Xiaobai Deformation Meter

Xu Bai's heart rose to his throat - this is the 27th floor!

The rain poured into her collar along with the cross wind, and she took a step back in the cold.The balcony under my feet has become a small pond, and my feet in slippers have long been soaked.

After climbing over the railing, Liang Haimei stood on the air-conditioning rack again, facing the outside world with a look of despair.

Xu Bai brushed away his wet hair and shouted at Liang Haimei: "You are crazy, come down quickly!"

"I don't want it, I don't want to live anymore!" Liang Haimei squatted on the shelf crying, "Even you don't listen to me anymore, what's the point of my life? Get out, get out!"

Xu Bai glanced at some brightly lit squares in the opposite building, for fear that someone would look over.She knew that Liang Haimei was acting for her, but now that the wind and rain were blowing, she decided to get Meimei down first.

"Why didn't I listen to you?"

"I have done so much for you, so much... Now that I have nothing, you despise me."

"What do I dislike about you?" Xu Bai tried his best to restrain the anger in his heart, "I don't even know what I did, and you are going to do this to me!"

Liang Haimei stood up suddenly: "Go, go far away! Anyway, you don't know if I will jump if you leave, and now I can't stop you... I don't want to wake up every day and see you indifferent look, I've had enough..."

Xu Bai closed his eyes, took another breath, and then said, "But now I see you turned out, if you don't come down again, I'll call your mother and ask her to invite you."

"If you dare to call my mother, I'll jump off right now!" Liang Haimei stared at her and stretched out a leg forward.

"Okay, I won't fight, don't act recklessly!" Xu Bai took a step forward in fright.

"Don't come here! I'm not you, I'm just playing with knives to scare me. I'm not afraid of anything... I've already collapsed. If you come here again, I will really jump!"

"What do you want me to do to come down?"

"I don't want you to do anything, I have no hope for you."

"Then tell me, what did I do to offend you?"

"I told you to go away! Aren't you amazing before? Why are you guarding me now? I'm afraid you won't be able to get rid of it if I die..."

The rain was getting heavier and heavier, Xu Bai stood there trembling: "You have an accident, and those who love you will be sad... You think I'm not worth mentioning, but what about your parents?"

"Don't mention them, I'm sorry for my mother, I'm for you... For you who will leave me at any time, turn against them, don't walk the road they paved for me... I really owe you, I want to hit myself..."

"Then you go back for them."

"Tell you to get out! I don't want to see you, I just want to jump off here now!"

"I'm not wrong, since you think I'm a traitor, then go back!"

Liang Haimei squatted down again, muttering some words that Xu Bai couldn't understand at all.And Xu Bai just stared at her like this, wondering over and over whether she would really go crazy and jump down, or slip and fall...

If something happens to Meimei, how can she survive!

"Hehe, I feel sorry for you now, but I'm so happy..." Liang Haimei suddenly turned her head again, "What are you thinking? Do you want me to die quickly... Then you can be free? "

Xu Bai's mind exploded in an instant, and she seemed to be asking herself: "So I've always been like this in your heart?"

"Stop talking, there's nothing to explain...you go your way, I'll jump mine."

Xu Bai really wanted to make a bet with herself that Liang Haimei would not really jump... But she was also worried that Liang Haimei would have to jump if she didn't jump now in order to save face.

If someone really died tonight, she wouldn't worry about herself, since she would be useless anyway.I don't care what happens to Liang Haimei's parents, it's none of her business.But she thought of her parents...

With Aunt He's paranoid personality, if something happens to Liang Haimei, she will definitely be blamed.Then her parents will not have a good life for the rest of their lives, and will always live in the pain of being misunderstood and accused of all kinds... And this feeling, Xu Bai can't understand...

"I understand what you mean." Xu Bai stared at his feet and said, "I was wrong, come down."

Liang Haimei didn't make a sound, just glanced at her through the railing, then turned her head back.

Xu Bai couldn't tell whether the water on her face was rain or tears... She closed her eyes, gritted her teeth and knelt into the small pond, and the water splashed from the balcony spread into the house.

"I was wrong, I will not go again! Please come down!"

She lowered her head, and cried aloud in grievance. With such a big life, she has never kneeled before anyone.When she raised her head again, she finally saw Meimei regaining her rational expression.

Liang Haimei stood up slowly, turned sideways back to the balcony, and stood in front of Xu Bai who was still kneeling on the balcony, as if she wanted to hug her.But Xu Bai turned his head away, Liang Haimei didn't force it, and stumbled into the house.

After the two showered in tandem, Liang Haimei let the computer play the sound, and fell asleep in the bed.The watch on the bedside table was ticking, Xu Bai lay by the bed staring at it in a daze.It wasn't until 4 o'clock in the morning that she gently lifted the quilt, turned over and sat up.

The computer was still playing the bloody plot, and Xu Bai suddenly remembered how Meimei usually shed tears while watching the plot, and sadly thought that everything she did was not as good as the TV series that could touch Meimei... and left the bedroom with a cold heart.

The room was very quiet, only the sound of chinchillas jumping up and down in the cage.Xu Bai didn't take a look, she put on her sneakers and pushed open the door.By the time she realized what she was doing, the elevator had already sent her to the ground floor.

Taking advantage of the light from the only remaining street lamp on the road, Xu Bai lit a cigarette and walked towards the river.The river is constantly surging, and it can completely annihilate all the beauty and hope, including her.

The rain patted her shoulders, and she soon came to the most familiar Nanxi Road.

Xu Bai didn't stop, but got off the sightseeing ladder and continued to walk forward until he was stopped by a row of low stone pillars.

She turned around mechanically and looked at an old-fashioned low building not far away. There was a faint light in the building, and there must have been people staying up late like her.

But that's okay, she stood in the dark, she wouldn't even look for her shadow, and she wasn't afraid that people in bright places would find her.Xu Bai stared indifferently at the weeds growing on the stone pillar, and stepped up against the wind of the river...

It was only a small height, but Xu Bai felt that her entire field of vision was different, and there was no pain any further, as if even the bottom of the river was calling her.

"Xu Bai, 24 years old, gay, likes to draw but fails to accomplish anything, please accept me."

When she finished speaking her lines to herself, it rained heavily again.

Xu Baiyang opened his mouth and let the rain drip into her mouth and flow into her throat, feeling the feeling of being corroded by the poison of love once again.

"Do you have to die before you will believe... I love you." She knelt down and watched the river surge.

In a trance, a bigger and bigger black hole surrounded her...Xu Bai was exhausted and fell forward...

At this moment, she felt a very strong river wind blowing in her face again!

Xu Bai leaned back and grabbed a few weeds tightly, but the weeds cut her wrist.The red bracelet that had been on her hand suddenly broke, and before she could grab it, it was swallowed by the black river water.

At that moment, she seemed to see herself falling into it... as if dying instead of her...

"Yong'er!" Xu Bai couldn't stop shouting, and only then did he wake up.

She turned around and jumped off the stone pillar, retreated into the moss-covered corner, sat on the ground trembling helplessly with her knees hugged, and then yelled at God: "Damn, I can't die, and it's so painful to live, what do I want? Are you satisfied?"

Of course God would not pay attention to her, and Xu Bai also knew that he could only get the effect of being ignored, so he couldn't help laughing.

"Okay, you win, you all win." She leaned on the wall and stood up, "I'll go back and continue to suffer."

When she was walking back with heavy steps, singing sounds became clearer and clearer from the shiny low building...

"Think...if the ending is the same, why bother to think again...hurt...if people grow up, why am I afraid of the hurt of breaking up..."

Although the voice is very low, Xu Bai is very familiar with this song. This is the famous song sung by her favorite singer in "Happy Girls" 9 years ago. The original song was sung by Amei...

"Relief, is to be willing to admit that it was a mistake... I shouldn't have let go... You have the freedom to walk, I have the freedom to live well... Relief, is to know how to wipe away tears after watching... Find a new direction to move forward... ...the world is vast, and I will always realize a dream..."

Xu Bai stopped where he was, quietly listening to the love song, blowing the wind from the river.She turned her head and looked towards the sky, the light and shadow of the sunrise lit up the originally dark river surface, and dragged her shadow on the ground.

It was dawn, and she was still alive... Although she lost everything for a love that was no longer wonderful, she was still alive with hands and feet!

Xu Bai suddenly realized that there is at least one person in this world who can save her, and that is herself... This outlet has always been in herself.

"There is a desire to be brave in my heart... Don't let the person who loves me worry about me... Relief, I am willing to admit that this is a mistake... I shouldn't let go..."

She listened to the song loop to the end, turned around and returned to Nanxi Road.An unprecedented sense of security enveloped her and made her feel very warm.

Looking back at those painful days and nights, just for a moment, Xu Bai felt that she no longer loved Liang Haimei... The red thread connecting their hearts was broken just like the red bracelet Yong Er gave her. Never come back.

The bull's horn has been drilled to the end, it's time to turn back... Only by admitting mistakes and failures can she find herself...

There were more and more pedestrians on the road, she took the elevator back home, Liang Haimei was still awake.

Xu Bai took the bath towel and went into the bathroom. The moment the hot water came down, her mind became clearer. She shouldn't be so stupid—to tell the whole story for a person who has repeatedly hurt herself!

But at this time, my parents were having a marriage change again, and the family was about to break up, so I thought she was doing well outside.Go back and tell them you're broke?What will they think?

Liang Haimei is also unreasonable, if she said to climb over the railing, she would jump over the railing, so she broke up with her at this time?She felt that her courage was not enough... Besides, she was still ill, so she really couldn't bear the torment.

When she was still weighing, Liang Haimei pushed open the bathroom door and walked in directly, regardless of whether she liked it or not.

However, Xu Bai just finished washing, so he gave up the bathroom to her, and came out to change into clean clothes.She picked up the thyroid hormone medicine that she must take every day, went to the water dispenser to get a cup of hot water, and sat in front of the computer.

After closing the page of the TV series, she saw an animal appearing on the screen—the axolotl, commonly known as the hexagonal dinosaur, which is an amphibian.

Xu Bai remembered that he found it when he checked the information yesterday, and forgot to close it.She really likes this kind of pet that can be bought at the flower and bird market for 50 yuan, but now she doesn't dare to keep it anymore, she just wants to see it.

This hexagonal dinosaur, a lifelong juvenile, would have lived in water like a fish.But once the iodine in the body is out of balance, it will cause metamorphosis and become a land creature that breathes by lungs.For example, give it a pill in Xu Bai's hand...

Since she got Hashimoto's jaundice, she has never touched kelp and other foods with high iodine content, and she has never eaten seafood, which has lost a lot of food.

Xu Bai stared at the picture on the computer, took a sip of water and swallowed the medicine.I thought to myself, neither can I die in silence, nor can I explode in silence, maybe one day, she will be in silence...

Perverted.

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Later, we will enter the flipping plot, Xu Tongxie is going to let himself go, please fasten your seat belt...