You who cannot be touched in memory

Early the next morning, Qixuan miraculously appeared in front of my bed.His body smelled of alcohol and tobacco, and there were thick dark circles under his eyes. He was wearing a wrinkled shirt without a tie, and there were yellowish stains on the cuffs. He looked very thin.

These are all within my expectation.But after seeing it with my own eyes, I couldn't help crying.He immediately stepped forward and took me in his arms.Although the smell of his body made my headache worse, I still buried my face in his chest, greedily feeling the heat emanating from his body.

I have never wanted my body to return to normal as I do now, I want to wrap my arms around him, I want to talk to him, to convey all my thoughts to him.

Finally, I stopped crying, Qixuan let go of me, and looked me up and down carefully.When he saw my bruised left hand, his face suddenly changed.He then started to check the rest of my body, and after confirming that only the left arm was still injured, he turned to Shihiko.

"How did you get the injury on Ling Xi's body?"

Qixuan's voice gave me a chill, he was angry.I quickly grabbed the corner of his clothes with my right hand.

This has nothing to do with Zhiyan...

Noticing my movements, Qi Xuan turned his head and kissed me gently.

"Don't be afraid, Ling Xi...you'll be fine."

"Ah..." I made a gesture of wanting to write, and he quickly brought the pen and paper from the bedside.

(Do not be angry.)

When Qi Xuan saw the words, his expression softened.

"I'm not angry, I just have a few words with Dr. Guan."

(The injury is gone, don't worry.)

"Ling Xi..." Qi Xuan stared at me for a long time, sighed, hugged me again, and kissed my face again and again.Then he turned to Zhiyan, waiting for his answer.

Zhiyan has been standing against the wall with a bad expression on his face.When Qi Xuan finally finished talking to me, he straightened up and waved to Qi Xuan.

"Let's go out and talk."

Qixuan shook my hand and followed Zhiyan out the door.

I could vaguely hear them talking outside the door.They talked outside the door for a long time, although I couldn't hear what they said clearly, but fortunately Qixuan didn't quarrel with Zhiyan from the beginning to the end, I was relieved from the bottom of my heart.With such a strong smell of alcohol on his body, it is not known whether he has completely sobered up, but if there is a quarrel, it will be terrible.

About half an hour later, I was lying on the bed, because I hadn't eaten breakfast, my stomach was already growling with hunger, and the two of them went back to the house.

"So...that's how things are, now take Ling Xi away. I've already sorted out the list of several newly added prescription drugs and put them in the medical record, as well as those new brain CT scans. If the situation is unstable, You can find another doctor to continue. The rest... you also know, right? Things to pay attention to in diet, and some problems in nursing—"

"I know all of this." Qi Xuan interrupted him.

"Ah... um." Zhiyan was stunned for a moment, and when he saw me, he seemed to think of something again.

"Also, if the situation is not good, I mean if—don't put a feeding tube on Ling Xi, the swallowing reflex will disappear after adding a feeding tube, which is not conducive to the recovery of body consciousness, and if you are careless, it will cause Inflammation of the esophagus and stomach, so..."

"I see." Qi Xuan nodded.

"Well. That's about it." Zhiyan looked at Qixuan with a very earnest expression when he said this, "Mr. Lu... If you have any problems with treatment in the future, I still hope you can come to me... ...Although I know that you may not accept it, but I am really looking for Ling Xi. I will definitely do my best to help him, including the matter of Abba. If you need it, I will It can also be conveyed on your behalf.”

"Oh..." Qixuan was obviously a little surprised, "You don't have to rush to sell me favors. Although I don't like you very much, as a doctor, I can still accept it."

Zhiyan smiled wryly and nodded.

"Hurry up and take Ling Xi back home. Remember to prepare breakfast as soon as you get there. Ling Xi usually has to eat at seven o'clock, and it's been half an hour now. He can't be hungry for too long, or his blood sugar may have problems. .Ah... By the way, take this with you." Zhiyan walked to my bed and took out a stack of plastic vials with English characters printed on them from the cabinet, which contained a transparent liquid. Feed him this, at least one hour of nutritional supply can be maintained."

"Oh." Qixuan took the stack of medicine, picked it up and looked at it carefully, and nodded after confirming the words on it.

"Is this something you brought back from America?"

"Well. It's not produced in China." Zhiyan smiled helplessly, "Okay, let's take Ling Xi back, it will be bad if something goes wrong on the road. What kind of car did you bring? Can it fit? A wheelchair? Or..."

"Yes." Qi Xuan shook his hand at him, looking a little impatient.

In the end, I was carried into the car by Qixuan under the watchful eye of Zhiyan.

The car was very warm, and I sat leaning on Qixuan's shoulder, interlocking fingers with him.

"Ling Xi, I heard that...Guan Zhiyan told you about those things, about Jiang Zhengming, and about your sister..." Qi Xuan held my hand tightly, and there was a bit of anxiety in his tone, " You don't mind if I do that, do you? I admit that maybe it's a bit too much, but... I still think it's right to do that. At least I don't want to make excuses for myself in front of you. If I had to choose again, I would still would do that, maybe even a little bit more, i don't know... i can't forgive people who hurt you. i don't want to lie to you or use you as an excuse to rationalize those things, i don't just do it for you , and for myself...can you understand me?"

He looked at me with a flash of worry in his expression, but the eyes that looked at me did not waver.

I sighed inwardly, and nodded firmly towards him.

Qixuan breathed a sigh of relief as if he had been pardoned, and then he hugged me into his arms.

"Thank you, Ling Xi." There was still some crying in his voice.

I raised my hand and patted his back lightly.

Don't cry...you are not suitable for this...

"Ling Xi... I won't get involved in the company anymore. I'll just accompany you. We can travel together. Do you remember that you mentioned Italy to me five years ago? When you get better , I'll take you there, okay?"

"what……"

I sounded affirmative so he could understand.

After getting my response, Qixuan hugged me even tighter. He kissed my face again and again, and then moved to my neck. Kissed down.My blood was flowing rapidly in my body, so that one of my cold hands and feet began to gradually heat up, my head became dizzy, my heart began to beat violently, and the wound on my left arm suddenly became very painful .

"Ah...ah..."

I made a sound, and Qixuan stopped immediately.

"Ling Xi, what's wrong?" He was a little nervous, "Are you uncomfortable?"

I raised my left arm and he immediately rolled up my sleeve.

My wound swelled even more.

"Does it hurt, Ling Xi?" Qi Xuan looked at me worriedly, holding my arm and wanted to do something but couldn't do it.

I nodded, sweat dripping from my brow.

"Is it serious? Do you need to go back to the hospital?" He asked me again, and I shook my head quickly.

I closed my eyes and tried to suppress my feelings for Qixuan, my heart slowly returned to normal beating frequency, the speed of blood flow gradually slowed down, and my left arm started to feel less painful.

I opened my eyes and showed a smiling expression to Qixuan.

It's okay, it doesn't hurt anymore.

"feel better now?"

Qi Xuan asked me softly, his face looked worse than mine.

"what……"

Qixuan helped me wipe the sweat stains on my forehead, and let me lie down on the back seat with his legs on his head.

"Sleep for a while, I'll be home soon." He said softly.

I close my eyes.

The driver sitting in the front seat drove the car very steadily, and there were almost no bumps along the way.After the car stopped, Qixuan wrapped the blanket around me and carried me out.

The morning air was a bit chilly, I leaned on Qixuan's arm, raised my head and looked around.

It was an exquisite three-storey villa. The last time I came here seemed to me to be a thing of the last life.It was about seven years ago, when Qixuan took me home for the first time, and his mother happened to be there that day, and I was so panicked that I couldn't speak, I hid in Qixuan's room for the whole afternoon and dared not go out.I dare not touch anything in that house, and I dare not even sit on the bed in his house, as if my clothes are too dirty to sit on such sheets.Later, Qixuan moved out and rented a small room of [-] square meters with me, and lived in a dilapidated community on the edge of the city.

Thinking of these, my eyes are moist again.

"Ling Xi, what's wrong? Is the wound hurting again?" Qi Xuan hurriedly lowered his head and asked me.

I shook my head, but the tears still couldn't stop.

I think of the [-]-square-meter hut, there are only a few simple pieces of furniture in that room, the bed is bought by Qixuan, the table is brought back from the second-hand market by me, and the wardrobe, there was an old wardrobe in that room , but Qixuan had to replace it, so we went to the furniture store to buy a new one, I paid half the price, he paid half the price.Later, we paid the rent for January. At that time, Qixuan would deliberately park his car in the company’s parking lot and go to catch the bus with me, and then dress up as a worker and go to the staff cafeteria with me for dinner...

And now that I'm here, it's as if everything has started all over again.How wonderful it would be if we could go back to seven years ago...

Memories of the past poured into my mind like a flood, and I couldn't stop my tears, so I had to bury my face in Qixuan's chest, not wanting him to see it.

Qixuan took me into the house almost as quickly as possible, hugged me and sat on the bed in his room, comforting me softly.And when I finally stopped crying, I didn't know when there was a hot breakfast on the white bedside table next to the bed.Qixuan took the porridge and fed me bite by bite. I didn't feel hungry anymore, but I still tried my best to eat those things.

"Eat slowly, Ling Xi... it won't be good if you choke." He smiled softly at me as he said this.

And as long as it can make him laugh, that's enough for me.

What I owe him is not enough even if I spend my whole life, so if it can make him happy, then I am willing to use my whole life to achieve this goal.