[Qizi fan] Xing Shen

Tayun came out of the shower and wiped off the water droplets on his body little by little.It was still difficult to fall asleep last night, and my face was pale when I woke up in the morning. Fortunately, the hot water rushed to speed up the blood circulation, and my cheeks barely showed a little red.When he came to the bed, he slowly unfolded the flat ironed uniform, and put it on one by one without haste.The white shirt was buttoned up one by one from the bottom to the top, tightly covering the thin and pale body.When he took the tie, he paused, and slowly walked around the collar, thought for a while, and tied a knot uncertainly.He looked carefully in the mirror and felt that something was wrong, so he removed the heavy tie again and repeated it several times before he managed to tie a knot that didn't look so awkward.

Today is the opening ceremony, and everyone has to dress up to attend.Ta Yun put on the badge, cleaned himself up, looked left and right in the mirror, and after making sure there was nothing strange, he was ready to go out.

When the door opened, there were two people standing outside.

Nie Yun and Fu Yao stood outside the door for 5 minutes, hesitating whether to knock or not.Unable to wait any longer, Fu Yao raised his hand decisively, and the door suddenly opened.

Ta Yun was stunned, and didn't recognize the two of them for a moment.He was not ready to meet the two of them, but they came to him by themselves.He stood in the door, speechless for a while, with a slightly embarrassed expression.

The two sides froze for a second, and Nie Yun suddenly rushed forward and hugged Ta Yun. "Great, you finally came back safely..." There was a long sigh of relief in the voice, as if a big stone had fallen from his heart, and there was a bit of crying with joy.

After Nie Yun developed, he became much taller and stronger. Compared with him, Ta Yun was more than two circles smaller. The top of his head barely reached his chin, and his entire face was buried in his chest.It's been a long time, and the people I used to know have changed so much.

But Nie Yun is still the gentle and kind Nie Yun, who still cares about him.Ta Yun tried his best to raise his face, smiled, raised his hand to hug him back, and patted the other person's back lightly, "Okay, I'm fine now, don't be so excited, calm down..."

Nie Yun let him go, sniffed hard, his reddish eyes stared at the other person's face without blinking.

"We're all grown-ups now, don't cry at every turn!" Ta Yun raised his face on purpose, "I don't have any dignity of a soldier! How can I convince the public in the future?"

Nie Yun rubbed his eyes with his hands: "Hmph, that's just this one time, I'll shed another tear for you in the future, I'm a puppy!"

"Hahahaha okay, I remember."

"Why are you here? You are still wearing formal clothes, haven't you already graduated?" The two of them also wore Yutian's uniform today. The difference is that Nie Yun's is sky blue like him, while Fu Yao's is dark blue.

"Oh, at the opening ceremony, outstanding graduates from previous years will go up to give speeches." Nie Yun said.

"Hey, that's amazing, Senior Nie Yun." Ta Yun said jokingly.

"Okay, don't shout, I get goosebumps when I hear it."

Before Ta Yun could speak, Fu Yao said: "Yes, senior, we can't bear it."

Why does this "senior" sound so irritating!

"Someone is so yin and yang every day, no wonder he is still so short after development."

"you!"

"What's wrong with me?"

Fu Yao laughed and said, "You can't beat me now."

"Oh, really?" Ta Yun quickly tore off his tie, "It's hard to tell if you haven't played it before!"

"Stop, stop!" Nie Yun wrapped his arms tightly around Tayun, "What are you doing? Can you please stop!"

The two haven't seen each other for many years. When they meet, they stare at each other, sparks crackle, and they have to fight when they don't have enough words. This really hasn't changed at all.

"Stop arguing! Fu Yao, give him the things."

Ta Yun was suffocated, and while tying his tie indiscriminately, he said, "What is it?" He had seen Fu Yao carrying a jet-black box in his hand early in the morning.

Seeing that his hand was empty, Nie Yun took it, walked in and placed it on the table. "This is... Feijing's stuff. We have disposed of all the daily necessities, and the rest of them were handed over to us by the school when we left Bikong."

Haven't heard this name for a long time.When Tayun heard it for the first time, he was stunned for a moment, and he couldn't even tie a tie anymore.He has basically accepted the fact that he was abandoned now, but he has resentment towards the person who left cruelly. Although it is not as deep as when he was in the CDC, he still minds.He said coldly: "I don't want it, it's in the way, take it away."

"Hey, we also take up space..." Fu Yao complained, but was stopped by Nie Yun's eyes. "Even if you're angry or unwilling, in this world, you are the person who has the closest relationship with him, and this cannot be changed six years ago. Everything about the deed belongs to the deed owner, and in fact, it's the other way around. In the same way, only you have the right to decide whether to keep the contents of the box or not.”

Ta Yun looked at the box and didn't say a word for a long time.

Nie Yun went up to tie the tie for him, and a beautiful knot was tied in a few strokes. "I told you that you didn't do well in the past, so you can't fight now, right? Learn a little bit, Tayun."

"Tch," Ta Yun pretended to be careless, "What's so difficult about this, could it be that you can still grow a flower?"

"Hey," Nie Yun looked very proud, "I can really make you a flower." As he said, he flipped his fingers quickly, and after a while, Ta Yun was stunned to see a tie flower blooming on his neck.

"The reminiscence is over, it will be too late if we don't leave." Fu Yao reminded.

Ta Yun looked at the clock, it was just right, but now it will be delayed a lot.He frantically removed the big cloth flower around his neck, chased Nie Yun and shouted, "Hey! You should untie it for me!"

"Hey, isn't this pretty nice too?"

"You look good! Give me some speed, or you won't be able to go on stage today!"

"Okay, well, tsk tsk, troublemaker..."

"It's not your fault!"

……

After the ceremony, Ta Yun and Nie Yun had lunch together before saying goodbye to each other and returning to the dormitory.

The dark box on the table was so conspicuous that he tried to ignore it several times, but failed.Ta Yun simply picked it up, put it on his lap, and opened it carefully.

The box is not big, and there are books and notes, several colorful self-made starry sky bottles, and a dagger inside.

Feijing's dagger.

It was also the dagger that stuck in his heart on the day of the coming-of-age ceremony, and almost killed him.

Ta Yun picked up a star bottle and waved it in front of his eyes.Numerous fine blue-purple glittering sequins flow around a ball of cotton balls dyed madder red in the transparent liquid, which looks quite nice under the light.

He stared blankly for a while, there was no expression on his delicate and immature face.Afterwards, he silently put away the box, looked around the room, and stuffed it under the bed.

The management department of Yutian Military Academy has recruited 32 people this year, 30 of them are the masters, and the remaining two are the sons, and there are no young ones.Every time there is a rally, one row at a time, the dark blue of the water, and the lighter sky blue at the first two points are very conspicuous.Regarding this situation, in Ta Yun's words, it's, ah, I didn't expect someone to be as good as me.

Also, he was the only one of them who didn't develop.

The physical condition of the Qizhu is generally higher than that of the Qizi, especially in a top school like Yutian, all of them are the elite of the elite.In such a class, the pressure of Tayun can be imagined.

But he is also a person who refuses to admit defeat.Although he has suffered so much, he is still proud. His strong self-esteem makes him never allow himself to fall behind others, and he does not want others to naturally show sympathy and empathy when they look at him.Every day here, he has to put in more efforts to maintain the top position in the rankings; in terms of actions, he is even worse than when he was in Bikong, and he would rather everyone fear him and hate him. He is also better than seeing the slightest pity.

Seeing Tayun like this, Jinse's worries are getting deeper and deeper.Finally one day, he took a long test report and case, and said to him very seriously: "Tayun, drop out of school."

"What did you say?!" Ta Yun couldn't believe his ears, he thumped the table and jumped up from the chair, but his head was dizzy, stars appeared in front of his eyes, and he almost didn't stop.He firmly supported the table with his hands, stared at Jinse and paused every word, his voice was very hoarse, "I'm graduating in one year!"

Jinse had already guessed that he would have this reaction, and sighed: "Say it yourself, how much medicine have you taken from me over the years? When I didn't agree to give it to you, how much did you secretly buy behind my back? Indeed , these calming and calming drugs can relieve your pain, but that is only temporary, you can't rely on it, you have to learn restraint..."

It may be that he was too emotional, and Tayun was panting badly: "Can't rely on it? Then what do I rely on? What can cure me? Is it because I have been like this all my life? Every day I have to look like I am dying? !"

He has not slept for four days.The serious dependence on the drug gradually built up, so that he took more and more doses of the drug, and the body's resistance to the drug became stronger and stronger, until no matter how much medicine he took, he could not meet his needs.Without the maintenance of the medicine, he couldn't sleep all night, panic, anxiety, irritability, emptiness, restlessness, almost all negative emotions attacked him like an undercurrent in the dark night.He wrapped himself in the quilt and screamed hysterically until fishy sweetness came up in his throat.But doing so can't relieve him at all, just like covering him with more quilts can't make his body warmer, because the bone-chilling cold comes from his body.

Severe lack of sleep caused the secretion of hormones in his body to be disordered, and his spirit was on the verge of collapse. Once the will collapsed, he was basically finished.

"Tayun, Tayun, calm down and listen to me," Jinse said in a soft tone for fear of irritating him again, "Let's take a year off from school and quit first, okay? Otherwise, you won't be able to hold on of."

As soon as he finished speaking, Ta Yun seemed to be frozen.He seemed to have heard something terrible, his eyes widened, his body shaking like chaff: "Quit, quit?"

"Yes, your body's response to the drug is extremely slow now, and you need to..."

"No! I don't want it!" Ta Yun suddenly screamed hoarsely, kicked over the chair, and kept backing away. Due to his imbalance, he fell heavily, but he didn't know the pain, screamed, and desperately went into the corner shrink.On the outside, he had never been so gaffe.

Jinse was terrified by his appearance, he didn't quite understand why Tayun's reaction was so big.He tried to comfort him: "Tayun, calm down, don't be afraid! I will definitely not harm you! Don't be afraid, okay?"

"I don't want to go!" Ta Yun burst into tears, "I don't want to go to the CDC again! I don't want to go to that place! Don't send me there! Please..."

Jinse had a sore nose.So proud Tayun, when did he beg so much?

Regardless of the other party's resistance, he went up and pressed the man in his arms, patted his back, and stroked the top of his head over and over again, "You misunderstood, I didn't say that I would send you to the CDC, we won't go there , I promise you! We will only go to ordinary hospitals, can you believe me, please believe me?" Perhaps, he should not have been suggested to come to Yutian Military Academy at the beginning, due to the double pressure of body and mind, coupled with his own strong personality , accumulated day after day, and finally overwhelmed him.If you go to a general college, maybe the situation will be better.However, it's too late to say anything now, so much hard work has been paid, and there is still the last year, no matter what, I have to help him get through it, Jinse thought.

Tayun was crying with snot and tears, and Jinse let him.It is also good to cry and release the negative emotions that are suppressed in your heart.After crying for a while, probably because he was tired, his voice gradually subsided. He nestled in Jinse's arms, panting lightly, somewhat calming down.

He was stunned for a while, and then calmly said in a hoarse voice, "I originally thought that even without a partner, even with severe mental damage, I could still live like a normal person. Now it seems that it's all my stupid wishful thinking. "