[Song Sendong] When I was young, the boy I loved

This world is so big, if you want to hide from someone, you can really avoid him.But wanting to hide is one thing, but not being able to hide is another.

Zhan Guoyi was very proud that his precious daughter went to the United States for further studies.However, Zhan Guoyi's pride was completely blown by the fact that Zhan Minmin hadn't returned home for three years.Every time Zhan Guoyi called and urged her to come back, the reason he got was always busy.Zhan Minmin said she was busy, and she was really busy, busy with the project, busy earning credits, busy with the internship... she was so busy all day long that she was dizzy.But among these reasons that kept Zhan Minmin busy, the only thing she didn't tell Zhan Guoyi was that she was hiding from Song Sendong.

Although Zhan Minmin hasn't returned home for three years, during these three years, Song Sendong would go to Zhan Minmin's house every new year and holiday, to chat with Zhan's mother and drink with Zhan Guoyi.Every time Zhan's mother calls, she will talk about how good Song Sendong is, and then complain that Zhan Minmin, a girl, is far less caring than Song Sendong, saying that it would be great if Song Sendong was her son.Zhan Minmin always listened silently to her mother's complaints, without saying a word.Amidst her mother's complaints, she could know a lot about Song Sendong, which she couldn't find on the Internet.The more this happened, the more Zhan Minmin resisted going home. She was afraid that she would meet Song Sendong, and that the fortress of self-protection that she had built with great difficulty would collapse automatically without his push when she met Song Sendong.

Studying away from home, during these three years in the United States, Zhan Minmin realized a truth, that is, some things that I thought I could forget only when I was far away, but in fact I couldn't forget them at all.Staying away, on the contrary, deepened her obsession, the obsession that she can't get it, can't ask for it.Song Sendong, for Zhan Minmin now, just can't get it, can't ask for it, it has become her obsession, her heart demon, and she can't get rid of it.

As we all know, the United States is a very open country, and men, pleasure, women, and love are the most common things in the eyes of Americans.It's okay during the day, but at night, Zhan Minmin seems particularly out of place, so out of place with the United States, where nightlife is very rich.In the same department as Zhan Minmin, an American girl who attends class also wants to bring the oriental girl who is as delicate as a Barbie doll——Zhan Minmin into their carnival camp. In the dissecting room, make friends with corpses soaked in Malfoyrin.They worked hard, many times, but in the end they were all in vain, so they had to give up.Even so, Zhan Minmin still became friends with them.

Zhan Minmin also learned from them that if she wanted to forget a man or a relationship, the best way was to find another man and start a new relationship.They told her that the reason you can't move on from the past is either because you haven't healed long enough or the next person you meet isn't good enough.

Zhan Minmin also wanted to forget Song Sendong, and also wanted to learn from those American girls around her to find a boyfriend and start a new relationship.But Zhan Minmin is timid. She always shrinks back at the moment when she decides to start over. She still can't pass the test in her heart, and she retreats habitually.In this way, Zhan Minmin has been huddled in the cage he made for himself, and the ground is a prison, and he can't get out no matter what.

In the eyes of Americans, Christmas is no less than Chinese New Year.Although Zhan Minmin has been in the United States for three years, he really doesn't have much interest in Christmas.Zhan Minmin hung up the phone call from her mother complaining that she would not go back, and was going to pack up, find a movie to watch, and then go to bed early, and she was going to spend Christmas like this.But she never expected that as soon as she put the phone aside, she heard knocks on the door.As soon as Zhan Minmin opened the door in doubt, before she could react, she was startled by the group of young girls in her family who were dressed in fancy clothes.Just as Zhan Minmin wanted to ask what they were doing, they held her down. They forced her to change her clothes and put on her makeup. Just like a doll, let them toss about a few times.

Zhan Minmin was confused by a group of them, and she didn't know what they wanted to do at all. When Zhan Minmin woke up, she was no longer in her dormitory, but in a place where the music was very explosive and the atmosphere was very high. Open-air PULB.Zhan Minmin couldn't adapt to such an environment, so she wanted to run away, but the American girls who had guarded against Zhan Minmin's escape early in the morning, adopted close-to-person marking, and Zhan Minmin couldn't escape if she wanted to.

Zhan Minmin's quietness seemed very out of tune with the noisy surroundings.It was Zhan Minmin's incompatibility that attracted everyone's attention.

The quiet, delicate and beautiful girl like a porcelain doll is like an elf in the mortal world in this noisy environment.

Intentionally or not, more and more people came up to strike up a conversation, and it was not something Ashely and the others could stop. Ashely and the others originally wanted to bring the little nerd Zhan Minmin out to see the world, but they never expected this situation to happen.

Good tutoring made Zhan Minmin unable to do any disrespectful behavior.In this mixed environment, Zhan Minmin's face froze with laughter in the face of those who came to strike up a conversation intentionally or unintentionally.In the end, Zhan Minmin couldn't take it any longer, so she left Ashel and the others who brought her out without any morale, and sneaked away by herself.

Zhan Minmin couldn't help but heaved a sigh of relief that there were no people who came to strike up a conversation intentionally or unintentionally.Zhan Minmin was walking on the street, lowering his head and raising his eyes, all he saw was beaming, and there were lights and festoons everywhere. For some reason, he felt sad for no reason, as if he had been abandoned by the whole world. I miss him so much. ...

With such self-pity and self-pity, Zhan Minmin was only hypocritical for a while.So many years of life experience told her that instead of complaining hypocritically here and thinking about people who shouldn't be thinking, it's better to go back, nestle in her big and comfortable bed at home, hold an iPad, watch American dramas, and pass the time.

Just when Zhan Minmin decided not to abuse herself anymore, and wanted to go home and fight under the covers, she suddenly heard the voice she was most familiar with.Zhan Minmin turned her head reflexively, but she didn't see the person she thought. The voice she heard was just the interview video of that person played on the big screen in the street.

Zhan Minmin couldn't move, she just raised her head and stared straight at the person on the big screen. She was still so bright and dazzling, exactly as she remembered.

Zhan Minmin felt that she was really a hypocritical person, only looking at the man on the big screen, she actually burst into tears.Zhan Minmin wiped the tears on his face with his hand, and hooked the corners of his lips mockingly, Zhan Minmin, do you love him that much? !Love him, even if you love him so what.Do you love him, does he love you? !

Regardless of whether he loves you or not, Zhan Minmin, you should ask him if he likes you or not.He doesn't even like you, even if you love him, so what.This is just your unrequited love from the beginning to the end, and you are masturbating yourself alone, and it has nothing to do with him.

She abused herself again, and Zhan Minmin broke her heart, and went home alone in a depressed mood.Zhan Minmin sometimes doesn't understand herself. There are many men in this world who are more handsome than that person and treat her better than that person. Why is she so obsessed with that person and refuses to turn back?

She clearly knew that it was impossible, and Minmin knew that that person would never belong to her, and she still hoped that one day, that person would see her goodness, Zhan Minmin, you idiot, there must be a limit to self-torture .

Zhan Minmin just walked home laughing at himself all the way, took out the keys from his handbag, and was about to go home and open the door, when suddenly someone slapped him on the shoulder, scaring Zhan Minmin out of the keys in his hand.

Zhan Minmin was not in a good mood at all, and Zhan Minmin, who hadn't calmed down after being so shocked, lost control of her emotions and turned around quickly, wanting to teach the person who scared her a lesson. What I saw was a smile on the corner of his lips, with a warm smile on his face. The bright and charming man said to himself, "Hi, Minmin, long time no see!"

Zhan Minmin's first reaction was that without even a smile on his face, he squatted down and picked up the key he had just dropped on the ground. After that, without looking at the person, he turned around to open the door, pushed it open, and went in.

"Minmin..." Song Sendong imagined that Zhan Minmin saw N kinds of pictures of himself, but he just didn't think that Zhan Minmin saw him as if he didn't see him, and just ignored the past.Song Sendong saw that Zhan Minmin was about to close the door expressionlessly and shut him out, and realized something was wrong, so he hurriedly squeezed in.

This suddenly squeezed leg made Zhan Minmin, who was about to close the door, realize something was wrong. He raised his head and saw the silly smiling face. Reflexively, Zhan Minmin stretched out his hand subconsciously and pinched it. Really, it feels as good as ever...

"Minmin, why are you pinching me?!" Song Sendong, who was pinched, covered his face, staring at his innocent little eyes, and condemned the little girl who pinched his face.It's just that Song Sendong's innocent eyes are destined to not get a response, because the other party has been immersed in his own world.

Zhan Minmin felt that the world was a fantasy. She was thinking about that person, who just appeared in front of her without any warning.It’s not fantasy world anymore, what is it? !

"Minmin, let's not stay here, let me go in and sit down." Noticing that passers-by always glance at them intentionally or unintentionally, Song Sendong, who was a little frightened by the paparazzi, frowned unnaturally. Frowning, he walked sideways around Zhan Minmin who was still in a daze and walked in directly.

Is this development Mao rhythm? !

Zhan Minmin closed the door with some resignation and incompetence, and didn't go in. She just leaned against the door, folded her arms around her chest, and looked like she had followed her own territory, touching this and that, and opened the refrigerator with ease, and took Zhan Minmin not only couldn't accept the box of yogurt drunk by a certain man, but also couldn't laugh or cry.

On her side, she abused herself and played unrequited love, but on his side, it became a funny and nonsensical drama scene. Zhan Minmin really didn't know how to react.