counter attack every day

"Yeah, it would not be an exaggeration to say that I hated dogs at that time.

My brother and I are two completely different extremes.

But our relationship is very good.Although he is five years older than me, he likes me very much. As long as I want him to play with me, he will always find time to accompany me.

Many times when I got into trouble, it was he who helped me hide it from my parents and helped me deal with the aftermath.

He will even help me take the blame for things that are really unfair, but it's just that he gets exposed every time. "

"But later, when I was 12 years old, he broke two legs and became disabled in order to save me."

The sudden turning point made He Xu's heart skip a beat. Looking sideways at Fang Xu's expression, he found that his expression was very calm, strangely calm.

"During the holiday, our family went skiing. I was playful and slipped onto the frozen lake alone. I didn't expect that the ice broke and I fell into the lake. No one noticed. There were few people in that place. Come.

If it wasn't for my brother who found out that something was wrong with me and followed me, maybe I would have died there silently that year. "

"I thought countless times later that it might be better if he didn't follow me."

He Xu couldn't help stretching out his hand and rubbing Fang Xu's head, but he didn't know what to say to comfort him. The comfort at this time was too pale.

"He rescued me up, he almost didn't make it up himself, but also because of being soaked in the cold water for a long time, his legs were frozen and he couldn't stand up anymore.

That time, I was broken by my father.But I don't blame him at all, he should have broken both my legs. "

"Don't say that." He Xu could only comfort him dryly.

"My brother has completely changed since he knew he could never stand up again. He locked himself in the room day and night, could not speak a word for several days, and was depressed for a long time. My mother's days I wash my face with tears every day, and I don't even dare to appear in front of my brother."

"It's been like this for a long time. One day, I got up at night and heard a voice in my brother's room. I hid outside and eavesdropped. I heard my father and my brother arguing very hard. My father finally said He said, "If you continue to be depressed like this, don't say you are my son of Fang Yiqing. Fang Yiqing has no trash son."

He left such a sentence and slammed the door angrily and left. I hid in the corner and heard him yelling and smashing things in my brother's room. trembling. "

His hands trembled slightly, curled his fingers unconsciously, and tightly grasped the bed sheet.

"I didn't know why I was so scared at first, I just felt scared, and felt that behind the door of my brother's bedroom, there seemed to be a monster lurking, and it might jump up and swallow something in the next second.

I dare not leave, but I dare not enter either.

I just shrank at the door, sitting blankly, listening to the movement inside with my ears up. "

"Later I was a little sleepy, and in a daze, I heard a noise inside, as if something was dragging. I wanted to take a look, or ask a question, but I still didn't dare. I hesitated at the door for a long time before making a decision. When I pushed open the door, I saw that my brother had climbed onto the window sill, half of his body had already rolled out of the window."

"At that time, my mind was blank, and I couldn't even yell, so I just subconsciously rushed over and reached out to grab him."

Fang Xu's voice began to tremble, as if he wanted to cover up something, he lowered his head deeply, "When I rushed to the window, I only grabbed his trousers, and then my palms were empty, and he was turned over. down.

Our family lived on the 32nd floor at that time. "

So, when he was drunk yesterday, he asked him to let go, and he broke down and roared that he would never let go again. Is this the reason?

He was only 12 years old at that time, first he caused his elder brother to become disabled, and then watched his elder brother jump off the 32nd floor in front of him... He even caught him once!

How much psychological shadow should such a thing cause to him?

He Xu watched as his whole body began to tremble, as if he had fallen into the helpless and terrifying mood that night when he was 12 years old.

"Actually, it was me, I was the one who killed him, if I hadn't disabled him, if I had been brave enough to push him out of his room in the first place, if I could have run faster and caught him, if... "

In his throat, he finally let out an uncontrollable sob, like a young beast, unable to bear the pain any longer but still holding back a weak howl.

He Xu's heart was tightly held together, and he grabbed Fang Xu's shoulders, "Don't...don't say it. Don't think about it anymore."

"It's my fault, it's all my fault."

"It's alright, it's alright."

He Xu embraced Fang Xu with one hand, and wrapped his arms around his shoulders to caress his back continuously.

This is the only thing he can do for Fang Xu now, and he doesn't know what else to say except that it's all right.

Say it wasn't his fault?After all, he did something wrong, even if it was unintentional, it was because of him that he made his brother disabled.

The torment and guilt he was carrying in his heart, maybe he couldn't get rid of it for the rest of his life, right?

But what his brother lost was, after all, a life.

In the end who is light and who is more important, who is right and who is wrong?It's hard to tell at all.

After about ten minutes like this, He Xu felt that the person in his arms gradually calmed down. He gently let go of his hand, looked at Fang Xu who was still bowing his head but not shaking anymore, "Would you like to sleep?"

Fang Xu let out a "hmm", and lay down with his back to He Xu, without making a sound.

In fact, it is almost five o'clock now, and for He Xu, there is nothing to sleep.

But inexplicably, he just wanted to accompany Fang Xu for a while like this.

……

"Get up and have breakfast."

Fang Xu was "kindly" kicked up by He Xu.

Unexpectedly, I would say in front of He Xu what I had never said in my heart to anyone.

After sleeping for two hours, Fang Xu, who has completely controlled his emotions... regrets it a bit.

It's not that he doesn't want to let He Xu know about him, it's just that he doesn't know how to get along with He Xu.

Moreover, he will also be very concerned about what He Xu thinks of him after knowing these things.

What's more, he cried like that in front of him yesterday, looking back now, I always feel inexplicably ashamed.

"Master, do you want me to bring you breakfast by the bed?" He Xu nodded and bowed like a servant.Very funny.

There was nothing unusual on his face, and his tone of voice and the way he looked at him were the same as before.

This made Fang Xu's vague uneasiness suppressed all at once.

"...Get lost." Fang Xu scolded with a smile

"okay."