Self-illness

Chen Yi saw Lin Qing's mother in the reception room.

This is a very thin woman, even thinner than Lin Qing, wearing a large dark gray padded coat on her upper body, a pair of straight jeans on her lower body, and a pair of black and red sneakers with oily soles.

If one only looked at Lin Qing's words, one would never have guessed that her mother looked like this, with sunken eye sockets, dry lips, and black and white hair tied neatly behind her back, she looked much older than people of the same age.

As soon as Chen walked into the room, she immediately stood up awkwardly and forced a smile. The fish pattern and decree pattern were immediately piled up and arranged together, making her look even older. She rubbed her hands back and forth like a child who has made a mistake: "Hello, Doctor Chen."

"Hello, it's okay, you sit down." Chen Yi tried to comfort the embarrassed woman.

Many family members will feel ashamed because their family members have been admitted to a mental hospital. When they see a doctor, they always feel that it is difficult for them to behave naturally. Some people even feel that the psychologist can easily see the secrets in their hearts and appear particularly nervous.

"It's the first time we've met, and now I'm Lin Qing's responsible doctor, what's my name?" Chen Yi tried his best to keep smiling, and relaxed the thin woman in front of him.

The woman's hand didn't know where to put it, she rubbed it back and forth, making a rustling sound because it was dry: "My name is Yu, Yu Fang, and I'm from Changyu Village."

Changyu Village is a very remote rural place, and the conditions are relatively poor. However, in the early years, because of its proper governance, it was rated as a model village, and it was also shown on TV. The village head was also commended for this, and I heard that he was promoted.

"Aunt Yu, don't be in a hurry, drink some water first." Chen pushed the untouched water glass to Yu Fang's face: "This time I specially asked for a meeting, and I also want to know more about Lin Qing's situation with you. Yes, I hope I can make a rehabilitation plan, or help her, and if the condition is more stable, you can take her out for a walk."

I thought Yu Fang would be happy when she heard the news, but instead she was worried and fidgety: "I also want to visit her often, but I have to do things, I am busy from morning to night, and the place where I live and work is far away." It’s very far here, and I have to transfer three times for a trip, and the round-trip fare is hundreds of dollars, and I have to ask for a day off, deducting a lot of wages.”

Chen Yi's smile gradually became stiff, and she tried her best to conceal her unhappiness: "If there is a parent to accompany her, Lin Qing will recover faster, and she can go home to accompany you, and she can live a normal life, and even find a job. OK."

Yu Fang's eyes turned red: "Why do you think Qing'er got this kind of disease? What can I do? I thought that if I could earn enough money for us and my wife to eat and drink, we would find a place to stay. I Watching her every day, she will not seek death."

I thought it was because she was distressed about money, but it turned out that she was desperately trying to make money. Chen patted her thin and protruding back blade: "Lin Qing will get better, you have to believe that she gets better, after she has no thoughts of suicide, she I will be like many girls who go out to study and work, love you and take care of you."

Yu Fang wiped away her tears with the back of her dry hand and shook her head: "I don't want her to take care of me, I just ask her not to leave earlier than me, a mother."

"I found that there are very few descriptions about Lin Qing's specific illness and performance in the materials, and his father is not mentioned in it." In the case, the father column is completely blank. Even if it is divorced, it should be noted here. I don't know why there is This kind of criticism: "Did he die?"

Yu Fang shook her head and remained silent.

"Does he know about Lin Qing's situation?"

Yu Fang's expression looked heavy and tired, but she didn't have the original sense of embarrassment. She kept a very heavy secret in her heart, so that every time she mentioned this secret, she would enter into a forced act that had been repeated thousands of times. In his calm, he appeared indifferent and stubborn.

Chen Yi avoided this point and continued to ask: "Has he visited her?"

"I don't know, we rarely communicate."

Yu Fang lowered her head and picked at her fingernails: "He paid for the hospital expenses."

"Then why don't you just ask him to give you the money, and you take Lin Qing to live as you said?" Lin Qing's communication records did not show anyone other than her mother. Dad, he knew that his daughter was in the hospital and his wife was having a hard time, but he just watched with cold eyes.

Yu Fang shook her head: "I don't want his money."

Lin Qing's stubbornness came from her mother to some extent, and she also inherited her father's indifference. Chen Yi stopped taking notes helplessly: "How can I contact her father?"

Yu Fang had that defensive and silent expression again.Chen Yihao changed the subject: "Let's talk about Lin Qing's condition from the beginning."

"Didn't I say that before?"

"Some places are not very clear. I was not the doctor who received you before, so I will trouble you."

Chen Yi seemed to think of something, so he looked up at the woman whose eyes were still red: "If there is any inconvenience, you can tell me."

"I'm afraid I won't be able to catch the bus. Our place is far away, and the bus stops early."

Yu Fang took out a chipped mobile phone from the pocket of her coat and looked at the time: "I only took one day off."

Chen looked at the time: "I will leave work early today, and I will drive you back."

"That's so funny."

On the contrary, Yu Fang became even more flustered because of Chen Yi's words: "It doesn't matter, I will definitely cooperate with you well. If you can't catch the bus, the final journey is not far away, and I can walk back."

She made Chen Yi a little embarrassed: "Then let's understand the problem first, and then make a decision according to the time."

Yu Fang was not so excited now.

"When did you notice that Lin Qing was different from usual?"

"She was quite obedient and loved reading since she was a child. At that time, we rented near the school, and she stayed in the library when she had nothing to do."

Thinking of that peaceful time, Yu Fang seemed to see Lin Qing'an reading a book quietly: "She is not like other children with depression who are out of gregarious, and she even loves to talk, but she always asks a lot of questions and loves to talk. think."

"Well, like what kind of question?"

"I don't remember very well. Anyway, children are usually curious about questions, such as where people come from, or why it rains in the sky, and the light of the sun will feel hot, but the light of the lamp will not. of."

Yu Fang smiled a little embarrassedly: "I don't have much education, how could I know so much?"

It is indeed like the questions Lin Qing would ask, always seeming to make things difficult for others: "Will she lose her temper? Will she behave differently when she can't find the answer?"

Yu Fang thought for a while: "She will go to the library again, and sometimes she will go to the library even if she skips class. I still blame her for this, but she ignores me and won't lose her temper."

"When will you start losing your temper?" It was mentioned in the case that Lin Qing gradually became irritable and abnormal at the age of thirteen. If the anxiety was not properly dealt with during the transitional period of growth, it was easy to have a backlog: "I mean 13 years old Ever been there before?"

"Yes, but only once or twice."

Yu Fang tried her best to recall what happened many years ago: "One time she rushed home suddenly and threw her favorite things, books, out of the window. I asked her what was wrong, and she said everything was Just making it up, I think she might have had an argument with someone else. And it hasn't happened in a long time, and it's usually nothing special."

Chen Yi didn't know why Lin Qing was in this state, her personality and thinking consciousness were very clear, she understood and knew everything she did, including suicide and all questions, she acted extremely rationally: "She Did you ever ask you about her father?"

"When I was in the first grade of elementary school, she asked me one day why everyone else has a father."

Yu Fang's expression suddenly darkened: "I told her that everyone's fate is different, and whoever said that everyone will have a father."

'Every master's life is different. 'Chen wrote down this sentence in his notebook, which was like what Lin Qing would say: "Did she never ask again?"

"I never asked."

"Does the specific symptoms begin after the age of 13?"

Chen Yi looked at the incident transcribed in the case file: "At the age of 13, he showed irritability, often had disputes with others, and began to withdraw from the group. From the age of 13 to 15, he stayed at home for two years and was depressed all day long. , what does she do at home?"

"draw."

Chen Yi frowned again in surprise. It stands to reason that if a patient loves painting, there will be related works on file: "Where are those paintings?"

Yu Fang sighed: "Every time she finishes her paintings, she has to tear them up or burn them. Some paintings are very good. No matter how much I ask her not to do this, she will still destroy them."

"Did she talk to you a lot in those two years?"

Chen Yi looked at the poor woman in front of him, seeing his daughter depressed every day, how could she not grow old.

"It's true, but I always feel that I'm not talking to me." Yu Fang thought of her daughter's cold eyes and some irrelevant words, tears fell down again: "She is better now, she will Tell me some simple daily things, tell me not to come to see her, and tell me not to be so tired for her."

Chen handed the stickers to Yu Fang's hand: "She is also in a state of growth now, but her thinking will be different from ordinary people. Once she understands, she will be fine."

After Yu Fang stopped crying, Chen glanced at the untouched glass of water on the table: "Would you like some water, I'll go to the office, and I'll take you back."

"No, no, I'll go back by car."

"It's okay, I'm idle anyway, and I happen to be driving."

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