Rebirth of the Lost Me

"What's wrong with the child now? Why does the family spend money to find a tutor for her and doesn't like to learn? Today I spent most of my time communicating with Wei Han. I almost asked her to learn, so I don't understand. , how could this background be so poor, now she is in the third year of high school, and the college entrance examination is a few months away, I guess she will struggle to take the high school entrance examination now, if it is not for this little money, I would like to recruit this A share of the guilt?"

Yang Qing lay down on the sofa, put his legs on Zhang Rin's lap, and yawned impatiently after listening to his words.

"Her mother is decent and kind, but I don't know why they don't have a good relationship. When I went out just now, I heard her mother talk to her and he ignored her. Do you think it's common for children nowadays? The rebellious period has been delayed? Why wasn’t I like her back then? The people in our class were pretty good back then, or are girls like that?”

Zhang Rin touched Yang Qing's feet on his lap. His feet were white and tender. He looked like a person who seldom walks. His feet were no different from ordinary men's feet. They were also thin, and the muscles and bones on the back of the feet could be seen. It's just that his feet are quite small, and each toe is round and crystal clear, making Zhang Rin love it every time.

"But the little girl is very funny, and she asked me to bring her food next time. Ask her what to bring and don't tell me. Really, I don't know what the little girl is thinking!"

Yang Qing sat up from the sofa all of a sudden, and pulled out the foot in his hand, but the other leg was still placed on his, which seemed a little inexplicable.

"what happened?"

"I wanted to see how long you could talk about her, but I couldn't take it anymore. What do you mean by talking about girls? Do you think I'm boring? That's just who I am, and I'm boring. You knew it! Or Said that you now find that you are actually more interested in girls? Want to use this incident to separate from me?"

"What are you talking about? I don't think you're boring!"

Yang Qing simply retracted the other leg, stopped looking at Zhang Rin, but watched the TV, the TV was already on, no one was watching, and they were not interested in TV.

"Yang Qing?"

Zhang Rin tried to hug him, then pecked lightly on his face, just hugged him like this, recalling what happened from the moment he came back, he went to take a shower when he came back, and then came out to eat the rest of Yang Qing While he was eating the big bowl of dumplings, Yang Qing went to take a shower. When he came out, Zhang Rin sat on the sofa and watched TV. Then, he seemed to be talking about Wei Han all the time. In this way, What Yang Qing said was true.

It is the first time for Zhang Rin to earn money by himself when he grows up so big, so he is somewhat excited. As the person closest to him now, he thinks that Yang Qing would also want to know about this. It's just that he didn't take into account that Yang Qing was his boyfriend. He was talking about other people in front of his boyfriend. It's normal for him to be unhappy.

"If you really don't like me going, I'll tell her mother that I can't go, or if you think I spend too little time with you, I don't go to the gym every day, and I will accompany you, Yang Qing, don't be angry, okay?" ?”

"You don't even know!"

Yang Qing waved Zhang Rin's hand away, and walked back to the room barefoot without even wearing slippers.Zhang Rin who was left still felt inexplicable, why did the always gentle Yang Qing lose his temper suddenly?It came so unexpectedly.

After returning to the room, Yang Qing only felt that the depression in his heart had risen to a higher level. Inexplicably, he thought that he had encountered a fucking thing at night. Thinking about it now, since his parents divorced, his memory has never appeared in his memory. This person is gone, he doesn't know if he saw his mother when Yang Qing appeared, but he never saw his mother once.He went to university in Nanjing, which he didn't hide from her, but living in a city so close, she never said that she was here, let alone came to see him.

Yang Qing also knew that he shouldn't have lost his temper with Zhang Rin just now, but facing such a person who dotes on him, he became unscrupulous and wanted to vent his depression.

Yang Qing sat on the hanging chair next to the floor-to-ceiling window, hugged the pillow, but thought about those things that had long been buried deep in his memory.

When I was young, the conditions at home were not good, but it’s great for the family to be happy together. Now, there is nothing left. He doesn’t understand how people of that era, walking together through blind dates, can go on without love. Now, there is love between him and Zhang Rin, but he is also uneasy, because he got angry with Zhang Rin today, and he is afraid that Zhang Rin will care about it and hate him because of it.

I still miss when I was a child, simple and happy, but people are such strange creatures. When I was young, I wanted to grow up quickly, and when I grow up, I will miss the beginning again.

Yang Qing suddenly thought about those times when he didn't exist. When Yang Qing lived for him, would he also feel his depression now?Did he also look forward to his parents' love from the beginning and become as numb as he is now?Yang Qing's mind became messed up. He was not good at thinking. Now that he was thinking about these things, his mind suddenly disconnected when he seemed to have a clue.

What kind of person is he? Yang Qing was curious for the first time. In the past six months when he had the right to use his body, Yang Qing had understood this phenomenon, multiple personalities. He didn't know the reason for forming another personality, but he thought, maybe that Yang Qing is better, he can be admitted to this university so easily, he can make both Zhang Rin and Wang Yi like him, and he can earn so much money, but what kind of person is that Yang Qing?Does he even know he exists?

When he thought about Yang Qing, he would think about whether it was correct to tell Zhang Rin about his situation. For so many days, Zhang Rin didn't ask any questions, but Yang Qing just felt uneasy.

As soon as he came home, he turned on the heating, but it was still quite cold, maybe it had something to do with his physique, but he didn't bother to get clothes to wear, so he just hugged the pillow and fell asleep after a while. In his dream, he saw him again In that scene, the man was sleeping on the bed, the blood from his wrist kept flowing out, and there was a knife in his other hand.In the dream, the man's face was his face.