You who cannot be touched in memory

"Ling Xi...can you tell me why?"

Qixuan asked me this way.And seeing Qixuan look at me almost begging, I wish I could get up and hug him immediately, tell him how much I miss him, I want to go with him, I want to go right away.But I couldn't, just trying to keep from crying was exhausting.I couldn't speak, and I couldn't even pick up my pen, so I could only look at him, seize every last minute and every second, and imprint his image in my heart.

"Don't cry... Ling Xi..." Qi Xuan comforted me softly.

He leaned down and kissed me lightly on the forehead.I saw a tear drip from the corner of his eye, but he quickly turned away from looking at me.

"Don't force him, Lu Qixuan, didn't Ling Xi make it clear just now?" Zhi Yan spoke from the side.

"..."

Qixuan stood up and stopped talking. He walked straight out the door without even looking back at me.

Watching him leave, I even forgot to breathe for a moment.He really left this time, he won't come back, he won't come back again...

I just felt dizzy for a while, the tears had stopped unconsciously, and I was lying on the bed, looking blankly at the ceiling.

Qixuan will not come back to me again... I will never see him again...

Suddenly, there was a sharp pain in my head, as if my whole head was about to be torn apart.My breathing became short of breath and my heart started beating wildly.The scene in front of me became hazy, and I began to lose sight of specific things. All I could see in my mind was the pain that was getting stronger and stronger.

I don't know how long it took, but the pain finally subsided. I opened my eyes and found myself lying in a ward, with Zhiyan in a white coat in front of me.

Qixuan is not here...

"Ling Xi... How do you feel? Are you feeling better?" Zhi Yan gently stroked my forehead and asked me softly.

I looked at him, and even wanted to avoid his sight in my heart.I just rejected Qixuan in front of his face.And I will spend the days with him together... Thinking of these, my nose is sore, and I feel extremely sad.But these are all for Qixuan... In case, as Yin Fei said, Mr. Long will hurt Qixuan because of this, I would rather stay here by myself.

I kept repeating this in my head, telling myself it was the right thing to do.

"Ling Xi, Ling Xi...can you hear me?" Zhi Yan's voice interrupted my thoughts, he looked at me worriedly, his expression extremely nervous.

I made a slight sound to respond to him, and he breathed a sigh of relief, and then gave me a slightly tired smile. He looked as if he hadn't slept for several days.

"Well, Ling Xi, how do you feel now? Is there something wrong with your body?" He asked me again.And this time I started to focus on myself.

I started to try to turn my head and move my fingers, but these were far more difficult than I imagined, as if after a high fever, all the muscles in my body hurt and I had no strength at all.

After a lot of hard work, my body didn't move at all, but sweat broke out on my forehead.

"Ah..." I made a sound and asked Shiyan for help, but it sounded like a cat meowing, weak and weird.

"Can't move yet?"

"Ah..." He guessed the situation I wanted to talk about right away, which made me very grateful.

"It's okay, Ling Xi, don't worry, it should be caused by the high fever before, and it should be fine after a few days of rest."

He explained to me softly while rubbing his eyes.He should be extremely tired and sleepy, and for a moment I was even worried about him.But when I thought of Qixuan, I immediately dismissed the idea.I can't allow anyone other than Qixuan to fill my heart.

I kind of wanted Zhiyan to leave, but because I couldn't move, I could hardly express my wish, and Zhiyan stayed by my bedside all the time.Later, I simply closed my eyes and pretended to sleep. Finally, after a long time, Zhiyan stood up from my bed, turned off the light for me, and left the room.

In the darkness, only the instruments attached to me were tirelessly making sounds, and my mind was full of Qixuan.I don't know how he is now... I made such a decision, he must be heartbroken, right?He may lock himself in the room, he may drink alcohol, he may not be able to sleep...it's all my fault...if I didn't hurt him like that...Thinking of this, my tears have flowed out of my eyes uncontrollably out.My head started to hurt again, but I hoped that the pain would never go away.If Qixuan is in pain, let me bear it too.Until he forgets me and starts a new life... At least he can start a new life, at least that Mr. Long won't put him in danger anymore...

Just like that, I gradually fell asleep while weeping silently. In my dream, I dreamed of the hut full of toys again, but this time there was no one in it, only a lonely toy dog ​​in the middle of the ground, as if abandoned Lying there moaning silently.

The next day, I woke up in a warm sun, my head still aching and my body still unable to move.Zhiyan came to my bed early in the morning, wiped my face, gave me medicine and food, changed diapers, and then helped me move my joints and massage my body non-stop.

"Ling Xi, have you regained some consciousness?" In the end, he put my body into a half-sitting position and propped my head up with a pillow so that I could see him.

I looked at him silently.In fact, my consciousness is always there, I can feel my body being touched, but I can't move, the muscles seem to be fixed, and they are not under my control at all.

"Is it still okay..." Zhiyan's expression darkened, but he immediately shook my hand again and smiled encouragingly, "It will be fine in a few days, don't worry."

"Ah..." I responded with a voice.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door.

"Brother Zhiyan, someone is looking for you." It was Yin Fei's voice.

Zhiyan stood up, comforted me, and walked towards the door.

He opened the door, and Yin Fei was standing in front of him.

"Brother Zhiyan, that Doctor Zheng is looking for you."

"Well, I see. You look at Ling Xi, come to me immediately if you need anything." He ordered, and then went out.Yin Fei replaced him and sat beside my bed.He looked at me carefully, then raised his hand and shook it in front of my eyes, as if he found that I didn't respond, he sat there as if he was relieved, and grinned at me.

"I didn't expect you to really reject Lu Qixuan... Haha, you guys are really brainless, you can believe whatever you say, it's the first time I've seen someone as obsessed with you..."

He was still watching the changes in my expression as he spoke.And hearing these words, my mind has already begun to be a little confused, what does he mean by saying that... Should I not believe him?Or... did he lie to me?

Thinking of this, my heart skipped a beat, but I couldn't see any ups and downs on my face. I couldn't move my eyes or make an expression, only my chest was aching.

"Haha——Can you understand what I'm saying?" He raised his hand and snapped his fingers in front of me, and my heart skipped a beat, making me almost cry out.

Can't bark, can't make a sound.I tried my best to restrain myself, wanting to see what he would say next.

"Hey—are you stupid?" He tilted his head and asked me, which only made me feel disgusted.

Probably because he had confirmed that I was still in an unconscious state, Yin Fei's movements became bolder. He raised his hand and patted my cheek, and my head was tilted to one side due to the force he exerted. My head straightened.Close to me, facing me, spoke softly.

"Let me tell you...Actually, Uncle Long doesn't care about Brother Zhiyan's affairs at all, unless Brother Zhiyan begs him. However, it is impossible for a gentleman like Guan Zhiyan to beg Uncle Long because of this matter, so I lied to you about the previous matter. Hehe... Also, because you asked to stay, I can continue to stay here, and I don’t need to go to New York to fight with those lunatics from Italy. This matter Thank you so much!"

He said with a smile on his face.And I just felt like my whole world was being torn apart.He lied to me, how dare he lie to me about this - I did that to Qixuan... I... I made Qixuan so sad... How dare he, how could he do this?

Rarely, a wave of hysterical anger wells up in me.

Yin Fei was still stroking my head with his hands, showing me a disgusting smile.

I only felt that the blood in my whole body rushed to the top of my head in an instant, and my head seemed to burst into severe pain. My consciousness began to be a little blurred, and the machine beside me suddenly sounded a loud alarm.

Yin Fei let go of me at once, and took a few steps back in fear. Within a few seconds, I heard the sound of Zhiyan pushing the door and entering. He rushed to me and kept calling my name, his expression become extremely tense.

I gradually lost consciousness, and when I woke up it was late at night, Zhiyan was sitting beside my bed, holding my hand worriedly.

"Ling Xi..."

He called me softly, and I looked at him, whimpering slightly.

"Ling Xi, does your head still hurt?"

"Ah..." I looked at him, tears overflowing from my eyes.I can't forget Yin Fei's face. In this life, I have almost never held grudges against anyone so much, but only Yin Fei, I can't forgive him.

"It hurts, doesn't it..." Zhiyan's expression seemed to be more painful than mine. He gently rubbed my forehead and temples, trying to help me relieve the pain, but I hoped that the headache would be more severe, at least this way I can firmly remember the hatred for Yin Fei.

In the next few days, Yin Fei never appeared in front of me again, but I knew he was still there, he was outside, he just didn't come in.Since my attack, Zhiyan has been close to me. He thinks that the reason for my attack was the huge emotional fluctuation, but he still can't find out what caused my emotional attack. great change.Of course he couldn't find out, and it was impossible for me to just tell him so directly.

Do I want to tell him that Yin Fei lied to me, I never accepted you, and I just want to be with Qixuan?No one can accept it, right?

But I don't want to keep the status quo like this.I want to see Qixuan, I want to know how he is doing now.

I need to think of a surefire way, a way for Zhiyan to get Qixuan back——

And now that I can't even write, the only thing I can use is...

I lay in bed thinking about it all night, and finally made up my mind.

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