On the wedding show before the divorce

Chu Nian was also very smart when she was a child. Although she didn't seem to have an IQ that surpassed ordinary people, she was considered a leader among children.

The smarter you are, the more lonely you are.

In the untraceable sweet memories in her memory, her parents were very loving and busy at the same time. At that time, their home was not as big as it is now, and their parents were very tired when they came home every day. Sometimes, Mom didn't even move in bed.

At that time, Dad would change his clothes first, hug her and kiss her, and then drag his tired body to cook the soup.

After cooking the soup, she took a bite, mother took a bite, and father took a bite, and the family divided.

It tastes like chicken soup.

It was very fresh and tender, without too many seasonings, but it became the taste of home that Chu Nian could never recall.

At that time, no matter how tired my mother was, she would play and chat with her father at night. Both of them were surprised by her daughter's intelligence, and they were even happier, so they became more motivated.

Chu's father and Chu's mother are both smart people.

Smart people don't lack for hard work, and they work hard with their lives.

How can such a person fail.

Gradually, the family moved several times, and each time it was more spacious than the last time.

Chu Nian no longer has to stick to her small family, she can play football alone in the spacious living room.

But...she wasn't so happy anymore.

Mom and Dad began to quarrel, day after day. At first, Dad would comfort Mom a few words. Later, he would drink alone at night and leave in the middle of the night. He came home drunk the next morning. People also evolved from the initial quarrel to the later smashing of wine bottles.

Chu Nian was terrified. The little girl hid on the table, holding her head tightly with both hands.

Finally, in another quarrel, Chu's father threw the wine bottle on the ground viciously, and the splashed green fragments split Chu Nian's small body...

At that moment, amidst the cries of her parents, she was sent to the hospital.

There is a vast expanse of whiteness everywhere.

She was very scared and wanted her parents to hug her. At this time, her parents had calmed down, and Chu's mother wept silently while holding Chu Nian.

Father Chu stood at the door, smoking a cigarette and looking out the window.

Chu Nian is too young, she doesn't know what that means.

later later...

After entangled with each other for a long time, they finally separated.

On the day of leaving, Chu Nian hugged her mother's leg and cried and refused to let go. With tears on Chu's mother's face, she bent down and hugged her daughter and kissed her forehead: "Nian Nian, mother is not stable right now, I can't... take you Let's go, you follow your dad first, huh?"

Follow Dad...

Chu Nian desperately shook her head, she was crying heartbreakingly, but who would listen to a child crying?

No more, the warm home that used to be there is no more.

Father Chu remained silent all the time. He brought Chu Nian home. Half a month later, a tall and cold woman came to the house. She folded her arms and looked at Chu Nian indifferently.

Father Chu touched Chu Nian: "Call me Auntie."

Chu Nian didn't cry, she looked at the woman with hatred in her eyes.

The woman raised her eyebrows and smiled coldly.

At first, as long as Chu's father was around, she wouldn't do anything to Chu Nian.

But as soon as Chu's father leaves, she will look at Chu Nian and sneer: "It's exactly the same as your mother, what do you think I'm doing? Heh, I'll dig out your eyeballs."

Chu Nian was very frightened, she hugged the doll and huddled under the bench, not daring to come out.

When Father Chu came home at night, he saw Chu Nian trembling. He frowned, walked over and carried his daughter out, and kissed Chu Nian: "Nian Nian, did she say you?"

Little Chu Nian nodded subconsciously.

quarrel.

A nod brings endless quarrels.

Papa Chu roared, and the woman screamed sharply.

The night was spent in Chu Nian's trembling fear and anxiety.

Dad went to work the next day.

Chu Nian was beaten for the first time in his life.

That hit hard on the buttocks and twisted on the legs, it wasn't the gentle scaring that Chu's mother used to do, it was a real pain.

But she didn't cry, she still looked at the woman with the same hatred.

The woman was enraged, the more Chu Nian was like this, the more she tortured her.

Afraid of scars on her body, she would starve her, punish her physically, and all kinds of cruelty...

In the evening, Chu's father went home to ask Chu Nian again, but the little Chu Nian bit his lip tightly and said nothing.

She has gradually understood.

This home, this place, does not allow her to speak.

Another round of quarrels.

That day, there was lightning and thunder, the two of them finished their quarrel, Chu's father left, the woman said to Chu Nian: "You are a lowly bastard, all members of your Chu family are shameless, cold-blooded, and unworthy of feelings. Having an affair and making broken shoes outside, do you really think I like him? I like him a ****"

Dad's time at home is getting shorter and shorter.

For Chu Nian, it was simply a nightmare.

Day after day of physical torture, the little girl's endurance reached its limit.

Later... Chu Nian fell ill, she had a fever, her whole body was burning hot, and she cried and called her mother because of the fever.

When Chu's mother came, her eyes were full of tears, and she held her daughter's hand vigorously. In a haze, Chu Nian heard the doctor say.

——The child's foundation is too bad, her heart is not very good, she can't go on like this, and there are injuries all over her body, we have already called the police...

In the end, she was brought home by her mother.

But Chu's mother has been very busy, she is busy with her career, busy with being strong, she wants to find an aunt and nanny to accompany Chu Nian, but Chu Nian seems to have a psychological shadow, she is very afraid of strangers, especially such a tall and cold woman , she shook her head and refused.

When she was sleeping at night, Chu Ma wanted to accompany her, but Chu Nian shook her head. She just begged her to turn on a light.

The next morning, when Chu's mother got up, she saw her daughter holding a small lamp in her hand, her body curled up into a ball, and she only occupied a corner of a big bed.

Chu Ma found out that something was wrong with Chu Nian.

She is terrified of strangers.

She doesn't like to talk, as if she is autistic.

At that time, Chu's mother had just entered Yifeng, and it was rare that Ruan Qiu liked her ability and didn't mind her family, even whenever she had something to do, she would let her deal with it on vacation.

When signing in the evening, Ruan Qiu looked at the thick dark circles under the eyes of Chu's mother and chatted with her. Knowing about the child, she was very serious: "Why don't you bring her here, the child is still young, and there are many things. It can still be changed, but it would be better if it was bigger.”

Chu's mother shook her head. She attached great importance to this job, and it was the only thing that the mother and daughter could rely on in the future.

Ruan Qiu smiled: "It's okay, bring it here, it's just a holiday, my daughter also runs there every day, she is a fine person, and the two will become friends."

When Chu Ma took Chu Nian there for the first time, Chu Nian was terrified. Everyone in this building looked at her curiously and pinched her little face when they came over.

She shivered, she was restless.

But no one saw it.

Chu Ma was very busy when she started working, she told Chu Nian not to run around.

Chu Nian desperately wanted to escape, she was just a child, where could she go, she finally ran to the warehouse.

When Chu's mother got off work, she searched around and found her in the warehouse. She was helpless and distressed: "What are you doing there?!"

Chu Nian hid in a closet, her little hands were still holding her head habitually, her body curled up into a ball, she looked at her mother in fear, the light was dim, and her big eyes were full of anxiety.

Chu Ma didn't say anything, and took Chu Nian home. After cooking her favorite meal at night, Chu Ma went back to the room and cried alone with her head covered.

Later, no matter what Chu's mother said, Chu Nian just didn't listen, she ran to the warehouse every day, as if that was her Anle's home, her port of refuge.

I huddled inside alone from morning till night, not knowing what I was doing.

On the day I saw Ruan Youran, it was raining lightly, and then the rain became heavier, sometimes mixed with lightning and strong wind.

Chu Nian was terrified, she remembered that it was such a rainy day when the splashed glass shards cut her hand.

She huddled in the closet and wept silently.

After an unknown amount of time, the door was pulled open with a "creak".

Because the closet was ajar, so the gap was revealed, and she saw what seemed to be a small figure walking in.

Chu Nian was very scared, she quickly closed the closet door.

Even if it was hard to breathe, she didn't dare to open it.

She heard a soft, milky voice coming from her.

"Is this so useful?"

"Wow, I'm so beautiful!"

……

Xiao Youran stole the limited-edition lipstick from her mother, and she painted it in front of the mirror of the closet, giving herself a particularly beautiful flaming red lip.

After painting, she admired herself very boringly for a while, and felt bored again, and changed to another purple one to continue, but she had to find something to wipe off her mouth, and she didn't bring a tissue, so she wanted to open the closet.

Unexpectedly, she did not pull away after such a pull.

Xiao Youran was stunned, she has been here before and opened the closet, why can't she call today?

She pulled it several times but failed to pull it away. Xiao Youran got angry, rolled up her sleeves, and shouted: "Popeye transforms!" With all her strength, she pulled the closet open all at once, But I fell a butt because of too much force.

"Oh my mother!"

Xiao Youran rubbed her butt in pain, when she stood up frowning, she unexpectedly saw Xiao Niannian who was huddled up and crying with her head in her arms.

At that time, Chu Nian was not like the cold and cold goddess she is now. She was wearing a small white dress, she was thinner than ordinary children, and her big eyes were full of tears.

Xiao Youran stared at her in shock.

Xiao Niannian saw her from the corner of her eye, saw those lips, her body trembled, and she cried even harder.

Is this a ghost?

Xiao Youran was stunned, and she quickly wiped her lips with the clothes next to her: "You... who are you? You are so beautiful."

who are you?

Who would have thought that this sentence would become a lifetime bondage.

Because Xiao Niannian refused to come out about this matter, Xiao Youran worried a lot.

She yelled at the side for a long time, but there was no way, she went back and asked Ruan Qiu to bring her a lollipop.

Jianjian was a little baby fat when she was a child, and the little dress would get stuck on her belly, so Ruan Qiu and Chu Qing had strict requirements on her diet, and didn't give her any more snacks.

Today, Jianjian is like a big meat shield, lying in Ruan Qiu's office: "No, no, Mommy, I want sugar, I want sugar."

Ruan Qiu: ...

Being so troubled, she gave the lollipop to the kid.

The little boy took the candy and laughed, she couldn't wait to run to the closet, opened the closet, and then she licked the lollipop in front of Xiao Niannian.

Little Chu Nian: ...

What is this thing?

Although Chu Nian swallowed her saliva imperceptibly, she still didn't go out.

Xiao Youran ran there every day, and ran too many times. She didn't play with other children in the building. Even Ruan Qiu became interested. She followed her secretly a few times. After returning, Ruan Qiu couldn't help asking Xiao Youran: "Do you like the little friend in the closet so much? Is she better than other friends?"

Xiao Youran was a little embarrassed, "She is so beautiful, she looks so good when she cries, and she looks even better when she smiles."

It will look better if you smile...

What do little children know.

But an unintentional sentence became the thing she was most willing to do in her life.

Ruan Youran's memory of her childhood is very vague, but she vaguely remembers that it was one afternoon when she tentatively stretched out her little hand again, "Come on, come out to play, I'll take you with me."

The weather was still bad that day.

Every time there was thunder, Xiao Chu Nian would tremble.

When her small hand was slowly placed on Xiao Youran's, Ruan Youran smiled, showing her gaping teeth, and grabbed Chu Nian's hand with sweaty little hands: "I grabbed Chu Nian's hand." Oh, if you catch it and don't let it go, we will be good friends."

We are good friends...

The word friend is unfamiliar to Chu Nian.

Because she doesn't like to talk and is almost withdrawn, she doesn't have many friends.

Many times, she would step on the sofa at home and look out, watching the children gather together, watching them play eagles to catch chickens, throw sandbags, and see everyone laughing happily, and she would smile unconsciously.

At that time, she didn't know what loneliness was, and she didn't think that she would be lonely like this.

But from the moment she met Ruan Youran, she knew what loneliness was.

I'm used to it.

I am used to going to the company every day, someone will hold her hand sweetly, look into her eyes and call Niannian.

got used to.

I am used to crying secretly every time, that fat soft little hand will stick to her face, wipe away the tears on her face, and tell her not to be afraid, not to cry.

got used to……

Her world is no longer alone.

Mother Chu naturally felt the change in her daughter, she was very happy but also a little sad.

After the divorce, although she didn't say it, she felt inferior in her heart.

On the one hand, she felt that the two children played well, on the other hand, she felt that the two families were too far apart, and she was afraid that Ruan Qiu would mind that the two children walked so close.

Sometimes, low self-esteem comes from oneself and has nothing to do with others.

Ruan Qiu also likes Chu Nian's little girl carved in pink and jade. She is very shy and will hide behind her daughter when she meets adults.

What does it matter?

Her eyes had a sadness different from her age.

Ruan Qiu unconsciously thought of when she and Chu Qing were young.

Look at my daughter again, she knows how to eat and eat every day, she almost wants to eat meatloaf, and she smirks heartlessly all day long.

When she was a child, Ruan Youran didn't have any troubles. She was stuck with Xiao Chu Nian almost every day. Afterwards, the two went to the same kindergarten and the same elementary school. Oh, by the way, except for summer and winter vacations, she would Go to my sister's house in the country to stay for a while.

Not long, more than a month.

At that time, Xiao Chu Nian would be very silent. As soon as Ruan Youran left, she seemed to return to her previous self. Although under Youran's introduction, she met many friends like Shuangshuang, but she also It's only when You Ran is around, she's friends with everyone, if she's not around...

She was still alone.

She still gets scared when she goes to bed at night.

Every morning when she wakes up, she will sit at the door with a book in her hand and look into the distance.

That direction is probably the direction of leisurely.

At the end of each vacation, Youran would tan herself to a chocolate color, and then bring back many toys from the countryside to share with Chu Nian.

Chu Nian didn't say much, just looked at Ruan Youran like that.

After going to elementary school, You Ran already had her later demeanor. At that time, she was in the middle of the crowd, loved and cared for by everyone. She was very beautiful, and she was different from the unknown Chu Nian.

Fortunately, no matter how many people surrounded her, she would always look at Chu Nian first.

Youth is always the best time.

I can't remember if it was my second or third year.

At that time, Chu Nian had already become a great beauty, and there were countless peach blossoms around her, of course, compared to Ruan Youran, there were still fewer.

It's not that there are few people who admire, but that there are very few people who dare to speak.

At that time, Ruan Youran was domineering, just when she was young and frivolous, her temper was not very good, and she didn't tell her friends, but she was also a good hand when it came to making trouble.

During class time in the afternoon, her place was empty.

The head teacher saw it after he came in, and he frowned, not daring to say anything.

Chu Nian is the representative of the Chinese class. When she reads the text, her voice is very pleasant and the tone is full. At that time, she didn't know what acting is, but she just felt that there were many times when she could blend into the artistic conception.

But that day, she was obviously absent-minded in reading, and even started to stutter later. The teacher felt it, took a look at her, and motioned her to sit down.

This phenomenon continued until Ruan Youran came back.

Ruan Youran opened her bosom, her right leg of trousers didn't fit well, and she was pushed up for a while, she had candy in her mouth, and the corners of her eyes and mouth were covered with bruises.

In the self-study class, the two of them just walked in like no one else was there.

Xiao Chen, the follower next to her, had her ponytail in a mess, and said while she was doing it, "Damn it, I thought I was great just because I was in high school, and I was beaten and begged for mercy."

Ruan Youran laughed, she walked up to Chu Nian and sat down directly.

Chu Nian had seen her a long time ago and...the bruise on her face, she lowered her head and wrote without moving, but the hand holding the pen was tight.

Ruan Youran took a sip of the candy, and hooked her stool leg a little naughtily: "Hey, why are you ignoring me?"

Chu Nian didn't move.

Ruan Youran was overjoyed, she approached Chu Nian, a sweet smell of sugar and a familiar smell rushed over instantly, Chu Nian's heart beat faster.

Ruan Youran put her face on the table and looked at her with a smile: "It hurts so much."

A few people behind followed suit.

Xiao Chen laughed: "Sister Nian, what's the matter with you, our boss didn't say it hurt when we fought with others, but now you hurt him instead, you should take it easy."

Chu Nian blushed, she looked at Ruan Youran, and wanted to push her head away, but when she touched her face, she gritted her teeth in pain.

Chu Nian's hand was taken back as if it had been burned, and Ruan Youran was satisfied. Now, she put the chair together and laid Chu Nian's legs on it as a pillow, and soon fell asleep.

Chu Nian looked down at her for a long time without speaking. On the draft paper in front of her, next to the neat handwriting, were all Ruan Youran's names.

She stared like this for a long time, until Xiao Chen who was behind said in a low voice: "Sister Nian, our boss really didn't go out to cause trouble this time, do you remember the girl in high school who scolded you as a bitch last time? She went to fix it today By the way, tell those people before, whoever dares to bully you try again!"