Nanami's Battle Royale

What is the concept of being alive?

When I woke up in this world, I had no memory of who I was or why I was here.Immediately after the next moment, countless memories flooded in, the tropical jungles of Asia, the high altitudes of the future world, and the gorgeous and cold palaces thousands of years ago, without exception, none of them were my current memories——I spent It took a long time to verify that the world I am currently in is not illusory, and a long time to try to explain why this situation happened to me.Space theory, parallel universe theory, schizophrenia, unknown mystery created by God... In the end it's just that, I can't explain it, so I have no faith, no science, no theology, I can only believe in myself.The reason for this is simply because self-denial can only self-destruct, and in fact, I can't really control the emergence of this kind of thinking.

What do you do when a game has no difficulty?

Find something more interesting instead - delete it for example.Take control of it.destroy it.

Kiriyama Kazuo is such a person, and so am I.Fortunately I have experienced countless destruction and rebirth in countless memories, and it turns out that hurting others does not satisfy you.So what I can do is quietly, smoothly, go through this life according to the established route, doing all the things that everyone else has been doing.

until now.

"Everyone wants to live, but few people want to die. And I have no attachment to my own life, so I don't mind doing something more helpful." My tone was calm.The exhaustion after the outbreak came together, and I felt as if I suddenly lost my strength. "I said this, can you understand what I mean? San... Xinshi?"

Little by little, his hand loosened until it was detached from my shoulder.I could feel him looking at me, but I didn't have the strength to look up at him again.

"I'm sorry, Shinshi. If I might die, I don't want to have any attachments before I die."

This time he didn't stop me from leaving.When I turned my head, I realized that everyone was already nearby, and the conversation must have been heard clearly.

"The plan starts at four o'clock in the morning, blowing up the school first. Seize the ship at five o'clock, and leave the island on time at six o'clock—I will try my best to lure everyone there."

Iijima seemed to want to say something.

"Sorry, I want to take a break... I leave it to you to be vigilant." I cut off Iijima and passed him.

I didn't look back, I didn't know what Mimura's expression was like, and I didn't turn my head to look at Nakagawa, or Guoxin who didn't know if he was still in a coma.I believe I have done nothing wrong.

Some things just never happen.

I climbed onto the roof.The afternoon sun was really warm, and when the wind blew up, the dust that had been deposited on the ground for an unknown amount of time was blown up, and I couldn't help coughing a few times.

I wasn't sleepy at first, it's just that the sunshine is really suitable for taking a nap.I found a place at random, blown away the dust, sat on the ground and squinted at the sun.In such a long and idle afternoon, I often lie on the desk, and the wind blows in from the window next to me.At that time, Sancun often read books behind me, and the sound of turning the pages was similar to a peaceful lullaby, while I was half asleep and half awake, letting my hair be pulled by the wind, temporarily forgetting all memories, stopping all thinking, like Anyone who enjoys the peace of dreamland alike.

【"Did you hear? What I just said"】

【"Compared to myself, I hope you can survive! Do you understand?!!!"】

I felt like I was in a dream.

At that time, it was still the first year of junior high school - a small gang in a class had basically formed, and the outstanding students had almost shown their talents.And after three years of constantly confirming those inexplicable memories, I finally believe that I am not a lunatic or mentally ill or anything else, because no one, especially a teenager who looks like a teenager, can be familiar with astronomy, geography, military affairs, etc. Technology can even perform all kinds of difficult technical movements without physical exercise at all.After solving the problems of identity and account, I think it is a good choice to let nature take its course.

Then I went to Chengyan Middle School, class B of the first year.At that point, and continuing into three years, the class was a mess.

Putting on makeup in class, skipping classes at will, playing nasty pranks on someone.In short, because it is naive and cannot affect me, it has been ignored by me.Then one day, I ran into Noriko Nakagawa who was stuck in the toilet.

I let her out and she became my friend.

Those uninterested class basketball games can no longer be escaped, and there are more activities on Saturdays and Sundays. The same number often rings on the phone, and then I need to spend hours listening to the thoughts of girls who are full of shyness and expect shallow love.

I don't hate these.

And those long, long boring times become more interesting, no more lying in bed counting the minutes, waiting for how long it will be until dark, waiting for how long until dawn, waiting for how long it will be until dawn end of life.

Nakagawa asked me. "Qihai, we are good friends for life, right? If anything happens to you, I will definitely try my best to help you."

lifetime.How long is a lifetime?Do you know that all people and people can only be accompanied by a certain distance, because the environment, distance, time, life and death will eventually separate everything.I am so close to you now because I am sure that you can live a good life without me, and for me, losing you will also be buried in heavy memories.And now you look at me with trust in your eyes, but you don't understand what kind of person I am.

"I'll protect you as long as the situation allows," I said. "But I have a wide range of abilities, so there will be a wide range of circumstances permitting."

It will be so large that it will not be allowed at all.

Sorry, I won't say that I don't have any feelings for friends at all, and I won't say that I don't hate you, but I don't like your words either.My life was meaningless and I knew I needed to find a purpose.Compared with the goal of destroying the world, it is obviously the best choice to protect you.I would protect you with my life instead, so how about forgiving my false friend?

However, you will not know my hypocrisy in this life, and you will not know that my protection is just to kill your life and has nothing to do with you.