between friendship and love

When I got home, all the family members were sitting in the living room watching TV.Yang Lin called for someone, sat on the side chatting and eating, with a smile on his face.Grandparents asked about life-long events without exception.

"When will you bring a girl back?"

"I haven't found it yet, don't be in a hurry, let's urge my cousin first." Yang Lin cleverly asked his unmarried cousin who was three years older than him to come out as a shield.

Grandma patted him on the head, "Still teasing him, he's 30 years old, his girlfriend has changed one after another, but they haven't settled down, hey, I'm so old, I don't know if I can still watch it to the great-grandson."

"Don't say that, you're still young."

"I know my own body." After all, grandma is a teacher. After all, she thought about it, and then smiled again. That's good."

"Mom is right, and Xiaolin's career is on the rise now, so there is no rush for this." Mom helped to speak, and the singing and dancing on TV ended, and the Peking Opera performance began. Grandpa and grandma put on their reading glasses again and watched carefully.

Yang Lin didn't know whether he was relieved, or he was more troubled.He went up to the second floor and went back to his room.The lights in the opposite house were still on, but the figure could not be seen.He lit a cigarette and puffed out the smoke lightly, feeling a little uncomfortable.

He didn't know when he started to have that kind of feeling for Xiaotian.After Qi Tian got into a car accident, he felt so guilty that he felt that if he hadn't urged him, this kind of thing would never have happened.So consciously take care of him every day, and learn to do things that I didn't know how to do before.Later, when I saw the changes in his family, I felt even more uncomfortable, and I went to the opposite side even more diligently.

During that time, Qi Tian was very thin, his eyes were not bright, and he just sat on the bed every day, not moving, and he didn't know what he was thinking.That picture lingered in his mind for a long time, thinking about it before going to bed, thinking about it in a dream, and thinking about it when he woke up.The original friendship slowly deteriorated, maybe it turned into affection, and then it turned into love.

The first confession was about nine years ago, when I was young and impulsive, I just wanted to confess everything about myself eagerly in front of him.

But Xiaotian just smiled calmly, "I like you too. Because you are my only friend."

He was serious, and he was only joking.Year after year, he became more serious and persistent, but he still only had peace.

"I like you too, because you are my only friend."

It was just this sentence year after year, no matter whether they kissed or comforted each other, he did not change his attitude from beginning to end.Even if Yang Lin had further requests, Qi Tian smiled and nodded, "Yes, if it's Xiao Lin, I will promise you anything."

After a period of ambiguity, when it comes to love/love, Qi Tian neither takes the initiative nor refuses.Carry out every word he said.

If it's Xiaolin, you can do anything to him.Xiaolin loves him and needs him, so he can do anything because Xiaolin is the only friend, so as not to lose this friend.Kissing, soothing, sex/love, whatever.

At that time, Yang Lin only thought that being able to hug him was a kind of happiness and love when he was by his side.It wasn't until after a joy/love passed, and I saw his tears by chance, that I realized that this was not the case at all.Xiaotian asks him for everything, but because he is too lonely, he doesn't want to lose even a friend, so he endures like this.

After figuring this out, he seemed to finally see it through.Afterwards, he never had close physical contact with Qi Tian again.

Confession seems to be a habit every year. He looks forward to the day when Xiaotian likes him too, but his personality is too introverted. If he doesn't confess, Xiaotian will never say it, and he may just miss it.

He looked at the opposite light and smiled wryly.

After all, I was delusional.

The dreams in the early morning of the first day of junior high school were all entangled by firecrackers, and it was not clear until dawn.He fell asleep again in a daze, and he didn't know how long he had slept, when he suddenly heard the sound of the door opening.

He opened his eyes and saw Qi Tian wearing a gray padded jacket, a hat and a scarf on his head, walking towards him.

His smile was so bright and beautiful that Yang Lin suspected that he was still dreaming.

Qi Tian looked at his closed eyes again, and said with a smile: "Get up, slob, it's almost twelve o'clock."

Yang Lin scratched his hair and groaned, "I still want to sleep, the firecrackers are set off in the early morning, it's very noisy."

"Auntie told me to wake you up for dinner. Go to bed after eating." Qi Tian handed him the clothes on the bedside, "Your family has many relatives, including your uncle's and aunt's. oh."

The man was still unwilling to get up, and pulled the quilt over his head, "It's so early..."

"I told you it's getting late." Qi Tian laughed. Xiao Lin liked to stay in bed since he was a child. When he was going to school, he would have to get up half an hour early, wash up and eat breakfast, and then run over to call him. Especially strenuous.

But during the time when he was in a car accident, the man never stayed in bed, got up earlier than anyone else every day, waited at his house early, helped him make breakfast, handed him a towel to wash his face, and a water cup to rinse his mouth.

Thinking of this episode, his tone became much gentler, "It's not good to stay in bed on the first day of the new year, Auntie will talk about it later." He tore off the quilt a little, revealing the man's frowning face.Yang Lin's appearance is recognized as handsome, very masculine, girls like him since he was a child, unlike Qi Tian, ​​who used to be thin and thin, and after he became disabled, no girls like him anymore.

How jealous.

Qi Tian rubbed Yang Lin's face, and finally managed to make him open his eyes.He stared blankly at Qi Tian for a while, then suddenly reached out and pulled him into his arms.Qi Tian was taken aback and struggled a bit.The man seemed surprised too, and as soon as he let go of his hand, Qi Tian broke away from his embrace.

The man looked annoyed, and apologized in a low voice: "I'm sorry, I thought I was dreaming..."

Qi Tian blushed, "It's okay..." His heart tightened, and he couldn't help wondering what was going on in his dream?Do you often have him in your dreams?

The deeper he thought, the redder his face became, as if he was about to bleed.

Yang Lin finally lost his sleepiness, silently took his clothes and changed, Qi Tian was still sitting by the bed, dazed.Yang Lin changed his clothes, went to the bathroom to wash up, came out and saw Qi Tian was still sitting blankly, and said softly: "I'm sorry, I was careless just now, don't take it to heart."

Qi Tian came back to his senses, smiled, "It's nothing, I'll go back first."

"Aren't you going to eat here?"

"There are too many guests, Auntie may be too busy. Usually she often asks me to come over for dinner. It's okay, I'll come over when I'm free." Qi Tian walked out with his head down, walked a few steps, stopped again, lifted his Start smiling at him, "Happy New Year."

"Happy New Year."