pointing to the stars

The next day, I didn't intend to go back, I wanted to stay with Ling Qiu for a day.But under Ling Qiu's persistent persuasion, I went back to my grandmother's house.

I don't know how to face my mother, but there are many things that I can't escape if I don't want to.Everything in the world is like this, I am just an ordinary person, I can only go with the flow.

Because I was afraid that my mother would speak ill of Ling Qiu again, I refused Ling Qiu's offer of kindness to me.When I stood in front of my grandmother's yard, my mother was sitting on a long bench, wiping her tears with a paper towel.

At that moment, I realized that my mother still cared about me.

However, when she looked at me with tears streaming down her face, such thoughts were gradually suppressed for some reason.Maybe it's just her hypocrisy, I thought.

My mother didn't scold me, but let me stand in front of her and listen to her cry.As for what she said, I didn't listen to it at all.If my mother really cared about me, then I might not be what I am now.

The gentle breeze mixed with the fragrance of the crops blows in, gradually submerging into my nose, and my chaotic mind wakes up.After nagging for a long time, my mother finally left, and I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

But before my mother left, she told me that in a few days, I had to go back to school.Maybe it's because I'm worried that being with Ling Qiu will desecrate her reserved high society.

Your Excellency is hypocritical.

I told Ling Qiu about my departure, Ling Qiu's expression froze, then he looked at me with a smile and said congratulatory words against his will.I don't know why, seeing him like this makes my heart ache.

As time passed, Ling Qiu said he wanted to take me to fly a kite.But I had never flown a kite before, so I was not sure, and I was afraid of embarrassing myself in front of him.But he seemed to see my worry and said to me, 'It's okay, I'll teach you'.

Perhaps, in front of Ling Qiu, I don't need to wear a hypocritical mask.At least, I think he should be special, different from others.

If it were time, it would be great to be able to stop at the best moment.

I mustered up the courage to complete the unfinished resolution last time.That is, I took a lot of photos with him, and the photos I took of Ling Qiu were all handsome and sunny.I told Ling Qiu that I would develop the photos and send him a copy.

After listening to what I said, he patted my shoulder and laughed happily.I found out later that it was his first time taking pictures.

After a few days, I set foot on the train back to school.He came to see me off, in his best suit.Then he gave me a small stone with a pattern, and I held it tightly in my hand and thanked Ling Qiu.

When the train moved slowly, I leaned against the window and watched him smile at me, wave his hands vigorously, and say goodbye loudly.I always feel sour in my heart, and unconscious tears welled up and flowed all over my cheeks.

When I got home, I developed the photos on my phone, plasticized them, and sent them to the post office.

Everyday life is integrated into my world again.

The next day, Monday.

I came to the classroom early and happened to meet Li Yang on duty.He stopped wiping the blackboard, tilted his head and looked at me stupidly.

"Morning." Out of politeness, I greeted him.

"Yeah." He turned his gaze to the blackboard.

I walked into the classroom, went to my seat, and took out the book.And he cleaned up the podium without saying a word.

Soon, students came in one after another and started the first morning class.

"Hey, Li Yang, the podium hasn't been cleaned." I was looking at the textbook in my hand when I heard Su Mu's voice.

I didn't look up, still staring at the textbook in my hand, flipping the pages casually.Hearing Su Mu's unkind tone, I think it's probably because of a conflict with Li Yang.

"Clean it up." Li Yang, who was sitting in front of me, said.

"Wipe it clean?" I glanced at Su Mu and watched Su Mu wipe the blackboard with his hands. "So much chalk dust is called wiped clean? Are you the one who is the one who is on duty?"

"Su Mu, don't go too far." For some reason, I felt Li Yang's voice tremble a little, and my eyes fell on his back, his body was trembling slightly.

I have only been out of school for a week, and the relationship between the two has not improved, but has become worse and worse.why is that?I do not understand.

"I'm the class monitor, if I say I didn't clean it up, I didn't clean it up! Come here and clean it up, or I'll deduct points from you in the name of the class monitor!" Su Mu said arrogantly to Li Yang, without giving Li Yang any face.

As for Li Yang's former friends, none of them stood up to speak up for him, and all of them looked like they had nothing to do with them.The thoughts in my heart gradually became extreme, if things continue like this, maybe I can be friends with Li Yang again.

Although such an idea is a bit shameless, at least I am sincere.It's different from his so-called cronies.But I dare not take the initiative to show my favor, so as not to make him feel that I am sympathizing with him, which will intensify the conflict.

I live carefully, for fear of touching the bottom line of those around me.Maybe it's because I don't communicate too much with people, so I always think in other places habitually.I don't want anyone who can cherish me to pass away from my eyes.

At noon, I went to the cafeteria alone to eat and came back, and saw Li Yang's table was painted with chalk, with some curse words written on it, probably Su Mu ordered someone to do it.

But it seems that it has nothing to do with me.

During the lunch break, I saw Li Yang came back, the clothes on his body seemed to have been pulled, bruises remained on his hands and face, and there were footprints on his trousers.

He looked at the chalk scribbles on the table, erased them silently, and then lay down on the seat.I took a peek at his expression, it seemed that he was used to it.

During the get out of class, Li Yang was lying on the desk all the time, as if he had fallen asleep.The next section is a self-study class. The teacher asked to set up a mutual help group to help the students learn.

Everyone was divided into groups, only Li Yang and I were left, so we had to be divided together.But I wasn't ready yet, what to say to him.

He turned around to face me with the book in his hand, looked down at the book in his hand, and didn't say a word.

Seeing his appearance, I didn't talk to him, for fear of touching his emotions.I was reading a book when I heard someone calling me.

I turned my head to look, and there were two girls, but I don't remember their names.They took the textbooks and wanted to ask me questions, I agreed, and then taught them to do the questions.

This class is based on the grades, so the people in the class don't have any opinions on me.Even Su Mu understands that grades in class determine everything.

But also for this reason, I feel farther and farther away from Li Yang's figure.Li Yang no longer had a smile on his face, his body had bruises from being beaten every day, and he was doused with water a few times.

But he still didn't say a word to me.

After school in the afternoon, the recess bell rang in the hallway.The breeze blew the classroom curtains, and the books on the table were flipping.I packed my schoolbag, looked at Li Yang's back wiping the blackboard, and didn't know what to say.

After I finished my schoolbag, I went to the back of the classroom and picked up the garbage bag. Out of politeness, I said to him: "Li Yang, I'll go first, and throw away the garbage by the way. Go home after you wipe the blackboard."

"Tiansen." He stopped wiping the blackboard.

"What's wrong?" I looked at him.

"I'm sorry." Li Yang put down the blackboard eraser and rested his forehead on the blackboard. "I regret what I said to you back then, I'm really sorry."

I walked up to him and looked at him: "You didn't apologize to me. As your friend, I just wanted to support your ideas and make you feel at ease. I didn't expect it to turn out like this.

You are a person who doesn't hit a wall and doesn't look back, so in order not to destroy the relationship and create a new friendship, I can only agree with your decision.

Maybe both of us are wrong. "

"Tiansen, don't excuse me anymore." Li Yang clenched his fists and slammed on the blackboard: "It's obviously my fault, why should you bear it!"

"Things in the world are inherently contradictory, there is no right or wrong." I looked at him: "But when making a decision, you will always make the most favorable decision. You and I are the same."

What you think is to be with Su Mu, for you, this is the most beneficial.To me, it is in my best interest to restore a relationship that is about to break down.

People will always give up some things at a certain time, good, bad, valuable, and worthless.But what I give up are things that I don’t need at this point in time.

"It's different! It's all different!" Li Yang's shoulders trembled, his voice choked up: "If I had listened to Tiansen, I wouldn't have become like this. That woman Su Mu was using me to isolate Tiansen!

Me, I betrayed Tiansen just to be with Su Mu!I am no longer qualified to be a brother with you! "

"That's why I was lucky." I looked at him and smiled, "Didn't I say that I'll wait for you?"

He turned his head and looked at me in surprise, with tears still on his face.

I took out a tissue from my trouser pocket and handed it to him: "Li Yang, please be friends with me again."

A sudden breeze passed through the corridors and streets, and the wind chimes made crisp sounds.

That afternoon, Li Yang cried in front of me for an unknown amount of time.