Xiaobai Deformation Meter

After finally finishing the phone call in the morning, when he was doing activities in the afternoon, Xu Bai always felt that something was wrong and he always felt uncomfortable.

Coming home from get off work in a traffic jam, he received a call from Bai Mingzhi as soon as his feet landed.

"Don't panic, what are you talking about? I can't hear you clearly!" Xu Bai pinched the phone to his ear, frowning tightly.

Mom yelled back like crazy, asking her where Lele was, but she couldn't find it after searching all over the house.

"I called every room, but Lele didn't respond to me!" Bai Mingzhi cried and said, "She will pounce on me as soon as I get home, I can't find her! Where are you, my Lele? "

While rushing home, Xu Bai recalled that the last time he saw Lele was at the door.

She remembered that she locked the door and ruled out the possibility of Lele sneaking out of the house.She also believed that her mother had searched the house all over, and even checked the closet again and again.

"Look for it again, and I'll be right back!" Xu Bai hung up the phone and started running.

She ran into the community panting, praying in her heart that Lele was okay.She took out her mobile phone and called Xu Wenhui again, saying that Lele was gone.

Mom called again: "Hey, only the kitchen and living balcony doors are open at home... I can't find Lele, she must not be at home!"

Hearing the word "living balcony", Xu Bai stopped in shock.

She immediately thought of Xiao Qi's last few days in the pet hospital, and she insisted on staying with her until she died, until she hugged Xiao Qi's cold body and fell to the living balcony of the small black house and began to cry... …

This scene appeared in front of Xu Bai's eyes, she pulled her hair and sat down on the public bench.

In a few seconds, she stood up again, walked over to the flower bed under the living balcony, stepped directly into the grass marked "Love flowers and plants, everyone is responsible", turned a corner, and saw Bai Mingzhi Desolate back.

Mom was just like she was at the time, covering her face and crying bitterly.

Xu Bai forgot how to breathe, she felt that she was not moving, but her legs automatically walked to Bai Mingzhi's side, and she slowly squatted down, supporting her mother's shoulders.

She turned her head to look at Lele, who was lying on the ground with limbs stiff, and there was no sign of being alive.

Mom was still crying to Lele, her voice was so piercing.Xu Bai didn't care about the tears he shed, and covered Lele's fluffy ears with his hands, and found that Lele had started to cool down, and made sure that Lele had left them.

She looked up and saw the living balcony above. There were railings on the balcony. Lele must have accidentally fallen from the gap in the balcony.Although the parents didn't live high enough, the height of several floors was enough to kill Lele. There was no blood on the ground, and it was very likely that he died on the spot without unnecessary pain.

Xu Bai didn't know if this was comforting, and she didn't know if her mother would wake up Lele before she would give up, but she just watched her mother knelt on the ground and shook Lele vigorously.

"Lele! How can you leave your mother... Wuwuwu, you are with me when my mother is in the most difficult time... How can mother live when you are gone!"

Every word Bai Mingzhi said hit Xu Bai's heart, she shed tears silently, and sometimes wondered if it was her who died, would her mother be in such pain?Immediately afterwards, I felt that my thoughts were very dirty, and an uncontrollable sense of guilt rose to the top of my heart...

It was she who forgot to close the doors of the kitchen and living balcony when she left, leaving a safety hazard and indirectly causing Lele's accident.

The changing light and shadow of the sun reminded Xu Bai that it was late, and many people came back from the community one after another. Although they couldn't see the grass from the outside, they couldn't stay any longer.

"Go, take Lele home first."

Xu Bai thought at first that his mother would stop him, but he just made a noise and went to hug Lele immediately.

Bai Mingzhi sobbed and nodded before she hugged Lele into her arms, trying to warm up Lele with her body temperature.

The two entered the elevator with blushing faces. A little sister happened to be in the elevator and said, "Mom, look, this puppy is asleep."

Bai Mingzhi touched Xu Bai uneasily, but Xu Bai didn't reply, neither did the little sister's parents, they must all find it strange.

After returning home, my mother restrained her heartbreak for a few minutes and broke out in an instant. She kept crying to Lele until Xu Wenhui rushed home, followed by the solemn sister-in-law and Lin Lan.

The adults kept comforting Bai Mingzhi, while Lin Lan passed a few tissues to Xu Bai who was sitting on the chair.

She wiped away her tears numbly, and then she heard her mother yelling at her: "If the doors are all closed, Lele won't die, you murderer!"

Xu Bai's heart skipped a beat, and he suddenly shed countless tears.

The sister-in-law hurriedly said: "Oh, Xiaobai can't be blamed for this. She didn't expect such a thing to happen. Don't blame the child. She doesn't want Lele... She doesn't want anything to happen to Lele!"

"It's her! It's just that she didn't close the door properly, my Lele... woo... Lele!"

Xu Bai turned his head away, his fingers trembling unceasingly, Lin Lan wiped away her tears from time to time.

"Buy another dog again, don't be sad." The sister-in-law said again, "We persuade you now, but you won't listen, so calm down and talk."

Xu Wenhui didn't speak from the beginning to the end. When his mother calmed down a little, he reached out to touch Lele's ears like Xu Bai, and then lowered his eyes again.

Xu Bai watched this scene silently, and my sister-in-law suddenly said to her: "Xiaobai, don't take your mother's words to heart, what she is saying now is all angry words, your mother won't really blame you, listen to my sister-in-law. if."

Bai Mingzhi was still crying on Lele's body, Xu Bai raised his head with tears in his eyes, and nodded to his sister-in-law.

That night, Xu Wenhui did not leave.

Dad put Lele into the box, took mother and her, and found a place to bury Lele.Just like when Xu Bai and Liang Haimei buried Xiao Qi, they also added a lot of food and toys to the box.

The place where Lele was buried was near the river, and there was a large open space below that was leased to a certain driving school for practice. It was already evening and there was no one around.

Xu Bai was very aware of the feeling of losing her spiritual support. She kept crying to Shen Yi, but Shen Yi could only comfort her silently in the distance, and what she said was similar to that of my sister-in-law.

Xu Bai felt that she couldn't escape responsibility for Lele's accident, and what Dad could do was to seal up all the gaps in the house with tape and cardboard.

Bai Mingzhi went to see Lele every day, and then chanted to Tu.Xu Wenhui and she still went to work, not knowing what to say to their mother.

For a while, the house became quiet again.

After learning from the pain, Xu Bai faced another decision—should he tell Liang Haimei about Lele's death?

She remembered the time when she brought Lele home with Meimei. They disinfected the house together, fearing that Lele would be infected with scabies like Xiaoqi. Except for the endless quarrels all day long, this memory is still good .

Xu Bai knew that he would be scolded to death by Liang Haimei, but he still sent a message to Meimei: [Lele fell from upstairs and died. ]

Before she had time to light the cigarette, Liang Haimei called over, "What did you say? Lele died? Xu Bai, why didn't you take good care of her... OK, I'll come right over, I'll tell you... Forget it, You wait for Xu Bai!"

After hanging up the phone, Xu Bai supported his body, went to the closet to look for a piece of clothing, it felt a little too big after putting it on, only to find that it was Meimei's old white T-shirt, she took it home at that time, and didn't have the energy to change it again .

She went downstairs and found a booth in the community to sit and smoke, called Lin Lan, and told her about finding Liang Haimei.

"What should she do if she keeps scolding you? Lele was originally what she wanted to take back!"

Xu Bai sighed: "I know, but it's impossible for me not to tell her about Lele's death. She bought Lele and said that she will come to see her when she misses her. Who knows."

"Then I'll come find you."

Lin Lan hung up the phone, and soon arrived at the community, the sky darkened, and Liang Haimei finally arrived.

It's been a while since we saw each other, Xu Bai couldn't recognize Meimei.Meimei's hair has grown a lot, she seems to be wearing a bra, she doesn't look like a T anymore.His expression didn't change, he was still angry, almost murderous.

"What's going on?" Liang Haimei said straight to the point, her eyes were a little red and swollen.

Xu Bai threw away the cigarette in his hand blankly, and explained the matter again in detail, until Liang Haimei signaled that he did not want to listen any more.

Before she could react, Liang Haimei grabbed Lele by the collar and said, "You and your mother insisted on keeping Lele! It's fine if you don't love me, why didn't you even take care of Lele! Aren't you very Do you like dogs? You can actually make Lele fall! What the hell are you doing, Xu Bai!"

Lin Lan blurted out: "Why are you blaming my sister, she is also very sad, and she didn't do it on purpose, so what are you going to do!"

Xu Bai shook off Liang Haimei's hand, Liang Haimei turned to stare at Lin Lan and said, "I'm talking to your sister, it's none of your business!"

"Okay, shut up!" Xu Bai stopped Liang Haimei coldly and told Lin Lan to go home first.

"Is there no problem?" Lin Lan pouted, looking very dissatisfied.

Xu Bai nodded lightly, there was not much light left in his eyes.Lin Lan glared at Liang Haimei, turned around and left.

"Do you want to see Lele?"

Liang Haimei seemed to be choked by this sentence, and immediately refused: "I won't go, I won't watch!"

"Oh."

Xu Bai passed Liang Haimei sullenly, a little embarrassed, but Liang Haimei hadn't finished venting yet.

"I should take Lele away, she is still alive and kicking, and she won't die here." Meimei sobbed twice, "Still from such a high place... I really can't imagine that there will be How painful, why do you have no expression at all, you are so cold-blooded!"

Xu Bai slowly opened his mouth and closed it again.She didn't want Meimei to recall with her that night when she knelt on the balcony to persuade a lunatic to come down.

"It's been just a few days, almost 10 years, and my tears have dried up. What expression can I have?"

"Yeah, 10 years of relationship is not as good as the few months between you and Shen Yi!"

"I don't want to hear you say this." Xu Bai stared at Liang Haimei coldly, then slowly turned his head back, "I see you are living comfortably."

"Xiaobai, I know you are also very sad, but you really did not protect Lele. I couldn't help but want to scold you a few words. I also know that Lele will not come back. I also figured out about Shen Yi. Yes, my family members came to comfort me and encourage me. We ran out and tried to drag your aunt in the Internet cafe. After I got home, she hugged me and cried, saying that I was a pity, and told me to leave the city to avoid Touching the scene and hurting."

Xu Bai didn't know why Liang Haimei told her this, he just replied lightly: "Let's go."

"I was worried about your life before, but now that Shen Yi is with you, I feel relieved."

"Oh?" Xu Bai didn't even move his eyes, she just thought that Liang Haimei was fake, "It's up to you what you think."

Liang Haimei stood in front of her and said to her: "Don't think of me so badly, I think I am a bad guy in your heart now. I have tried my best, Xu Bai, I accept that you are together, you still want to What about me? Later we went home, and I tried my best to save this relationship, but you still chose Shen Yi, and I didn't stop you."

Xu Bai hummed and laughed, so things were changed by Liang Haimei's words. She might live in Mars, so she couldn't understand what Meimei said.

"You still think it's my fault?"

"You betrayed me, it's a fact!"

Xu Bai said without a tone: "I admit that I am half responsible for what happened in the past few years. Do you dare to admit the other half?" After finishing speaking, she stared fiercely at Liang Haimei like she was staring at a prisoner in an interrogation room. .

Liang Haimei also stared back at her, but said: "I don't think you have any reason to betray me, cheating is cheating. Shen Yi can break up our nearly 10-year relationship at such a distance, she must be secretly proud , that's why she followed you..."

"You are enough!" Xu Bai roared.

Liang Haimei said disapprovingly: "She can understand your temper very well. Later, I thought about it a lot. To put it bluntly, she is just pretending to be a pig and eating a tiger."

Xu Bai laughed helplessly, and she found that Meimei really hadn't changed at all: "You're just a person who lives in conspiracy theories... well, whatever you say, I don't care, maybe she is that kind of person too , but she makes me happy, it’s better than being with someone for 10 years and not even being able to be happy at least.”

"Have you ever been happy with me?"

"Then I used the wrong word, it should be Anxin." Xu Bai said sarcastically, "When I was with you, I would always live in fear and lies."

"Isn't it me? But I never thought of breaking up with you!" Liang Haimei said loudly: "Have you forgotten, Xu Bai, I have only liked you so far!"

"You are torturing me, not loving me!"

The two quarreled again, and no matter what topic they talked about, they would eventually get back to their feelings.

Xu Bai didn't want to speak anymore, she just wanted to go home, back to Shen Yi and her parents...

Liang Haimei said lightly: "I know one more thing——Xiaobai, in fact, you still love me, and you haven't let me go completely."