Self-illness

They walked silently under the bleak sunlight, and Chen Yi's slippers made a slight tapping sound on the floor tiles from time to time.

Kou Kuaiguai peeked at Chen Yi who was walking in front of her from time to time. She probably didn't think about going out. She was dressed very casually, with a big T-shirt inside and a coat outside, and her hair was loosely pulled up to reveal her white ears.

They almost walked around the community, talking very little, and no one said they would leave.

Kou obediently tried to walk side by side with Chen Yi, but felt a sense of tension in his heart that he had never felt before: "Maybe we can try to date for a while."

Chen Yi looked at her, but he didn't stop walking, and he didn't open his mouth to answer. His heart was full of overwhelming thoughts and unexplained worries.

"Doctors also want to fall in love, don't they? If, if you don't mind, I mean, we can, um..."

Kou Kuaiguai suddenly felt that his tongue was tied tightly by a rope, and he was completely unable to express his thoughts normally: "In short, it is, that, do you understand?"

Chen Yi stopped and frowned, and tilted his head, expressing some confusion, so he kept thinking about how to respond to Kou obediently.

Is she going to date a woman?

A person who has the habit of having sex with her said that she wanted to date herself after sleeping with her. She was not sure whether she would become an existence like Xu Mi, but she couldn't be as free and easy as Xu Mi.

"It's just that I think I like you a lot."

Kou Kuaiguai finally had no choice but to delete and sort out all the words: "Anyway, I liked you the first time I saw you."

Some feelings just come so directly, don’t they?

Who knows what this kind of love is like, but suddenly there is an opponent, and it is completely restrained: "I just thought, we can try to be like a couple."

"How is it? Is there any difference from our relationship now?" Chen Yi finally spoke, but she had great doubts about Kou Kuaiguai's words in her heart.

She doesn't know how to deal with it, forget what happened last time, or accept Kou's advice and continue to dream?

"Of course it's different." To Kou Guaiguai, this was such an obvious problem, she took Chen Yi's hand and held it in her palm: "If we're in a relationship, I can walk like this, holding your hand. "

"You can kiss and hug you at any time. We can touch each other without any scruples. This is what makes us different from ordinary friends."

Chen Yi smiled disapprovingly: "Is the biggest difference in establishing a relationship as a couple that you can have a physical relationship openly?"

Kou Guaiguai was dumbfounded by Chen Yi's question.

Other things, such as caring and caring, are all possible between friends, so why establish a relationship as a couple?They fell into silent walk again.

"If there is nothing else, I'll go upstairs first." Chen Yi broke the long silence, she just came down wearing slippers, and her legs felt sore and numb after walking for a long time.

"Yes." Kou Guaiguai still didn't think of a suitable reason, and even wondered with some embarrassment whether every psychological practitioner would be like Chen Yi, who cares about every detail.

What's the problem? After agreeing, they will be in a relationship, they will be together often, and they can miss each other, right?

Kou obediently scratched his scalp in a bit of annoyance, and denied himself again, no, even if the relationship between the couple is not confirmed, you can miss it.

Seeing the elevator doors closing slowly, Kou obediently waved his hand to Chen Yi to say goodbye, but he never stopped searching for the answer in his head.

When a man and a woman are together, they simply hold hands, and others will know that they are a couple. When two women are together, even if they kiss in public, they may not necessarily be considered a couple. At most, they are just good friends.

When a man and a woman are together, the possibility of their being together for a lifetime becomes very high.

For example, they may soon meet the parents, then get engaged, then get married, they will have a baby, and then they will have their own responsibilities.

What about women and women?

They can simply live together without performing any rituals, and then leave one day if they don't like each other. Apart from bearing a memory, they don't take any responsibility.

Kou obediently lit a cigarette impatiently, and was slapped hard on the back shoulder.

"Do you have to talk to me?"

Xu Mi took out the cigarette case that had just been put back from Kou Guaiguai's pocket, took out the cigarette, and asked Kou Guaiguai for fire. The two heads almost touched each other. When the cigarette finally ignited, Xu Mi exhaled a long puff of smoke ring: "What's your relationship now? She's mad because you fucked her?"

Although he didn't know the specific situation, Xu Mi intuitively imagined the outline of the matter.

Kou Kuaiguai has always admired Xu Mi's wit and intelligence, but this time he only hopes that the people around him don't understand anything in the end: "Don't be curious about me."

"Maybe I can help you, seeing how bitter and bitter you are."

Xu Mi was perseveringly curious, her tone was still in keeping with her temperament, showing it slowly: "When did it happen?"

"Many days ago, I haven't seen it since then."

"Did you say anything after you finished?"

Xu Mi suppressed a smile: "You can't get dressed and leave after finishing, and then suddenly bring up this matter now."

Kou obediently gave Xu Mi a blank look and didn't know how to describe the state of the day to her.

At night, she admitted that Chen Yi was a little drunk, but they did it again after waking up. Although the movements were very jerky, Chen Yi also entered her and satisfied her.

Thinking back like this, Kou Kuaiguai suddenly had a flash in his head: "Why do you think I feel like I owe her?"

Obviously they all satisfy each other, right?

"How do I know you?"

Xu Mi was caught off guard by Kou Guaiguai's sudden question: "Of course you will feel guilty for taking possession of him. Besides, this is the first time for him."

Kou muttered obediently: "I don't know why, I hope she can be my girlfriend."

Xu Mi felt that she was choked by the smoke, and the smoke in her throat kept gushing out, choking her for a long time before staring at Kou with wide eyes and frowning: "Are you serious?"

In the past two years since I met Kou Guaiguai, I have seen Kou Guaiguai have some contacts with many people, and they are all limited to bed partners. I have never seen her have a girlfriend, let alone: ​​"What about Thirteen?"

"Just like the test Ye Qianyan gave me, I have repeatedly confirmed that my feelings for Shisan are like relatives. I have known her since I was a child. I will want to protect her and love her, but I will not Those who want to possess her, get her."

In order to distinguish and confirm family affection or love, she has done many psychological verifications with Ye Qianyan in private.

Ye Qianyan said, Shisan will have her own life, you can't always be the shadow of Shisan, why don't you go back to the old you, search all the way, and pursue your own sky.

The former Kou obediently walked far away and saw a lot of people, didn't he just want to find himself?

Be yourself, Kou, stop being obsessed with Shisan, Tang Xia is just your best friend, you will need a new life.

Xu Mi even felt that Kou's obedient words seemed to be sophistry: "If there is a sexual impulse, it is love. Do you love those people who have slept with you, and me? Do you like it?"

"I can make it clear that it is only the physical needs of each other. I have feelings for Shisan, and I have no desires. It is the feeling of family."

The cigarette in Kou Guaiguai's hand burned to the end, she twitched reflexively, dropped the cigarette butt to the ground, stomped it out, and looked at the scorched black ball on the ground: "I have feelings for Chen Yi, when we first met Yes, there is a desire to be close."

"That thirteen, or if Tang Xia wakes up one day, although I don't know what it's like to recover after a split personality, in case she wants to see you one day, she will recognize you as her lover, and that you are the one in her life. The one who loves her the most."

Seeing Kou obediently suddenly bent down to pick up the cigarette butts on the ground and throw them into the trash can, Xu Mi paused for a while in surprise before continuing: "After all, you are the only person who has always existed in her consciousness before, she saw that you love others , what would she think, have you considered it?"

Kou Kuaiguai also had a terrible headache: "I can't live in a world with thirteen forever. Do you know how I feel when Ye Qianyan changed everything and I don't have to interfere with Thirteen's affairs?"

"It's like the sky is falling, I feel like I've been living in the dream I wove for Shisan and me for the past two years, and then the dream suddenly shattered, the whole world was disintegrated, and suddenly there was no way, no direction. "

Xu Mi laughed jokingly and said, "Then sleep with Chen Yi, and your world will stick together again?"

Somewhat jealous, it seems that everyone can see their own direction.

At least for a short period of time, even Kou Guaiguai, who has always been so free and easy, suddenly jumped out of Shisan's circle, wanting to love someone properly, but she, Xu Mi, didn't even know what it was like to love someone: "Hey, Don't get entangled with this person, but if you really decide to date Chen Yi, we won't be able to have sex."

Xu Mi is always like this, asking you inexplicably painfully for a while, and soon the conversation will lead you to another laughing point, Kou obediently pushed her angrily: "I have no interest in your body anymore."

"What's wrong with my figure? Is my chest bigger than Chen's?" Xu Mi drew a curved line on his chest: "Besides, at least I'm skilled."

"That's why I feel like I'm really in love. Now it seems that apart from Chen Yi, no other woman in the world feels like that. It's probably what you asked, the feeling of loving someone?" Kou obediently said He wanted to describe his feelings towards Chen Yi, but he always felt that words were lacking.

Xu Mi squinted at her and stretched her waist: "Anyway, I'll go home and sleep for a while, as for you, do what you can, I see that Chen is very repulsive to you, someday I don't love you anymore, my bed is still half empty for you."

The author has something to say:

Although it is a novel, I can't create too perfect characters, everyone has selfishness.