self-control scale

Luo Zijun dragged Dudu slowly in the setting sun in the southern afternoon, fingers intertwined, walking from one end to the other, Luo Zijun basically didn't say anything, just Dudu babbled alone, squinting his eyes to recall.

Later, you gave me another name, not because you disliked the original one, but because you said, I think I have a famous name that suits you, so that people will not talk about the big medicine of the Tangtang Gewusi in the future. Secretary, only know a fool named Jiang Liuliu.

I sat on the jujube tree, picked jujubes and threw them at you, one after another, and you didn't hide, smiling brightly, while stretching out your hand to me and saying, come down six six.

You want me to come down, I'll come down, always.

I can jump off the eight-foot-high tree without hesitation, and land firmly in your arms.

You pressed me and kissed me until the corners of my eyes turned red, I was out of breath, and my whole body was crimson under the clothes.

I called you a hooligan, but you didn't get annoyed, held my face and asked me, Liuliu, from now on, can you be called Ziling?Baibu is a medicinal material, and Ziling is also a medicinal material. They both moisten the lungs and relieve cough while clearing away heat and detoxification. They are a natural pair.

Let me take a sip, whoever wants to be a natural match with you is shameless.

You laughed for a while, then suddenly told me very seriously, Ziling, I will only be with you in my life, only you, remember.

This man who dealt with ingenuity all day, did not know where he learned the ability to talk about love, and he is very proficient.

The child's voice of reproach suddenly dropped, and suddenly fell silent.Luo Zijun didn't rush him, and waited patiently for him to continue.

At the end of autumn that year, Bai Lu arrived much earlier than usual, but the three seasons were not yet complete.Like previous years, you entered the palace early in the morning to receive the reward.The princes and adults from all walks of life also rushed to the mansion to pay respects and give gifts. I was so annoyed by the comings and goings that I simply locked myself in the house and could not come out.

Then I heard someone chatting in the courtyard, saying that Mrs. Zhuang was getting married, and it was a gift from the emperor himself, and it was said that she was a lady from a famous family.

I certainly didn't think it was your father who was getting married, and I wasn't surprised at all.

You are a single passer, and some of the special abilities of yin and yang in your body are inherited from the family. In addition, the skills bestowed by God must be succeeded by others. It is only natural for you to have a good marriage, and it is a good thing in accordance with the destiny. Wash away the doom in your life.

From the day I entered the mansion, I knew I couldn't escape this day.

But I was very twisted in my heart, and the result was in front of me. I also despicably hope that you can refuse this marriage, even if it is a name of disobedience, you can fight for me.

That year, when the paraquat was dead in autumn, you came back from the capital very late. I wore a fox fur coat and sat at the door waiting for you every day. The ginkgo fell to the ground, and no one played chess with me. I could only play chess with myself. Have fun by yourself.

I'm waiting, I'm also betting, I'm waiting for you to tell me, Liuliu, I rejected the emperor's marriage proposal to me, and I'm just as energetic as before.

Later, when you came back, you didn't say a word about the marriage, but you shut yourself in the house without eating or drinking every day, and you didn't know what you were up to.

I dragged you out, and you gave me a brocade box. Inside was a beautiful ingenious necklace. You said, there must be a piece in it before it can be opened.Otherwise, it looks like an ordinary chain.

You ask me if I like it.

How could I not like it? I am always happy when you give me poison.

I can see that you are hesitant to talk to me about it.I think, since you have hesitated, I will make a decision for you, so as not to let you refuse to obey the order, and let the banker have one skill and no one to succeed.

I said, I heard that the emperor has married you, congratulations.

I knew that I couldn't spit out a good word from my teeth at that moment, and I didn't bother to look at the expression on your face, so I wobbled and put on my clothes before turning around and leaving.You stretched out your hand to pull me and was thrown away by me.

It snowed so hard that day, it was so white that I couldn't see anything.

I locked myself in the room that day, and heard you standing outside the door for a long time, and only called me, Ziling, I'm getting married.

I'm standing on the side of the door, and I can see you as soon as I push it open. I waited for you to say the second half of the sentence, but you didn't.

So I said again, it's cold outside, don't stand still, go back quickly, get ready for the big wedding, I'll give you a backup gift.

Great gift, what gift?How about I pack myself up on your marriage bed?

You left the next day. I heard from the housekeeper that you are going to Beijing again. This is what you should do. There are many things to take care of after a big wedding.

You go and I go, I asked Zuo to go to the frontier to join the army, and I left very simply, I didn't even have time to write a letter to tell you.I think you are very busy, so you don't have time or interest to know about this little thing.

Luo Zijun squeezed Dudu's hand and closed it little by little.

He asked in a stiff voice, "How long can you stay in northern Xinjiang with this body?"

Dudu patted the back of his hand comfortingly, as if talking about a past that had nothing to do with him.

"It's okay, it's all in the past. Some details don't even come to me."

The border is cold and bitter, and in the few years in northern Xinjiang, the climate has already worn him out.But I'm not lonely. The border guards are bold and funny, and they respect me, the only scholar, so they don't dare to speak loudly.

I teach them something about reading and writing every day, they are willing to learn, and the days go by quickly.

Occasionally, I heard people say that Mr. Zhuang of Gewusi gave birth to a very beautiful daughter.

I should be sad, and I should even get drunk for three days and three nights with the wine jar in my arms, pointing at the sky and scolding you as a heartless person.

But I didn't, I just felt cold, my heart was empty, and I lost everything.I was seriously ill and almost died. I cut off all news about you.This should be the best outcome.

In the past few years at the border, I have repeatedly made outstanding achievements. Not only the soldiers of the whole team like me, but even the commander-in-chief thinks highly of me.But those old things who regarded me as a thorn in the side, how could they let go of every opportunity to torture me.You used to be the backer, but now that you are married, the backer is gone.They naturally have more chances to kill me.

Someone in the army tipped me off and told me to be more careful.

But what am I careful about? Without you, I will wander around at will. Even if I can’t see the sun tomorrow after today, it’s okay. People without roots have no worries and no worries.

It turned out to be for you, but now that you don't want me, even if I vanish into thin air, it won't be a pity.

Luo Zijun bought a cup of hot milk tea and put it in Dudu's hand, putting his arm around his shoulder: "Sorry, I really don't remember that much."

Dudu didn't answer, but asked him with a smile: "Do you know why I don't have these ears?"

Luo Zijun shook his head.

"It's God's will."

One year, a general at the border gate took my medicine. For some reason, he suddenly became seriously ill and died suddenly the next day.Before the matter was investigated, I was charged with the crime of murdering Zhongliang with crooked methods.Someone secretly told me that the gang of old things above asked to arrest me and told me to be careful.

But he spoke too late. By the time I knew it, the people in the capital had gathered outside the gate with their soldiers, shouting for me to come out and confess.I am not.

Why should I admit that I didn't kill people.

I held my head high, and at that moment, I suddenly saw you in the crowd.

I was really puzzled that day, why you, the director of the Gewu Division, lead troops.It was only later that I realized that it was you who asked the emperor for an order to arrest me.

At that moment, the world was spinning and I was shaking all over.I want to scold you, I want to use all my strength to ask you how to do it, but I can't say it, I can't say a word.I can only stare at you with tears in my eyes.

Baibu, everyone in the world can disbelieve me, but you can't.

What else do you want to say, but someone is eager to claim credit, and while I'm in a daze, they put a sniper behind my back.The poisonous arrow shot out of the air, I closed my eyes, ready to die.

I am not dead.

Because I am in your arms.

With that arrow stuck in your back, the blood soon stained your clothes.

I rushed over to save you, wept loudly, everyone around seemed to be dumbfounded, and no one moved.

You touched my face and said to me, Liuliu, I'm sorry.Sixty-six, I am not married.I love you.

The poison broke out on the spot, and you didn't survive until I rescued you.

I, Jiang Ziling, have Hua Tuo's hands, but I can't save you.

Later, I hugged you and sat there for a day and a night, and I wouldn't give it to anyone who came to snatch it.I think why should I believe your words about getting married? Why should I trust what other people say about you.Why do I feel that you are here to get me?

why?

How deceptive language is, if only I couldn’t hear it, if only I could open the door that day and see your painful expression.

That day happened to be your 25th birthday.You still haven't been able to survive this calamity.

This robbery is called Jiang Ziling.

I found out later that your child was born for the purpose of inheriting the blood, and you didn't marry her. You told others that you will always have only one wife.

But I know too late.

So I prayed to God to exchange you with a pair of useless ears.After you died, I used Soul Sealing to seal part of my memory in photos and kept them in two places. In this way, after hundreds or thousands of years, as long as there is a coincidence, we will definitely meet again.

Seeing that Luo Zijun was silent, Dudu hopped down on the spot twice and pulled the hem of his clothes.

Luo Zijun took a deep breath and said: "For decades, I have often dreamed that I was in different ages, but there was always only one person, and I always seemed to be looking for someone."

Dudu raised his head, and the warm southern sun shone on his face in the afternoon: "Farewell to the clouds, it's been a hundred years. In the old days, the wind and snow covered the shoulders, and I couldn't wait for the white head. Now under the bright sun, I can walk shoulder to shoulder with you "Zijun, I have waited for hundreds of years, it was worth it."

Luo Zijun stared at Du Chengyi's side face, there was a trace of sadness and relief on his delicate face, he hugged Dudu, lifted his chin and kissed him, no matter whether it was on the street or whether there were people around Person: "Sorry I'm late. In this life, we will grow old together."