It turns out that I love you

Yuan Jingkun was weak after giving birth and needed to rest in bed.

For half a month, he never saw Gong Xinuo and the baby. Geng Xin took care of him to wash, eat and drink every day, never mentioning any news about Gong Xinuo and the baby.

Yuan Jingkun felt unprecedented despair. With the birth of the child, he and Gong Xinuo might become strangers. For several days, he neither saw him nor received his call, which already explained everything.

As for the newborn, he only had a quick glance at her when she was born, and before he could see her facial features clearly, Xia Lefan held her away from his eyes, and his impression of her appearance was even a little vague.

Yuan Jingkun knew better than anyone that this child had nothing to do with him.

Although it was his child who was born in October, but another person's blood flowed in her body, and her meaning was Gong Xinuo's longing for another person.

Yuan Jingkun envied Yang Yiqing, and laughed at himself that he couldn't escape jealousy. The most stupid thing about people is that they can't look away.

Geng Xin felt that Yuan Jingkun seemed to have returned to the state when he first came to the apartment, even worse than before.He could see that Yuan Jingkun was forcing himself to eat, to sleep, and to recover quickly every time.

Geng Xin couldn't help sympathizing with him, Yuan Jingkun didn't speak all day, lying on the bed with his eyes closed, nutritious food can make his body recover as soon as possible, but it can't relieve the pain in his heart.

Yuan Jingkun picked up the desk calendar, and every date on it was covered by a red circle.When he came to the apartment, he felt like the days were like years. Every day that passed, he crossed out a number on the calendar, which gradually became a habit.

In the past, Yuan Jingkun always felt that the days passed too slowly; now, Yuan Jingkun felt that the days passed too quickly.

In the blink of an eye, everything changed.

Yuan Jingkun went to the hospital to visit his father on the third day when he was able to get out of bed and walk around.He hadn't seen his father for a long time, and besides worrying, he still had endless thoughts.

Yuan Jingkun rushed to the hospital and came to the door of the intensive care unit familiarly. The venetian blinds on the windows were hung high, and the scene inside could be seen through the glass.

Yuan Jingkun searched, but his father was nowhere to be seen. Instead, his father's bed was replaced by a white-haired sixtieth old lady.

Yuan Jingkun suddenly panicked, and before he had time to think about it, a nurse came from beside him and asked softly: "Sir, who are you looking for? Are you visiting a patient?"

Yuan Jingkun turned around, his voice trembling unconsciously: "Miss Nurse, has the patient in bed 9 changed wards?"

The nurse looked him up and down, recalling the memory of several months ago: "Oh, you are the family member of the patient in bed 9, you have been here before, I still remember you. Don't you know? The patient in bed 9 has passed away."

Yuan Jingkun's head buzzed, and he froze for a moment, his mind stuck on the word "death".After a long time, I asked again as if I didn't believe it: "You said that the patient in bed 9 passed away?"

"Yes." The nurse gave him an affirmative answer. "Yes, he died three months ago. At that time, a gentleman surnamed Gong came to go through the formalities. He claimed to be the patient's son-in-law."

Three months ago, three months ago... Yuan Jingkun said silently in his heart.Suddenly recalling Gong Xinuo's abnormal behavior during that time, and Xia Lefan's abnormal mention of his father's illness, he suddenly came to his senses.

The truth turned out to be the case.

"Mr. Yuan!" Xia Lefan passed by here during the rounds, saw Yuan Jingkun's figure with sharp eyes, wondered why he appeared in the hospital, and called to stop him.

Yuan Jingkun looked up to see Xia Lefan, turned around and left quickly without saying a word.

Xia Lefan had a quick mind, and immediately reacted, trotting behind Yuan Jingkun, ignoring the suspicious eyes of the nurse.

Yuan Jingkun's pace was quite fast, but Xia Lefan was one step late, the automatic door switch blocked his way, and when he chased out of the hospital, Yuan Jingkun was nowhere to be seen.

"Oh!" Xia Lefan put the ballpoint pen in his jacket pocket angrily, and took out his mobile phone to contact Gong Xinuo.

If he guessed correctly, Yuan Jingkun would definitely go to ask Gong Xinuo Xingshi the first time he learned the truth.

Gong Xinuo has been extremely busy for half a month. Mrs. Qin returned from her hometown after the fifth day of the Lunar New Year. She was surprised by the baby who suddenly appeared beside Gong Xinuo, but she didn't ask much, and took care of the baby carefully.

Gong Xinuo has no experience in raising children, but wants to do everything by himself, so he can't help but feel confused and flustered.Sometimes, it is not at all to relieve Mrs. Qin's burden, but to help more and more.

Gong Xinuo returned home from get off work every day, strolled back and forth in the living room with the baby in his arms, rarely communicated with the child, and most of the time just silently watched the child in his arms.

The child's eyebrows and eyes reveal the shadow of Yuan Jingkun, it's not exactly the same, but there are nine points of similarity.

After the foundation stone laying ceremony of the exhibition hall was held, large-scale construction started. Chief engineer Zhang Fu, engineer Jin Kejun, and engineer assistant Han Wei spent almost every day on the construction site. Gong Xinuo must come every day to visit the construction site and discuss construction with them detail.

While Gong Xinuo was devastated, he also had to think carefully about his future with Yuan Jingkun.

How should Yuan Jingkun tell him the news of his father's death? After lying to him for too long, Gong Xinuo couldn't open his mouth at all. He really couldn't bear to see him sad.

Fire cannot be contained in paper, and it is impossible for Gong Xinuo to hide it from him for the rest of his life.You will know what you need to know sooner or later. The only thing that is not sure is, will Yuan Jingkun blame him for cruelly depriving him of the right to see his father for the last time?

In addition, there is also his affection for Yuan Jingkun.To be honest, he likes Yuan Jingkun very much, which is different from his feelings for Yang Yiqing.

During the days of being with Yuan Jingkun, he gradually understood that he worshiped Yang Yiqing, admired him, and had an unspeakable longing; while he had a heartbeat, a fascination, and a heartfelt love for Yuan Jingkun.

Gong Xinuo is divided | He has no skills, so he never went to the apartment to visit Yuan Jingkun.He needs to rest, so I don't want to take the baby with me for the time being, for fear that it will disturb his rest.

Thinking of these, Gong Xinuo always sighed silently.

"Sir, do you have an appointment? Sir, you can't go in! You..." Miss Secretary's eager but beautiful voice sounded in Yuan Jingkun's ear.

Yuan Jingkun turned a deaf ear and walked towards Gong Xinuo's office with big strides.

Miss Secretary didn't know who he was, and wanted to stop him, but she didn't dare to touch him. Yuan Jingkun's aggressive posture made her retreat, and she could only stop him with words: "Sir, you really can't go in, really..."

Yuan Jingkun pushed open the vermilion painted door, broke into Gong Xinuo's office abruptly, stopped in front of him, and stared at Gong Xinuo with resentful eyes.

"Mr. Gong, I'm sorry, I... this gentleman, he..." Miss Secretary lowered her voice, her words became chaotic due to nervousness.

Seeing Yuan Jingkun, Gong Xinuo was very surprised, and waved to the secretary to signal her to go out.The secretary understood what he meant, walked out of the office very lightly, and closed the door behind him.

Gong Xinuo waited until there were only the two of them left in the room, stood up, and walked up to him, his tone full of concern: "Why did you come out? It's been less than a month."

Yuan Jingkun approached him, took a deep breath, and asked him hoarsely: "I ask you, where is my father?"

Gong Xinuo's eyebrows were frivolous, his heart skipped a beat, and he immediately understood why he came.He must have been to the hospital and knew the fact of his father's death.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Yuan Jingkun was even more convinced that he was deceiving him deliberately, and grabbed his collar: "Why did you lie to me? Why did you lie to me?"

Seeing his excited expression, Gong Xinuo explained: "I didn't hide it from you on purpose. Think about your physical condition at that time. I didn't want you to get hurt because of being sad, so I..."

Yuan Jingkun cut him off: "So you lied to me, you and Xia Lefan teamed up to lie to me!"

Gong Xinuo grabbed his hand: "For the sake of the child, I have no other choice."

Yuan Jingkun's eyes were red: "I'm just a child-bearing tool you bought with money! The only thing you value is children!"

Gong Xinuo felt that Yuan Jingkun had misunderstood him, and shook his head again and again: "No! Why would I think so? I..." I was worried about you.

Yuan Jingkun didn't wait for him to finish speaking, and landed his clenched fist on the left side of his face. Gong Xinuo was defenseless and fell on the carpet.Because he held Yuan Jingkun's hand, he took him down.

The two fell sideways on the heavy red carpet, with blood seeping from the corner of Gong Xinuo's mouth, looking at Yuan Jingkun's eyes full of resentment, turned over and subdued his raised hand again.

"You can hit me, if hitting me can make you forgive me."

Yuan Jingkun was in a complicated mood at the moment, his eyes were filled with mist, he held back the tears that were about to burst out of his eyes, and his chest heaved and heaved while he was holding his breath.

Facing Gong Xinuo's sincere gaze, Yuan Jingkun didn't know what to do.

His deliberate concealment and deliberate deception deeply hurt Yuan Jingkun's heart. No matter what the reason was, it was selfish and unreasonable for him to do so.

However, Yuan Jingkun couldn't bear to hate him.

Yuan Jingkun vigorously pushed his body away, supported the carpet and stood up, walked away quickly without saying a word.

Gong Xinuo was pushed against the hard desk by him, and his back hit the desk heavily. Regardless of the pain in his back, he stood up, straightened his clothes, and chased after him.

He was suddenly very scared, worried that Yuan Jingkun would never return to the apartment and lose him like this.

After all, Gong Xinuo missed Yuan Jingkun's figure, searched for a long time, and finally found him in the cemetery.

Yuan Jingkun half-kneeled in front of the tombstone engraved with the names of his parents, with his head lowered, his shoulders shaking, and his fingers gliding over the cold letters on the tombstone.

Gong Xinuo stood in the distance, turned his face sideways, and couldn't bear to see Yuan Jingkun so sad.

Yuan Jingkun's tears couldn't stop falling on the cemetery. At first, he promised to have a child for Gong Xinuo because he wanted to save his father's life. But now, in the end, it was all in vain. The untold sorrow made him almost despair of life .

Gong Xinuo didn't go there, he knew that Yuan Jingkun needed someone to cry happily at this time, need someone to vent to his heart's content, and needed a quiet and undisturbed environment.

Gong Xinuo turned around and left the cemetery quietly.

"Hey, what's the matter with you today?" Zhou Yingjun wondered why Gong Xinuo, who had always been a teetotaler, would drink tonight.

Gong Xinuo drank the brown liquid in the wine glass in one breath, leaving a few colored ice cubes behind. He shook the wine glass, and the ice cubes collided with the glass body, making a crisp sound.

"Give me another drink."

Zhou Yingjun stopped the wine glass that Xiaolong handed over, preventing him from continuing to drink: "Okay, you drank a lot tonight, I don't have the service of staying overnight here."

Gong Xinuo took off his glasses, slid his right index finger over his eyebrows, and sighed: "Then you throw me on the road."

"I remember that you don't seem to be married, so why are you homeless?" Zhou Yingjun didn't know why he was so troubled, so he joked to adjust his mood.

Gong Xinuo snatched the wine glass from his hand, raised his neck, and drank it down in one gulp.

Zhou Yingjun was helpless: "You really plan to get drunk and never go home."

Gong Xinuo picked up his coat, stood up staggeringly, his feet were unsteady, he held on to the bar chair, suppressed the smell of alcohol, and left the bar without saying hello.

Gong Xinuo took a taxi to the apartment, forgot to bring the door key of the apartment, did not ring the doorbell, and patted the door: "Geng Xin."

Hearing the noise and sound, Geng Xin hurriedly opened the door, and saw the flushed Gong Xinuo, surprised: "Mr. Gong, you..." Why are you here?

Gong Xinuo ignored him, and went straight to the door of the bedroom. The door of the bedroom was wide open. Leaning against the door frame, he saw Yuan Jingkun standing in front of the bed packing his luggage.

"What are you doing?" Gong Xinuo asked knowingly.

Yuan Jingkun glanced sideways at him, didn't speak, and put the clothes in the suitcase on his own.

Gong Xinuo took a few steps forward, closed the door of the bedroom, locked it by the way, and held his wrist: "I ask you, what are you doing?

Yuan Jingkun was very close to him, smelling the alcohol on his body, and frowned: "Have you been drinking?"

"I asked you something, answer me!" Gong Xinuo, who was drunk, was not as gentle as before, he raised his voice and was full of domineering.

Yuan Jingkun replied to him confidently: "I'm packing up, I want to move."

"Where are you going?" Gong Xinuo was inexplicably angry when he heard his words, and his attitude became more severe.

Yuan Jingkun broke his hand: "Where I go has nothing to do with you!"

"Why has nothing to do with me?" Gong Xinuo raised his eyebrows, his handsome face was close to Yuan Jingkun.

Yuan Jingkun took a few steps back, avoiding his ambiguous expression: "The child has been born, I have nothing to do with you!

"Nonsense! You are mine, you are mine!" Gong Xinuo, half drunk and half awake, pulled him over, his tone anxious.

Yuan Jingkun leaned into his arms suddenly, not sure whether he was drunk or sober, and didn't understand the meaning contained in his words.

Gong Xinuo let go of him, lifted the white suitcase and slammed it on the ground. Taking advantage of the alcohol, he acted like a child: "I won't let you leave, don't let me!"

Yuan Jingkun looked at his actions suspiciously, and the clothes in the suitcase were thrown out and spread messily on the ground, lying among them.

Gong Xinuo stepped over the obstacle, took his hands, and begged him with a dazed expression, "Don't go, don't leave me."

Yuan Jingkun didn't know what to say, let him hold hands, and the thought of leaving gradually faded.

Gong Xinuo approached him, took his mouth with one breath, bit his lip tightly, clasped his waist, and kissed him deeper and deeper.

Yuan Jingkun's eyes widened, and he wanted to push him away, but he was so strong that he couldn't push his body.But the lips were not controlled by the brain, and responded to his kiss.

Gong Xinuo moved, took him to the bed, threw himself on top of his body, took off the glasses that were in the way, opened his eyes, let go of his lips, and stared at Yuan Jingkun's flushed cheeks.

Gong Xinuo is no longer a fool who just tasted human affairs. The first experience last time made him gradually understand this kind of thing.Although he was drunk, he still knew what to do next.

Yuan Jingkun lay under him, his body stiffened, his fists clenched, nervous with a little fear, looking at the flushed Gong Xinuo.

In addition to feeling the pleasure, Yuan Jingkun also felt a little pain, and the wound had not fully recovered, accompanied by a strong tear|tearing feeling.

"Teacher...teacher...teacher..." Gong Xinuo suddenly called three times in a low voice, each more clearly and more emotionally.

Yuan Jingkun was stunned for an instant, his whole body was shaken, and every sentence pierced his heart like a sharp sword, causing infinite pain.

It turns out that I am Yang Yiqing's substitute in your heart!

Yuan Jingkun pushed him away with all his strength, the wound ruptured and thick blood stained out.

Yuan Jingkun fled out of the bloody air, turned over and fell off the bed, the lights in the room were dazzling, he closed his eyes again, and pulled up his clothes to cover his body.

Gong Xinuo lay on the bed, humming lightly in pain, drunk and tired, he fell asleep.

Three minutes drunk and seven minutes awake, Yuan Jingkun naturally understood that Gong Xinuo was not so drunk that he passed out.

Speaking the truth after drinking, what he did just now was not because of himself, but because of Yang Yiqing. In his heart, Yang Yiqing always occupied the most important position.

Yuan Jingkun sat in a daze, got dressed in a lonely way, pulled back the quilt that covered Gong Xinuo, and fell asleep on the bed, his delicate face was serene and peaceful.

Yuan Jingkun reached out and touched his face, no matter how much he loved, Gong Xinuo's heart didn't belong to him after all.

Dream, it's time to wake up.

The sunlight flooded the bed, waking up the sleeping Gong Xinuo.Gong Xinuo opened his eyes slightly, his vision was blurred, he looked around the surrounding environment, raised his heavy head, and tried hard to recall everything that happened last night.

Gong Xinuo sat up and rubbed his temples. It was still the familiar clean and tidy room, but there seemed to be something missing.

Gong Xinuo lifted the quilt and got up from the bed. What happened last night turned into fragments, which surfaced in his mind and pieced together a complete content. He wondered: Where is Yuan Jingkun?

When Gong Xinuo opened the closet, the clothes Yuan Jingkun brought were gone; when he opened the drawers of the desk, the books he often read were also gone.

Gong Xinuo suddenly remembered that last night, at the most critical moment, he seemed to have said a few words, no, to be precise, a few words.Yes, he called "Teacher", and Gong Xinuo, who was slow in emotional intelligence, finally understood the reason why Yuan Jingkun left.

It's a pity that Gong Xinuo didn't say what he said later, what he wanted to express was: Teacher, it's not what I want, you are my favorite.

Gong Xinuo sighed heavily, it was too late, many words had not had time to be fulfilled, you have already left me.

After that, Yuan Jingkun completely disappeared from Gong Xinuo's life.

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