Fanservice Paradox

Hearing fans telling them across the street that there are fireworks to watch, Ling Yi suddenly became interested, "Really? Is it good?"

"Extremely beautiful!"

So the six big boys rushed to the riverside to watch the fireworks, but there were more people here than they imagined, rubbing shoulders, and a group of people besieged when they stopped there.

"Staying here for a while won't mean we watch the fireworks." Lu Yuan held a lollipop in his mouth, "Maybe it's everyone watching us."

"Is there no place with a little less people?" He Ziyan turned his head to look.

Jiang Miao put her hands in her pockets, "I feel a little overwhelmed. It's better for us to withdraw as soon as possible, otherwise it will be bad if we attract fans and cause crowds to watch."

Ling Yi hugged the captain's arm and hummed.Pei Tingsong looked at the river in the distance, bumped Fang Juexia's shoulder with his shoulder, and asked in a low voice, "Want to watch the fireworks?"

Fang Juexia, who was tightly wrapped, raised her head, revealing only a pair of beautiful eyes, only blinked twice, and Pei Tingsong immediately understood.

"OK." Pei Tingsong grabbed his shoulders and let go, "Wait for me here."

Several other people were wondering, who knew that Pei Tingsong would come back not long after.

"Let's go to watch the fireworks." He pulled Fang Juexia's sweater sleeves.

Ling Yi was puzzled, "Where are you going?"

Finally they were taken to a large cruise ship.

Lu Yuan whistled, walked inside, and asked casually, "How many people are there?"

"No one, I've got it covered." Pei Tingsong tugged on Fang Juexia's sleeve, "Don't you want to watch the fireworks?"

He Ziyan put his hands behind his back like a veteran cadre, and shook his head again and again, "Look at this extravagance."

Ling Yi asked, "Is it the 10 yuan package just now?"

"Hahahahahaha!"

The night by the river was beautiful, but for Fang Juexia, his vision was still blurry. Pei Tingsong calmly led him up the steps step by step, walking forward, carefully and considerately.They boarded the deck of the night cruise, with less than 3 minutes left before the fireworks.Six people leaned shoulder to shoulder on the railing, looking up.

"Is it about to start?"

"Yes, this angle is very close."

"Yes, we should be directly below when it is lit."

Pei Tingsong leaned against Fang Juexia, the backs of their hands rubbed against each other, their skins were close and separated by a little distance, beside their teammates, in the dark night, they hid secretly and were about to stick to each other's hearts.

They heard the countdown from another boat full of tourists not far away.

Fang Juexia subconsciously counted with them in his heart, three, two, one.

The night sky was originally silent and dark, until a flame rose into the sky, and with a bang, fireworks suddenly appeared in the blurred vision, cold white, short and gorgeous, like meteors gathering together.He suddenly discovered that fireworks would lose their vitality through a distance or a screen. Only by watching them personally can you feel the splendor of blooming.

Every piece of shattered white flowing fire hung down in the air, as if it would flow to them, the viewers, and ignite them together in this carnival, but it didn't, these sparks disappeared when they fell halfway.

The fireworks in the sky are swallowed by the night, and the fireworks on the river are swallowed by ripples.

The new replaces the old before it dies.The echo of the fireworks penetrated the body, and the sound waves oscillated, overlapping with the heartbeat, hitting the chest cavity.

That's the last sound they make when they end their lives.

"Wow! Looks good!" Ling Yi pointed to the sky, "Look at that, doesn't it look like ears of wheat?"

"No, I want to make a wish, make a wish quickly."

"Are you a little girl? You still make a wish."

Ling Yi ignored it, "I want it, bless my parents to be healthy, no matter how much I eat, I won't gain weight."

Jiang Miao also said with a smile, "Then bless our Kaledo to be smoother in the future."

"Yes!" Ling Yi said again, "Bless you, I will earn a lot of money and go to the Maldives for vacation this year!"

Pei Tingsong was speechless to him, "You are so persistent, how about this, I can take you there."

He Ziyan and Lu Yuan started to boo, but Ling Yi was quite upright, "I don't, I want the company to pay for me to go!"

"it's up to you."

Ling Yi showed an appreciative expression again, "Although, you can take me to Dubai."

"Tch, what a beautiful idea."

"Juexia," Ling Yi called his name amidst the sound of fireworks, "don't you want to make a wish?"

"Me?" Fang Juexia was fascinated, but he hesitated when asked.

desire……

Thinking of this word, his first reaction was Pei Tingsong.

It's unbelievable that he would want to make a wish related to him.

Fang Juexia smiled, "I hope everyone's wishes will come true."

"Look, what kind of angel is this?"

The teammates were all making jokes, but Fang Juexia's hand stretched out from his half-grown sleeve, groped along the shape of the railing, and found Pei Tingsong's hand.

Everyone was fascinated by the bright fireworks, but he quietly took Pei Tingsong's hand.

Pei Tingsong, who was still arguing with Ling Yi, suddenly froze. He turned his head and saw Fang Juexia's eyes. He still raised his head, his eyes full of fireworks.

He took Fang Juexia's hand back and shook it tightly.

Except for fireworks, no one knows about this secret love.

More and more fireworks climbed into the sky, lighting up the whole night.Fang Juexia looked up, feeling excited like a child.Perhaps he had never seen fireworks so close.

Or maybe, he had never seen such a bright darkness.

A firework is composed of countless fleeting superimpositions, but even if they are superimposed again, they are short-lived.The night returned to calm again, as if those magnificent blooms had never happened.

At the end, everyone was a little bit disappointed and didn't want to leave, so everyone followed the cruise, chatted and watched the night scene together.

It's been a long time since they had such an opportunity. They tossed about different itineraries every day, exhausted their energy, and woke up to a repetitive life. It was very difficult to chat.

Jiang Miao told the story of the script he read, and Lu Yuan talked about the melons of the hip-hop show he participated in. Fang Juexia listened silently, occasionally interjecting a sentence or two.

The river calmed down again, which gave him an inexplicable sense of familiarity. When he was in Guangzhou, he had been on several cruise ships.He lay on the railing, closed his eyes and felt the moist wind, as if returning to his hometown.

"Sleepy?"

Suddenly hearing Pei Tingsong's voice, Fang Juexia opened his eyes and shook his head, "I'm just... a little homesick."

This was the first time Pei Tingsong heard Fang Juexia say he was homesick. He put his hands on the railing, "Because of the boat?"

Fang Juexia nodded, "There are also night markets, roadside stalls, and all kinds of snacks. It's strange. When I was in Beijing, I didn't think about it. When I came to other cities with such a heavy life atmosphere, I started to miss home." He replied Come over and lean against the railing, "The food in Guangzhou is delicious. When I was hungry after school, I went to the roadside to buy fried rice noodles and winter melon tea. It is a very old shop, and the proprietress packed them in plastic bags. , put a straw in it to drink."

He gestured while talking, and looked at Pei Tingsong from time to time, as if he was afraid that he would not believe him, and emphasized again, "That's delicious."

"Really?" Pei Tingsong pretended to be trying to imagine, and said to him, "But I can't imagine the taste."

Fang Juexia was a little discouraged, feeling that his ability to express himself was not enough.

Unexpectedly, Pei Tingsong said again, "You have to take me to drink it yourself, so I don't know if it's good." After he finished speaking, he began to count on his fingers again, "And your school, the food stall you like to eat, you I want to go to the paths I often walk on.”

Fang Juexia glanced at Ling Yi and the others who were looking up at the sky not far away, and said to him, "I didn't say I would take you back."

"You will." Pei Tingsong's tone was firm, as if it would definitely happen.

Fang Juexia couldn't help laughing and said, "Every time you speak, you are very confident, as if you feel that your judgment will never be wrong."

"No, I was born with confidence, but I also know that I often make mistakes in judgment." After finishing speaking, Pei Tingsong said, "For example, when it comes to you, I make mistakes again and again."

Fang Juexia took off the mask, "Such as unspoken rules?"

Pei Tingsong smiled frankly, "In fact, I have been skeptical of that rumor for a long time, and to be honest, I don't care much about it."

"Then you targeted me so much at that time," Fang Juexia moved closer to him, as if to question him, "you kept yelling at me about the unspoken rules."

Pei Tingsong raised his hands in surrender, "I don't mean to defend myself." He shrugged, "You may not believe me when I say it, but I was a little outraged at first. There are such rumors in the company, and sometimes even Just to your face, why don’t you even bother to explain? It’s as if you’re cut off from this world, and you don’t care about anything.”

Fang Juexia suddenly understood.

Sure enough, what Pei Tingsong really cared about was not the rumor itself, but his attitude towards the rumor.This is very much in line with Pei Tingsong's personality, because he is a person who is born to resist, and he will overthrow it without any scruples if there is any injustice or anything that does not conform to his point of view.A person who is full of enthusiasm naturally cannot understand a person who is cold-blooded and indifferent.

"But after I got to know you better, and learned the truth from Liang Ruo, I realized that you wanted to help him hide this matter."

Pei Tingsong shook his head and let out a long sigh, "You treat outsiders more gently than you treat yourself. Obviously, you almost cut off your bright future because of him, and you still want to protect his reputation."

Fang Juexia said, "I didn't protect him, I was protecting myself."

This statement made Pei Tingsong puzzled, "Protect yourself?"

Fang Juexia lowered his head and smiled, "This circle is too complicated. I have known since the trainee period that strength often does not determine anything. I have seen various ways of being superior and various transactions. Many aspects are different. People who are not good enough to be singing and dancing artists can make their debut smoothly, as long as they are willing to change and exchange a part of themselves. In that chaotic environment, the most difficult thing is not to strive for a good future, not to debut as an artist, but to How not to be affected."

"I can't bring Liang Ruo's matter out for my own future, because I know he is also a victim, and I can't do such a thing. Therefore, the only thing I can explain is that I didn't do those things. thing."

Pei Tingsong suddenly had the feeling he had when he first saw Fang Juexia again. He was like a straight dead branch, stubborn and tenacious. He would rather be broken cleanly than be changed.

Maybe it’s because I saw my father’s good looks when I was a child, a dancer who had a thriving career and loved his wife and children, and also witnessed him go crazy due to failure, completely become another person, and lose himself.That's why Fang Juexia formed such a law of life.

"From childhood to adulthood, we have received all kinds of education. Many people are teaching us what to fight for, what to get, and what to work hard for, but few people will tell us what you should keep. But I think What I did was to preserve my own essence."

Fang Juexia looked at him, "I used to think this was an easy task, but as I grew up, I found it was more complicated and difficult than I thought. Human beings are such complex polyhedrons, every facet even points , seems to be able to be picked out to represent this person. This is the evaluation of the outside world, one-sided, one-dimensional." Fang Juexia shook his head slightly, denying this approach, "But I know that the part of myself that I want to preserve is the only one that can Something that really represents me."

He knew that he said a lot of strange things in the eyes of others, these were just buried deep in his heart, and he never told anyone. Seeing Pei Tingsong looking at him with complicated eyes, Fang Juexia frowned. Frowning, a little strange, "Why are you looking at me like that? Did I say something wrong?"

Pei Tingsong laughed and foreshadowed, "I know that everyone's knowledge system is different, so you probably don't know the person I'm going to talk about next. He was a philosopher who lived in the 16th century , whose name is Spinoza."

"Spinoza..." Fang Juexia recited the name silently, expressing that he was indeed not familiar with it.

"One of his greatest achievements is to reconcile and unify the three categories of opposing ethics." Speaking of this, Pei Tingsong saw Fang Juexia's puzzled expression, "It's far away, to put it simply, he once In his book "Ethics", he wrote such a sentence, "everything in itself is trying to preserve its own existence, and the self that things are trying to preserve is precisely the true essence of that thing." "

Hearing these words, Fang Juexia in the night was slightly taken aback.

"Isn't it amazing?" Pei Tingsong looked at him and raised his eyebrows slightly, "So, when I just heard you say that, suddenly there was a kind of... across time and space, see Seeing the wonderful spectacle of Spinoza's philosophical pursuit reproduced in you, it sounds absurd, but it is true."

This was one of his favorite philosophers, who confronted the tragic fate of his life calmly and self-possessively, never giving up for a moment.

"Just now, I was very touched. You have never read his books or learned his theoretical system, but you have naturally lived like this. At that time, I was thinking, it turns out that thoughts can really be In an empty and mysterious realm, get rid of the physical body and time, and achieve some kind of collision and resonance."

Fang Juexia is actually a rebel.Unlike Pei Tingsong, he resisted subconsciously in order to protect himself.

For Pei Tingsong's words, Fang Juexia had an indescribable feeling in his heart. On the one hand, he felt strange, but also felt that Pei Tingsong might just say such things because he had a preference for him.He is an ordinary person who is not proficient in philosophy at all, but he is also curious about it because of Pei Tingsong's description, "Then... what kind of person is Spinoza?"

"How should I put it?" Pei Tingsong thought about it seriously, "He is a person who is proficient in mathematics, so he almost studies philosophy in a mathematical way, with extreme restraint and advocating rationality. You don't even know how he lives. He Spent most of the time in the room doing research and didn’t see anyone for days.”

Fang Juexia asked again, "Does he have any income?"

"It's even more amazing when it comes to this," Pei Tingsong grabbed his hand and said while playing, "He was originally a teacher, but later he changed to grinding lenses. His skills are good, but he is not really in business. He calculates accurately every year How many lenses do I need to grind to just meet my basic living and research costs, and I will do the calculation again every quarter, which is very accurate."

After speaking, Pei Tingsong laughed, "You really look like him."

Fang Juexia thought about it and found it very interesting.Although Pei Tingsong was teasing him, he always teased him with the great philosopher, which was completely flattering, "Shut up, I can't afford it."

But Pei Tingsong said from the bottom of his heart, "You can afford everything." He was very happy because he knew a little more about Fang Juexia, and it seemed that he was a little closer to his soul. Ice cubes, that's a huge leap.

Ling Yi ran back to show off the dialect he had learned, "Do you like Jue Xia, do I learn it like you?"

Fang Juexia was about to nod, but Pei Tingsong rushed back, "Where does it look like, everything you learn looks like Chengdu dialect."

"You! What's wrong with me speaking Chengdu dialect? Guaxixi, you can't even learn it, huh."

After Ling Yi finished speaking, he ran away. Pei Tingsong looked at Fang Juexia with a confused face, "Did he just scold me? Did he scold me?"

Fang Juexia pretended to be stupid, "Really? I don't know."

"It must be, little bastard." Pei Tingsong rolled up his sleeves and was about to leave, but was stopped by Fang Juexia, "Who told you that people don't learn dialects well enough."

"Originally." The irascible bully let out a long sigh of relief, "Okay, I don't have the same knowledge as a single dog without love like him."

Hearing his words, Fang Juexia kicked him immediately, "Hush."

Pei Tingsong laughed as if begging for mercy, and soon remembered something, "By the way, you haven't told me your dialect yet, I want to hear you speak in Cantonese."

"Didn't you sing last time?" Fang Juexia tugged on his sweater hat twice.

"That doesn't count, can you tell me something?"

Fang Juexia kept silent on the excuse that he didn't know what to say, and Pei Tingsong kept making trouble, and even threatened him by pretending to jump off the railing.

"You jump, I can always hear the sound of water if I can't see." Fang Juexia smiled at him.

"Too cruel."

After playing enough, the cruise ship docked, and they went down one by one, returning to the ground from the river.

Pei Tingsong embraced like a big brother, "Are you having fun, brothers?"

"Happy, thank you Tuanba!"

"Then go back and take turns helping me do the laundry!"

"What are you talking about? The wind is so strong that I can't hear you."

Fang Juexia, who was walking at the end, smiled, stepped on their shadows, and waited until they scattered after joking, then he walked to Pei Tingsong who was about to chase, "Wait a minute."

"What's wrong?" Pei Tingsong was obedient and stopped.

Fang Juexia put her hands in her pockets and put them close to his ears.Unfamiliar language, the voice is softer than the night.

"BB, I like you so much."

The author has something to say: Translate, "Baby, I like you so much."

bb has a feeling of coaxing a child to coax a love partner, a very intimate title.You can go and search for the one read by the boys in Guangdong, it’s very Su

Talk more about Spinoza, if you are interested, you can listen to it as a story.Why did Pei Tingsong say that he rebelled against the bleak life? Because Spinoza was a Jew. He was born in a merchant family. He was a child of a wealthy family. He studied religion and history. Because of his religious background, he thought about many issues related to religious philosophy, and also questioned some religious studies at that time.

At the age of twenty-three he was arraigned by the synagogues, who were rumored to be preaching heresy, and unwilling to pretend to pander to them, was excommunicated and accepted excommunication.His father also drove him away, and his sister tried to cheat him out of his little inheritance.He was almost stabbed with a dagger by a devout theology student while walking on the road because he violated the teachings.Later, he rented an attic outside Armstrong, where he became lonely and destitute.

However, there were also many people who admired him, and some even wanted to give him all their inheritance, but Spinoza refused.

At that time, Spinoza's research was very dangerous. How dangerous was it?He had to complete the writing of the book quietly and could not publish it, otherwise his life would be in danger.He gave the landlord a key and asked them to help publish the books after his death.

His life is also very legendary, if you are interested, you can search it~