Xiaobai Deformation Meter

"Why do I have to choose?" Xu Bai stared at a large list of numbers, and asked Liang Haimei beside him, "I'm not sensitive to numbers. You major in science, and mathematics is your strong point. You have to choose yourself."

"It's because I know numbers that I hesitated when choosing. People like you who don't know anything at all are easy to be lucky."

Xu Bai felt it was unfair, but he had nothing to do at home, so he simply regarded researching lottery tickets as playing a digital game.She knew it was stupid to do so, it was tantamount to self-hypnosis, but since Meimei wasn't worried, why should she care?

At first they would win a small prize, and then go out to eat and drink.Later, Liang Haimei gradually asked her to increase the amount of purchases, but Xu Bai, who was more and more sensitive to numbers, did not win any prizes. Instead, he mentally calculated their monthly spending on the lottery tickets.

"Three prizes a week, 60 each time, 720 a month, can we earn 720?"

"The money is still there. As long as we win the big prize once, we will turn around and continue to work hard." Liang Haimei went into the kitchen to cook.

They eat hot pot at home recently. In Meimei's words, it is cheap to eat hot pot, and any dish can be put into the pot.Xu Bai was very happy that she didn't have to eat instant noodles anymore. After all these years, she was no longer as picky about food as she was when she was a child, because she was too hungry.

But the number game also got tired of playing one day, and Xu Bai regretted accepting this impossible task more and more.Occasionally, when she was a little tired and didn't want to choose, Liang Haimei would keep nagging and even get angry.

Xu Bai saw Bai Mingzhi when he was young in Liang Haimei's eyes like the leader of a cult. He sat on the mahjong table and was addicted to gambling all day.

Xu Bai often thinks hard in the middle of the night, and at this moment, she really wants someone to rescue her and point her in the right direction.She doesn't want to become the kind of adult she used to look down on, who regards gambling as a hobby, even risking her own wealth and life!

But she couldn't find the exit, so she became addicted to cigarettes.

Liang Haimei hated her smoking at first, but later she knew she couldn't control it, so she let Xu Bai hold a cigarette in his mouth, staring at the computer with red eyes like a cold corpse, playing digital games on paper.

Only when he occasionally teases Totoro and takes Lele out for a walk, Xu Bai will feel that she has not lost touch with this society.

"Did you bring the money? Let's pay the utility bills."

Xu Bai glanced at the bag on his back, and nodded wearily.Liang Haimei then started the car, walked around a few streets, and arrived at the payment location.

When he finally finished queuing up and was about to touch his card, Xu Bai realized that there was no electricity bill card in his bag...

"Okay, I forgot to put it in, let's go back and get it."

Unexpectedly, Liang Haimei lost her temper on the spot: "You can't remember anything, it's a waste of gasoline! What a fart, you go back and get it yourself, and then hand it in after you get it!" After finishing speaking, she turned around and left the door.

Xu Bai was stunned on the spot, and chased after passing through several melon-eating crowds.

"I'm so tired all day. You don't like to take things when you go out. I take care of everything. I forget occasionally. Why are you so angry with me in front of everyone!" She tugged at Liang Haimei's arm , "Don't forget, I'm still sick! Have you ever cared about me?"

"If I don't care about you, I won't cook hot pot for you!"

Xu Bai gritted his teeth and said, "Maybe you love me, but compared to the harm you did to me, it's really nothing."

Liang Haimei roared: "I gave everything for you. I didn't want anything, so I chose you. Now you say I'm hurting you?"

"Everything you give up, I give up too!"

"Like I said, you never got into college, can your loss compare with mine?"

"You bitch, that's no reason for you to push yourself!"

Xu Bai left this sentence behind and returned home trembling with Lele in his arms, fearing that Liang Haimei would hit her.

Liang Haimei ran into the room, snorted coldly and said to her: "Then you go, don't come back again, if you step out of this door today, we will break up!"

"Are you chasing me?"

"Yes, I let you go!"

"Do you know what you're doing..."

Liang Haimei lay on the sofa with a comfortable expression on her face: "I know, I'll let you go."

"Okay, okay..." Xu Bai's face turned pale, "You said this, Liang Haimei... This house is yours in the first place. If you let me go, I will never have the cheek to stay. I would rather sleep on the road." She turned around and opened the closet, and began to collect the clothes that were not much in the first place.

Liang Haimei yawned: "Take your chinchilla and Lele away too."

In a fit of anger, Xu Bai threw the packed box into the corridor, then took Lele by his hand, and pushed the chinchilla cage out of the door.

The elevator couldn't fit, so she first sent the chinchilla cage to the first floor, and then came up on the return journey to bring the box and Lele down.

When she was considering whether to call her mother or sleep on the street, Liang Haimei chased her down and dragged her to cry and make noise.

"I told you to go, but you really did!" Liang Haimei stopped in front of her, "Don't you know that I just want you to stay?"

Xu Bai suspected that he heard it wrong: "Oh, you let me go, but you actually want me to stay? What nonsense logic, you must be full."

"You have been so fierce recently, you have never been gentle to me. When I drove you away, I just wanted to hear you say 'I won't leave, I won't leave you'..."

Xu Bai hummed and smiled: "Oh, you mean to say that I don't understand style?"

"You don't understand romance."

Xu Bai put the box heavily on the ground: "Look at what is around us, four scared chinchillas and a dog that looks like it was picked up from the ruins... At this time, you are still talking about romance with me, Your brain is trapped by the door, isn't it?"

"If you really love me, no matter how hard I drive you away, I won't leave!"

"No, you just want to say that you win me, because you have never lost. You rely on the house to be yours, and trample on my feelings at will. I will not obey you!"

The two quarreled downstairs for a while, almost alarming the police next to the community.Xu Bai didn't know what to do, and was finally pulled back by Liang Haimei's persuasion. By the time she lay on the bed, she was already exhausted.

Xu Bai has always refused to accept the absurd statement that "emotions can be broken at will, and they must be restored automatically if they are broken, otherwise it is not deep enough to love".

"Emotions require mutual respect, do you understand?"

"You and I are so close that we almost watch each other go to the bathroom. Do we have to break so many rules? Xiaobai, I leave you with the worst temper because you are my dearest person."

"Hmph, what an injury in the name of love."

"What did you say?"

Xu Bai shook his head: "It's nothing, you go ahead, I'll go out and cut my hair."

She drove to Yueyang Pedestrian Street, looking for a barber shop to repair the split ends of her hair.

Xu Bai basked in the winter sun and felt better.When passing by Ladies Market, I was attracted by a wig shop at the door.I thought, if she loses her hair like this again, maybe she will have to wear a wig to live in the future... After thinking about it, she walked in.

When the shopkeeper saw her coming, he just moved around to make it easier.Xu Bai numbly looked around at the wigs of different styles, and finally pointed to one.

The little brother looked over, but took the men's wig next to him to Xu Bai.

Xu Bai stared at the hairstyle in his hand that only appeared in Korean dramas, hesitating whether to tell his brother that he got it wrong...

But the little brother just lowered his head to play with his phone, so Xu Bai sat in front of the mirror and messed up the wig on his head.

When the little brother finally realized his conscience and came to help her tuck the extra bangs into the hairnet, Xu Bai sat back in front of the mirror and looked at himself.

It was a very strange face - Xu Bai almost didn't recognize that it was her!

It was the first time she saw herself showing her forehead and ears, but it happened that her forehead was very full. Coupled with the two thick eyebrows and this cool short hair, Xu Bai's whole person was energetic.

She was fascinated by the "little fresh meat" in the mirror, and had the urge to pounce on it and lick it.Because she was so handsome... This turned out to be herself?

She is still narcissistic, as if a sleeping beast is gradually waking up deep in her heart... I saw the little brother beside me smiling and saying: "Wow, the cold type, I like it."

"Uh, thank you..." Xu Bai took off his wig while he was playing with his phone again, and slipped out of the store.

She went into the barber shop and asked the barber to trim her long hair without saying a word.I thought, does she prefer to be a T?

Then he denied himself again.But that comfortable feeling stayed with her until she went home, and she even felt a little guilty the moment she saw Meimei.

"Honey, you're finally back, come and take a look, there seems to be something wrong with it."

Xu Bai went to the cage and took a look at the mother chinchilla, then opened the cage and gently hugged her out.It has a bulging stomach, as if it is about to die...

The mother chinchilla is Xu Bai's favorite one, but there is no pet hospital in the entire city that can treat chinchillas, which is tantamount to a death sentence for her.But they still found a hospital that was willing to try to operate on it, and the operation fee was thousands of dollars.

The two fell into the same predicament as Xiao Qi at that time, but they still chose to save it.Only this time, they couldn't afford the money.

Xu Bai had no choice but to call Bai Mingzhi to the hospital and ask his mother to help her pay first.Fortunately, my mother was still bothering my father about going to become a monk, so I didn't ask much.

"Where's Liang Haimei? Why didn't she come with you?"

Xu Baihong looked at her and said, "She's busy with store business." She didn't tell her mother, Meimei didn't dare to show up at all because she had no money.

In the end, due to postpartum uterine infection, the chinchilla mother had to cut the uterus but failed to get off the operating table.

Bai Mingzhi cried and said, "Why do you have to bear this kind of thing alone?"

"She hasn't closed her eyes for a few days, and she is taking care of Totoro." Xu Bai hugged the box containing Totoro's mother tightly, "Forget it, let's not talk about her. Don't you like Lele very much, take her back to live for a while time."

Liang Haimei also agreed with this matter, and it was discussed before.

"Your father...he doesn't live at home anymore. He rented a house outside. We don't know the location. You can give me Lele. I will take her out for a trip during the Spring Festival. We will talk about it after this period of time .”

Xu Bai listened to his mother complaining expressionlessly, as if this matter had nothing to do with her, she was already chilled.

In the blink of an eye, it was 2014, Xu Bai's 24th birthday year.People around them have started to use smartphones one after another, and started to play Moments, but they still hide like criminals on the opposite side of the bustling Nanxi Road, living in this small black house built by lies.

It is said that their natal years were full of hardships, and the two had no choice but to sell the car to continue their lives.

This year, neither of my parents went home to celebrate the New Year, nor did Xu Bai, and it happened that she didn't like the New Year either. For ordinary people, the New Year is reunion, but for Lala, it means separation.

Xu Bai likes new beginnings, and he also knows that Meimei likes incense, so he proposes to go to Nanxi Road to visit temples.

There is a beseeching Bodhisattva in the temple, and Liang Haimei asked her to make a wish to have a baby in the future.

Xu Bai clasped his hands together: "Okay, I hope I can have a lovely daughter."

"I like sons. But daughters are also good. Daughters are more obedient."

"Yes, as long as it's not our kind..." She stood up and accompanied Meimei to see other bodhisattvas.

When they finished visiting the temple and played with the fireworks that sprayed white silk at one point by the river, Xu Bai seemed to capture the enthusiastic and righteous Meimei 9 years ago in Liang Haimei's childlike smile. that person.

But all these good things are like fireworks, fleeting...

After the Spring Festival, the two were still arguing about everything at home.Liang Haimei said that when she was in a hurry, she started to chase people away like before. Xu Bai slammed the door angrily every time, and never softened his mouth once.This went back and forth a total of more than 20 times, and she was completely numb...

"Don't beg me to go back if you are capable!" Xu Bai shouted to Liang Haimei who followed her downstairs.

Liang Haimei dragged her home, and the two started fighting again behind closed doors.Xu Bai knew Liang Haimei couldn't beat Liang Haimei with brute force, so he closed his eyes and tore at random.

"Come on, if you beat me, I will obey you!"

"I really want to slap you hard! I told you before, as long as I slap you, it will prove that I don't love you!"

Liang Haimei stopped suddenly, pulled her up, and then stood in front of her, as if provoking Xu Bai, let her go!

Xu Bai pursed his lips, raised his trembling right hand, and slapped him cruelly.But she didn't hit anything, Liang Haimei got out of the way a long time ago, and then rushed back, pinning her on the sofa.

Xu Bai was furious, she stared sharply like a wolf, pushed Meimei away, and slapped her back.

With a bang, it hit Liang Haimei on the left cheek!

She looked at her hands with tears in her eyes. It was obvious that Liang Haimei had been beaten, but her heart was bleeding...

Before she could recover, Liang Haimei slapped her hard and rushed out of the balcony.

"You're crazy, it's raining heavily outside!" Xu Bai roared, and followed him out.

It was already dark, and even the neon lights were out.Amidst gusts of wind and the sound of raindrops, Xu Bai squinted his eyes and saw Liang Haimei climbing over the railing...