Kiss you if you don't listen

The two had talked this time, and they almost talked about everything, and Shen Yan became busier than before.

Dr. Lin has a small book, which writes things that should be paid attention to at various stages of emotional out-of-control, as well as the usual medical assistance.

Originally, this thing should be given to Shen Ke when the hormone level drops further in a few months. Dr. Lin thought about it step by step, and then find a suitable reason to trick Shen Ke into taking the medicine, so as to save Shen Ke from feeling uneasy Instead, it exacerbates the disease.

It just didn't occur to him that the plan couldn't keep up with the changes. Before it was time to take the medicine, Shen Ke already knew about his condition.

Dr. Lin was afraid that something might happen to Shen Ke's health, so he asked him to have another examination that day.

Shen Yan accompanied him. When Shen Ke was doing the examination, Shen Yan was not idle, and carefully asked Dr. Lin about the relevant precautions.He went through the entire pamphlet given by Dr. Lin, asking questions about everything he didn't understand, and then read many cases of adjustment when he lost control of his emotions.

On the way home, Shen Ke gnawed a peeled roasted sweet potato in his arms, and asked him awkwardly: "Aren't you leaving soon? Why are you looking at this?"

"Wait until you can control your emotions before leaving." Shen Yan didn't even lift her head, and memorized the booklet she had flipped through again, afraid that she might have overlooked something.

"Oh." Shen Ke paused and continued to eat sweet potatoes.Shen Yan couldn't see it, and said to him, "Eat less, we will have dinner later."

Shen Ke thought for a while, and said solemnly: "You don't have to do this, I can do it myself." This is a reply to his last sentence.

This time it was Shen Yan who ignored him.

Shen Yan's face was cold, and everyone around her showed displeasure.

It's been a long time since Shen Ke was treated like this. After the two of them got together, Shen Yan coaxed him. Whether he was right or not, Shen Yan always regarded him as right and said good things to his cold face.Thinking about it carefully, in fact, Shen Yan has a bad temper. He has always been the most dazzling one in the crowd since he was a child. Catering to Shen Yan with a face and face, holding and offering people like gold.

That is to say, with Shen Ke, his temper was more and more smoothed out, and he learned to do everything after he fell from the altar, and he was so foolish as to enjoy it.

The two of them didn't speak any more along the way, and Shen Ke couldn't enjoy eating roasted sweet potatoes anymore.

After a big thing happened, life still had to go on as usual. At this age, between teenagers and young people, he was taller like a joint, and his emotional intelligence and mentality were also unknowingly, which was very different from before.

Shen Yan's schedule dragged on for half a year.

For half a year, he deliberately took Shen Ke to crowded and annoying places, and places where Shen Ke was uncomfortable and unwilling to go, watched him lose control, and then stumbled to learn how to control his emotions.

Or just at home, how to deal with sudden stimuli bit by bit.

Once, Shen Ke lost control, because he couldn't feel emotions, he cut his arm with a knife out of control, using pain to stimulate emotions.

Shen Yan looked at him coldly and didn't stop him, just counted his swipes from the side.Shen Ke, who was looking straight ahead, flinched first, threw the knife and ran back in a panic.

He caught the man back, folded his sleeves, exposed his arms, held Shen Ke's hand little by little and said to his arm, "Come on, continue, you cut a few times, give me a few cuts."

He smiled so wickedly, he was so unfamiliar that he seemed to be less emotional than Shen Ke, Shen Ke immediately showed timidity, struggled desperately, and wanted to back away.

Shen Yan insisted on grabbing his hand and pressed it on the handle of the knife, breaking her arm.Because of Shen Ke's non-cooperation, the skin and flesh were torn apart, only to see unstoppable bright red blood flow out, and the clothes of both of them were covered with a layer of embarrassing red.

After that, Shen Ke restrained himself, not daring to touch the knife.

Seeing that he was really uncomfortable, Shen Yan bought him a bunch of toys to vent his emotions, the piles were full, and he found a lot of small things to pass the time and kill the fear.

These things are not worth the pain of self-injury, and people's reaction is more intuitive. Shen Ke has no choice but to force himself to adapt. Fortunately, it is still effective, probably because he is really used to it.

After dragging on for six months, Shen Ke had gradually been able to regulate himself under extreme emotions. He asked Shen Yan curiously: "Why don't you leave?"

He was about to have a conditioned reflex towards Shen Yan, he didn't dare to touch a knife, he didn't dare to bite his arm or his fingers, no matter where he got hurt, Shen Yan would always use the same method to return it to him, deliberately making him watch , causing him to lose control of his emotions, he has such a subconscious mind of fear, and only dares to vent his anger with those small toys that he bought specially.

Shen Ke looked anxiously, and asked Shen Yan again: "Shen Yan, Shen Yan, I'm all well, when are you leaving?"

"Are you just expecting me to leave? You can't even say a single nice word." Shen Yan spoke lazily, and didn't answer him directly. Holding a blank notebook in his hand, he greeted Shen Ke, "Come here."

Shen Ke glanced at the notebook, a little apprehensive.

The notebook in Shen Yan's hand is the same as the one Shen Ke used before. Shen Ke has the habit of keeping things in mind. He likes to keep accounts for Shen Yan. Come down, treat him well, and write it down, I have written down several notebooks.

At first glance, he could not help feeling guilty.

In fact, this little secret of his has long been figured out by Shen Yan.When Shen Yan was tidying up the room and looking through things, Shen Ke felt that he hid things tightly, but in fact, with his little thought, he couldn't hide things at all.

The notebook is full of Shen Yan's name. When Shen Yan treats him well, he will write that Shen Yan is a good person. When he treats him badly, he will call Shen Yan a little idiot. Feast small idiots more often than good people.

When Shen Yan was reading the book, he was counting rows of little idiots, and he was so angry that Shen Ke, the little white-eyed wolf, didn't know it. He told Shen Yan happily that day that he wanted to eat Order something delicious.

Ask him specifically what kind of delicious food he wants to eat, but he doesn't know, so he said perfunctorily, "Anyway, I want to eat delicious food."

Shen Yan chose a variety of meals and desserts according to his taste.

Shen Ke was full of food, rolling around on the bed to digest.

Then that night, there was an extra line in Shen Ke's accounting book:

On a certain day in a certain year, the little idiot Shen Yan bought a bunch of things that I didn't like to eat, and my stomach felt uncomfortable after eating. Oh, this time it's justifiable, so just, just remember him for a long time.

Shen Yan was really angry and funny, she didn't expose him, and just let him mess around.

Shen Ke moved over slowly, stared at the notebook in Shen Yan's hand and asked, "What are you doing?"

Shen Yan threw the notebook to him: "Write."

"What to write?" The tone was disturbed.

"Write some rules for you. If you promise me to do what is written in the book, I will leave immediately."

Shen Ke felt refreshed, touched his pen and asked, "Then you say it."

"The first rule is that if you lose control of your emotions in the future, you can't hurt yourself. You are not allowed to use knives or sharp objects. Biting your fingers and hitting your head is fine."

Shen Ke wrote it.

Shen Yan said, "Continue writing."

"After I'm gone, don't run around. I'll just stay at Shen's house and take the medicine well. If you feel uncomfortable, don't hide it. Call Dr. Lin first."

"En." Shen Ke nodded.

Shen Yan added: "Eat on time, go to bed on time, remember to answer my calls."

Shen Ke was not happy anymore, "We are about to break up, why do you still care so much about it, this one doesn't count."

Shen Yan choked for a while, and said fiercely: "Write it down quickly."

Shen Ke wrote it reluctantly, thinking about whether or not to answer the phone after Shen Yan left.

Shen Yan reported many more, and finally said, "Let's go here first, and I will add when I think of something else."

Shen Ke was dissatisfied, Shen Yan asked him to write several pages, why is it so troublesome, he said sullenly: "That's all, it won't count if you write later."

Shen Yan didn't bother with him about this, and said earnestly: "Then you have to follow this."

Shen Ke said perfunctorily: "Well, I have memorized it all, my hands are sore, why don't I print it out."

Shen Yan was taken aback by his attitude, and it took him a long time to say: "Ke Ke, I'm serious, just follow what we said in the book. You follow what is explained in the book, and the agreement we broke up It counts, or don't blame me for cheating, understand?"

Shen Ke really thought about it this time, and slowly flipped through the book and read it again from beginning to end. There was nothing excessive, and at the end, he held the book and nodded.

Shen Yan took a deep look at him and said nothing else.

Two days after Shen Yan's plane ticket was booked, the two returned to Shen's house together.

Shen Ke hasn't come back for a long time. His own appearance is just when he is emotionally unstable and afraid of seeing people.Shen Yan was depressed and unwilling to come back.

Shen Ke greeted the adults in the family, and was called by Grandma Shen. During this time, Shen Ke and Grandma Shen had less video chats, and kept saying that he was busy.His condition has been hidden from Grandma Shen. The old man is already old and has this kind of disease, so he can't stand too much stimulation. Shen Ke pretends that he is emotionally stable and dare not speak out at all.

Shen Ke hid at Grandma Shen's side and stopped seeing Shen Yan. It was not until the night before Shen Yan went abroad that he hurriedly met again, because Shen Yan blocked him.

The Shen family's work efficiency is high, all the documents are complete, and Shen Yan can enroll at any time when he arrives there. It is a good school carefully selected by Qin Jiang.Not knowing what to choose as a major, Qin Jiang asked Shen Yan specifically.

Shen Yan didn't seem to care, and said casually, "Anything is fine, whatever you want." With his mobile phone in his hand, he was sending a message to Qin Ji. He was worried and asked Qin Ji to take care of Shen Ke more in the future.

Seeing that he was unwilling to speak, Qin Jiang didn't dare to speak up himself, so Shen Yan got stuck in time and left the main house.

It happened to be stuck on the road that Shen Ke must pass.

When Shen Ke saw him, he subconsciously wanted to hide.

Shen Yan said solemnly, "I'm leaving tomorrow."

These words made Shen Ke unable to walk anymore, he was at a loss in front of the rockery behind the house.

The light not far away reflects the fountain next to it, and the transparent water flow turns the warm light of the street lamp into sections, as if wrapped in mercury, and throws them into the air, and then falls back into the pool bit by bit.

Shen Yan approached him, stretched out her hand to touch his chin, and slowly stroked it with callused fingers.

Shen Ke has lost weight these days, and the fat gained during the Spring Festival has also been reduced, and his chin is thinner.

Shen Yan looked at him carefully for a while, then lowered her head slightly, wanting to kiss him.

Shen Ke pushed, pushed Shen Yan away, and whispered, "Didn't we all break up?"

"So?" Shen Yan rarely forced a smile, and asked him in a good-tempered manner, "Can't we kiss after we break up?"

Shen Ke pouted: "I can't."

Shen Yan smiled without losing her temper, and put her arms around him, "Well, then give me a hug for a while."

His voice was low and hoarse, the tip of his nose touched Shen Ke's ear, and his breath was warm and hot. Shen Ke felt that this was wrong and wanted to struggle, but was hugged tightly by Shen Yan. Shen Yan said in his ear: "Ke Ke, don't Nao, just hug for a while."

"You're like this..." It's not a joke.

Shen Yan's tone was still calm, but Shen Ke felt that Shen Yan was suppressing something, and he could hear a bit of pity.Shen Ke couldn't speak anymore, bit his lip and thought hard for a long time, then said softly: "That's it for a while, I won't be able to hold you in the future."

Shen Yan didn't return to him, but her arms tightened a little, "Ke Ke, I'm really leaving tomorrow, probably... I won't be back until the end of the year."

"En." Shen Ke silently counted the numbers, only feeling that Shen Yan had been hugging him for too long, so he replied in a muffled voice: "You go, have a safe journey."

A smile appeared on the corner of Shen Yan's lips, the smile was also bitter, and she murmured: "This is really cruel."

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On the day Shen Yan left, Shen Ke didn't go to see him off, but hid in Grandma Shen's small yard to help Grandma Shen tidy up the flowers and plants.

Grandma Shen's small garden has replaced some new flowers and plants, all of which are extremely gorgeous.In the past, Shen Ke didn't understand. He just thought that Grandma Shen was tired of watching these things, and if she didn't like them, she would change them from time to time.Now I gradually understand that it's not that I don't like it, but that when I lose control of my emotions, I toss all the flowers and plants.

When people lose control, they always have to find something to do, and everyone chooses different ways to decompress.

Shen Yan didn't wait until Shen Ke sent him off, and didn't have to wait, she seemed to be happy, and cooperated all the way to the airport.The more calm he was, the more frightened Qin Jiang became.

The relatives of the Shen family all came to see them off, and the whole family was lively and lively. My sister-in-law hugged the child who was a few years old and asked the child to say goodbye to his brother.

Shen Yan's tone was as usual, and he was surprisingly patient with everyone who spoke politely.

Qin Jiang looked worried, and when it was almost time to board the plane, he couldn't help but ask him: "Yanyan, you...are you blaming me?"

Shen Yan picked up the suitcase, and was surprisingly kind, "No." He looked up at his watch, and let out a sigh of relief, "I just blame myself, for my inability to do anything."

Qin Jiang stood behind in a daze, his back feeling cold.

It was time to go through the security check at this time, Shen Yan grabbed the suitcase and walked inside, thought for a while, and said, "Mom, treat Ke Ke better in the future, he broke up with me, and what happens to me after that has nothing to do with him relation."

Qin Jiang just felt that she couldn't understand the meaning. She felt guilty, and she would never embarrass Shen Ke.It wasn't until Shen Yan went abroad that she called and said that Shen Yan didn't go to the university she chose at all, that she was startled.

Later, news came that Shen Yan had chosen another university, majoring in medical psychiatry.

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Thanks to "bianxiaoxian" for feeding the nutrient solution, okay?

I hope that the plot of the previous book can be completed within five chapters.