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I'm Lin Chen, the second young lady of the Lin family, a typical lady of every family.

Since I was a child, I have always been a textbook-style good girl, a child of other people's family.

There is a person I fall in love with unknowingly, even though she doesn't have a prominent family background, even though she doesn't have extraordinary talent, even though she is a woman.

But love came so unexpectedly, with just one look and a sudden heartbeat, I knew that I had fallen.

She has a pair of very beautiful eyes, long and narrow but deep, and those eyes are so tender and tender, so fond that one can drown in them.

Although that look never stayed on me, even for a moment.

That look, from beginning to end, was for Shangguan Yao, the eldest daughter of the Shangguan family.

I really don't understand why someone as gentle as Mi Quan would like a woman like Shangguanyao.

Apart from having a prominent family background and an attractive skin, I didn't see much connotation in her.

There are countless men around, always wearing a hypocritical and disgusting smile, and every move is full of deliberate charm and teasing.

At best, it's just a rich and rich woman who doesn't know how to behave.

Ke Miquan just likes such a superficial woman, so deeply, even though the other party has never responded to her, and even often does not give her good looks.

But the person I keep in my heart with all my heart and eyes is so willing to let her trample on me.

I was very sad and couldn't restrain the jealousy and incomprehension in my heart, but my upbringing never allowed me to have such a despicable mood.

I can only be alone, silently accompanying her from a distance when she is hurt, feeling the sadness, longing and loneliness in her heart.

I often think that it would be great if the person Mi Quan likes is me, what a happy thing it would be to be held in the palm of such a person.

After all, I can only think about it. Based on my understanding over the years, such a loving, extremely forbearing and selfless person will never have the possibility of empathizing with someone else in this life.

The most frightening thing is that many years of devotion and companionship have become subconsciousness engraved in the bone marrow.

Just like I am used to looking at her from a distance, I never expected that there would be a day when I would stand by her side in a fair and honest manner.

But fate is always so teasing, and opportunities always drop you dizzily.

She lost her memory.

When I received Shangguanyao's wedding invitation, my first reaction was not to be happy, but to be full of worries about Mi Quan.

Will she give up?

Will she be overwhelmed?

What is she doing now?

Did she know the news?

......

There seemed to be that man's sad eyes that were so thick that they couldn't get rid of. My heart was suffocated, and I actually had the idea that it would be great if Shangguanyao hadn't married.

It's very strange, I hope that Mi Quan can give up tomorrow, but now that such an opportunity has come, I don't feel happy at all...

I'm a little confused myself.

During the time when she had a car accident, I was guarding her side almost day and night, and this was the first time in so many years that I appeared in front of her formally and aboveboard—even though she didn't know it yet.

During that time, I was full and happy. Looking at her peaceful and sleeping face covered with golden rims under the sun, I traced the contours of her cheeks over and over again, and I actually felt a sense of tranquility.

Her parents also got to know me because of this, and I think they should know something, but they didn't express their attitude, like a kind of tacit consent, and my uneasy heart gradually calmed down day by day.

I didn't expect that she would wake up so soon. Looking at her beautiful eyes, she looked at me with confusion and doubt, and my heart beat irregularly.

"who I am?"

This sentence is undoubtedly like a heavy blow, knocking straight on my heart.

My brain was blank, and a crazy idea was growing wantonly in my mind, mixed with ecstasy and excitement, even if I had always been proud of my self-restraint and upbringing, I couldn't suppress it.

"Who are you...?" Her eyes were no longer so preoccupied, but pure and bright.

My heart beat hard again.

Almost subconsciously, I opened my mouth, met her bright eyes, and spoke every word, with joy in my heart, but my expression became clearer.

"Your name is Mi Quan, I'm Lin Chen, and you are my lover."

You are my lover, but I am not your lover. This kind of childish word play should not be considered a lie, I thought a little self-deception.

Maybe it's because my expression is too sincere, maybe my eyes are too determined, maybe it's because my hard work day and night is too obvious, or maybe it's my sincerity that moved God,

She didn't show any overly surprised expression, she just looked around slightly, and then she clearly embraced me gently and politely with the gentle expression that I had expected for many years.

For a moment, I couldn't help but covered my mouth, and with the grievances accumulated over the years, tears flowed out uncontrollably.

"Thanks for your hard work" has a nice and deep voice, which is what I like.

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I persuaded Mi Quan's mother to move to City B. I have lived in City B for a while and am very familiar with it.

Her mother also planned to move, so she agreed without thinking.

I feel that these few months with Mi Quan are the happiest days in my twenty years.

The gentle eyes I expected now finally belong to me alone.

As I thought, Mi Quan is a gentle and meticulous person. Every moment with her will never be boring or embarrassing. She always holds the atmosphere just right and gives me the most comfortable feeling.

Every look, every smile, every care, every pat on the head is the way I like it.

Life is like being soaked in a honey pot. I have learned to be coquettish and lose my temper, because she always has a gentle face and pampers me. I feel that I am like a happy girl. The little lady spoiled by her.

But what's a little depressing is that she and I have never made any real progress—— kissing, it's just a taste.

Whenever I shyly want to go further, she always touches my head, gently rubs my face with her nose, shakes her head and says—————————————————————No.

All of a sudden, I lost my temper shyly.

If, if the days can always be like this.But Shangguanyao, that nightmarish woman, chased her to City B once again.

This time, her target was Mi Quan.

The bottom of my heart couldn't help trembling, no way! How could that woman be like this!

What should come will always come, I can't do anything, watching that woman approach a little bit, watching the happiness that was originally grasped in my hand slip away from my fingertips.

Sadly, there was nothing I could do.

Mi Quan began to alienate me intentionally or unintentionally, and I felt a burst of sadness in my heart. Her eyes were still gentle, but with a hint of dodge and guilt.

I can feel my heart bleeding, and that feeling of powerlessness is really, really, really unbearable.

In the end, she still proposed to break up. Seeing her guilt and self-blame, I feel more distressed than her.

As expected, maybe because I had enough psychological preparation, I actually felt relieved, like a sense of relief from a heavy burden.

A twisted melon is not sweet, and a forced relationship will not last long, that's all, I'm tired, at least, I once had it, so it can be regarded as no regrets!

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