Xiaobai Deformation Meter

Xu Bai pursed her lips, she was more worried that Yi Yi would be jealous than letting Shen Yi know that she was not T.

[I was with her when I was still studying, almost inseparable, and even more so when I came out. ]

Shen Yi replied to her and said: [You are indeed crazy, how much do you love her? ]

Xu Bai thought for a while and said: [She was the first person who broke into my heart, she was my first love. Looking back now, my obsession with her is deeper than love. ]

[Then she must be very good, in fact, it is a pity for you. ]

[I don't think so. ] Xu Bai continued to type with a cigarette in his mouth: [If I said that she and I separated due to practical reasons, I would still regret it, but our relationship is to die, it's different. ]

[I do not like her. ] Shen Yi said briefly.

She smiled helplessly: [She still didn't understand why I walked so firmly, and said I was ruthless.But it's because I'm a lesbian, because I chose this more difficult path, and I value this relationship that I can't tolerate sand in my eyes. ]

[I know that Abai's character is very serious, I've seen it before. ]

Xu Bai chuckled: [If you're serious, you'll lose - it's as if these words were written for me.But it's okay now, I want to be more casual. ]

She tried to pull the topic away from her ex, but Shen Yi still got the point.

[You have been together for 9 years, did you give her everything? ]

Xu Bai felt bad, but he could only answer truthfully: [Well, the first kiss and first night were given to her. ]

[...]

[Hey, I’m a normal person, alright? At 25 years old, do you still expect me to be self-inflicted? ]

[Oh, how old were you when you gave it to her? ]

[I forgot the first kiss, the first time I went to bed was 18 years old. ]

Shen Yi's reaction was the same as she imagined: [You are so young, you are still stuck together every day, if it is 9 years, then there is already...]

Xu Bai raised his mouth: [There are 12 months in a year, 4 weeks in a month, twice a week on average, how much is 9 years? ]

[Twice a week? ]

[Little fool, normally three times a week is fine, I just averaged it out. ]

[Well, I don't know...]

Xu Bai guessed that Shen Yi was still doing mental calculations, so he casually said, "Will you dislike me?" ]

[How come, I didn't despise you. ]

[That means you don’t dislike me? ]

Shen Yi did not take it lightly, and replied to her: [You are not in my care, I have no right to despise you. ]

[But I want to take care of you. ]

[Ah Bai, you know we can't...]

[I don't know, I only know that you like me, otherwise why do you care so much? ]

[I won't ask any more, I just want you to be well, we'll be fine like this. ]

Xu Bai didn't hold back, and drove the car sideways: [Do you think I'm doing well?How did I survive this time without you?I don't believe you can't feel that I still love you, Yiyi, I want you. ]

[Stop talking, I really don't dislike you, it's just...]

Xu Bai said coldly: "It's just that I'm a woman." ] After finishing speaking, he began to blame himself for being angry with Yi Yi...

She really couldn't change this point, and it was normal for Shen Yi not to accept it.

After thinking about it for a while, she realized that the reason why she was furious was because Shen Yi refused to admit it - if she didn't like her, then forget it, but this kind of ambiguous feeling made her unable to bear it.

Xu Bai calmed down and told Shen Yi that she was going to bed.

[Don't be angry, Ah Bai, put on the quilt, good night. ]

[Uh, good night. ]

Xu Bai was in a better mood, she couldn't quarrel with this little guy at all.

The next day, she went to work as usual, and there were many people on the light rail. She was squeezed to the door, and casually looked at the passing scenery outside the door, as vague as her youth.She couldn't help daydreaming that it would be great if she was the same age as Shen Yi now, and she suddenly wanted to go back to school.

Liang Haimei didn't come here as often as before. In the occasional chat, she knew that Meimei was also busy with exams and work, and she revealed in her words that she still wanted to remain friends with her.

But Xu Bai put a question mark - she didn't think their friendship could survive after so many things happened.

Liang Haimei is easy to get angry, and her temper is also very violent. In addition, she broke up because of a quarrel. She can't handle the relationship between the two of them. She feels that forgetting each other is the best and only choice.

"It's good to let Shen Yi stay with you." Liang Haimei said to her on the phone, "I told her in the garden that day, I said that you miss her very much, and it's because of her that you became like this. I let her stay with you."

She shook her head: "I find that I really don't understand you."

"I don't want you to get depressed, Xiaobai, don't go to the high seas, you really won't be able to come back."

Xu Bai didn't bother to figure out the change in Meimei's attitude, it was nothing more than her life was getting better, but she didn't want to be reconciled, but she also looked away.With Meimei's intelligence, she will definitely not continue to waste time on a relationship that is gone. The only thing she can do is to come out and be a good person, and make up for the hurt she doesn't want to admit.

"I won't go. I'm too old to go even if I want to."

"Change jobs."

"It's not that I don't want to change, you figure it out."

"The job your dad said is not good either. It's boring and boring. It's a waste of life."

"Then what do you want from me?" Xu Bai lost his patience, "That's all my parents can give me, but I gave you all my youth, I didn't work hard when I should, and now you're telling me these words, Don't you find it boring?"

Xu Bai didn't need Liang Haimei to emphasize to her how helpless she was now, this kind of gesture of lighting a fire and then watching it from the other side would only make her sick.

They really can't be friends.

Xu Bai is still doing odd jobs here for the time being, as her career issues cannot be resolved for a day or two, and Shen Yi has been bothering her, so she still decides to have a resolution with Yi Yi first.

She had to find a way to make the relationship clear.

[I'm home, I'm exhausted. ]

[Ah Bai, you are back, Nana and I also went to buy notebooks and pens for the start of school today. ]

Xu Bai entered the study: [By the way, have you divided arts and sciences yet? ]

[I was in the liberal arts class, and Nana went to the science class. ]

[Why don’t you study science? There will be more options for university majors in the future. ]

Shen Yi began to complain about how difficult mathematics is, and physics is simply an old monster.

[Did A Bai study liberal arts before? ]

[Well, I originally wanted to take the entrance examination for the Academy of Fine Arts in the city, but my dad refused to let me. You know what happened afterwards. ]

Xu Bai asked Shen Yi to show her the latest version of the Renjiao textbook. Except for Li Lei and Han Meimei's plastic surgery, the content has not changed much.

[My mother scolded me for my poor grades, saying that I would definitely not be able to enter college. ]

[Have you thought about what you want to do in the future? ]

[They want me to take the normal exam and come out to be a teacher. ]

Xu Bai laughed: [I'm asking you, not them. They want to pretend to be themselves, and I won't listen to their lectures anyway. ]

[I don't know what I can do...Ah Bai's grades are good? ]

[No, I'm a scumbag, my predecessor with good grades, all the advantages of Venom are from her, except for the sincerity. ]

[...]

Xu Bai put out the cigarette, and continued: [I fell in love with Pigment back then, but it doesn't matter, it's enough to guide you, my whip doesn't have eyes, you'd better be careful. ]

[Ah Bai, you are really kind to me. ]

[You still feel good about me when you get whipped, so hurry up and come into my arms. ]

[You started talking about this again...]

[But I don't believe it, you know. ] Xu Bai fell into deep thought: [I don't believe that I will lose to anyone when I get serious. ]

[Hmm, Ah Bai was just ignorant before, but now everything will get better, there is still time. ]

In the next few days, Bai Mingzhi always complained that she didn't do anything at home because of her grandfather and father.Xu Bai didn't know what to do, so he tried cooking.

She carefully recalled how she used to watch Meimei cook in the kitchen, and played with pots and pans, as if a lightning flashed through her head. She quickly grasped the essentials of cooking, and it was the first time she tried Sichuan cuisine. Kao's fish-flavored shredded pork was very successful.

"It's really late for you to open your mind." Mom said while eating, "You're still in the rebellious stage."

Xu Bai smiled and said, "What if rebellion is my character?"

She took photos of the dishes she cooked and showed them to Shen Yi, who said she really wanted to eat them.

[Come here, let me make it for you. ]

[If you hate it, you know how to tempt me, knowing that I can't resist eating. ]

[Haha, you can have nothing in the city, but there is no shortage of delicious food. ]

[I see, you should eat more and take care of yourself, your body is so poor. ]

Xu Bai and Shen Yi were in a stalemate and got drunk the next day.She made an exception and drank wine at the company dinner hosted by the boss. Out of respect, she also toasted the cat brother and the boss, but the atmosphere at the table was very bad.After the meal, a colleague said in the company group that he was going to resign. The reason was that the dishes were ordered too expensive before, and the boss insulted the colleague in public.

Although Xu Bai didn't have much social experience, she also vaguely sensed that something was wrong with this company, not to mention that the game had been unable to sell, and the relationship among colleagues was still delicate.

She forgot how she got home, and the first thing she did was to find Yiyi.

[Wife, I drank too much, do you want to watch me do a striptease, I'm in a trance~]

[Who is your wife now... why are you drinking?How much did you drink...]

Xu Bai lay down and took a photo, and sent it to Shen Yi: [The company has dinner after the new year, look how red I am. ]

[I see, do you have anti-alcoholic medicine at home?Really, obviously can't drink, why drink so much! ]

Xu Bai hiccupped, rolled over and lay down on the bed: [No, just one bottle, I'm allergic to alcohol. ]

[Okay, I thought you drank a lot, so stop drinking, go wash your face and go to bed obediently. ]

[I don't want it, I don't want it, I don't want it...] Xu Bai sent countless nos, and then sent a crying emoji.

[How old, still like a child. ]

Xu Bai smiled happily: [I am 25 and my wife is 17, so I want to act like a baby to you. ]

[Okay, you, go and take the medicine first if you are obedient. ]

[I want you to feed me. ]

[Why, this is, I'm not by your side, you can eat it obediently, okay? ]

Xu Bai laughed and cried, she didn't know why, she just thought Yi Yi was so caring, but couldn't help but want to play tricks on this girl.

She was poking her temples, sweating profusely: [My head hurts so much, it hurts so much, I have never acted like a baby to anyone in my life...]

[I see, I can feed you the medicine, I promise you to feed you, then go and take the medicine quickly. ]

Xu Bai pointed to the ceiling: [Yes, my wife. ] Then he got out of bed in a daze, went out to drink some water, and fell back on the bed after washing.

[Really, it’s not your wife after all. ]

The relationship between her and Shen Yi is getting better and better, and Yi Yi has become accustomed to her various teasing.Xu Bai felt that the time was almost ripe, so he confessed his love to Shen Yi the day before Shen Yi returned to school.

But Shen Yi still rejected her.

It happened to be the weekend and the sky was a bit dark.Xu Bai went out to the bank to withdraw money, and was still talking with Shen Yi on the way.

She couldn't figure it out and said, "Yiyi, you obviously like me, why didn't you admit it?"

"Ah Bai, don't think so much, I'm going back to school soon, you must take care of yourself, you are too worrying."

"If you can't let it go, don't let it go. I will be better with you by my side."

Shen Yi's voice also sounded a bit uncomfortable: "Okay, let's not talk about it, my mobile phone is still out of data, I will tell you when I get home on the weekend."

Xu Bai had no choice but to terminate the conversation.

She immediately squatted on the side of the street, feeling like crying but without tears, but it started to drizzle, which helped her to cry.

If it was in the past, she would never let go, but now she understands that some things cannot be forced.

Even if it's for Yiyi's good...

Xu Bai picked up the phone, stared at the raindrops gradually covering the screen, and suddenly had a very strange feeling - her situation at a certain time before was very similar to her current situation, as if she had known each other before.

It's like an illusion that occasionally appears in life. It's the first time you've been to this place, but it feels like you've been here before.

Xu Bai ran towards home in the rain, and she suddenly had an idea, either succeed or fail, this is also the deadline she set for herself, it depends on whether God will be on her side.