pointing to the stars

One afternoon after school.

Li Yang and I stayed to clean up, I think this is a good opportunity to clarify.Li Yang took the blackboard eraser to the window sill and slapped the chalk dust. I walked in front of him, and the dust filled my nose, making me cough a few times.

Li Yang stopped what he was doing, glanced at me, then turned and returned to the podium.

"Li Yang." I looked at him and opened my mouth.

The warm yellow sunlight slanted into the classroom, elongating the shadow under my feet, and the breeze blowing through the window, blowing the hair on my forehead.

"What's wrong?" Li Yang replied.

"That, that...I, I'm sorry." I organized countless words in my heart, but at the end it turned into a powerless apology.

"I said you..." Li Yang looked at me looking at a loss, sighed, walked in front of me, and put his hand on my shoulder.I can feel the scalding heat coming from his palm.

"Although I was a little angry when I knew it. But it's not angry with you, it's angry with myself." Li Yang said.

"It's my fault that I hid it from you." I looked down at the ground, "If I..."

"Tiansen, look at me."

"I..." I was full of hesitation, and finally I slowly raised my head to meet his gaze. The next second, I turned my gaze to look at the blackboard behind him.

"I don't blame you." Li Yang's voice came into my ears, I thought I was hallucinating, and instinctively met his gaze.

Li Yang scratched his head, and said a little embarrassedly: "Actually, I think I'm going too far. After all, you and the squad leader got together first, but I got in the way. So, my mind is messed up, and I don't know what to do. How do I face you."

After hearing these words, my mood calmed down a lot.I thought it was because I robbed the monitor that Li Yang would be angry.

"Then are we still friends?" I asked cautiously.I don't know what the relationship between men and women is like, but for me, the desire for friendship may be more.

"Yeah." Li Yang nodded and smiled, "I'm afraid Tiansen won't forgive me."

"How is it possible?" I laughed.

Later, I reconciled with Li Yang.After telling Li Yang that he was not interested in the monitor, Li Yang felt relieved to pursue the monitor.

For me, this is the best outcome.The squad leader said he likes me, but I don't like the squad leader too much, so there's nothing I can do about it.You can't force yourself to be with the monitor, so whether it's for the monitor or me, it's just hurting each other.

Perhaps at some point, the relationship that the two had barely established would crumble into pieces and disappear.

As the days passed, the squad leader's attitude towards me was still the usual, but he gave Li Yang a cold face.Li Yang was humiliated several times because of the monitor, but Li Yang didn't care at all.

Since Li Yang likes the monitor, I think I should help Li Yang too.But I'm afraid I'm doing myself a disservice.If you tell the squad leader to get along with Li Yang, maybe the squad leader becomes impatient and ignores Li Yang any more?

In the end, I gave up on my idea.Since it was Li Yang who chased after him, he should be the one who chased him himself to have a sense of accomplishment.

But things backfired, Li Yang was soon sued by the class monitor, Li Yang was also deducted credits for harassing his classmates, and was suspended for a week.

For this, I feel very guilty.Maybe Li Yang shouldn't have been encouraged to go after the squad leader, otherwise this kind of thing wouldn't have happened.

After school in the afternoon, I went to Li Yang's house.As soon as I arrived at the door of the unit, I saw Li Yang's body was covered with wounds, and his forehead was still bleeding.

"What's wrong with you?" I looked at Li Yang and worried.

"It's okay." Li Yang didn't care to wipe off the blood on his forehead, looked at me and smiled: "It's just being beaten up a few times by my dad, it's a small thing."

"Is this called a few beatings?" I frowned slightly, took his hand and walked towards the pharmacy not far away: "Treat the wound first."

"No, no need." He wanted to withdraw his hand, but I held it tightly.

"Listen to me." I stopped, looked at him, and said firmly.

"Ah good."

No matter what Li Yang's wishes are, I can't leave him alone.After all, he is the first friend I met in high school. Although I think he is self-righteous, he is still worth cherishing for me.

"Tiansen, I'm sorry to trouble you today." I accompanied him out of the pharmacy, and he said this.

In fact, at that time, what I wanted in my heart may not be these words, but...

When I went to school the next day, I realized that I was alone again, as if I had returned to the time in junior high school.

I packed my schoolbag, went out of the classroom, and met Su Mu.

She clutched the strap of her schoolbag tightly with both hands, and frowned slightly at me, as if she had something to say.The students in the corridor have all left, and only she and I are left standing in place.

I ignored her and passed by her, but she grabbed my schoolbag.

"Squad leader, what's the matter?" I asked.

"You, don't blame me, blame me? Don't you think that I'm too much and insidious, which caused Li Yang to suspend class and get his credit deducted?" Su Mu withdrew his hand, looked down at the ground, his shoulders trembled slightly.

"Yeah." I turned my head to see her answer, and then walked down the stairs.I don't know whether I should blame Su Mu or not. It is Su Mu's right to tell the teacher about it.

I just feel a little regretful about what happened to Li Yang.At the beginning, I was the one who agreed to let him pursue Su Mu. At that time, if I could consider that such a thing would happen, maybe I could stop it.

Walking out of the school gate, the remnant brilliance of the setting sun stretched my shadow.The bird standing on the telephone pole flapped its wings and flew into the distance.

As soon as I took a few steps, I heard hurried footsteps behind me.Maybe someone is in a hurry to go home.

I felt like the wind was blowing beside me, and I saw Su Mu standing in front of me.

"Squad leader, is there anything else?" I looked at her.

"I, I didn't do it on purpose." Su Mu propped his hands on his knees, panting heavily, and said after a moment of slowing down.

"Yeah." After I finished speaking, I turned around and was about to leave, but her voice came from behind me: "It's all your fault, isn't it! If it weren't for you, how could I do such a thing!

The one I like is obviously you, but you let Li Yang chase me, that's why I..."

"It's my fault." I stopped, "I shouldn't have let Li Yang chase you. But those who hurt him don't deserve to stand with him anymore."

Su Mu's weeping sound came from his ears, which was blown away by the sudden breeze.It would be unfair to Li Yang if the crimes suffered by Li Yang could be easily dismissed by Su Mu with a single sentence.

What Su Mu said kept echoing in his mind: It's all your fault, isn't it!The one I like is obviously you, but you let Li Yang chase me...

Like it or not, it's up to you.Then why is it considered an original sin if you don't like someone?

Su Mu probably imposed his hatred for me on Li Yang.So, I feel like it's all my fault.

Because of the recent mock exam, the classroom is full of tension.At the same time, I switched seats, and then Li Yang sat in front of me.

Su Mu was given the task of helping his classmates by the teacher because he was the third in grade.Among them, the students who need help include me.

The cafeteria was full of students at noon, and Li Yang set up a seat for me in advance.

"Tiansen, don't you want the monitor to give you tutoring?" Li Yang sat opposite me, waiting for the instant noodles on the table to be cooked.

"No." I replied.

"Aren't you still angry with the class monitor?" Li Yang said with a smile: "Actually, I'm too complacent, and I don't blame her for telling the teacher."

"Can you stop liking Su Mu?" I raised my eyes to meet his gaze: "She is not suitable for you."

"Ah...why, why do you say such things suddenly?" Li Yang was a little at a loss.

"How about another girl." I looked at him.

"Tiansen, you don't like the boss again, do you?" Li Yang frowned slightly and asked seriously.

"No." I swallowed the last bite of rice and put down my chopsticks.

"Then why don't you want me to chase her?" Li Yang asked.

"That woman doesn't deserve your kindness to her."

"Actually, that incident was a misunderstanding. It doesn't matter to me. It's not the squad leader's..."

"Enough!" I stood up suddenly, and shouted at him out of control, "You can do whatever you like!" I clenched my fingers, turned and left the cafeteria.

Although this kind of behavior is a bit childish, I know that Li Yang will not dislike Su Mu just because of my few words.I don't know much about the minds of teenage boys, or even what I'm thinking.

Perhaps, what I should say should be like the good friends around Li Yang, saying 'Congratulations on living a week! ''Yo, you didn't get beaten to death by your father, your vitality is so tenacious! ''This girl is a bit spicy, but it will definitely be exciting in your mouth, so don't hesitate to continue eating!Brothers support you! '

I couldn't say such a thing, I didn't quite understand why I continued since I was hurt, I even wondered, were those people really Li Yang's friends?

During the lunch break at noon, Li Yang threw me a note, but I didn't respond to him and threw the note into the desk.After a while, I watched him sit up straight and threw the paper crane in his hand over his shoulder.

I picked up the thousand paper cranes made of paper, and saw a string of small characters written on its wings: Tiansen, sorry for making you angry at noon.But I like Su Mu sincerely, so I hope you can support me≧▽≦

It's Li Yang's freedom to like whoever he likes, I'm just afraid that he will be hurt again.But Li Yang said that, so what can I say.

I stretched out my hand and poked Li Yang's back, and he immediately straightened his back and leaned back. I whispered in his ear, "Well, you work hard."

Li Yang turned his head to look at me, showing a happy smile, the next second he was hit by the chalk thrown by the head teacher: "Li Yang, during lunch break, no whispering."