It turns out that I love you

Just as Yuan Jingkun walked out of the ward, he looked up and saw Hu Nan coming towards him. He subconsciously wanted to avoid it, turned around and walked in another direction.

It's a pity that Yuan Jingkun was one step late, Hu Nan had already seen him, and called him loudly: "Yuan Jingkun."

Yuan Jingkun stopped helplessly, but did not turn around.

Yuan Jingkun still remembered the unhappiness that happened between them, so he avoided Hu Nan every time. Gong Xinuo took care of his feelings and rarely mentioned Hu Nan in front of him.

Hu Nan walked over a few steps, stood beside him, and asked him bluntly: "I ask you, how did Xinuo get sick? Where have you been these few days? Why didn't you come to see Xinuo?"

Yuan Jingkun hated his aggressive tone, hated his condescending accusations, hated his self-righteous attitude, frowned, didn't look at him, and turned a deaf ear to his questions.

"I'm asking you something! Answer me! Why is Xinuo so sick? What did you do to him?" Hu Nan was irritated by his indifference and raised his voice.

Yuan Jingkun looked at him sideways and disdainfully, why should he be angry with himself?What qualifications does he have to track down his whereabouts?

Hu Nan grabbed Yuan Jingkun who was about to leave, and gritted his teeth: "Where are you going? Xinuo got sick because of you, you should be by his side! If it wasn't for you, Xinuo wouldn't be like this!"

"Hu Nan, don't be so self-righteous. Who do you think you are? You are only Xinuo's senior and boss. You have no right to interfere in his life, and you have no right to ask me to do anything! The matter between me and Xinuo, It has nothing to do with you!" Yuan Jingkun finally couldn't stand it and hit back at him with a blunt attitude. "You'd better stop interfering in our affairs, otherwise, I can only be sorry. I'll say it again, listen carefully, the matter between me and Xinuo has nothing to do with you!" He emphasized the last four words .

Hu Nan stared at the tough Yuan Jingkun with wide eyes in disbelief, not believing that he would say such a thing.

He thought that no matter what he said, Yuan Jingkun would accept it silently, but he never thought that he would threaten him.

Shocked, Hu Nan, who has always been eloquent, woke up late.

Yuan Jingkun tried his best to shake off Hu Nan's hand, which was impolite and disrespectful.Now he doesn't even care about losing Gong Xinuo, does he still care about these useless things?

Yuan Jingkun used too much force, and the rebound force made him hit the solid wall behind him.The body after the miscarriage couldn't bear any bumps, and there were bursts of tearing pain in his lower abdomen. He pressed his stomach and squatted down along the wall.

Hu Nan saw that he was uncomfortable, hesitated for a moment, and leaned closer to him, seeing his forehead covered with fine sweat, stretched out his hand to pull him up: "What's wrong with you?"

The pain gradually weakened, Yuan Jingkun lowered his eyelids, turned a blind eye to his help, stood up with his back against the wall, pressed his lower abdomen with one hand, and supported the wall with the other, and walked towards the hospital gate step by step.

Hu Nan withdrew his arms and watched Yuan Jingkun walking out of the hospital unsteadily until his back disappeared, faintly aware that there was something wrong between them.

Yuan Jingkun supported his frail body with tenacious perseverance, and walked out of the hospital with heavy steps. His legs were weak from exhaustion, and his forehead was covered with a thin layer of sweat. He sat down on the cold marble by the flower pond as if discouraged. .

It was an unusually clear afternoon, the sun's rays were dazzlingly white, but Yuan Jingkun's heart was dark.

He slumped down weakly, and suddenly found that he was far less hopeless and sad than he imagined, and his numb heart was unexpectedly calm at this moment.

All right.Now that you have made your words so clear, what's the point of pestering each other? !

It's better to let go.

The pain in the abdomen reappeared vaguely, and Yuan Jingkun put his hands on the jacket through the jacket, and said silently in his heart: Baby, it's a good thing you chose to leave, otherwise...

Yuan Jingkun rested for a while, regained most of his strength, stood up slowly, and prepared to take a taxi to the hospital to visit Jing Jianye.

No matter what will happen to him and Gong Xinuo in the future, he can't leave Jing Jianye alone.

Jing Jianye has been in a coma since he was sent to the hospital.

Old and sick, he spent a whole day in the ice and snow, challenging his physical limits.

Xia Lefan arranged for him to live in a single ward that was in short supply. Firstly, his condition was relatively serious, and the environment with relatively better conditions was good for his treatment; secondly, the patients in the general ward were accompanied by their family members. Uncomfortable, out of various considerations, Xia Lefan lied to the director, saying that this was a distant relative of his, who traveled thousands of miles to join his relatives, but he fell ill when his relatives were not found.

After hearing this, the director felt that the old man was very pitiful and agreed to take special care.

Yuan Jingkun stood in front of the hospital bed, Jing Jianye was wearing a breathing mask, his face was sallow, his cheeks were thin, his cheekbones were high, his eye sockets were deep-set, he was lifeless, and lay on the bed shriveled.

Yuan Jingkun took Jing Jianye's skinny hand, not knowing when he woke up, and how to answer what he asked about Gong Xinuo when he woke up.

Yuan Jingkun felt that Jing Jianye was the same as him, they all stayed by Gong Xinuo's side, cared about him, loved him, but they couldn't get his response, and they couldn't even verify whether he accepted it.

Yuan Jingkun put his hand back under the quilt, frowning in distress, what should I do next?

Geng Xin pursed his red lips, stared down at his toes, and racked his brains on how to answer Gong Xinuo's question.

At this time, there seemed to be two selves in his heart. One said that he could not tell Mr. Gong, because his illness was not cured, and he could not bear the blow; He has the right to know what happened, maybe this will be a great opportunity to improve their relationship.

Geng Xin murmured silently, struggling and struggling, still unable to make up his mind, not sure if he could say it, not knowing how to say it.

"Geng Xin, what's the matter with Mr. Yuan?" Gong Xinuo repeated his question again, in the usual light tone that Geng Xin was very familiar with.

Geng Xin didn't dare to look up at him, hesitated, finally gritted his teeth, stomped his feet, and said with a sigh of relief with his eyes closed: "Mr. Yuan had a miscarriage five days ago. When he was looking for your father at Fenghua Bridge, he was bumped, my son. It’s gone. He doesn’t want us to tell you that you are not in good health, he is afraid that it will affect your illness, so..."

Geng Xin stopped chattering, and carefully opened his eyes to observe Gong Xinuo's expression. Unexpectedly, Gong Xinuo was expressionless, as if he hadn't heard his words.

The rest of Geng Xin's words were choked in his throat and he couldn't say them out. As time passed by, Gong Xinuo still didn't respond, making him mistakenly think that what he just said was all from his heart, and he didn't say it at all.

After a while, Gong Xinuo leaned out and asked again in a tone of disbelief: "What do you think is wrong with Mr. Yuan?"

"Mr. Yuan, he...he..." Geng Xin stammered, scratching his head, regretting his recklessness just now, but unfortunately he couldn't take back what he said, so he had to bite the bullet and go back to him. "Mr. Yuan, he had a miscarriage..." He paused unintentionally, he gave Gong Xinuo time to react, and he needed to decide whether to continue to say the following words based on his performance.

Gong Xinuo's heartbeat that had just fallen back was pulled back to his throat by his confirmation.

No matter how he thought about it, he would never have imagined that such a thing would happen!

Gong Xinuo quickly recalled the past scenes in his mind, and suddenly realized that some time ago, Yuan Jingkun was always unwell, suffering from minor illnesses and pains. At first, he thought it was because of his weakened constitution or psychological reasons. It turned out to be pregnant, and his carelessness ignored the existence of the child.

If he knew that Yuan Jingkun was pregnant, how could he treat him like that?How could you bear to treat him like that?

Unfortunately, it was too late, the child was gone, what a blow to them!

Gong Xinuo's heart was throbbing, and his expression was as usual. He leaned back on the pillow and said to Geng Xin: "You go back first."

Geng Xin was surprised that he didn't respond. He was worried that he would fall ill, but he was quite calm in the end.Without even saying a word of comfort, he obediently left the ward.

Gong Xinuo forced himself to calm down quickly, lifted the quilt, replaced the black underwear with the light blue hospital gown, and replaced the wide sunglasses with silver-rimmed glasses, and lowered his head to avoid the eyes of all the doctors and nurses. Walk out of the hospital quickly.

The streets were bustling in the afternoon, Gong Xinuo held out his hand to stop a taxi, and opened the back door: "Master, go to Haojing Villa!"

After the snow, the sky is clear and the clouds are light, the blue sky is infinitely open, the breath is fresh, and the warm sunshine is shining all over the body, making people feel naturally clear and bright.

In the small garden, Yuan Jingkun was sitting on a swing, Gong Xi was leaning in his arms, with an easel standing in front of him, holding a paintbrush in his little hand to paint the snow-covered garden scenery on the drawing board, with a serious attitude and a focused expression.

Gong Xi had never been to the hospital to visit the sick Gong Xinuo. The little girl mentioned it once, but after being rejected by Yuan Jingkun, she never said it again.

Yuan Jingkun was afraid that Gong Xinuo's situation would frighten Gong Xi, or that Gong Xi would affect Gong Xinuo's rest.

Yuan Jingkun tilted his head and looked at Gong Xi who resembled him carefully, and asked for a long time: "Yuanyuan, if I separate from my father..."

Before Yuan Jingkun could say what he wanted to ask later, Gong Xi turned his head very quickly and blurted out without thinking: "Father, where are you going?"

Yuan Jingkun's mouth was half open, and the child's heartfelt words made him extremely chilled.He originally wanted to ask, if he and Gong Xinuo separated, would Gong Xi be willing to go with him.

The result is self-evident, after all, Gong Xi has lived with Gong Xinuo for more than three years, and the unbreakable relationship between them is definitely not comparable to Yuan Jingkun, who has only been with her for about half a year.

Gong Xi really likes Yuan Jingkun very much, but she still relies on Gong Xinuo in her bones. Gong Xinuo's position in her heart is irreplaceable and unshakable.

Gong Xi's answer made Yuan Jingkun realize a reality that he has been ignoring intentionally or unintentionally.

Gong Xi is not his child, but Yang Yiqing's flesh and blood, his only biological flesh and blood that Gong Xinuo loves deeply!

Yuan Jingkun smiled wryly, why is he so stupid, why is he so naive, Gong Xinuo may readily agree to break up, but no matter what, he will not agree to take Gong Xi away!

Because she has an unbreakable blood relationship with Yang Yiqing!

No matter how much Yuan Jingkun loves Gong Xi, it can't change this reality.

He couldn't bear to face Gong Xi's innocent and puzzled expression, hugged her tightly, and turned his eyes to the dead tree in the distance: "Dad won't go anywhere, just guard Yuanyuan."

Along the way, Gong Xinuo couldn't calm down to think at all, he was anxious to see Yuan Jingkun.

The inexplicable panic gave him a bad premonition. He was afraid that the separation three years ago would happen again, and he was afraid that he would lose Yuan Jingkun again.

After Gong Xinuo got out of the car, he drove straight in, and Mrs. Qin went out to do some shopping. In the villa, except for his swift footsteps, there was no movement around.

The bedroom door on the second floor was closed tightly. Gong Xinuo held the doorknob and turned it lightly. The door creaked and opened a gap, and it was slowly pushed open. There was no one in the clean and tidy room.

Gong Xinuo's heart sank in an instant, this sight confirmed his guess even more, he turned around subconsciously, and ran into Yuan Jingkun who was surprised by his unexpected appearance.

The midday sun shrunk in the room to only a thin bright strip on the window sill, and the whole room looked dim instead. Gong Xinuo, who was standing against the backlight, couldn't see clearly. Yuan Jingkun still felt the light coming from him. Anxiety and impatience emanating from the body.

The distance between them is only a few feet; the air between them has been condensed by the warm sun; the eyes between them, after a short exchange, quickly arouse the suppressed gasps in each other's hearts.

From such a close distance, the haggard eyes and brows of the other party can be seen at a glance, which makes them feel sorry for each other and blame themselves.

Gong Xinuo took a long breath of the breath he had been holding back, took a step forward, and said first, "Why didn't you tell me?" His voice was so hollow that it seemed to be far away from his body, and his lifeless face showed more and more his weakness.

Yuan Jingkun understood the reason for Gong Xinuo's appearance in an instant. He knew about the child's disappearance, so he rushed to question him desperately.

Don't you dislike children?

Don't you love Yang Yiqing the most?

Yuan Jingkun stared at him bitterly, stubbornly choosing to face him in silence.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Gong Xinuo stared at him blankly. This confrontation made Gong Xinuo even more uneasy.He approached Yuan Jingkun, breathing past his face, suppressing his panting: "Why didn't you tell me?"

Yuan Jingkun didn't know how to explain the child's matter, and until now, he still stubbornly believed that it was all his fault.

Guilt, anger, and sadness welled up in his heart. Apart from being at a loss, he couldn't find the right words, and even his expression became stiff.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Gong Xinuo's voice changed a bit, and the changed voice made Yuan Jingkun understand what a man was crying.

Yuan Jingkun turned his head and walked towards the gate without waiting for Gong Xinuo to finish speaking, but he could still hear the choked sobs that he tried his best to cover up but couldn't hide from Gong Xinuo's voice.

Seeing that he was about to leave, Gong Xinuo grabbed his arm, intending to pull him into his arms.Unexpectedly, Yuan Jingkun insisted on breaking free from his hand, and pulled out his arm vigorously.

Gong Xinuo put more strength on his forearm, turned to him, closed the door smoothly, and locked the only exit.

Yuan Jingkun's other hand desperately broke open the hand that was clamping him, walked around his body, and reached out to open the door.

Both of them are not in the best condition now, but after all, they have the foundation and cannot give in to each other.

In fighting this kind of thing, you are not afraid of being strong and I am weak, or I am strong and you are weak, but you are afraid of being evenly matched, so there must be some entanglement.

Gong Xinuo grabbed his waist, forcibly twisted his body, pressed against the door, grabbed his wrist, left his left foot against his right foot, and his left leg against his right leg, trying to fix him .

Gong Xinuo's dominance happens to be a manifestation of his charm, which is a kind of active possession.

For example, when they met for the first time in the tea room, their first intimate contact; when he had a conflict with the loan shark, Gong Xinuo rescued him. After that incident, Yuan Jingkun had already developed subtle feelings for Gong Xinuo, but various complicated things made him ignore the changes in his heart.

After a brief pause, Gong Xinuo frowned, his eyes questioning: Where are you going?

Yuan Jingkun avoided his gaze, and pushed Gong Xinuo away with his free hand, but his right foot was caught by his left foot, and he couldn't grasp the center of gravity, so he leaned forward and rushed towards the floor.

Seeing that he was about to fall, Gong Xinuo quickly grabbed his waist, but unfortunately his strength was limited, not only failed to support Yuan Jingkun, but was brought down by him instead.

The two fell heavily on the floor one after the other, and the fall was not light.

Yuan Jingkun held down his lower abdomen that was in pain due to the vibration; Gong Xinuo was afraid of hitting him, but he had no time to support him, so he had to turn over and lay down on his back, the heart and lungs were greatly impacted, and he could not stop Coughing wildly.

The two heard each other's groan|moans that they tried their best to suppress, and they looked up at each other at the same time, the concern and worry in their eyes surpassed any words.

Gong Xinuo pressed his chest with one hand and supported the floor with the other, and leaned sideways on top of Yuan Jingkun, with a hoarse voice, the same sentence: "Why didn't you tell me?"

"You don't care!" Yuan Jingkun stared at him, opened his lips with difficulty, bit every word hard, as if emphasizing it for Gong Xinuo, and reminding himself.

The mist-like sunlight was projected between the two of them, spreading into a hazy barrier, and the bright mist made them hardly see each other's expressions clearly.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Gong Xinuo lowered his eyelids when Yuan Jingkun was speaking, staring at his lips that opened and closed. The thin white covered the lips that were always rosy, and his voice trembled slightly.

"You don't care!" The same answer, the same tone, the difference is that Yuan Jingkun was shocked when his eyes moved to Gong Xinuo's face, because he could clearly see two lines of hot tears streaming down his eyes. Gong Xinuo's face rolled down rustlingly.

"Why didn't you tell me?" This question was not as fluent as the previous few times, with sobbing noises interspersed intermittently. At this moment, Gong Xinuo could not think of any words except for mechanically repeating the question.

"You don't care!" Yuan Jingkun burst into tears, and the softened tone made this sentence lose its original attitude and meaning.

Gong Xinuo asked "Why didn't you tell me" six times in a row, in fact he asked countless times in his heart.

If he had been a little more careful and caring at the beginning, such a thing would never have happened.

He loves Yuan Jingkun so much that he doesn't know how to love to be considered love. How did he become bruised all over in the end?

How could he be so unconfident in himself?

How can he bear the sadness alone?

How could he hide such a big thing from him?

Gong Xinuo took Yuan Jingkun's hand away from his lower abdomen, and put his head on the place where the child had been conceived. Unstoppable tears soaked Yuan Jingkun's sweater. At this moment, he couldn't control his emotions and was lifeless. Crying is the best way to vent.

The long-lost heartache once again came to my heart. It was different from losing a close relative many years ago. This time, Gong Xinuo felt that he was too cruel. He could almost be regarded as indirectly killing his own flesh and blood.

This self-blame weighed heavily on his heart, and it will be engraved in his life, like a brand, which is difficult to erase.

Yuan Jingkun, do you know how much I love you?

This is our baby, how could I not like it?

How could I not look forward to it?

How could I not know how you want to have children, but I really don't want you to suffer and take risks anymore.

I can't be selfish and disregard your safety just for bloodline inheritance.

Yuan Jingkun, do you understand my heart?

Gong Xinuo was thinking silently in his heart, the long eyelashes were wetted with tears gushing from his red eyes, trembling flickeringly, he kissed Yuan Jingkun's lower abdomen, the salty taste flowed down The corner of the mouth slid to the throat and dripped into the heart.

Baby, wherever you are, remember, Daddy loves you.

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