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When Jian Mingche came out of the bathroom, she saw that Jian Mingcheng was carrying several large bags of vegetables and fruits into the refrigerator. She didn't go over to help, but saw some bags of snacks on the coffee table, so she went over and tore them apart. With a bag of potato chips, I lay on the sofa with my feet stretched out and started eating.

Jian Mingcheng heard the noise, turned to see her, and asked, "Tired?"

Strangely, he was calmer than he had imagined, as if nothing had happened.

Her voice was indeed full of exhaustion, and she responded simply: "En." It didn't sound like the excitement of the phone call just now.

After Jian Mingcheng put everything in the refrigerator, he took out two apples, washed them in the kitchen, and handed them to Jian Mingche.She was looking at something with her mobile phone in her arms, and put the unfinished potato chips aside.Jian Mingcheng quietly lowered his eyes and handed the apple to her.

She didn't even raise her head, but just said: "I won't eat, you can eat." This made Jian Mingcheng's hands freeze - in his memory, Jian Mingche seldom refused to eat.

"Okay, I'll put it here, eat it when you want to eat it. I'll cook." He put both apples in the fruit basket on the coffee table instead, and then turned and walked towards the kitchen.

Just as he walked to the door of the kitchen, Jian Mingche suddenly sat up from the sofa, stopped him, and said, "Brother, just stir-fry two dishes at will. I don't have much appetite."

Without looking back, Jian Mingcheng responded with his back to her: "En." Then he walked into the kitchen.

The food was quickly prepared and brought out, Jian Mingche didn't say anything, just picked up the bowl and started eating.While chewing the food tastelessly, Jian Mingcheng quietly looked at her face - there was no special expression, but it was just abnormal.In Jian Mingcheng's impression, his younger sister should always be expressive and lively, either happy, mischievous, complaining, or simply giving others a big roll of the eyes.

"elder brother."

Jian Mingcheng was still in a state of mind wandering, but Jian Mingche suddenly called out to him.He came back to his senses all of a sudden, and asked with a smile, "Huh? What's the matter?"

"Is Harbin fun?"

Sounds like a normal question.Jian Mingcheng said: "It's okay, the ice sculptures in the Ice and Snow World are very beautiful. By the way, I have something for you."

As he said that, he got up and walked into the bedroom, took out the beautifully packaged handmade soap bought in that Russian-style shop, handed it to her, and said, "For you."

Jian Mingche looked over and over with the handmade soap for a few times, then leaned close to his nose and smelled it, finally a little sparkle appeared in his eyes, and he smiled and said to him, "Thank you brother." He came out and rubbed her head, then sat down and continued to eat.

At this time, Jian Mingche asked him again: "Did you go alone?"

It sounded like it was just a normal question, but Jian Mingcheng's heart skipped a beat, but he immediately returned to normal, and said in a very normal tone: "Of course it's a person, otherwise we can have Who?" After he finished speaking, he suddenly thought for no reason, could it be because he has been with Gu Enzhong for a long time, so he also unknowingly began to learn how to play without a trace.

"I'm surprised you didn't get lost by yourself."

Jian Mingcheng smiled angrily, and scolded her: "What are you talking about! Eat your food well!"

"Hey--" Jian Mingche smiled ingratiatingly, showing his white teeth, then lowered his head, picked up the chopsticks and poked the rice in the bowl, and said in a low voice, "Brother, I'm actually very unhappy today, I don't want to be like this son."

Jian Mingcheng put down his chopsticks, and asked her with concern: "What's the matter? Is there anything you can't tell me?" He said while thinking, I'm really despicable, I know what you're worrying about, but I still want to Wait until you take the initiative to speak out, and then lie to you, and of course comfort you as an older brother.Obviously, I am the mastermind who caused your troubles.

There was a period of silence between the two of them. Afterwards, Jian Mingche raised her eyes, her eyes showed fatigue, grievance, and sadness undisguised, and she said, "You know what? Gu Enzhong him..." She simply I'm going to cry.

Jian Mingcheng felt that he had sinned deeply.

He looked at her lovingly and encouraged her to continue.Jian Mingche pursed his lips unwillingly, sniffed his nose, and shouted a little louder: "Why do they speak so badly? These people have no quality at all, because they don't have to bear any responsibility, they can just scold anything come out……"

"Maybe all of this is fake? It's just a photo, which doesn't explain anything. Bystanders will only follow the media. No one knows what the truth is. Why do you care about what these people say?"

Ah, how shameful I am.

"Is that so?" She looked into his eyes and asked, then slowly lowered her eyes, hesitated to speak, "But..."

Jian Mingcheng said to her gently: "Besides, even if it's true, you don't need to be sad. Could it be that because Gu Enzhong likes men, you don't like him? He is wise, elegant, mature, stable, He has good knowledge and self-cultivation, is gentle and affectionate, knowledgeable and humble, and exudes a fatal attraction all over his body; he is diligent and dedicated, he has created so many touching characters in movies, and he loves his own life so strongly. Career—isn't that why you idolize him?"

"I……"

"Think about how angry he was when he broke into his house without thinking, but did he ever speak ill of you? Did he even give you a disgusted look? No, right..." Jian Mingcheng said slowly, "He is always so gentle to people that he doesn't even realize it. Although he bears some pain alone, he always treats the friends around him with the most candid sincerity, and even everyone who meets stranger. Isn't it?"

Jian Mingche was stunned for a while, bit his lip and said: "How do I know? I know Gu Enzhong on the screen, in the movie, and under the flashlight, but those are all fake .Who knows what kind of person he really is? Who knows if I adore him so much? Is it stupid at all?"

"Absolutely not." Jian Mingcheng said, "You have seen the real him, haven't you? He is real, not fake. He once stood on the same piece of land as you, only a few meters away. He looked at you Laughing, I want to convey kindness, do you feel it?"

Jian Mingche stared at a place with his eyes wide open, and said without any ups and downs in his voice: "Who knows? He was far away from me in the first place, but now I can't see him clearly. I can't understand him, I don't even have the qualifications to understand him. There are so many people looking up to him, how can he know a simple and clear one? I feel more and more... I am just like a fool. "

Jian Mingcheng stared at her, his heart seemed to be hit hard by a blunt object, and it was also like being cut piece by piece by a sharp weapon, the pain was so painful that he almost stopped breathing.

"Then try to understand me first. Xiao Che, I am your brother, and we are the closest people in this world to each other. If I also like men and I am gay, don't you want a brother?"

Jian Mingche raised her head in surprise, and instantly became terrified. She asked tremblingly, "Brother... what are you talking about?"

Jian Mingcheng stood up, he felt that he had to stop, he had to leave, he couldn't continue talking, at least he couldn't continue to stimulate her with this matter at this moment, but there was something suppressing him in his chest, something eager to blurt out, eager to confide , eager to explode.He began to walk up and down the room like a manic patient, unable to stop for a moment.

He was afraid of hurting her.But concealment is the real harm.

"What am I talking about? I know what I'm talking about. Every word I say is thought out. I like men, I don't like women. Of course I like women, but not erotically, and not Sexual attraction. I never told you, I dated men, kissed men, fucked men, it made no difference, I just—”

Jian Mingcheng stopped and lowered her hands, she suddenly hugged his waist from behind, and pressed her face tightly against his back.He felt his back wet, a little warm, and a little cold.

Jian Mingche finally cried out at this time, sobbing, and asked him: "These things...why didn't you tell me earlier? Brother...I'm sorry...I-I never knew...I...I It's your sister, but I never understood your pain... I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Jian Mingcheng gradually turned around, hugged her into his arms, and listened to her sobbing.Ah, what a terrible brother I am.I should have been your wife, and now I make you suffer for me.

I'm such a sucker.

The nocturnal psychiatric clinic is quiet and reassuring, as it always has been here, and for some it is only here that the night really is night.

Fang Junqian woke up from a deep sleep, and gradually felt an unprecedented relaxation, which was both psychological and physical.The man sitting on the chair saw him wake up, stood up immediately, and said to him, "You slept for nearly five hours." He pointed to the dark sky outside the window, and said, "It's [-]:[-] in the middle of the night .”

He thought, I have slept for so long.But did not say it.He took off the thin blanket covering his body and gently placed it on the sofa beside him, stood up and said, "Thank you, Dr. He."

The man showed a trustworthy smile and said, "This is my job."

He nodded, picked up the coat on the side and put it on his arm, and then walked towards the door.As he approached the door, he stopped suddenly and turned around.

Dr. He seemed to expect him to be like this, without showing any surprise or puzzlement.Fang Junqian took a deep breath and said to him: "I will consider your suggestion. I also think that this cannot continue."