my coward

He saw his mother again.The pale mother was lying on the hospital bed, and in the small bed next to her lay a crying baby waiting to be fed.

"Guangyao, this is your little sister. She is a poor child, please hug her."

He bent down and picked up the soft baby like a fragile object, full of great surprise at her birth.In this home, he will have a playmate, and finally he will no longer be alone.

Turning around again, it was he who had just been punished by his mother to stand in the courtyard for reciting the wrong mental arithmetic formula.From a distance, he saw his four-year-old little sister, with bangs combed, braided, and a floral dress jumping down the steps of the garden.When he saw it, his heart was extremely soft, and he hurried over to pick her up from the steps.As soon as the hand touched the corner of the clothes, it was waved away by a smaller hand. The little girl looked at him as if she had seen some terrible curse.

"Don't touch me! Emma said that idiots are contagious. I don't want to become an idiot! Woooooo..." The little girl tripped over the gravel and fell to the side, whimpering and crying.Hearing the sound, the servant rushed over, picked her up in a frenzied manner, coaxed and lied to her.Zhuo Guangyao stood there, at a loss.He never thought that he would be rejected by his little sister.

Suddenly, I felt my cheek being licked, and then again.It must be COCO, the Labrador puppy he brought back as his sister's playmate when his sister was born, and he usually feeds him most of the time, but he is closer to him.

In the end, in this family, I only have you.

The moment he opened his eyes, the morning sun invaded his eyes, and his pupils constricted suddenly, making him close his eyes reflexively.

"woke up?"

A pleasant male voice came from above his head, "Seeing that you don't sleep well, and you feel aggrieved by holding your mouth shut, I'm kind enough to comfort you."

Su Mi's whole body was immersed in the warm yellow sunlight, her facial features were exquisite, her bangs were scattered randomly on her forehead, her deep eyes were fixed on him, and she smiled slyly.In Zhuo Guangyao's view, he is a fallen angel who fell into the mortal world.

"It's not a dog..." Just as he spoke, Zhuo Guangyao realized that his voice was as hoarse as sand and stones.

Su Mi handed over a glass of water as if by magic, but it was still lukewarm.Zhuo Guangyao took a few sips before he felt relieved.Looking up, I saw Su Mi's eyes shining again, "Do you feel very caring? Are you falling in love with me soon?"

Zhuo Guangyao saw him begging for praise all over his face, if he had a tail, he would have flicked it long ago. "It really looks like COCO."

"It's COCO again! Which crooked melon and cracked dates can compare with this uncle!"

"COCO is a puppy I used to raise, and it has been with me for many years. Later, when I was older, I went to go to it when I was in middle school."

Su Mi was satisfied after listening to the explanation, "Just now you kept calling this name when you were not awake, I thought it was some wild woman! From now on, you can only call my name when you sleep, otherwise I will be jealous. Did you hear that?!"

Zhuo Guangyao saw him taking it for granted and was speechless.Can you control the world and sleep and dream?Only when he couldn't help rolling his eyes did he realize that this was not the place where the bar had a carnival yesterday.

"It's the cubicle upstairs in the BAR." Su Mi saw his confusion, and proudly introduced, "Even you don't know, this corner is purposely raised, and the former owner of the bar used to be separated in this space." The second floor can be used as a lounge."

"How did you know?"

"...Last night I slept until midnight and woke up from the cold, so I wandered around. I climbed up the steel pipe and found this door."

Zhuo Guangyao shook his eyebrows fiercely, "If you can find a place like this, your business will definitely be booming as a pickpocket."

Su Mi laughed dryly.Zhuo Guangyao relieved his nervousness by doing this, thinking that even if he is not bad, his temperament is not so noble, so he immediately relaxed.

Like treasure diggers who have strayed into the jungle, the two climbed into the attic hut, rummaged here and there, and with a spying heart, they were surprised for a long time every time they dug up an interesting little thing.

"Look at this!" Su Mi excitedly waved the small brown box in her hand, "I found something interesting."

Zhuo Guangyao looked over curiously. When he opened the box, there was a yellowed old photo and a letter, neatly folded and well preserved.In the photo, two people, one big and one small, look like a father and son. The tall and strong man throws the seven or eight-year-old boy high. Reflecting the afterglow of the sunset by the sea, the whole picture is warm and warm.

"Let's open the letter and have a look." Su Mi said while moving, Zhuo Guangyao had no time to stop, the envelope had been torn open in two or three times, revealing the letter paper folded into a heart shape.

"It's strange. Could it be a love letter written by a girl?"

Zhuo Guangyao was also very surprised, he thought it should be a letter from family or something.

"? Feels like a poem?" Su Mi was a little disappointed, "I didn't say anything, it's boring!"

After Zhuo Guangyao took it over and studied it carefully, he felt a little nervous. "This is Yeats' poem."

"Yeats? Who? Which country?" Su Mi lay down on the ground, stretching, "I'm not good at these romantic poems, but if you ask me about industry statistics, I can tell you a little bit."

Zhuo Guangyao carefully stroked each word on the paper, and said softly: "The name of this poem is "Secret Rose". I used to like it very much."

Far, secret, inviolable rose,

Embrace me in my critical hour; there,

These are in the Holy Sepulcher or in the wine cart,

Those who seek you, in the turmoil of thwarted dreams

and out of chaos lives: deeply

In pale eyelids sleep is languid and heavy,

People call it beauty.your huge leaves cover

The beard of the ancients, presented by the glorious three saints

Ruby and gold, the one who saw

Emperor with pierced hands and elderberry cross

Stand up in Drood's fancy, dim the torch,

Waking at last from madness, and dying; and he, who had met

Fander walked away in the burning dew,

Walking on gray shores where the wind never blows,

He lost Emma and the world with one kiss;

And he who drove the gods out of their strongholds,

The last hundred mornings bloomed, colorful,

He admires the beauty, and weeps in the graves of his dead;

The proud, dreaming emperor, the crown

and sorrow, and the wine-stained

The poets and clowns among the wanderers called,

He sold his fields, his house, his daily necessities,

For years he searched on shore and on isle,

At last he found it, crying and laughing,

A girl so radiant,

In the middle of the night, people beat the rice with a lock of hair--

A lock of stolen hair.I am waiting too

A hurricane of love and hate moments.

When the stars are blown apart in the sky,

Like sparks in a blacksmith's shop, then dimmed,

Apparently your time has come, your wind blows

The most distant, most secret, inviolable rose?

The man in the photo raised his muscular arms high and smiled softly and lovingly.Zhuo Guangyao looked at the photo and repeated the sentence: "The distant, secret, inviolable rose..."

The author has something to say:

The author of "The Secret Rose" is the Irish poet Yeats (William Butiler Yeats)