hypocrite

六

In mid-September, the weather gradually turns cooler.

At [-] o'clock in the morning, the sun is still warm, and thousands of people are densely packed on the vast track and field field. The warm sun spreads over the hair, face, and collar of the students, and the comfortable temperature is entrenched on the skin. , as if being gently and tenderly caressed by a lover as gentle as water.

The annual opening ceremony for freshmen is held anywhere, and the school leaders' speeches exhausted the last little patience of the eighteen or nineteen-year-olds. When the freshman representatives stepped onto the rostrum in a hurry, the voices of complaints from the audience were already overwhelming. One after another.

The young man who walked up to the rostrum did not panic, but still spoke calmly. His clear voice spread along the microphone, and his clear words were like a sour wind blowing in the dog days, which quickly comforted the young man. of restlessness.

The young man was thin and thin, but he stood like a pine, with a natural aura. In addition, the content of his speech was quoted from the classics, quoted from many sources, correct but not humorous, and soon the girls around him deliberately suppressed their voices. The words were full of admiration and praise words.

Lin Jinsheng stared at Yu Sinian who was calmly on the stage, his heart was full of ups and downs.

He was the freshman representative appointed by the school in his previous life. He was eager to shine in the university, so naturally he would not refuse, and he completed this task with a performance that was not inferior to Yu Sinian.But in this life, he has long lost his fighting spirit and looks dull and introverted to outsiders. He is not the school's favorite candidate. Lin Jinsheng's decision to voluntarily give up speaking was not blocked.

Yu Sinian has a brilliant literary talent, and in his previous life he was also a well-known talent in the Chinese Department of Capital University. It is reasonable and unexpected to replace Lin Jinsheng as the freshman representative to speak.Lin Jinsheng understood, but couldn't understand.

When they ran into each other in front of the apartment building when they were reporting at the beginning of school, Lin Jinsheng escaped on his own.The dormitories of the two are far apart, and the military training places are also very different, and for the next ten days or so, there will be no more intersections. Lin Jinsheng wished for this, but he didn't want to see Yu Sinian again on such an occasion.

The previous life was similar but not identical to the present life, and the messy memories disturbed Lin Jinsheng's thoughts. When he came back to his senses, the opening ceremony was over, and the crowd was leaving in an orderly manner.

Lin Jinsheng followed the flow of people into a cafeteria closest to the track and field field. The cafeteria was overcrowded, and the seats were almost up for grabs. Lin Jinsheng found an empty seat with great difficulty, and as soon as he sat down, the seat next to him was rushed to the ground by others. take up.

Lin Jinsheng didn't look sideways, but the people around him didn't.

"It's you." Yu Sinian looked at Lin Jinsheng's graceful profile with great interest, and said.

Lin Jinsheng paused the hand holding the chopsticks, lowered his eyebrows, and remained silent.

Yu Sinian raised his eyebrows, and continued: "I heard that the principal originally wanted you to speak on stage." Yu Sinian paused for a moment, and a cunning emotion flashed through his dark pupils, and then said: "It's a pity that the opportunity was taken away by me." gone."

Lin Jinsheng was like an old monk in meditation, completely ignoring Yu Sinian's obvious provocation.Without a response, Yu Sinian also felt bored, stopped talking, and concentrated on eating, and the two of them carried out the ancient motto "Don't talk when eating".

Seven

It's the beginning of the school season, and the recruiting activities of various organizations and clubs are in full swing. Lin Jinsheng actively participated in his previous life, but now he lacks interest.

Lin Jinsheng often feels that he is divided into two, the left side is the past self, and the right side is the present self.His body is still young, but the passionate soul that once existed and struggled for a bright future has gone through thousands of sails, gone through vicissitudes, and disappeared under the torrent of time.

In addition, if he follows the trajectory of his previous life, he will be successfully elected as the head of the Organization Department of the Student Union in his sophomore year. It coincides with the rise of the enthusiasm for Chinese studies. The central government advocates that all colleges and universities hold activities related to Chinese studies. Capital University actively responded to the call of the central government and launched a series of activities related to Chinese studies. , Yu Sinian, who was already the president of the Chinese Academy of Sciences at that time, was fully responsible.

The success of the campus activities was largely due to the student union. As the head of the organization department, Lin Jinsheng inevitably negotiated with Yu Sinian. It was the frequent contact during that time that made Lin Jinsheng and Yu Sinian lukewarm. relationship warmed up.

Previously, the two had strange feelings for each other from the bottom of their hearts, and the opportunity appeared just right, which catalyzed it. A series of activities were carried out smoothly and ended perfectly. After the busy work, Lin Jinsheng took the lead in piercing the window paper, and Yu Sinian responded happily .

Lin Jinsheng would never allow it to repeat the mistakes of his previous life. If he wanted to avoid Yu Sinian's four years, he must never join the student union.

"Spend four years without any surprises, go their separate ways after graduation, and never see each other again in this life, that's all." Lin Jinsheng thought indifferently, as if all his love for Yu Sinian had disappeared.

Eight

Lin Jinsheng obeys his word, in order to avoid Yu Sinian, except for going to class, he does not go out of the door, does not leave the door, eats or relies on roommates or take-out delivery, with a decadent attitude, which is very different from his previous life.

However, either the trajectory of fate is too tenacious, and Lin Jinsheng's insignificant resistance is like a fly shaking a tree; or because his words and deeds are more or less different from his previous life, causing a series of butterfly effects, Lin Jinsheng tried his best to avoid direct contact with Yu Sinian However, Yu Sinian came forward every few days, intentionally or unintentionally flirting with Lin Jinsheng, making Lin Jinsheng secretly sullen for no reason.

Yu Sinian is talented in writing, but he is not omnipotent. Mathematics is his biggest shortcoming. If it is not for the chance to encounter the new special recruitment program of Capital University, it is really difficult for Yu Sinian to catch up with Capital University based on his college entrance examination scores.

Yu Sinian has complained to Lin Jinsheng several times about the annoyance that mathematics has brought him. The lack of advanced mathematics courses in the Chinese Department is also one of the reasons why Yu Sinian chose it.

Nowadays, Yu Sinian, who has always hated mathematics, appeared in the advanced mathematics class in a grandiose manner. It was so natural that Lin Jinsheng forgot to be surprised for a while.

Yu Sinian ignored Lin Jinsheng, Shi Shiran sat beside Lin Jinsheng, Lin Jinsheng watched silently, feeling absurd in his heart.

Anyway, Yu Sinian had been his lover for several years, so he should be very familiar with him, but at this moment, he felt strange.

Lin Jinsheng recalled the occasional, vague sadness that appeared on Yu Sinian's face in his previous life, and was startled that maybe he had never seen Yu Sinian through.

"So what?" Lin Jinsheng's chest felt a little stuffy, the shock, hatred and heart palpitations when he first learned the truth in his previous life suddenly emerged, Lin Jinsheng felt very uncomfortable, and suddenly withdrew his probing gaze from Yu Sinian, and said cruelly in his heart: "Yu Sinian has nothing to do with me after all."

nine

The dead are like husbands, never giving up day and night.While Lin Jinsheng turned a blind eye to Yu Sinian's deliberate approach, winter came quietly.

In the twelfth lunar month of winter, the sour wind blows, but the coldness cannot freeze the enthusiasm of young people like a prairie fire. The vast school covers tens of thousands of young and restless souls. There is nowhere to put the excess energy of young people. The annual winter sports meeting indispensable.

On the eve of New Year's Day, the Winter Games of Capital University kicked off in a mighty way.

Ten

Bitter cold wind hits the face, and Lin Jinsheng's skin outside his clothes instantly turned into goosebumps. Lin Jinsheng gathered up his scarf, and silently looked at the thin figure running on the red and white rubber track of the second track and field field .It was early in the morning, and there were few people on the school road. Most of the students were still immersed in their dreams, and the tranquility of the school had not been broken.

Even though there was a straight-line distance of several meters, Lin Jinsheng still recognized at a glance that the back of the runway belonged to Yu Sinian.

At this time, the sky was covered with a layer of gray silk, and after a while, the rain fell.

When the fine winter rain touches the skin, it is not as lingering as spring rain, nor is it scorching like summer rain, but it is like cold needles piercing into the body, which is extremely surly.

Yu Sinian is weak, not to mention strenuous exercise, even a little bit of emotional agitation is a little inappropriate. Yu Sinian has always been respectful and insensitive in the sports meeting, but Lin Jinsheng, who was forced to take the head, saw a familiar name on the list of contestants.

Yu Sinian's recent actions were abnormal everywhere, Lin Jinsheng looked at his struggling figure, frowned, walked for a while, and still chose to turn and leave.

"boom--"

There was a sudden sound from behind, the sound of a heavy object falling to the ground, which was particularly abrupt in the quiet campus.

eleven

Yu Sinian regained his consciousness and gradually woke up from the chaos. He opened his eyes with effort, and the first thing he saw was the room full of whiteness.

Yu Sinian looked at the interior furnishings, and quickly came to the conclusion that he was in the school hospital at the moment.

Yu Sinian was disgusted by the faint smell of disinfectant in his nasal cavity. He struggled to get up, the drip hanging on his left hand caused blood to flow back due to his restless movements, Yu Sinian scratched his hair irritably, and lifted the cover The thin quilt on his body, he wanted to pull out the needle and leave, but when his eyes casually glanced to one side, he was stunned.

Lin Jinsheng sat silently on the wooden chair beside the hospital bed, the sunlight entered the room through the gap between the curtains, and hit one side of Lin Jinsheng's face, looking from the backlit side, it seemed that a halo of light had been cast around the cheek, For no reason, it softened the originally cold and hard profile.

He clearly heard a series of movements made by Yu Sinian, but Lin Jinsheng ignored them, and just looked forward with unfocused eyes.

"What's going on?" Yu Sinian felt his throat tense, and the voice he opened his mouth to ask was a little hoarse than usual.

Lin Jinsheng did not reply to him, but instead asked another question: "Why did you participate in the sports meeting?"

"If you want to participate, you will, there is no reason." Yu Sinian cleared his throat and replied ambiguously.

The most common answer, but it accurately pierced the wound that Lin Jinsheng tried his best to hide, which had already rotted deep in his heart.Lin Jinsheng smirked, and finally turned his head, his gaze shot at Yu Sinian like a sharp arrow.

Lin Jinsheng sarcastically said: "You know that you will cause trouble to others, but you still let yourself do what you want. You are really a selfish, selfish ghost through and through."

Because I want to experience love, even if I know that I have an incurable disease, even if I know that I will not live long, I still want to tease me, provoke me, and leave me endless pain after the short-term happiness fades away.

Yu Sinian, you are so selfish.

Every night after Yu Sinian's death, Lin Jinsheng held the box containing Yu Sinian's ashes, repeatedly complaining about the unspoken words.