Rebirth alone

There is a relaxed atmosphere in the room. A gourmet show is playing on TV. Auntie is wearing presbyopic glasses, writing and drawing in a small notebook while watching the show. Yang Zi is beside him maintaining his military dagger, and Ye Tao is holding a medicine bowl Sitting in the tiger chair, drinking medicine while listening to stories told by Ah Qing who held a medical book but didn't finish half a page.

Yang Zi, who had always been reticent, suddenly sighed with emotion: "Fourth brother, it's a pity that you don't tell stories."

Maybe it's more fun for a silent person to joke. Yang Zi's soft sigh made everyone laugh, even Ye Tao, who had a stingy smile, curled his lips.

Zhou Ziqian came in at this time. As soon as he entered the door, the chatter and laughter in the hall stopped. After a short period of surprise and silence, several people stood up one after another to greet Zhou Ziqian, and then the aunt went to the kitchen to make tea. Yang Zi also put on his saber and left the living room.

Ah Qing's outstretched hand stayed in the air for a few seconds, then retracted it under Zhou Ziqian's indifferent gaze, and found a step by herself: "Master Zhou just finished socializing, right? The smell of alcohol is still there."

Zhou Ziqian didn't respond, looked Ah Qing up and down before saying, "Doctor?"

It's not that Zhou Ziqian has never met Ah Qing, whether it's the photos on his resume or Ah Qing himself, he has seen them all, and he also knows that Ah Qing knows how to deal with people and things, and he is not annoying wherever he goes, but he is just a stranger. Lu, I don't like this man from head to toe.

"Exactly." Ah Qing smiled slightly, "I met Young Master Zhou once, and Mr. Zhou has forgotten things so much, I'm afraid I won't remember it."

Zhou Ziqian was noncommittal, ignored the distracting people, took Ye Tao's wrist and went to the second floor.

Ye Tao could naturally see that he was unhappy, but he didn't know whether he came here with emotions, or he was unhappy after he came.Coupled with the smell of alcohol emanating from him, he didn't stand against him any more, and was led upstairs silently and obediently.

Since Ye Tao moved here, Zhou Ziqian has never been here again, but he knows everything in the house, without Ye Tao's tie, he found Ye Tao's bedroom by familiarity.The room is spacious and tidy, and according to the layout of Zhou's bedroom, it is divided into two areas, living and leisure.

Zhou Ziqian put the cake he brought on the table, unpacked it, lit a birthday candle, and turned off the lights in the room.

Today is Ye Tao's birthday, and everyone who knows it has never forgotten it, but the body of Ye Tao's parents has long since turned into a handful of cold ashes. There is really nothing to celebrate such a birthday, so no one gave Ye Tao a birthday. Blessings, even Ye Tao himself chose to forget this day.

"The child's birthday, the mother's good day, even if it's for her, you shouldn't ignore this day." Zhou Ziqian was not drunk to the point of being unreasonable. Seeing Ye Tao standing motionless a few steps away, he stretched out his hand to beckon him forward ,"come over."

Ye Tao came to the table and blew out the candle without saying a word. When he turned to turn on the light, Zhou Ziqian hugged him in his arms, as if he was afraid that he would struggle. This hug was more like a prison. prison shackles.

"Hush—don't make noise, let me hug you." Zhou Ziqian didn't come here to see him after drinking, but to see his drinking. Only when he was "not sober" could he face being abandoned by him. Only a person who dares to hold him in his arms like this.

The scorching breath mixed with the smell of alcohol blew on Ye Tao's neck, Zhou Ziqian buried his head and took a deep breath, he was so eager for this familiar and warm smell, so eager to know how shameless it is to hold him in his arms like this, But he still stretched out his hand uncontrollably.

It was this person who made him miss him so deeply that it was almost unforgettable.After every day filled with work, endless emptiness would be born at night, and thoughts and desires for this person would emerge from the emptiness and entangle, like a gangrene, causing him to toss and turn in pain.The pain will turn into a devil again, sneering in the dark: You have given up what you least want to give up, and got a lot of things you don't need, so I am here to accompany you.I will always be with you, watching the last light in your life disappear; watching you vent your anger on others in such darkness and coldness; watching you hate everyone including yourself.

Ye Tao didn't know what the man holding him was enduring, even if he knew, he could only remain indifferent. He could no longer show more affection and indulgence to pamper him.

"Two days ago, Mr. Zhou called me. He said that his health is getting worse and worse. He wonders if he can survive this winter." The two had to sharply reject, "Are you getting engaged soon?"

Zhou Ziqian froze, almost gritted his teeth and called him, "Ye Tao!"

Ye Tao turned a deaf ear, looked at the swaying flowers and plants on the terrace and continued: "We just had a funeral at home, even if the deceased is a clan member, it's not good to have a wedding right away, Mr. Zhou should urge you to settle the marriage before the year, right? "

Zhou Ziqian was still reluctant to let go. He buried his head in Ye Tao's neck, his breath and voice were a little unsteady, and he unconsciously revealed a hint of pleading: "Ye Tao, don't do this. I know I've done it to myself, no matter how you treat me It should be, but you are not feeling well when you say these things, don't say it, okay? I just came to see you, and I won't disturb you for a long time. "

"What do you think I'm talking about? How resentful am I? I'm a man, and no matter how petty I am, I won't be like a resentful woman. I'm saying this to remind you that it's not wrong for you to marry a wife and have children, but you are choosing the date of marriage It's too much to disturb my peace." Ye Tao sighed softly, "Let go, don't make me sick of you."

Zhou Ziqian's whole body froze, his body was unstoppably cold, as if he was about to be frozen.

Ye Tao walked to the terrace and pushed open the half-closed door. The moist night wind carried the faint scent of flowers on his face. Ye Tao let out a breath slowly, and the suffocation in his chest subsided a little. .

The light-colored clothes trembled in the wind, like a butterfly fluttering its wings, as if it would fly away without any regrets at any time.Zhou Ziqian stood in the room and looked at Ye Tao. The thin light outside could not reflect where Zhou Ziqian was, let alone the changing emotions in his eyes.

After a while, Zhou Ziqian calmed down strangely, and ate the cake in silence.A small piece of the cream exuding the tempting aroma was wiped off, Zhou Ziqian slowly licked the cream on his fingers, and called Ye Tao while swallowing: "Come and eat the cake, I'll go back after eating."

Ye Tao sighed silently, closed the door, turned on the floor lamp, and saw Zhou Ziqian rubbing another piece of cream in the soft light, and rolled the cream into his mouth bit by bit with the nimble tip of his tongue. Peaceful and comfortable, but somehow uncomfortable.

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What should I do if I'm going to run away?