pointing to the stars

There are many things that cannot obey my wishes.My mother didn't know what was going on like crazy, but she came to see me in person.Although such a statement is disrespectful to my mother, I really don't want her to appear at this moment.

"Sensen, are you feeling better?" My mother looked at me with concern.

"It's okay, just rest for a few days." I tried to talk to my mother: "If you are busy, leave early, and you can catch the car early." Although I said this, in fact, it was only ten o'clock in the morning.

"Okay." After finishing speaking, mother and grandma chattered a few words, and then left in a hurry.I am glad that my mother's arrival did not affect my next plan.

I walked around the small red brick wall and went up the hill.In order to prevent my mother from killing her carbine, I leaned against the wall and looked outside until I saw my mother on the other side of the rice field get into the car and disappeared at the end of the concrete road, then I turned my eyes and walked up the mountain.

When I got to the meeting place, Ling Qiu was already standing there waiting for me. I felt a little embarrassed about it, after all, I was late.

"Morning, Tiansen." Ling Qiu smiled when he saw me waving my hand.

"Morning." I walked to his side.

He handed the wooden sign he was holding in front of me: "You take this first."

"Hmm." I took the wooden stick and looked at him: "What is this for?"

"A small fan." He smiled and looked at me.

We climbed up the hillside and walked around to a bamboo forest. The bamboos here grow very tall. When we looked up, the green bamboo leaves blocked the sunlight, and a few mottled halos fell by chance.Bamboo shoot shells can be seen everywhere under the feet.

We don't know how long we searched in the bamboo forest, but I didn't feel bored. I was very happy watching his back as he walked forward.

"I found it." At this moment, Ling Qiu stopped and walked towards a bamboo. I also followed him, but I was afraid of disturbing him, so I stayed away from him a few steps.

But I have already seen the bamboo shoot worm on the bamboo. This one is orange, and the wings are black and yellow, with two slender barbs.

"Caught it." Ling Qiu cautiously approached the bamboo shoot worm, quickly reached out to grab the bamboo shoot worm, and then tore off its two slender barbs.

I took a closer look and thought it was quite beautiful.

"Catch some more." Ling Qiu put the bamboo shoot worms into a plastic bag, and continued to search in the bamboo forest.I followed behind him with a plastic bag.Until noon, the two of us harvested about a dozen bamboo shoot worms.

During the period, Ling Qiu's fingers were scratched by the barbs of the bamboo shoot insects, which made me feel sorry, after all, he brought me to catch the bamboo shoot insects, but Ling Qiu didn't care about it.

At noon, as soon as we arrived at my grandmother's house, I saw my mother standing in front of the yard, looking at me seriously.

My mother walked towards me, threw the bamboo shoot insect in a plastic bag in my hand on the ground, and pulled me down beside her.Then he looked at Ling Qiu and spoke ill at each other.

Mother mercilessly cursed Ling Qiu with vulgar language.But the voice in my ear seemed to have disappeared, and my mother told me with a bewildered expression that she was saying something hurtful, but all I could hear was Ling Qiu's bow and apology.

I just felt a throbbing pain in my heart, and my five fingers sank deep into the palm inadvertently, and the pain from it stimulated my nerves.

"If I see you looking for my Sensen again, see if I don't break your leg!"

"Enough!" I broke away from my mother's hand and pushed her away with both hands.Protecting Ling Qiu behind her back: "Don't hurt my friend anymore!"

My mother looked at me in astonishment for a few seconds, and then said some nasty words to Ling Qiu who was behind me.At that moment, I really wish I wasn't her child.

I took Ling Qiu's hand and ran towards the field path without turning my head, ignoring my mother's yelling behind me.People who only think about themselves, people who only control my life, people who only hurt my friends, countless labels are attached to my mother at that moment.

Parents hardly care about anything but work.At home, it's just me all the time.Occasional phone calls, but also more than 3 minutes.Whether it's a parent meeting or a birthday, they just use excuses to get away.

Sometimes, I wonder what are they trying to earn money for?For me?But I don't need money, all I need is their company, but they never understand.

I didn't know how long I had been running, but I didn't stop until I was out of breath.Holding his hands on his knees, panting heavily, the grievance that had been suppressed in his heart for a long time finally turned into tears and overflowed his eyes.

Ling Qiu came to my side and patted my back lightly: "It's all right."

"It's okay." I wiped the tears with my arms, but I couldn't dry them. I was at a loss: "What's going on, I don't want to cry..."

Really, I don't want to cry anymore.

I don't know how long I held Ling Qiu and cried, and I also told Ling Qiu everything hidden in my heart.Ling Qiu listened quietly to my story as usual, patted my back to comfort me.

Later, I didn't intend to go back to my grandmother's house, but Ling Qiu invited me to his house.Maybe I misunderstood Ling Qiu, I really thought he was a monster living in the mountains.

Ling Qiu's house is a thatched cottage, no different from other houses.However, it's pretty dilapidated here.There is a big hole missing in the glazed tiles covering the thatched hut, and there is a big iron basin under the hole, which is probably used to catch rainwater.

"My house is a bit shabby." Ling Qiu smiled awkwardly, "But it's more reassuring than leaving you outside alone."

"It's good." As I blurted out this sentence, I felt my hypocrisy again.

"I think so too." Ling Qiu laughed and said, "You don't need to go out at night, you can see the stars and the moon lying in the bed. But it's a different matter when it rains, haha."

I envy Ling Qiu's optimistic attitude, it seems that he is always smiling happily.But is that really his smile?I don't want to ask for answers, and I don't dare.

In the evening, after Ling Qiu and I had dinner, we lay down on the bunk and looked at the sky full of stars.

"The old people said that the stars in the sky are made of dead people, and they said they would protect their most important people. Is it true?" Ling Qiu asked suddenly.

"I don't know." I replied, "But I heard that when a person leaves this world, a shooting star will appear in the sky. If you make a wish toward this shooting star, your wish will come true."

"It sounds a bit unbelievable."

"However, I don't think so." I put my hands behind my head: "If you think about it, if you encounter a meteor shower that is rare in a century, like the last Leonid meteor shower, wouldn't it be that many people will die at the same time? drop."

"Probably." Ling Qiu stared at the stars in the sky: "Tiansen, you said that if you make a wish like a shooting star, your wish will come true. After you die, will you also become a shooting star and fulfill others' wishes?"

"Well, you can't say for sure?" Although I know the principle of the formation of stars in my heart, I don't want to destroy this atmosphere.

"But I still think the old people say that the stars are good." Ling Qiu turned his head to look at me, his black and clear eyes were shining with silver.

"is it?"

"Well." Ling Qiu looked at the stars in the sky: "If after death, I can turn into a star to protect important people, I always feel that those who live in this world will no longer feel lonely."

I couldn't tell if Ling Qiu was talking about the stars or himself.Speaking of which, I never tried to understand Ling Qiu.I've been with him for so long, but I don't know him at all.

I always feel that I am not a competent friend.

"If I could become a star, I would like to become that one." Ling Qiu pointed to the stars in the night sky.

I looked towards the sky, looking at the direction of his finger, is that star...

"Why that one?"

"Because it's the brightest." Ling Qiu put down his hand, "If you want to be discovered by the guardian, you have to work harder to shine."

"But you can't see the stars if no one looks up."

"Even so, he has to work hard to shine. Maybe when he remembers to look up at the sky, he can notice that someone is guarding him."

At that moment, I suddenly felt like one of the most inconspicuous stars in the sky full of stars.I never thought about trying to shine, trying to get someone's attention.

Always perfunctory to face the troubles, just want to escape dodge, never dare to face the problem, solve the problem.

Therefore, when people look up at the sky, they don't know where I am, and naturally they don't know what I'm thinking.

The gap between him and his parents seems to be like the sky full of stars.I always think that it is my parents' fault that they don't understand me.In fact, it's because I never worked hard for it.

Maybe it's my illusion, I always feel that I can notice many things inadvertently when I stay by Ling Qiu's side.