It turns out that I love you

Under the guidance and escort of the medical staff, Gong Xinuo ran up and down several times, and finally completed all the procedures required for hospitalization. Jing Jianye was arranged to live in the special ward at the end of the corridor, and Gong Xinuo deliberately chose the location opposite The ward at the back is far away from the constant elevators and partition doors, which can reduce the noise caused by noise.

Independent bathroom, necessary sofa, TV, microwave oven, air conditioner, and a humanized extra bed to solve the rest problem of the accompanying staff.

The nurse's station recommends a 24-hour attendant with professional training and experience in caring for such patients.

Gong Xinuo talked with Shen Heng again about the future treatment, and when he returned to the ward, Jing Jianye had already changed into the hospital gown and was lying down listlessly. His current body couldn't help tossing, the nurse hung the infusion bottle on the pole, Getting ready to sterilize the needle.

Yuan Jingkun stood at the end of the bed, looking around, holding a pen in his hand, and paper on the shelf, making a list of things to buy.

Gong Xinuo walked around the ward, and was quite satisfied with the layout and conditions of the ward.

In the afternoon, he had to go back to work at the company, so he couldn't stay for long. Yuan Jingkun sent him to the gate of the hospital. Gong Xinuo thought for a while: "Ask him what he thinks, don't talk too much."

Yuan Jingkun has his own sense of propriety, understands what he means, and understands the pros and cons in it. Of course, he can't completely convey what Shen Heng and them said to Jing Jianye, and nods: "I see, you drive slowly."

In the evening, Yuan Jingkun told Gong Xinuo about the results of his interrogation of Jing Jianye. As the person involved, Jing Jianye was very confused. The thought of dying because of Gong Xinuo's refusal to accept him no longer existed. He has a strong sense of survival, and he even fantasizes that he can recover completely. He wants to make some compensation for Gong Xinuo. He needs time and a healthy body.

But, on the other hand, he didn't want Gong Xinuo to spend any more money for him. He knew better than anyone else that he was not qualified to accept Gong Xinuo's contribution to him. Whether it was emotion or money, he had no face to accept it. I am ashamed of receiving it, and my conscience is hard to rest.

Jing Jianye was silent for a long time, and gave a vague answer in general: "I listen to you."

"He just doesn't want you to spend money for him. In fact, he really wants to get better soon. Really, he really wants to live." Yuan Jingkun didn't say the rest. , Gong Xinuo must be able to figure out Toujing Jianye's psychology.

Jing Jianye's response was tantamount to handing over the final choice to Gong Xinuo. Whether to wait for death passively or actively seek survival, all had to be decided by Gong Xinuo, and Gong Xinuo became the one who controlled his destiny.

Gong Xinuo's heart was also in a mess, messed up!

Gong Xinuo was completely confused, he had no idea!

After a while, Yuan Jingkun stood up and left the room. When he came in again, he had a glass of warm white water in his hand. He gently placed the transparent glass on the glass table, trying not to make any noise, lest it would affect Gong Xinuo's attention. thoughts.

Although, he knew that Gong Xinuo's mind was blank at this moment, without a clue.

Yuan Jingkun looked at Gong Xinuo's expression anxiously, hoping to see some clues from his handsome but slightly stagnant facial features.

In the quiet room, apart from their negligible breathing, there was only the ticking sound of the clock.

Gong Xinuo's gloomy expression aroused Yuan Jingkun's concern. He was afraid that Gong Xinuo would give up Jing Jianye at the last moment. For some reason, Yuan Jingkun did not have enough confidence in Gong Xinuo and was not sure about this matter.

Gong Xinuo couldn't bear to see Yuan Jingkun look at him so cautiously, that flattering and uneasy look made his heart ache to death - he has always been unconditionally compromising, unconditionally accommodating, unconditionally giving, Objectively speaking, Jing Jianye and Gong Xi had nothing to do with him, and it was Gong Xinuo who created the inextricable connection between him and them.

Because they are his father, and because they are the children of the person he once loved, Yuan Jingkun takes care of and loves them as his relatives and children.

Because Yuan Jingkun loves Gong Xinuo deeply, that's why he can truly love the house and the black, so no matter how wrong Gong Xinuo does, Yuan Jingkun will not blame him, blame him, or blame him, because he can't bear it.

Yuan Jingkun treats feelings so purely, if he looks for someone, then he will definitely guard that person in this life, even if he lives an ordinary life day after day, he promises not to Feel bored, not bored, not bored; on the contrary, send you to work in the morning, wait for you to go home in the evening, cook together, cook together, watch TV together, coax the children together, chat together, and then go to bed ...

Dressing you, making your bed and making your quilt, for him, is a kind of enjoyment!

How about living a life, isn’t it just this little thing, what else can be new? !

With such a person by his side, how could Gong Xinuo be content?

Gong Xinuo secretly swore in his heart that he would never let Yuan Jingkun be wronged again, not even for a little bit!

In the middle of the night, Gong Xinuo sat up abruptly, panting rapidly uncontrollably, obviously awakened by a nightmare, the scene in the dream was blurry, and he had forgotten most of it after waking up.

Yuan Jingkun, who was behind him, was passively awakened, opened his eyes slightly, and saw Gong Xinuo's unclear back. He also sat up and held Gong Xinuo's arm. His body trembled slightly, obviously the sense of fear was not yet complete. disappear.

"What's the matter, Xinuo?" Yuan Jingkun turned on the bedside lamp, and with the help of the dim orange light, he could clearly see Gong Xinuo's pale face and the dense sweat on his forehead.

Realizing that Gong Xinuo had a nightmare, Yuan Jingkun got out of bed, scoured a warm and damp towel, sat opposite him, and wiped off his sweat.

The soft towel slid across the forehead, eyebrows, and tip of the nose, absorbing all the sticky sweat. After wiping, the back of Gong Xinuo's hands hanging on his knees felt like water was sliding across the skin.

Gong Xinuo raised his eyelids to look at Yuan Jingkun. It doesn't matter if he doesn't look at him. When he looked at him, Yuan Jingkun's tears seemed to be unable to hold back. Big drops fell down, one after another scattered on the quilt and him. between fingers.

It could be seen that Yuan Jingkun actually didn't want to cry, at least he didn't want to cry so presumptuously, but he couldn't control it, and the more he wanted to restrain his tears, the more turbulent he was.

How cruel it is to make life-and-death choices for the people closest to you, and how much courage it takes!

What's more, no matter what choice you make, you can't avoid the result of losing your life in the end.

God is too unfair, Gong Xinuo has suffered enough, and Yuan Jingkun feels that almost all the misfortunes in life have been encountered by Gong Xinuo, how can he let him suffer more misfortunes?

Why did he have to force him to make such a cruel choice when he was finally able to enjoy the family affection he had lost for many years?

His Xinuo, what a good person, why didn't fate treat him kindly?

He didn't do anything outrageous!

Yuan Jingkun didn't know what to do to relieve Gong Xinuo's pain. Since they chose to live together, they should share joy and sorrow.

"Don't cry, people have to go through this, it's normal." Gong Xinuo read his mind from his eyes, took the towel, wiped his tears, comforted him, and comforted himself.

"Hmm." Originally, Gong Xinuo was upset enough, but Yuan Jingkun didn't want to add to his psychological burden, so he wiped away his tears and tried his best to smile. "I know, but I'm just sad, very sad, really, very sad..."

Gong Xinuo nodded the tip of his nose, smiled and hugged him into his arms: "My silly wife!"

Hugging each other to sleep, Yuan Jingkun turned over and realized that there was no one beside the pillow.Putting on his pajamas, he found Gong Xinuo in the side hall. The side hall in the corner was small in size, with a very low ceiling, dark blue walls, sandalwood floor, three sets of brown single sofas, a set of stereo, A Japanese-style floor lamp stands next to a CD rack with a unique shape.

Sometimes Gong Xinuo likes to enjoy music alone in a relatively secret side hall. He likes soothing music, a glass of white water or a glass of red wine, which can kill an evening.

When Yuan Jingkun left him, he spent countless sleepless nights here in this way.

The floor lamp emits a faint light, shining on Gong Xinuo's body, casting a dazzling halo of light, what a perfect outline.

Gong Xinuo looked out sideways, and saw that the lightning rod on the top of the high-rise building opposite was flashing with small red dots, sometimes on and off, sometimes off.

He looked up, and the stars in the dark sky were twinkling, like the eyes of his mother and sister. They must be watching him and protecting him all the time in the sky.

His mother, his sister, are kind people, so they must understand what he did.

He was even sure that his mother still had feelings for his father, she never said anything bad about Jing Jianye in front of Gong Xinuo, or even complained about him.

She definitely didn't want him to hate his father, after all he was the one who gave him life, and his kindness was always greater than his faults.

Gong Xinuo missed his mother, wanted to ask her how to choose, and wanted to hear her opinion.

He tried hard to recall, but he couldn't remember the content of the dream.

He wasn't sure if he had dreamed about his mother, or if his mother was helping him make decisions.

The root cause of Gong Xinuo's hesitation was that he didn't want Jing Jianye to suffer too much unavoidable pain caused by treatment. Conservative treatment can indeed reduce suffering, but it is tantamount to passively accepting the coming of death, and life is silent. The process of passing away silently; although the risk of surgical treatment is high, the chance of prolonging life is also high. According to Shen Heng's opinion, after surgery, postoperative adjuvant chemotherapy and intensive care, there is no hope of recovery. His words bring Gong Xinuo had great confidence.

Gong Xinuo cannot ignore the failure rate of 30.00%. If the operation fails, or the side effects of radiotherapy and chemotherapy cannot be tolerated, the result will be worse than conservative treatment.

At the intersection, turning left and right, Gong Xinuo lost his sense of direction, and even his intuition failed.

Yuan Jingkun watched him silently, and wanted to hug him very much, but he knew that Gong Xinuo needed someone to think quietly and undisturbed, so he put a cup of hot milk beside him, hoping to help him soothe Nerves tight.

After a sleepless night of in-depth consideration, Gong Xinuo decided to let Jing Jianye undergo surgery. Even if there was a glimmer of hope, he would fight his fate. Have confidence in yourself.

No matter what the final result is, good or bad, he is mentally prepared to face it calmly, because he has tried his best and has no regrets.

After Shen Heng learned of their decision, he began to prepare for the operation.

As the Spring Festival was approaching, Shen Heng originally planned to arrange post-holiday surgery. After all, most family members were taboo to go to the hospital during the first month, but he also said that it is best to perform the surgery as soon as possible to prevent unpredictable changes in the condition.

Gong Xinuo said that they had nothing to hold back, the sooner the surgery the better, Shen Heng respected their opinions, the surgery was scheduled for mid-January, allowing two weeks of observation and preparation time.

Looking at the increasingly desolate scene outside the car window, Yuan Jingkun couldn't help asking Gong Xinuo who was driving: "Where are we going?"

Gong Xinuo smiled but didn't answer. Didn't he already say that he wanted to surprise him when he was taken out in the morning, so why did he ask?It is useless to ask.

Yuan Jingkun turned his head away: "Aren't you planning to sell me?"

"Sell you? What are you going to do? No one wants any money." Gong Xinuo joked.

Yuan Jingkun snorted, and turned his gaze back to the scenery outside the window, wondering what kind of medicine Gong Xinuo was selling in the gourd.

The car drove into the quiet and empty villa area, stopped in front of a castle-like villa, turned off the engine and got out of the car, Yuan Jingkun, who was not sure about the situation, followed him, Gong Xinuo swiped his card to open the door, pulled it up and stood still Yuan Jingkun went in.

This villa is obviously larger than the villa they live in now, much larger.

Gong Xinuo took Yuan Jingkun's hand and began to visit the internal structure of the entire villa from the first floor.

In addition to the living room, kitchen, dining room, side hall, and storage room on the first floor, there are three rooms of similar size. After going up the spiral staircase, there is a small hall in the center of the second floor. The three rooms are distributed on two sides, with two rooms on the left. The one on the right, the size of the room is not small, the cloakroom in the master bedroom is almost twice the size of their current house, and the third floor is an open terrace.

The two wandered around and returned to the living room. Gong Xinuo resolved Yuan Jingkun's doubts: "This is our new home."

More than three years ago, before Gong Xi was born, when this villa area first opened for sale, Gong Xinuo caught this villa at first glance, and immediately bought it with a loan.

As early as that time, he had already begun to consciously plan his and Yuan Jingkun's future life, who knew that there would be an unexpected separation in the middle.

Zhou Yingjun once suggested to him that it would be easier to take Yuan Jingkun and Gong Xi out of the city and start a new life in a different environment.

It's not that Gong Xinuo never had such an idea, but after thinking about it, he denied it. Yuan Jingkun grew up here, leaving the familiar living environment, and it took a long time to adapt to the new environment. It's hard to say whether he can fully adapt.

Furthermore, his parents are buried here, he must not be willing to be too far away from them, and he can often visit them when he misses them.

Out of various concerns, Gong Xinuo finally decided to stay. If he was single like before, it doesn't matter where he lives, but any decision or change he makes now must take Yuan Jingkun and Gong Xi's thoughts and feelings into consideration. , They are very important to him.

"New home?" Yuan Jingkun didn't react for a while, and asked in disbelief with his eyes wide open. "you mean……"

"This is our house." Gong Xinuo emphasized again. "Our house. We will live here from now on. The decoration here is your responsibility and your decision. You still have a little more than a month."

Gong Xinuo intends to let Yuan Jingkun be responsible for the decoration of the new home. On the one hand, Yuan Jingkun has formally submitted his resignation to the design institute. After handing over the work at hand, he is in a state of nothing to do. , life is inevitably empty, just find something for him to do, so that he doesn't feel bad about spending his spare time; on the other hand, Yuan Jingkun has built this home with one hand. How can he be dissatisfied with the style and the family he has put so much effort into?

Best of both worlds idea.

"Then... can I pretend to be whatever I want? I can pretend to be whatever I want, okay?" Yuan Jingkun stood in the house that completely belonged to them, especially knowing that Gong Xinuo had a perfect understanding of their life. After the arrangement, I was satisfied and excited.

"As long as you don't demolish the house, it's up to you." Gong Xinuo trusted him with the power of decoration, no matter how he decorated the house in the end, he liked it.

Yuan Jingkun walked around twice again with a sense of freshness, and he had already begun to calculate in his mind who would live in which room and what the purpose of which room would be. The only regret was that it was too far away from the city, so there was no other way, Gong Xinuo I just like this kind of house located in the wilderness, not to mention night, there are few people during the day.

Fortunately, the surrounding supporting facilities are complete, including supermarkets, schools, hospitals, and banks, which can meet the basic needs of life.

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