Rebirth of the Lost Me

Yang Qing gently traced those scars back then through his trousers, but he was thinking about the last life in his mind. In this life, he was thinking, if he hadn't clearly remembered the process of losing too much blood and gradually turning cold , the previous life seemed to be just a dream, a nightmare.

The last thing he should have liked in his last life was to fall in love with Zhang Rin, Yang Qing thought so, but he also knew that no matter how many times he did it again, he would fall in love with that person again, and the other Yang Qing in his body could fall in love with him He is the best proof.

But Yang Qing thinks that it is not impossible to fall in love with Zhang Rin.When his parents divorced, both of them left their hometown quickly. Although his grandparents love him, the old man has been dealing with farm work all his life, and he is not an expressive person.He was only 12 years old at that time, and he was eager to be cared for. Zhang Rin suddenly appeared at that time, can he not let him be moved?

Although later Yang Qing also knew that it was just an illusion, not love, but he had been trapped for so long, and he couldn't do it if he really wanted to stop thinking about that person completely. He could only sink deeper and deeper. I don't like dealing with people even more.

During the years of being isolated in high school, he always felt that he would be crushed in the next second, and he even came up with an idea every few days, go to hell.Looking back now, he was really strong at that time, and he could persist in such days.After going through the hardest years, he finally went to university. He went to Hangzhou, a completely unfamiliar city, and started his completely different life.

When he was a freshman, he looked no different from other boys. He would fight, chat together, and occasionally go on a trip, but the impact of his high school years was still great, and his sensitivity did not disappear. But after saying a wrong sentence, he would blame himself and be afraid for a long time. Others' attitude towards him changed a little, and he wondered if he had done something wrong. Later, in order not to be affected by those emotions, he pretended not to care If you are in a bad mood, buy a ticket to go to another city for two days, or have sex with a strange man, and gradually become more lonely.

After all, human beings live in groups, how can they live well without the group?His psychological pressure gradually increased, until after living alone for several years, he could no longer bear the feeling of loneliness, nor could he bear the wild thoughts when he was alone, and he could no longer think about it without him. Later, how sad his loved ones will be, he let himself go.

Rebirth is something that Yang Qing never thought of. In his previous life, articles about rebirth were popular. The protagonist can always make up for his regrets after rebirth, and finally live the life of a winner in life, but Yang Qing does not want this rebirth. one chance.

Do it again, the original self is still in the body, and his appearance puts the original self in an embarrassing situation. Who would have thought that he would share the body with the original self once again, and he who has more than ten years of memories from his previous life and future , it has become a personality in the split personality, but fortunately, most of the right to use the body is with him. In the final analysis, he shares the same body with himself, and he will not be affected much.

Although in the previous life he had seen clearly that he didn't really like Zhang Rin, but just an illusion, in this life he wanted to stay away from Zhang Rin, but something went wrong with Zhang Rin, and he didn't do anything in this life On the contrary, Zhang Rin was worried about him, and Zhang Rin just ticked off the other him who hadn't appeared for a few days.

In junior high school, Zhang Rin was just a kid. For Yang Qing, who has an old heart, it was impossible to like him. After high school, although Zhang Rin gradually opened up and roughly looked like he is now, but It's not that Yang Qing would like it, Zhang Rin was too young for him, so he chose Wang Yi.

Yang Qing was sure that when he was with Wang Yi back then, he didn't like Wang Yi at all, he just liked Wang Yi in his eyes, and Wang Yi could take care of him, so he agreed to him.Facts have proved that his choice of Wang Yi has indeed allowed him to live a comfortable life for several years.

But how much do you like that person?Now Yang Qing hesitated again, he was thinking, if he really liked it so much, how could he not have any feelings for another Yang Qing after a few months?But if he didn't like it, what was the reason for him who was dying because of Wang Yi's deception?Yang Qing doesn't want to think about these anymore, because he doesn't feel the slightest bit about Wang Yi now, so what's the use of thinking about them.

In this life, Yang Qing intentionally or unintentionally has less contact with his family members. Of course, apart from his grandparents, Yang Ren was also picked up by his second uncle last year. Only Yang Qing’s grandparents are left in the family. However, there are two dogs who accompany them so that they will not be too lonely.The old man is illiterate, and the farthest place he has been to is the city, and only a few times, they are afraid of getting lost. These days, the car can travel a long distance in a short time, and it will take people to strange places in a short time, so the old man Guard the family's fields with peace of mind, feed some livestock, and save some eggs to visit their children and grandchildren during the festival.

After losing contact with his family, Yang Qing's living circle is now even smaller, and Zhang Rin is the one he faces the most every day.Zhang Rin always felt that he was blaming him for having raped him back then, but Yang Qing really didn't blame him. For him, there would be someone else without Zhang Rin. Although this body was the first time for him in the last life He had experienced it countless times when he was young, but he said that even if Zhang Rin didn't believe it, there was nothing he could do.

Yang Qing's memories stay today, like today's confession, and he can't help but feel a little hot in his body. His memory has never been very good, but he just remembered that passage, not only remembering that passage, He still remembered where Zhang Rin paused when he said those words, and which words were emphasized. This feeling was strange and new to him.

What Zhang Rin wanted was the future, and Yang Qing himself couldn't determine the future.

Since he was able to give Wang Yi a chance at the beginning, he should be fair to Zhang Rin who is so devoted to him now.

Thinking of this, Yang Qing instantly felt a lot more relaxed, and then he wanted to tell Zhang Rin the news immediately. He couldn't help but want to see Zhang Rin's joy when he heard this sentence. After thinking about it, Yang Qing The mood also became clearer.

He thought about it, and only then did he realize that the surroundings were very dark, and the street lights were on outside the window, so he couldn't see clearly. Only then did he realize that it was already late, so he got off the hanging chair and went outside.

The child had already gone to bed, Zhang Rin was still sitting in the living room, when he saw Yang Qing coming out, he immediately walked over, but after he came over, he didn't know what to say, stood there a little at a loss, and looked at Yang Qing from time to time Seeing that everything is normal, I feel a little relieved.

"Zhang Rin, from tonight, move to my room. Didn't you always want a gym, change your room into a gym."