coquettish and clingy

Gu Jingcan couldn't remember how he rushed into the hospital with Lin Zhichuan in his arms, watched the doctor give him first aid, and then sent him to the ward, where he was put on various drips.He didn't panic, he didn't lose his composure, but it was as if someone had taken that memory out of his brain, and he couldn't remember anything clearly.

I only remember Lin Zhichuan's enduring pain and his own fear.

When Huo Yunzhen returned to the ward, Gu Jingcan held Lin Zhichuan's hand and sat by the bed watching him in a daze.The lights in the ward were not turned on at night, and the sensor lights in the aisle flickered on and off. Gu Jingcan was sitting in a position that just blocked Lin Zhichuan's face.

"The doctor said it's all right. He didn't drink much. He just drank cold wine on an empty stomach. His reaction was faster than ordinary people, and it was a little more obvious."

Gu Jingcan nodded, "Thank you."

Huo Yunzhen felt very tired after making a fuss in the middle of the night, so he sat down along the corner of the wall.Maybe it was a kind of fate, when Lin Zhichuan was allergic to alcohol again, he was also there, so just come along.

"I told you that I have known Lin Zhichuan since the second year of junior high school. The reason is also because of alcohol. It was much more serious that time. Lin Zhichuan went directly to the operating room."

Gu Jingcan was startled, he raised his stiff head, "That's why you know he is severely allergic to alcohol?"

Huo Yunzhen nodded, and laughed at himself again, "Listen to me, for three years, I can't forgive myself."

Gu Jingcan glanced at Lin Zhichuan who was still sleeping, stretched the quilt for him, and said softly that it was ok, Huo Yunzhen also said it, and said whatever came to his mind.

"I have been restless since I was a child, and I caused trouble everywhere. Taking advantage of the little money in the family, I always formed cliques and fought, and I felt so prestige. I also fought with Lin Zhichuan a few times... oh, he and Did you mention that he was also a problem student in junior high school?"

"Said."

"That line...Lin Zhichuan wasn't like this from the beginning, it was after his mother had an accident that he collapsed. His parents' affairs were a big deal at the beginning, you may not know it, but my family has a little business with his father The relationship was just a chat after dinner, I didn't listen carefully, who would have thought that I would have something to do with Lin Zhichuan in the future."

Gu Jingcan really didn't know that Lin Zhichuan's family should be quite rich before, so it's not surprising that Huo Yun could really hear something.

"I won't go into details about what happened. In short, it made Lin Zhichuan very painful. He probably wanted to use violence to vent his anger. Wherever there are gangsters, there is Lin Zhichuan's name. I placed an order once, and I was almost beaten by a dozen people. It was Lin Zhichuan who saved me from gang fights in senior grades."

Speaking of this, Lin Zhichuan suddenly smiled brightly, "I don't think he wants to save me subjectively, he may...he must know that he is allergic to alcohol, he smiled subtly when he watched the beer, but still Accepted the challenge of bottle blowing. I don’t remember how many bottles there were, anyway, they were all on the table, Lin Zhichuan raised his neck and drank without blinking his eyes.”

It was winter, Lin Zhichuan was wearing very thick clothes, and the allergic reaction started from his arms, so Huo Yunzhen didn't find the allergic reaction on his face until the end.

Gu Jingcan's heart twitched. He knew that he was seriously allergic to alcohol, but he still drank a whole table of wine. What's the difference between this and self-abuse?

Huo Yunzhen fell into memory, and his expression began to be in a trance, "When Lin Zhichuan fell, everyone ran away in fright. I also cried in fright, you don't know how scary it is. In the end, the adult next to him called 120 and sent him to the hospital .”

"Do you know what I did after that, Gu Jingcan?"

Gu Jingcan looked at him calmly, "You ran away?"

Huo Yun covered his mouth exaggeratedly and smiled, "Can you fucking save face! Pretending not to guess that you will die! My mother...I am my mother who really escaped! I actually escaped!"

After his mother rushed to the hospital for treatment, Huo Yun really ran away in a panic.He couldn't stay in the hospital for a moment, he was afraid that Lin Zhichuan would die, he was afraid of seeing the doctor, and he was afraid of the people coming and going in the hospital.At that moment, he was so frightened by the shadow of death that he couldn't remember that the person lying in the operating room was in danger because of him.If Lin Zhichuan died, he was the one who killed him.

"I don't know whether God is going to save me or punish me. We both went to the same high school, and we are still in the same class, just across the aisle!"

Gu Jingcan looked at Huo Yunzhen squatting on the ground with his head in his arms, not knowing what to say.

"I knew that Lin Zhichuan was in the same school as me since my freshman year of high school. Seeing his speech in English at the school's welcome party, I knew that I was going to start paying off my debts."

Gu Jingcan changed the cold towel and carefully wrapped Lin Zhichuan's arm, "Is your mother taking care of the next thing?"

"Of course, the money that should be given is quite a lot. I asked the nurse to ask the aunt to give me a gift and apologize. I didn't leave anything. When I got home, I chased me with a feather duster. That was the first time she hit me since I was a child. I couldn't get out of bed for days."

Gu Jingcan understood that Huo Yun really couldn't get over the hurdle in his heart, he spurned his cowardice and his abandonment of Lin Zhichuan.If he hadn't run away at the beginning, even if he just waited for Lin Zhichuan to wake up after the operation, he wouldn't have felt guilty for so many years.

"Want to tell him?"

Huo Yunzhen still lowered his head, "I thought about it, but I didn't dare. Lin Zhichuan doesn't remember me either, so I can only comfort myself by saying it. Lin Zhichuan doesn't want to recall those things, right?"

From Gu Jingcan's point of view, he didn't want Huo Yunzhen to say that there must be endless pain behind such self-abuse behavior, and Lin Zhichuan would never be happy when he thought about it.And it has been three years, Lin Zhichuan never thought of finding Huo Yunzhen, and probably didn't care who the person who caused his allergies was.

It's just that Huo Yunzhen couldn't forgive himself.

"Think about it yourself, should you tell him, it's not good for anyone if you keep procrastinating like this."

Huo Yunzhen finally raised his head, his expression was unclear, "You want me to tell him?"

"I have nothing to think about. This is the past between you and him. You can handle it yourself."

No matter what his wishes are, he respects Lin Zhichuan's choice and Huo Yunzhen's decision.

Huo Yunzhen stayed for a while, then wiped his face and walked out.

"Song Ke will be here soon, think about what to say."

"I know."

Song Ke didn't know what happened to Lin Zhichuan until he got to the barbecue stand. Gu Jingcan answered the call, and he will be there soon.The hospital is not far away, and it is closer by taking a small road than taking a taxi.Lin Zhichuan mentioned it to Gu Jingcan when they were walking after dinner, but he didn't expect to use it soon.

When Song Ke rushed into the ward, his whole body was gloomy.He didn't get angry, nor did he feel relieved, he just looked carefully at Lin Zhichuan's face, and at the erythema that was gradually fading on his body, and then sat in the corner where Huo Yunzhen was just now, somewhat exhausted.

"what did the doctor say?"

Gu Jingcan looked up at him, "I'm allergic to normal alcohol. If I drink very little, the swelling will completely subside at dawn. Now I'll put him on an intravenous drip to make him sleep and feel better. The fee has already been paid, and we can make arrangements tomorrow to see if he needs to be hospitalized."

Song Ke's gaze shifted from Lin Zhichuan to Gu Jingcan, "Who gave him the wine?"

Gu Jingcan was silent for a while, then said, "I gave it, I'm sorry."

Song Ke stood up and patted the ashes of his trouser legs, and cracked his wrists with a flat expression, making a crackling sound.

"Come out with me, don't worry, it won't be long."

Lin Zhichuan woke up thirsty, with smoke coming from his throat.He closed his eyes and struggled to sit up, but was suddenly hugged and helped up, and a glass of water was brought to his mouth.He didn't have time to see who it was, so he drank water in big gulps, and didn't have time to look at this person until he was full.

"Gu Jingcan, where are we?"

Gu Jingcan straightened his clothes, and it was cold at night, "In the hospital, you were allergic to alcohol, now you're fine, we can leave at dawn."

Lin Zhichuan just remembered the stupid thing he did, and smiled embarrassedly, "Scared you, hey, I took it wrong, it's all because Wangzai's milk looks too much like a beer can."

Gu Jingcan blamed himself, "I shouldn't drink, and I won't drink again."

Lin Zhichuan wanted to say that this matter had nothing to do with him, but he felt that it was useless to say so. Gu Jingcan would still blame himself, so he simply reached out to him.

"hug."

Gu Jingcan only hesitated for a moment, and quickly bent down to hug Lin Zhichuan.

Lin Zhichuan hugged his neck and did not let go, and touched his face quietly, "Am I swollen and ugly?"

Gu Jingcan smiled lowly, "Everything that doesn't exist will disappear without leaving traces."

Lin Zhichuan was silent for a while, and rubbed his head affectionately against him, "I had a more serious allergy before and almost died. Since then, I have never dared to touch anything containing alcohol, for fear that death would be ugly."

"You're not just allergic to alcohol, you're also intoxicated."

The sudden sound startled Lin Zhichuan, he quickly turned his head to look into the dark corner, and when he saw Song Ke's face clearly, his heart almost stopped.

"...Brother, why are you here?" Lin Zhichuan had already forgotten about having sex with Song Ke, and naturally he couldn't remember the reason why he was in the ward.

Song Ke stood up and faced the two people, with suppressed anger and shock in his eyes, "Do you have anything to say to me?"

Not to mention why the two of them stayed together most of the night, Lin Zhichuan actually hugged Gu Jingcan!That was obviously beyond the intimacy of normal buddies, what Song Ke didn't understand!

When Gu Jingcan looked at Lin Zhichuan, he didn't care whether it was public or not, as long as Lin Zhichuan was willing.Lin Zhichuan bit his lip and took Gu Jingcan's hand, Gu Jingcan immediately shook it back.

"We're together."

Song Ke was dizzy, "I thought you guys were joking, but it turns out you're serious?"

"It's not a joke, I like him."

Song Ke still found it inconceivable, "How could you be gay? You only whistled to girls when you were in junior high school!"

Lin Zhichuan looked up at him, and didn't flinch even though his eyes were tense, "I don't know what my sexual orientation is, but I know that I like Gu Jingcan, it doesn't matter what gender he is."

Song Ke didn't want to force Lin Zhichuan, so he looked at Gu Jingcan, "Are you chasing Lin Zhichuan?"

"Yes."

"When did you get together?"

"The day Zhichuan ran the marathon."

Song Ke didn't know what to do, "Have you two thought about it?"

It's not that he wants to be a villain, it's just such a bold behavior. Can the two high school students who are still studying be responsible for themselves?

Lin Zhichuan was silent, and looked up at Gu Jingcan.Gu Jingcan patted his head and opened his mouth first, "I have thought about it, I think... Now I will study hard and be admitted to the best music academy. After Zhichuan goes abroad, I will try my best to go abroad If you have the opportunity to meet him, you can also work part-time to earn airfare. If Zhichuan needs money, I will help him. If the family does not accept our relationship, I can take him out of here and go to a new place."

Lin Zhichuan stared blankly at Gu Jingcan, he had also secretly thought about these things, and they almost completely coincided with Gu Jingcan.He was embarrassed to mention it to Gu Jingcan, but Gu Jingcan thought the same as him!

Gu Jingcan clenched Lin Zhichuan's hand tightly, and smiled at him a little embarrassedly, "Don't look at me, it's quite embarrassing, I didn't even think about it. It's all just idle thoughts and random thoughts, here and there. , I’ll tell you when I really think about it later.”

He didn't think very comprehensively, nor did he go deep. If Song Ke didn't suddenly know about their relationship, he didn't plan to say it.Now he has nothing, and it's useless to say it.But Song Ke, as Lin Zhichuan's relative, Gu Jingcan needs to give him an explanation.

"But Zhichuan..."

Lin Zhichuan and Song Ke looked up at him together.

Gu Jingcan smiled shyly, "Even if I'm just thinking about it, I'm thinking about it very seriously. Please believe me, okay?"

Lin Zhichuan smiled with tears in his eyes, bit his lips and nodded, "I know, I believe it."

They are naive, and their ideas are too unrealistic. In the eyes of others, they are fooling around like playing house.But no matter how the rational world judges their tender feelings, they are happy.

Two hearts close to each other are always free and warm.