cosine of desire

Learning to play piano, after awakening in the summer to compose his own music, his talent was discovered by Zhang Lingyan and he went to Beijing for further studies. After graduation, he became a piano teacher and found love.This is the first half of the whole string, gradually climbing and reaching the peak in a progressive manner.A series of misfortunes ensued that caused your strings to drop abruptly.The piano score was plagiarized by others, and Zhang Lingyan, who led the passerby, left. He lost his job and love one after another, and has been in a state of despair until now.

"To sum up, youth experience constructs the strings of life for you. The strings are normally distributed with event experience as the horizontal axis and happiness as the vertical axis, completely describing the ups and downs of life trajectory. Perhaps in the eyes of most people, a string is Straight, but you know, the strings only play beautifully when they are plucked. The same is true of life. Thinking from a macro perspective, when all people's life experiences are turned into strings, in the face of world changes or catastrophic apocalypse The invisible performance can always burst into excitement, and the music is passionate and melodious, as if the hero's praise is so eloquent.

"The era is leaping forward, science and technology are advancing, and the social process has been perfected under a series of great changes, but the heart of mankind has not changed. Everyone in the world knows that life is short, whether it is ordinary or wonderful. Complete the strings of their lives, they are inspired by their predecessors, and they are a warning for future generations. The mediocre are overwhelmed by the long river of history. They may be wise and enjoy their lives in peace, or they may be decadent and lazy and achieve nothing; those who have gone through the years have resisted the countless twists and turns of life, and the wonderful history has already been written. Therefore, most of them succumbed to the status quo of life in their later years and waited quietly for the end of their lives.

"Now you feel that the climax has long since faded, and the string of life has fallen to the end, but to me your life is not over. The end of one string marks the beginning of another string, or the string you experience is actually the beginning of the whole life. A part of the string? The variety and complexity of life is unpredictable, and the string of life is similarly infinitely extended. Your friends, Yu Xian and Zheng Qie, they are as they are named, and their function images are endless. This may be equally revealing. I hope now What you do is to abandon the old turmoil and setbacks and live a wonderful life in front of the world."

They walked side by side along the river.The twilight was completely low, and the mountains in the distance waited sadly like dark monsters. The wooden pavilions on the opposite side were lined up with bright lights. Dozens of wishing boats carrying candles and longings floated along the coast.Lin Yujing stared at the nomadic singer far away, and suddenly understood the reason why Shi Tongshen saw through the world and lived in seclusion in western Hunan.

Phoenix.

Rebirth from Nirvana.

After leaving Xiangxi Phoenix and returning to Beijing, Lin Yujing bought a property in Yanjiao with all his life's capital, and then got funding from Yu Xinlin to establish a music organization in a bustling business district.He no longer creates piano creations, but trains new students with the help of teachers.He bid farewell to Yu Xian, Zheng Qie, Luo Zhimin and Yu Xinlin in turn, and Zhang Lingyan had already lived in seclusion in Liangxiang.Yu Xian originally wanted to tell Lin Yujing about the person who sent an anonymous letter to his fiancée, which eventually caused the two to break up their marriage contract, but he immediately dismissed this idea because he did not find any conclusive evidence and only speculated. If he had the opportunity in the future, he would ask in person.In fact, Lin Yujing didn't take that framing to heart, on the contrary, he thought it helped him see the essence of love. "My father is right, we are not fellow travelers," Lin Yujing said when bidding farewell to Zheng Qie, "we will contact each other when we have something to do, and we are still friends." They thanked each other and wished each other politely and formally the same as when they met at the elevator entrance same.The following year Zheng Qie married a software engineer, and Lin Yujing also got engaged to a vocal teacher.They did not come together after all.

Many years later, Yu Xian came to Liangxiang alone to visit Zhang Lingyan in order to confirm the speculation about the anonymous letter incident.They recalled Lin Yujing together, reminiscing about him leaving his hometown, going to the capital, discovering love, being framed... until he finished telling Lin Yujing and settled in Yanjiao, Yu Xian stood up and looked at Zhang Lingyan:

"Back then, you wrote that anonymous letter and sent it to Zheng Qie together with the new arrangement of the piano music. The person who finally caused her and Lin Yujing's love to break up was you."

"I admit it. But please explain to me how you came to this surmise."

"Okay. First of all, when Lin Yujing left Xinxing Nanli and moved to a university dormitory, his circle of friends and contacts were very narrow. Not many people knew Zheng Qie's address. I only found out about her after the accident happened. It is very unlikely that you, as his friend and guide, and even his future witness at that time, did not know the address. Lin Yujing also admitted this to me later.

"Secondly, the anonymous letter to Zheng Qie is written in a dignified imitation Song style, and the handwriting is dark blue. You may be quite confident in the black italics you usually write in, but I know you very well. You always use dark blue when you send letters. Colored ink and imitation Song typeface, and told me that is a way of respecting the recipient.

"There are still many suspicious points, including after the piano piece was plagiarized and published, you did not testify for Lin Yujing, and even insisted that the work was indeed written by Qin Kaige; also, after the anonymous letter incident, you went back to Liangxiang almost at the same time, The rush of the itinerary prevented you from saying goodbye to us.

"Of course, the above inferences can only allow me to guess that you are the anonymous person, but I have not found any conclusive evidence. The key is your motive. I have been trying to find it for many years, but I can't find it, so this has become a lingering mystery. But At this moment, after listening to Lin Yujing's life before leaving his hometown, combined with my personal experience, I roughly figured out the reason why you wrote the anonymous letter and broke the engagement.

"You did it very secretly, and you didn't even make Lin Yujing suspect you. In the face of a genius, in order to stimulate his hidden deepest potential, a guide has only two choices: inspire him, or destroy him. Obviously, you You chose the former, but you used the latter. Over the years, although you have excelled in the field of literature, you lament that you don’t have the ability to compose like Lin Yujing, but you also love the piano, so you have always wanted to cultivate geniuses by yourself Lin Yujing is the right candidate.

"Through the CD, you learned about Lin Yujing and rushed to Pingding District, Hunan. After listening to his life story, you learned that when your first love Xia Tian left him, in order to cover up his sorrow and repay the girl, he wrote an extremely Beautiful piano piece, the one I played to you, "Summer." So you conclude that he is at his best when he is suffering the most, but still has hope. You design Invited him to come to Beijing to work as a piano teacher, and waited for the opportunity to come. By chance, you learned that his works had been plagiarized, so you chose to refuse to testify for him, and even added fuel to the fire, by sending an anonymous letter. Way to tell his fiancée Zheng Qie about the plagiarism. You hoped that they would have a misunderstanding so that Lin Yujing could immerse himself in a world of sadness and inspiration and write brilliant music. Your plan is half successful. Lin Yu Jing He and Zheng Qie broke up emotionally, although the reason was not a misunderstanding caused by plagiarism, but they finally found out that their personalities were at odds and their love could not last long.

"After the anonymous letter was sent to Zheng Qie, you lived in seclusion in Liangxiang. You sent a text message to remind me to take Lin Yujing to find Shi Tongshen—that was the last message I received from you. You wanted Shi Tongshen to inspire Lin Yujing potential, but that extraordinary old man has already seen through everything. He ignored your instructions and warned Lin Yujing about the complexity and variety of life, and let him walk through a colorful life without fear of danger and start a new life. Your plan for many years has thus failed.

"As for why I can deduce this, I can only attribute it to my experience. You and I were literary confidants, and we often discussed in the field of reading and writing. I don't have your talent, but you still hope that I can be a Writer. After you retired that year, you used a notebook to write down your fragmented life experience, and then gave it to me, asking me to write a work based on your experience. At that time, I was still young and had different opinions on various things. Deep, fluent writing has not yet been practiced. After I finished writing, I had the idea of ​​publishing. As my writing tutor, you knew that the work would not be published successfully but did not stop it. It was not until I experienced the failure that I realized it.

"There are many similarities between Lin Yujing and I, including that we are both from the same hometown, have experienced life blows, love creation, and are full of expectations for a better life. We also choose to live a new life, just like the two plucked strings. Lin Yujing founded a music organization and chose to engage in the education industry, and I also devoted myself to learning mathematics to prepare for the unknown world. We have no right to change the past, but we can change the future.”

In the evening, Yu Xian and Zhang Lingyan left Liangxiang and took a long-distance bus to Yanjiao.They walked the wet tree-lined path in silence.Years passed, Yu Xian thought that Zhang Lingyan was dead, no, he did not complete the redemption of life, so his life string has not ended.He caught a glimpse of the scenery on the street. When he visited Lin Yujing in Yanjiao, the roadside was still untouched wet mud, but now after the night rain, there are flowers blooming there.They walked slowly from building to building, as if the journey never ended.Yu Xian vaguely remembered that Lin Yujing had told him that the music institution didn't close until eight o'clock in the evening.

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