Kiss you if you don't listen

I don't know if it's a psychological effect. After knowing the symptoms of physiological and emotional deficiency, Shen Ke looked at himself again and felt that everything was weird.

Many people in the Shen family didn't like Grandma Shen. They felt that Grandma Shen was wearing a mask, and she didn't look like a living person. Only he couldn't feel it, and ran to Grandma Shen's small courtyard full of joy.

It was probably because of the same illness, similar to the inexplicable mutual induction between patients, that he could so accurately perceive Grandma Shen's sorrows, joys, sorrows and joys, and her liking for him.

He suddenly remembered that one year at first, he forgot to get vaccinated, and hid in the study alone to play, lost control of his emotions, and tore up the small album that he had treasured for many years.

When having dinner that day, Shen Yan couldn't see him, dropped his chopsticks, and tossed and tossed all over the Shen family to find him. After searching for a long time, he finally found him in a closed cabinet in the study.

Shen Yan was about to explode in anger, and scolded him fiercely, telling him that if he ran around again, he would be abandoned.

At that time, he was terribly afraid of Shen Yan, and hiccupped from crying. He had been vaccinated at night, and fell asleep crying.

The next day he forgot everything, he asked his aunt at home for his little picture album, and searched everywhere.It was still Shen Yan who couldn't see it, so he secretly bought a whole set of the same set, stuffed it back to the original place for him, and lied to him that he found the album.

It turned out that he was really different from others, but those details were ignored by him before.The same skin as others, is also a living person, he will cry when it hurts, and laugh when he is happy, he has been alive and kicking for so many years, why... why does it have to be him?

Shen Ke is good at studying in elementary school, and his memory is better. He can remember that information clearly after reading it once. The value on it representing the hormone level, calculated according to the decreasing law, will probably drop below the normal range soon. In a year or two, he'd really be an emotionless monster.

This realization made him terribly frightened, he unconsciously swiped to Shen Yan's name on his phone, and when he was about to dial out, he suddenly woke up.

He can't...can't call Shen Yan.

The drink on the table was bone-chillingly cold, Shen Ke didn't take a sip, squeezed the bridge of his nose, and left the private club.

He raised his wrist and looked at the time, it was more than four o'clock in the afternoon.

This time is not too early, the area is bustling, if it is later, there will be a traffic jam, but Shen Ke didn't want to face Shen Yan so quickly, and he didn't want to go home, so he walked slowly on the road alone.

There are people coming and going outside, it is very lively, there are many people on holidays, bustling, especially children and students, some children are a few years old, wearing pink rabbit costumes, holding Pleasant Goat balloons in their hands, and children are licking big ones Cotton candy, licking the mouth is full of candy, smiling with white teeth.

Shen Ke looked at it for a while, feeling bored, wandered aimlessly on the street, found a claw machine, and played with it for more than half an hour.He caught a little tortoise, the short and fat one with four short legs was especially cute, and others were so envious, he gave it to the little doll who was staring at him and sucking on a pacifier.

The sun was setting, and no matter how unwilling he was, he had to face it. Shen Ke wiped the last twilight and arrived home.He didn't know how long he had walked, his legs hurt, and his feet hurt.

Shen Yan also just came back not long ago, Qin Ji and the others had their own circle, they were discussing to open a new door, and today they went to meet an actuary together.

Hearing the sound of the door, Shen Yan came out of the kitchen, saw Shen Ke standing on one foot on the ground, changing his slippers crookedly, and hurried over to help him.

"Ke Ke, where have you been? Why did you come back so late?" Shen Yan asked him to sit on the sofa, and brought over slippers, which were bought by Grandma Shen, with cute lazy prints on them.

Shen Ke was squeamish, his thin white ankles were all red, and there were several gray marks on the white sneakers. Shen Yan carefully took them off for him, dragging the soles of his feet with his palms.

"Didn't go anywhere." He muffled, hugged a pillow in front of him, and replied vaguely, "I took a walk outside for a while, and forgot the time."

This looks like a child who is angry.

Shen Yan didn't know whether to laugh or cry, she just thought that Shen Ke was playing petty temper, Shen Ke insisted on eating ice cream in the morning, but Shen Yan was afraid that he would have a stomachache, so she refused to let him eat.

"Ke Ke, don't be angry, I brought you delicious food, it's all warmed up, and I'll bring it to you later." Shen Yan helped him apply the ointment, and coaxed him while holding his ankle, "Why don't you eat half a box of ice cream tomorrow?"

Shen Ke is picky, he likes to eat more when he encounters delicious food for dinner, and eats less when he encounters bad food, but he never stops eating snacks.Especially ice cream, yogurt and the like, the taste is getting more and more picky.Shen Yan stuffed a bunch of ice creams of various flavors in the refrigerator, fearing that Shen Ke would spoil his stomach, so he controlled the quantity every day and prevented him from eating too much.

Shen Ke is a ghost, he can't control his mouth, and he likes to eat secretly. This morning, Shen Yan brought him ice cream, but found that the number was too small, so he was picked out, and he was unilaterally murdered. a meal.

Shen Yan only thought that Shen Ke was holding a grudge, so she couldn't help but find it funny.

Shen Ke silently listened to Shen Yan coaxing him, his nose felt sore, he nodded his chin for a long time, and whispered "um".

Shen Yan rubbed his ankles for comfort, washed his hands and called him to eat.

"Ke Ke, Qin Ji said today that Qin Li is close to the school we are going to. You can play with Qin Li when the time comes. The two schools are on the same street, a few steps away." Shen Yan Served porridge for Shen Ke, and saw that he was in a bad mood, so he coaxed him with nice words.

"I have taken a good look at the house over there. It is near the school. It has been refurbished. Some furniture and necessities have been finalized. I will show you what is still missing. When the holiday is over, we can just go there."

Shen Ke ate slowly, listening to Shen Yan changing the subject to please him, Shen Yan had already talked about the delicious and interesting things around Kyoto University.

"The private kitchen in the street behind is famous. It's not easy to make an appointment in line. You can try it when school starts. There's also a pretty good cat cafe. Don't you like cats? I'll take you there to play. "

Shen Ke lowered his eyes, and when he heard behind him, he couldn't eat anymore.

Shen Yan was stunned for a moment, and asked him in a good temper: "Ke Ke, you...do you have anything?"

Shen Ke didn't speak, under the dim light, the water vapor on his eyelashes and the teardrops that couldn't be shed with all his strength were reflected.

Shen Yan frowned, stroked his chin, and lifted it up slightly, until the tears that he hadn't shed fell silently.

Water stains along the cheeks, sliding to the neck, under the light, very pitiful.

Shen Ke just felt ugly and wanted to hold back, but his eyes couldn't move. He hadn't cried for a long time, and when he was most unhappy, he was bored in a place where no one would see him, eating something delicious, to adjust the mood.Only when he was young when he didn't understand anything, Shen Yan always beat him up, and he was scolded and cried by Shen Yan.

He pursed his mouth, moved his chin and looked away, "Shen Yan, let's break up."

Shen Yan paused slightly, as if she had misheard, and asked again: "Ke Ke, what did you say?"

"I said - share, hand, let's go." Shen Ke said it again, he didn't even look at Shen Yan, his eyes were lowered, and he looked straight at the corner of the table under his feet.

Shen Yan closed his eyes, his Adam's apple rolled several times, and he calmed down after a while, "Ke Ke, don't make such a joke."

"I'm not kidding." Shen Ke wiped his eyes, looked at Shen Yan squarely, "I want to break up."

The corners of the eyes are red, the mist has not completely dissipated, and the appearance is softer than a girl's squeamish, but the tone is so serious that people can't think that this is a joke.

Shen Yan knew Shen Ke best, he was indeed not playing with his temper, nor was he joking.Shen Yan tried her best to keep her sanity from collapsing, she didn't quarrel with him, she didn't argue with him, she just asked: "My mother looked for you? Or did my father look for you?"

"It has nothing to do with them, Shen Yan, I want to break up, I don't want to go on like this with you." Shen Ke didn't want to continue this topic with Shen Yan, he felt that his emotions were going to lose control, and his tone was a little flustered.

Shen Yan didn't think about arguing, so she let out a breath slowly, but just blocked his mouth and said: "Shh, don't talk, I don't want to hear you anymore, Keke, I disagree, we can't tell."

Shen Ke ignored him: "It's worth it."

"I said no to breaking up." Shen Yan's voice was a little louder, realizing that she might scare Shen Ke, she patiently lowered her voice, "Ke Ke, tell me, is something wrong?"

He focused on the key point and asked, "Did they force you? Or do you think it's better for me to break up?" Thinking of this, Shen Yan almost laughed angrily, "Ke Ke, have you asked me?"

"Stop it, Shen Yan, stop it." Shen Ke didn't want to talk to him, and he himself was wronged, but he couldn't tie Shen Yan like this, relying on Shen Yan for everything, even if Shen Yan was willing , he can't do that either.

As Shi Ziyue said, who would like a robot?

No emotion, no response, no one can bear it.Maybe after a year or two, he will be forced to forget about Shen Yan, after all, he is about to lose his feelings, God knows if he will know what it feels like to like at that time.But what about Shen Yan?Shen Yan will not forget, but still be dragged down by him, looking at him like that every day, guarding him, giving wishful thinking?

Such a day, not to mention whether Shen Yan could accept it or not, he himself was unwilling.

Shen Ke couldn't eat anymore, and left Shen Yan here alone, and hid in the bedroom by himself, he didn't dare to stay any longer, and he didn't dare to look at Shen Yan's eyes.

Shen Yan gave a rare wry smile, rubbed his face, and called Qin Ji.

"Cousin, I'm sorry to bother you. You can find someone to check Ke Ke's inspection report that I showed you last time. Or, I'll ask someone to take over the original documents from the hospital, and you can find another expert to read it together." look."

The more this happened, the calmer he became. At first glance, he thought of several reasons why Shen Ke had to break up with him. The first thing he thought of was Shen Ke's medical report.

Qin Ji was quick to handle the matter, so he answered the matter and asked casually: "I checked it last time, and it's all right, why did you suddenly remember it?"

Shen Yan paused: "Ke Ke wants to break up with me."

Qin Ji was stunned, "Isn't it good? Did you agree?"

"Agreed ass, I'm not stupid, okay, brother, I'm bothered, let's talk about this later. I'll send someone to the hospital to get the information for you... Forget it, I have to go out and calm down, or I will go by myself Let's go." Shen Yan hung up the phone in a few words and rubbed the center of her brows.

Shen Yan got the information and sent it to Qin Ji. The night breeze was cool, and after staying there for a while, he vented all the depression in his heart before he dared to go home.

The bedroom was dark, and Shen Ke seemed to be asleep.Shen Yan took a shower, did not turn on the light, gently lifted the corner of the quilt, and got in.

He hugged Shen Ke, hugging him tightly along his thin waistline.

Shen Yan took a cold shower, his body was cold, Shen Ke moved, trying to get rid of him, he stopped him with a "shh", and said with a smile: "Ke Ke, it's so late, don't you want to drive me away Sleep outside."

He considered his tone to coax people: "It's my fault, I shouldn't talk to you like that at night, it's all my fault, don't make trouble, sleep well, we can talk about it tomorrow, can we have a good talk tomorrow?"

Shen Ke didn't move, turned his face sideways, opened his eyes and looked out of the window for a moment.

The curtains in the bedroom were drawn, and it was dark inside.Tonight he went to bed early, thought that Shen Yan would not come back, it was dark everywhere, and he slept extremely restlessly.

But the moment Shen Yan opened the door and came in, he was not afraid of anything. He was extremely at ease when Shen Yan was here.

Shen Ke struggled contradictoryly for a long time, wanting to push Shen Yan away, but also yearning for the sense of peace he brought, after a long time, he softly "hmm", the voice was vague.

Shen Yan seemed to be relieved, and carefully wrapped her arms around him, staring at the back of his head, trying to make a smile, but in the end, she didn't.

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Calvin, from 6 o'clock to now, it's late to post, good night, dear friends, I'm going to take a shower.

Thanks to the lovely "Twelve Teas" and the lovely "Deep World XY" for their nutrient solution, so heartfelt.