my coward

Since confronting May, Zhuo Guangyao thought that there was one more person he wanted to avoid.Unexpectedly, May took the initiative to ask him good morning the next day, and began to complain endlessly about how crazy the hotel breakfast was that day.

"Has the chef been dumped? The wine rice balls are salty! Vegetable pancakes are sweet! They are dark dishes!"

Zhuo Guangyao carefully guessed her tone and carefully observed her expression, for fear that she meant something. May was first provoked by him, "You don't need to test me, I'm not angry, I didn't mean to tell you just now, it's just a matter of fact. Although I was really sad yesterday, but think about how beautiful and cute I am, I have dreams Coolgirl with goals, it’s your loss if you don’t cherish it. I’m the one who’s sad now, but you’ll be the one who regrets it later! I want to take back all my love and give it to my future MR.RIGHT.”

"Well... I don't have anything worthy of your liking. I'm homeless and boring, and I'm not smart. I've lived for so many years and achieved nothing..."

MAY hurriedly interrupted him, "Brother Guangyao, are you deliberately belittling yourself so that I can say something nice to coax you? My vision is very high, so you are not allowed to belittle the person I like!" At the end, I added another sentence, "Even you can't do it yourself!"

Zhuo Guangyao lowered his head in embarrassment under her scorching and firm eyes, his face blushed but he just choked out an unconfident sentence: "I...I may not be as good as you think..."

"Brother Guangyao, ever since I knew you, you have always been so unconfident, like a hamster that wants to curl up in a hole, and will come out reluctantly to look for food when it is about to starve to death. You try hard to hide yourself, thinking Keep everyone from seeing you. The long-time customers in the store laughed at you for not being a man. You probably don’t know, I even got into fights with them for this.”

Zhuo Guangyao was quite surprised, he looked up just in time to see May wipe the tears off his cheeks.

"They don't understand you at all, but I know, I know you are really a good person. When we met for the first time at the seaside, my grandfather had just passed away. After wandering for so long, even the last relative left me. In my hometown, I I can’t go back. They all say that I’m a mourner. I’ve been afraid of my parents since I was a child. They’re afraid that I’ll guard against me and drive me away. Grandpa couldn’t bear to see me being angry everywhere in the village, so he sold his ancestral property and took me away. Come out. Do you know? In our place, selling ancestral property is something that can’t be held up for the rest of your life. The last person who treated me well also left. I really can’t find a reason to continue living in this world. I sit At the beach, listening to the waves, wondering if the temperature of the sea water should be a little warmer than this world...but you stopped me."

May looked at him almost affectionately, "Before I wanted to go into the sea, you stopped me. You chatted with me and asked me if I liked food, sports I loved, and unfulfilled dreams. Then you took me to dinner, you took me to watch surfing, you planted dreams in me."

Zhuo Guangyao remembered, the little girl with empty eyes, who was petrified in the cold wind, was sitting by the seaside, she seemed to be full of despair towards the world.

"Seeing you at that time was like seeing myself in a mirror. I couldn't help but want to say a few more words to you."

"I told you that I want to learn to surf, but you bought a surfboard for me the next day, and then I found out that you mortgaged your watch. You are a warm person with flesh and blood, and I am afraid that I will be the last one. Someone who understands you."

Zhuo Guangyao smiled wryly, unable to move the corners of his mouth.

May gave him a hug, and said slowly for a long time: "Brother Guangyao, I have already stepped out and found my dream. Although I failed this time, it doesn't matter. I am still young, and I can have a next time and another time. Don't you It doesn't matter if you like me, I have love in my heart and I will always find my Mr.Right. Life is long, and if you are afraid of falling again, you don't plan to stand up, so what's the point of living so long?"

"Brother Guangyao, since I saw you this morning, you have looked down at your phone 7 times. If you still like him, be brave and thick-skinned, and take the initiative to find him."

Zhuo Guangyao even burned his ears. May stared at him clearly, as if she could see through even a wrinkle in his heart.

"I don't know if I like him, or if I'm just used to him being around me. I'm afraid I've made a mistake."

"Brother Guangyao, in my opinion, getting you used to it is a particularly remarkable ability. You are not a proactive person. When strangers approach you, you will subconsciously reject them. It looks harmless on the surface, but in fact it is very alienated from people. He You can get used to it and prove that you didn’t hate him at the beginning, otherwise you wouldn’t let him push his feet.” May stood on tiptoe and tried to touch his hair, “You may not have a definite answer if you think about it here, how about Rushing directly in front of him to feel, to experience, to discern, must be better than your fantasy here!"

Zhuo Guangyao looked at the girl in front of him in surprise. She was old enough to be his younger sister, but the content she spoke was much more mature than him.

"Be brave, even if you fail, it's better than regretting day and night in the future!" May suddenly stopped, opened and closed her mouth several times, and finally said: "Brother Guangyao, I bless you."

May sent him away from the hotel full of energy, and also gave him a bunch of her favorite snacks, and repeatedly told him to remember to apologize to KEN.As a result, as soon as he arrived at the bar in the afternoon, he was greeted with a bear hug. KEN dyed exaggerated blond hair, dressed in the usual BLIINGBILIING, dazzling.Zhuo Guangyao felt that he was out of breath and began to struggle hard.

"Baby Zhuo, you're finally back. I thought you were going to hide in that little dark room."

KEN's worried eyes were extremely sincere, and Zhuo Guangyao was so ashamed that he couldn't lift his head when he thought of the fact that he skipped work for no reason.A Chuan took over his job, wiping wine glasses and utensils at the bar, and the business will start in half an hour.

"I'm sorry for causing trouble to the shop."

"Don't say that, it's when people are in a bad mood. When I'm depressed, I often think about closing the store and wandering around the world with my bag on my back. Speaking of which, the former owner of this store Seems like that's what he did, I saw his Weibo a few days ago, it should be in Suiye City now, ah...I also want to teach. Can I teach...emmm bartending?" Ken rubbed his nose and laughed to himself .

"I can teach them to play the guitar." A Chuan answered the words with confidence.

"Yeah yeah! You're the best in the world and you're the best! That's great! I thought he'd break down after being separated from Jimmy."

Ken turned and walked towards A Chuan, leaning on his shoulder and acting like a baby, "If you leave me, I will definitely not be able to bear it." A Chuan stopped what he was doing, just turned his head and kissed his forehead.

Zhuo Guangyao was caught off guard and ate a handful of dog food. After a while, he raised a topic embarrassingly: "Is jimmy the boss's lover?"

Ken's eyes flickered, "Jimmy is the boss' son."

The photo he saw in the attic and the song "Secret Rose" immediately appeared in Zhuo Guangyao's mind.In the blink of an eye, everything became so clear.Zhuo Guangyao's little heart was beating wildly, and he could almost confirm his previous guess.

"Everyone has their own destined person, but sometimes it may be different from what you expected. Is Zhuo Baobao also troubled by love recently? Do you want to communicate with Brother Ken?"

Ken came over and put his arms around Zhuo Guangyao's neck. He acted like a good brother, but in fact, he had developed a habit of gossiping after running the bar for a long time.

Zhuo Guangyao thought for a while, and said honestly, "I might have to go."

Ken froze, "Go? Where are you going? Are you going to change your job? Is the salary unsatisfactory or we have wronged you?"

Zhuo Guangyao shook his head like a rattle, "No! I want to find out something, so I need to leave here, leave this island and go to another city."

Ken frowned and thought for a long time, then sighed, "Are you going to find him? That name... what is that person's name? A Chuan, do you remember?"

"Su Mi." A Chuan replied in seconds.

"Yes, Su Mi. By the way, that kid is good-looking, and our baby Zhuo has been seduced. By the way, didn't you like me before? You changed your mind so quickly. Men really don't love each other! It's better for me, A Chuan ..."

Ken was still whining and complaining, but Zhuo Guangyao was completely dazed long ago, and the phrase was playing in his ear on a loop: "Didn't you like me before?"

"You know? You already knew?"

Ken also realized that he had slipped his tongue, and since it was too late to speak, he had to bite the bullet and explain: "Because Zhuo Baobao is too innocent, I can't hide my eyes or anything. You know I started dating in middle school, and I realized my Sexuality is simply too lazy to take the college entrance examination, and just hang out in the bar street. About this... How should I say? He is more sensitive than ordinary people. Zhuo Baobao is also a late enlightened one, so... definitely not trying to trick you on purpose! Because They already have Ah Chuan, and they want to stabilize after playing for so many years. The main reason is that Baby Zhuo is so good, and we don’t want to hurt you.”

Zhuo Guangyao continued to ask with difficulty: "On the night of the store celebration, Su Mi and I... did you arrange it on purpose?" If Ken nodded, he would definitely cry on the spot.

Ken shook his hands in a hurry, "Heaven and earth conscience! That day you seemed to be a different person. Not only did you drink a lot, but you also danced with the guests very happily. It was the first time I knew that Zhuo Baobao could do pole dancing! It looks like The thin waist is very strong, and the body can be twisted into various positions... Ah! It makes people excited, I hate it!" Ken covered his face, not sure if he was really shy, but Zhuo Guangyao was really shy It's too late.

"That day Zhuo Baobao was like a luminous body, and she was very clingy to me, as if she was trying to seduce me... I was really afraid that I would lose control, so I took A Chuan to solve it first... Then I came back and found that you were not in the store inside..."

"I cherish Zhuo Baobao very much, and I will never do anything to be sorry for you. Although Su Mi has met in the store before, I really don't know each other. You have to believe me!"

"So I really did the crime myself?" Zhuo Guangyao murmured.

Ken looked at Zhuo Guangyao who was deep in thought in horror. Ten minutes before opening, only the sound of rubbing cloth towels and utensils in Achuan's hands continued rhythmically in the silent store.