subconsciously felt that that person was related to me, and I followed Lin Chen's line of sight, but was pulled away by the panicked Lin Chen without warning.

But that swipe was enough for her to see the already eye-catching figure.

For no reason, my heart ached for no reason.

It's really strange, I followed Lin Chen, and hugged her gently from behind, that woman just now... whoever she is, nothing is more important than a girlfriend!

The thin body in my arms was suppressing the trembling, I couldn't help but feel annoyed and blamed myself, and kissed her hair lightly.

But she suddenly turned around and kissed my mouth as if venting.

I'm a little embarrassed, and to be honest, I don't like being too close to people, even girlfriends.

But for Lin Chen like this, I couldn't refuse, I just gritted my teeth and protested silently.

She cried while kissing, and finally let go of me, squatting on the ground sobbing.

I am very guilty, I can't deceive myself, to her, even though I keep telling myself to hypnotize, Lin Chen is my girlfriend.

But subconsciously, I can't deceive myself, I can only treat her as my younger sister.

Lin Chen became more and more worried about gains and losses. I felt very distressed when I saw it. I knew that this must have something to do with the woman from last time. I thought, if necessary, I have to go and find her.

Opportunities always come so unexpectedly, I run into her almost every day when I go out, even though I couldn't see her face clearly last time, but her temperament and appearance are so recognizable.

But I can meet it every day...and it just so happens that every time I pass by without squinting in front of my eyes...isn't this too coincidental?

If I hadn't had a clear self-awareness, weighed my weight, and looked at her famous brand and beautiful face, I almost thought she liked me!

It's not good to be too beautiful, especially a woman like Shangguan Yao who acts like she's seducing.

Stealing a saying that straight men are cancerous, you look so charming and go out dressed like this, you deserve to be harassed!

But when she was really harassed, I couldn't just sit idly by. At that time, I was squeezing the subway. It was amazing that a woman like her, who cost tens of thousands of dollars for a piece of clothing, appeared in the crowd of the subway. She frowned delicately, her petite body swayed from side to side as if she would be thrown out at any time.

Many men secretly glanced at her from the corner of their eyes, and what's more, they pretended to rub against her body casually by taking advantage of the shaking of the subway.

I just felt an unknown fire rushing straight to the top of my head, or maybe it was because of the psychology of pity and pity, my body reacted before my brain.

I stood between her and that man calmly, and I didn't forget to give that man a hard look.

Men are also cowards with a lustful heart but no guts. When they shrink their heads, they put some distance away from us.

I used my arms to separate a small space for her by the subway door, and turned around to ask her if she was not feeling well——this kind of person looked like someone who took the subway for the first time, although she didn’t Know why you come to take the subway.but definitely not used to

But I don’t know if it’s my illusion, but she’s actually smiling...

She was wearing sexy black stockings and a miniskirt, and with her well-developed breasts, she exuded a lazy, seductive, and ascetic aura.

I'm a little annoyed, a girl, doesn't she know that it's dangerous to go out like this!

I've never been a nosy person, but today... I don't know what's wrong with me.

I'm worried about her here, but she is smiling like nothing happened, really! Who is it!

It's a pity that I couldn't laugh anymore in the next second, she suddenly collapsed into my arms like a limp, exhaled like blue and said in my ear, thank you.

What a leprechaun!

I got goosebumps all over my body, but unexpectedly, I didn't feel disgusted. Instead... I felt a familiar but sad feeling.

It's a dog day!

Even if Shangguanyao and I are so acquainted, I often meet her later, and we all smile friendly.

I also thought about asking about my past from her. After all, she seems to know Lin Chen, but every time I meet, I feel a little helpless, and I hesitated and said a few words. After seeing you again, I realized that I had forgotten such a thing.

I was suddenly a little scared, and I knew that she was starting to be different to me.

But what about Lin Chen?She loves me so much, I am not a scumbag, the only way is to kill the relationship when it is budding.

I started to avoid Shangguanyao as much as possible, and sometimes I chose to take a detour when I saw her from a distance, but I deeply knew that the more I deliberately ignored some things, the more unforgettable they would be, especially feelings.

I've never been the type of person who falls in love at first sight, but this time the feeling came too suddenly, and it was particularly violent, as if it had been an obsession for many years. I wonder if this is an illusion.

During the National Day holiday, Lin Chen asked me to go to the amusement park. I thought it would be good to let her relax.

But I didn't expect to run into Shangguanyao again on the road, she offered to join us very familiarly, I was a little embarrassed, Lin Chen looked ugly, but he didn't refuse.

Facing that face, no one would be able to bear to refuse.

It was supposed to be a day of leisure and I spent it with trepidation. I, an outsider, could feel the rivalry between Lin Chen and Shangguan Yaoming.

I'm a little puzzled, these two people probably have something to do with each other...

When I was about to go back in the evening, Shangguanyao went to the toilet, I looked at Lin Chen with some anxiety, Lin Chen didn't speak much throughout the whole day, and he didn't smile at all all day.

At this moment, she suddenly wrapped her arms around my neck, and raised her head to kiss my lips.

"Ah, it's getting late, let's go." Shangguan Yao suddenly appeared as if he had timed it right.

I was startled, and subconsciously pushed Lin Chen away.

As soon as he raised his head, he saw Shangguanyao with a slightly cold face and a non-smiling smile.

When I came back to my senses, I saw Lin Chen's gentle face, which was ashamed.

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The author has something to say: The prediction is wrong, there is probably another chapter, I have to think about how to end _(:з」∠)_

Thank you Joy for the cute mine~(￣▽￣～)~