It turns out that I love you

Gong Xinuo seldom logs in to his private MSN, and when he is online occasionally, he must be set as away or busy.

Following Yuan Jingkun's instruction to change his avatar, Gong Xinuo accidentally noticed Yuan Jingkun's MSN space.

Yuan Jingkun’s MSN account has been used for many years, and the content of the space is rich. The categories include life logs, travel footprints, casual graffiti, emotional perception, etc. The life logs include events of great significance, as well as trifles that are not worth mentioning; Commemorative photos of traveling around since he went to work; random doodles are sketches of various buildings designed by him, as well as a few figures and landscape paintings; few articles to record his mood.

In the hospital, when Jing Jianye was in a coma, Gong Xinuo flipped through his diary one by one when he had nothing to do, and there were long articles or a few words, the number of words completely depended on his mood.

This is a good opportunity to gain a deeper understanding of Yuan Jingkun's past life.

There is a pause in the continuous diary, which is the period when Yuan Jingkun conceived Gong Xi and separated from him, and the update was not resumed until they reunited.

Yuan Jingkun silently recorded every bit of their life, including every small detail, which is a precious spiritual wealth for him.

Gong Xinuo did not expect that Yuan Jingkun would record their lives in this way. It is lively and interesting, unique and novel, fascinating, and the implicit expression can well protect privacy.

Through Yuan Jingkun's words, Gong Xinuo felt a touch of happiness.

There is no most romantic background, no most touching words, but the magic of love can make everything beautiful.

The decoration of the new house is proceeding in an orderly manner, and the construction progress is faster than they expected. The base of high-end villas is better than that of ordinary houses, so many places do not need major renovations, which means saving a lot of time.

Taking advantage of the opportunity of moving, Gong Xinuo personally cleaned up his things on a large scale, mainly books and clothes.

Standing in front of the bookshelf, Gong Xinuo threw architectural books one by one into the cardboard box at his feet, including the science textbooks needed for studying back then, the books recommended by Yang Yiqing, and the books he had always treasured with his notes printed on them. Dissertation manuscript.

Yuan Jingkun squatted next to the cardboard box, pawing the side of the box with one hand, and rummaging through the contents with the other. These books are all beloved things that Gong Xinuo carefully kept. These books are of great significance to him.

"Don't you want them all?"

"Yes." Gong Xinuo carefully selected the books that could be left behind. "It's useless."

"But..." Yuan Jingkun was afraid that he would be impulsive and throw them away as rags, and when he calmed down, it would be too late to regret. "These things are very important to you."

"Once, once was very important." Gong Xinuo stopped, turned his head to look down at him, and looked at the box full of old things.

Yuan Jingkun stared intently at Gong Xinuo as he gracefully threw the pen that Yang Yiqing gave him into the cardboard box. He knew that Gong Xinuo's heart was definitely not as chic as he appeared.

Gong Xinuo used this method to bid farewell to the familiar life and welcome a new life.

He cleared away all imprints related to the past, and from then on, in his life and in his heart, there was only Yuan Jingkun.

Yuan Jingkun fiddled with the pens that Gong Xinuo kept as new. Of course, he would not treat the contents of the cardboard box as waste products. He would secretly keep them for Gong Xinuo, keeping the lingering memories, and keeping the things that once existed. significance.

Gong Xinuo went out of the study and went straight to the cloakroom, Yuan Jingkun followed behind him like a little slave.

Gong Xinuo opened the door of the closet. His dressing style was simple and monotonous. The entire row of closets was filled with his clothes, one for spring, summer, autumn and winter.

Shirts and sweaters of various colors and styles, suits and jackets of various fabrics and styles, and no T-shirts and jeans. At home, it is also a shirt and trousers.

The colors of the shirts are all pure, and the rest of the clothes are basically black, white, gray and blue. The leather shoes are all black, and each tie has a fixed tie clip that never changes.

No matter what color shirt you wear, you will definitely change it to white when you arrive at the company.

Gong Xinuo never consults or seeks advice from others when buying clothes, including Yuan Jingkun.

Every piece of clothing is not a common brand-name product, and some brands of Yuan Jingkun have never even been seen in the domestic market.

There is no corresponding brand logo on the front of each piece of clothing, showing low-key luxury.

The more the clothes designed by the big international brands, the more ordinary the styles are, and there is nothing special about them, but the prices are so expensive that most people are discouraged.

Because they tend to pay more attention to the small differences in details, so insiders will easily recognize the imitation at a glance.

Every piece of Gong Xinuo's clothes has to be sent to dry cleaning. No matter how much you wash or how little you wash, the laundry and dyeing shop will send a car every time. The clothes must be kept hanging upright to prevent wrinkles.

Gong Xinuo took out the clothes that he thought were outdated and would never wear again and put them on the middle table, Yuan Jingkun pulled out the hangers inside, folded the clothes, and disposed of them in the usual way.

Since they were together, this was the third time Gong Xinuo cleaned out his closet.

Yuan Jingkun's dressing style is more casual, both formal and casual.

Formal attire must be worn at work, casual attire is the mainstay on weekdays, and sportswear at home is comfortable and convenient for movement.

Although Yuan Jingkun is casual, he is not casual. He knows the color and style that suits him well. After ingenious matching, there will be an effect that the clothes are not lining him, but him lining the clothes.

Every time he went out with Gong Xinuo, he would take care of his appearance one step later, thinking about what color and style of clothes he should wear to match him according to Gong Xinuo's attire.

Yuan Jingkun's deliberate grooming of appearance is not to attract girls, nor is it to compete with boys.

The point of his excitement lies in the countless envious, amazed, and even lustful looks he received when he and Gong Xinuo got married.

Once, they took an elevator.

There were also two young girls in the elevator, and the girls kept staring at their reflections in the elevator doors.

Until the elevator stopped, the two of them who were too focused almost forgot to go out.

Yuan Jingkun felt extremely proud every time he encountered a similar situation, but Gong Xinuo didn't know it.

Yuan Jingkun likes to show off this kind of limelight quietly.

Gong Xinuo's birthday is approaching, Yuan Jingkun is thinking hard about what gift to give.

Gong Xinuo's latest wish is to change a car. Yuan Jingkun held the promotional flyer that came with the car dealership, found the car that Gong Xinuo liked, and counted how many zeros there were after the price tag.

Daoteng sighed after knowing the exact value, and counted his fingers. He worked hard for 30 years without eating or drinking, and he could almost afford this car.

I can't afford the car, so send something else within my ability.

The night before his birthday, Yuan Jingkun took a shower, climbed into bed early, and tried hard to recall the poses the heroine made when seducing the hero in the movie, intending to follow suit.

Yuan Jingkun looked down at the buttons of the fastened pajamas, unbuttoned the second button, thought about it, and unbuttoned the third button, thought about it again, felt bad, not reserved enough, and fastened the third button again Buttons, the quilt is half covered, and she puts on a posture that she thinks is seductive, waiting for Gong Xinuo.

When Gong Xinuo entered the door and saw Yuan Jingkun's appearance, he was helpless.Going over to cover him with the quilt and fasten his clothes, he didn't intend to go to bed immediately: "Go to bed early." Before Yuan Jingkun could ask, he left the bedroom.

Yuan Jingkun covered her head with a quilt in depression, since Gong Xinuo was discharged from the hospital and went home, they haven't had sex for a long time.

The intimacy between the two is limited to kisses and hugs.

Gong Xinuo ignored Yuan Jingkun's request many times, as if avoiding it on purpose.

Yuan Jingkun couldn't figure out whether his thoughts were due to lack of energy, physical reasons, or other reasons.

Yuan Jingkun was embarrassed to ask directly in person, but the roundabout temptation didn't work, and he was very ashamed.

Every time Yuan Jingkun was so sleepy that he went to bed first, not even knowing when Gong Xinuo would come back to sleep after work.

The next morning, the two woke up almost at the same time.

Yuan Jingkun took out an envelope from under the pillow and handed it to Gong Xinuo. He took it over in a daze, and asked, "Is it money?"

"That's not it! It's a letter." Yuan Jingkun buried his head in his neck, wrapped his arms around his chest, and pressed his thin red lips close to his ears. "Happy birthday."

After washing up and ignoring breakfast, Gong Xinuo couldn't wait to open the envelope, carefully pulled out the light blue letter paper, and silently read lines of words:

ah man, today is your birthday

No expensive gifts, no unexpected surprises

But the warm winter sun shines on you and my happiness

ah man, today is your birthday

No expensive gifts, no unexpected surprises

But this collection of the essence of heaven and earth, the blessings of the sun and the moon

Bloom in front of you like a flower

ah man, today is your birthday

No expensive gifts, no unexpected surprises

But as time goes by, what remains the same is our hearts

ah man, today is your birthday

No expensive gifts, no unexpected surprises

But I know, Yuanyuan and I

is the greatest luck in your life

I hope Yuanyuan and I can bring you joy and happiness forever

Attached is a beautiful photo

Gong Xinuo turned out the photo. It was Yuan Jingkun's full moon commemorative photo. In the photo, the fat kid was so happy that he was so silly and cute.

Gong Xinuo put this precious photo in his wallet, folded the letter paper and put it back in the envelope, locked it in a drawer, and carefully kept this special birthday present.

As a courtesy, Gong Xinuo gave Yuan Jingkun a leather wallet with a bank credit card attached.

Yuan Jingkun has little awareness of money, and he has never worried about lack of money since he was a child.

Of course, the desire to spend money is not very strong. Although you can’t talk about shopping around when shopping, you don’t pick expensive ones, and try to be as good as possible and cheap.

Yuan Jingkun's family background is good, and he devoted himself to studying during college, never thinking about work-study programs.

After earning money, he initially paid 2000 yuan to the family every month, and gradually as the salary increased, it changed from [-] to [-], and later increased to [-]. His mother kept all the money separately in his name. In the booklet, save it for him to marry a wife.

Whatever is left is his pocket money and is at his disposal.

Yuan Jingkun doesn't have much entertainment, and there are not many places where he needs to spend money. He only buys books, clothes and painting utensils every month, and occasionally goes to dinner with his colleagues.

The biggest expenses are the followers, weddings and weddings among colleagues, housewarming and promotion, the birth of a child and the full moon, all of which have to be expressed.

Yuan Jingkun deposited the money from the sale of the house in the bank and left it untouched, in case of emergencies.

He was eager to sell at that time, the price was low, and he didn't have much money.

The salary of being a teacher is not as good as that of a design institute. Apart from the rent of the house, the cost of gas, water and electricity, there are seventy-eight eighty-eight eighty-eighth living expenses, and there is no money to save every month.

What's more, when working in a design institute, the source of income is not only salary, but also additional bonuses if the design plan is adopted.

Yuan Jingkun, who has no pressure in life, is not as diligent and active as other colleagues. He never takes the initiative to ask for work, and waits for him like a big name.Even so, there are still a steady stream of design projects looking for him, there is no way, his talent is his greatest capital.

Later, I returned to work in the Design Institute again, but fortunately, the salary level did not decrease due to the different establishment.

However, gold is found every month. Yuan Jingkun usually puts the envelope containing the money in the bedside table, and takes the money in the wallet when it is almost spent, without a plan.

Gong Xinuo will quietly check how much money is left in the envelope, if it is not enough to last until the end of the month, give him some more, anyway, Yuan Jingkun will not find out, and he has never seriously counted the exact amount of money.

Gong Xinuo suggested that he get a credit card, which is safe and convenient.

Yuan Jingkun felt that it was too troublesome to pay back the monthly payment after consumption, so he stubbornly refused to do it.

This time, the credit card was applied in the name of Gong Xinuo, and it was connected to one of his ID cards. The repayment will be made automatically on a fixed day every month. There is no need to go to the bank to queue up to repay the money, and there is no need to worry about the repayment period being over.

Kill two birds with one stone.

Yuan Jingkun had inexplicable abdominal pain and irregular dull pain for two days. At first, he thought it was caused by eating something bad, but he didn't have any symptoms of diarrhea.

At first, Yuan Jingkun didn't take it seriously. He consulted the salesperson at the pharmacy, bought painkillers, and drank the medicine according to the instruction manual.

The abdominal pain was not only not under control, but became more and more serious.

The number of attacks became more frequent and the degree of pain became more severe.

Especially at night, Yuan Jingkun tossed back and forth over and over again, the pain was so painful that he couldn't sleep, and almost had no sleep all night.

When this happened, Gong Xinuo felt that it was necessary to go to the hospital for an examination.

Considering Yuan Jingkun's special physique, he went to Xia Lefan first. Gong Xinuo estimated that the sequelae of the miscarriage last time were caused by not recuperating well.

After careful examination, Xia Lefan came to the conclusion that it was normal, and suggested that they go to general internal medicine for treatment, maybe it was a common minor problem.

There was a long queue at the internal medicine outpatient department, Gong Xinuo finished registering, handed over the green link to the nurse, sat next to Yuan Jingkun, and waited for his name to be called.

Yuan Jingkun noticed an old couple who were over seventy years old and a frail old lady sitting in a wheelchair, looking at the old gentleman without blinking.

The old man wrapped the bib around the old lady's neck, opened the thermos, and took out the buns and porridge.

The old man tore the bun from the middle, put down half of it, broke off a small piece of stuffed bun skin and carefully fed it to the old lady's mouth, then scooped some porridge, blew on the hot air, and tested the temperature with his lips nervously. He also fed it into the old lady's mouth, and then wiped off the soup overflowing from the corner of her mouth with a cloth towel.

The old man repeated these actions tirelessly, and after half a day, the old lady didn't even finish eating a third.

The old gentleman waited patiently for the slow-moving old lady, with a doting smile on his face from beginning to end.

With the help of porridge, the old lady swallowed the buns in her mouth. She was speechless and pulled the old man's hand, and raised her chin towards the buns and porridge, meaning that she wanted him to eat together.

The old man held his wife's hand tightly, stood up halfway, approached the old lady, and whispered in her ear: "I'm not hungry, eat more."

The guardianship of each other is moving.

Yuan Jingkun stared at him stupidly, turned his head, met Gong Xinuo's gaze that had been on him, and motioned him to look aside with his gaze.

Gong Xinuo poked his head out, looked at it for a while, then looked at Yuan Jingkun, straightened the hair on his forehead, and said in a puzzled manner: "Want to eat buns?"

Yuan Jingkun put his hands on his forehead, covered his dumbfounding expression, and sighed helplessly, why is this person so... so rational?He couldn't think of words to describe his mood at this moment.

What a rare and touching scene, he thought that Gong Xinuo would hold his hand tightly like the old gentleman, and then confessed affectionately that when we get old, we will also hold each other's skinny hands like them , never leave.

As a result, reality is always crueler than imagination.

Yuan Jingkun turned on the phone affectionately for a long time, but there was no signal at all, and she couldn't receive it. It was a waste of emotion.

After various routine examinations, the doctor analyzed the data displayed by the examination results and also concluded that everything was normal.

The experienced old doctor took off his presbyopic glasses and looked at Yuan Jingkun gently: "Is there a lot of work pressure? Do you often work overtime and stay up late?"

Yuan Jingkun shook his head: "No."

The old doctor prescribed several commonly used medicines for him, and instructed the nurse to take Yuan Jingkun to pay for the medicines. The purpose of deliberately dismissing Yuan Jingkun was that he had something to say to Gong Xinuo alone.

Based on years of experience in diagnosis and treatment, the old doctor believes that the root cause of the disease should be psychological.

In other words, Yuan Jingkun's abdominal pain is an adverse physiological reaction caused by mental illness. You can try to talk to him heart-to-heart. If it doesn't work, you need to consider seeking help from a psychiatrist.

Mental illness?

Gong Xinuo did not expect the problem to be so complicated.

Yuan Jingkun didn't find anything wrong with his performance during this period. Could it be that he still can't let go of the loss of his child?Still not used to life without a job?

On the way home, Gong Xinuo pondered how to adjust Yuan Jingkun's mood. His first task was to find out the specific reason.If you ask Yuan Jingkun directly, he will definitely not tell the truth, and you have to pay more attention to it.

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Thanks a lot! ^_^