On the wedding show before the divorce

From childhood to adulthood, from vague feelings to loving each other and then to separation later.

Ruan Youran has never heard Chu Nian say that she loves her like this.

Many times in the past, Ruan Youran would tease Chu Nian with a smile and say to her: "I love you." Then, when she saw Chu Nian leaning on her shoulder with a blushing face, she would also ask: "What about you?" Chu Nian pursed her lips and smiled: "Me too."

what?

No matter how teasing she is, she won't say it.

Even on the bed, when Chu Nian was out of control, she asked her such words, no matter how uncomfortable she was, she was too embarrassed to say her love.

Now, she said it, but it was filled with tears.

Ruan Youran hugged her and kept kissing her forehead: "Okay, okay..."

The past is gone.

The past cannot be traced.

The time ahead is so short.

She also wanted to be cruel, but she couldn't be cruel after all.

Chu Nian huddled in Ruan Youran's arms, shaking from crying, she tightly grabbed Ruan Youran's clothes.

From small to large.

Many people appeared in her life.

She thought it would be forever.

But then left in a hurry...

Now, she only has Ruan Youran, and she is the only one who can give her such a warm embrace and soft kiss after she has done many wrong things and hurt her again and again.

Chu Nian was too tired from crying, and her body and mind were also exhausted for too long. In the middle of the night, she fell into a deep sleep.

Ruan Youran guarded her and turned on a small night light. She stared at Chu Nian for a long time, then lowered her head and kissed her forehead, and then shifted her gaze to the medicine cabinet next to her.

Big and small pill boxes were filled with English and other languages ​​that Ruan Youran couldn't understand, but she read them carefully.

She heard what Chu Qing said.

Even after the operation is successful, Chu Nian still needs to take medicine for life.

She remembered that when the two first met, Chu Nian was still so young, she was hiding in the cabinet with her fair face and chubby face, crying silently.

In the blink of an eye, that little girl turned into a mature woman.

But, she was still crying.

night.

Ruan Youran lit a cigarette by herself, she drank a can of beer, thought about the past, those three years, the first hug, the first kiss, the first time they went to bed, the first quarrel, the first fight Breakups...many firsts.

Her life has long been filled by Chu Nian.

Therefore, she could not accept such a separation for the first time.

sleepless nights.

The next day, Ruan Youran was still running around in various hospitals. This time, she had a clear goal to find the source of her heart.

Three months are counting down, and there are less than two and a half months left.

She doesn't want this to be like a big rock on her body every day, she wants Chu Nian to live.

Heart source is not an easy thing to find. The most basic thing for a heart transplant is blood type matching. In fact, when Zhengzheng was one year old, Chu Nian had the possibility of a transplant, but at that time her body and Zhengzheng were both in a state of depression. When it is extremely weak, it is not suitable, and this delay is two years.

Now she can't delay for another two years.

It has to be faster.

Sometimes Ruan Youran even wanted to dig out her heart and press it on her.

As long as there is love, there will be miracles.

No matter how busy she is, Ruan Youran will not treat Chu Nian as indifferently as before. When she goes out every day, she will tell her the itinerary and where she is going. Youran refused to listen, so that later, the guards and security guards of several large hospitals laughed when they saw Ruan Youran coming: "Are you here again?"

Apart from going to the hospital, Ruan Youran was almost blind. She read many home remedies to nourish the heart on the Internet. She even went to the doctor when she was sick and found some evil home remedies.

Early in the morning.

Chu Nian looked at Ruan Youran in embarrassment, "What is this?"

Ruan Youran held a bowl of water in her hand, and she looked at Chu Nian seriously: "I went to see the master and recited the mantra, you will feel better after drinking it."

Chu Nian: ...

Ruan Youran used to disdain this kind of behavior the most, but now for her lover, she knows she is stupid and does it.

Even if it is a glimmer of hope, a glimmer of fantasy, she doesn't want to lose it.

Chu Nian knew her heart, she took it, raised her head and drank it down.

Adults are busy.

Chu Nian still used all her connections to find her mother, but she really disappeared as neatly as she said after saying goodbye, without any clues.

In addition to adults, children's things are also.

Zhengzheng is almost three years old, and she is about to go to kindergarten. Although she has a much more cheerful personality after having Ruan Youran, she still doesn't want to get in touch with outsiders.

Chu Nian was a little hesitant, she was thinking whether to let Zhengzheng go to that special kind of kindergarten, Ruan Youran immediately vetoed, "No, Zhengzheng is good, why should she go to a special kind of kindergarten, the more she is like this, the more she will be out of gregarious. "

Ruan Youran has become extremely strong in the past three years.

Chu Nian didn't say anything, she looked down at Zheng Zhi who was holding the toy, and stroked her hair.

Zheng Zheng was really scared. She didn't want to leave her two mothers, and she didn't want to go to kindergarten. She just wanted to be at home, so that she couldn't sleep that night.

Kindergarten requires an interview.

In the early morning of the next day, Ruan Youran and Chu Nian went to the interview with integrity. The two of them had a solid mind, and with integrity and IQ, she understood even asking adult questions, let alone simple questions.

But here lies the problem.

The interview teacher was an elderly lady, she held a card with a kind face and smiled and asked Zheng Zhi: "My little friend, what do you see on it?"

Looking straight up, it was her favorite dog team. She thought about it and asked, "Is it a cat?"

Ruan Youran: ...

Chu Nian: ...

The teacher was stunned. In fact, when Zhengzheng first came in, she was quite optimistic. This little guy is different from others. As soon as he enters the room, he knows how to quickly scan the whole room with his eyes and observe the people in the room. When he saw the camera on the wall, he sipped his cherry mouth.

The interview teacher was silent for a while, and she asked, "What's your mother's name?"

Zheng Zhi smiled: "Bitch."

Ruan Youran: ...

There was no more silence, and the interviewer asked again: "What do you do every day when you wake up?"

Tilting his head straight, he thought seriously: "I want my mother to hug me."

………………

Outside the transparent window, the two old mothers, Sparta, who were watching all this, did not expect that their daughter would have the talent of being an actress at such a young age. Thinking about things and acting like an idiot is so vivid.

It's been a long time.

The interview teacher came out of the room, she looked at Ruan Qiu and smiled: "Mother, I think your children may not be ready yet, why don't you look at other families?"

Depend on.

What kind of shit, mother.

Looking at other homes?

This is the kindergarten they Yifeng opened, Ruan Qiu raised his eyebrows: "Aunt Song, don't come here, you have to accept it, or you can accept it if you don't."

Aunt Song looked at her with a smile: "No."

Ruan Qiu: ...

This kid has a great rebellious mentality.

She has been a teacher for so many years and it's not impossible to see it.

During the stalemate, next to them, a pair of parents pulled a little girl with ponytails, black eyes, white skin and snow-white skin.

There is no harm without comparison.

The little girl answered clearly as soon as she entered: "Hello teachers, my name is Su Xiaoyu. I was born in Xiaoxiaoyu. I am very smart. The not-so-handsome man outside the door is my father, and the one next to me is smiling like a trumpet flower. It seems to be my mother, I want to go to Yifeng Kindergarten, because I am good-looking, pretty, sharp-mouthed and smart."

After finishing speaking, the little girl turned her head to look at Zhengzhi.

Zhengzhi looked at her with the eyes of an idiot.

The little girl has been quite arrogant since she was a child, "You look pretty, what's your name?"

Zheng Zhi shook his head and walked out.

She really felt that she didn't have a common language with these poor kids, and it was better to read books to communicate with them.

When Ruan Youran saw this scene, her complexion was not good, she pulled Zheng Zhi: "Stop."

She is very afraid, if she grows upright like this, she will be like Chu Nian when she grows up, silently swallowing all the bitterness and bitterness in her stomach, without letting anyone know.

Upright immediately stopped moving.

Ruan Youran came over and looked at her seriously: "What did you promise Mommy yesterday? Why didn't you answer the interview teacher well?"

Zheng Zhi had never been so fierce by Ruan Youran before, she was stunned, lowered her head and her eyes were red.

Chu Nian walked over and sighed.

Ruan Youran was a little soft-hearted, and she took another deep breath: "I still have to come for an interview tomorrow!"

A loving mother loses many children.

She can't let integrity just shrink into her shell and not face the society.

The mother and daughter just broke up and went home.

Even when he returned home, he kept his grudges upright, ignoring Ruan Youran when eating, ignoring Ruan Youran when he was building toys, and not wanting her to kiss her when sleeping.

Ruan Youran found it funny and angry, a little child with such a strong heart?

No one expected that in the middle of the night, Zhengzhi would suddenly have a fever.

And when the fever reached 39 degrees, when she was carried to the hospital, Chu Qing followed her, and she was anxious: "What's going on, why did you suddenly have a fever? Why don't you make a video call with me in the morning?"

Chu Nianran didn't speak, she looked inside nervously, Ruan Youran felt a little regretful, "Maybe the pressure is a bit high."

high pressure……

Chu Qing was speechless, how old is the child, what pressure is there?

The doctor prescribed antipyretics, and smiled at the tense faces of the adults: "It's okay, it's just a common cold and fever, did you have a blow recently?"

Chu Nian remembered that the last time she was flying a kite, she was blown by the wind. At that time, she deliberately wore more clothes for Zhengzheng, but unexpectedly she caught a cold.

Chu Qing is getting old, so she is not at ease about these things, so she should just sleep in the hospital and observe to see if the fever subsides before leaving.

Looking at the little upright lying on the hospital bed with her eyes closed in pain, Ruan Youran felt extremely guilty. She sat on the edge of the bed, held her little hand by her mouth and kissed it gently, her eyes were red.

Seeing this scene, Chu Nian walked over, "It's okay."

Ruan Youran's voice was choked with sobs: "Did she often do this in these years?"

Chu Nian was startled, she wanted to be silent, but seeing Ruan Youran's tears, she nodded, "Yeah."

it's all good now.

In the past two years, once she had a fever, it was no joke, it was life-threatening.

Many times, Chu Nian was anxious and anxious. She hugged Zheng Zheng's hot body and endured it night after night.

And when the child had a cold and fever, he was very clingy to his mother. Doctor Lilo and the nanny wanted to hug her instead, but she didn't agree with anything, so she cried and leaned on Chu Nian.

To Chu Nian, a small cold like this today is quite common.

Ruan Youran was not. It was her first time experiencing it. Looking at the honest and uncomfortable look, she wished that it was herself who had a cold and a fever.

She is so sorry.

The child is still young, so don't go if you don't want to go, why is she so persistent.

Zhengzheng woke up in the middle of the night, she was awakened by thirst, "Mommy, drink water..."

Ruan Youran hurriedly gave her the water, and took a few sips of "gudong", "gudong", her burning little eyes turned listlessly: "where's mom?"

She is still used to seeing Chu Nian when she wakes up.

Ruan Youran's eyes were red, she touched Zhengzheng's forehead, and the fever subsided a little, "Mom is not in good health, and Mommy told her to go back to sleep."

"kindness……"

Zheng Zheng responded softly, Ruan Youran looked sad, she kissed Zheng Zheng's cheek: "Okay, don't feel bad anymore, Mommy won't force you to do things you don't like to do in the future."

Zheng Zheng shrunk into a small ball, and when she endured it, she looked exactly like Chu Nian.

After a long time.

Ruan Youran thought that when she fell asleep, she whispered honestly, "Mommy."

"Ok?"

Ruan Youran looked at her, honestly and pitifully: "It's not that I don't want to go to kindergarten."

what is that?

Ruan Youran stared patiently into her eyes.

Zheng Zheng hesitated for a moment, and she whispered: "I want to look at my mother, she is not in good health, I'm afraid..."

she is afraid...

She was afraid that when she came back from kindergarten, she would never see her mother again.

Ruan Youran looked at Zhengzheng, and felt that something had hit her head hard. Her tears fell, and she could no longer hold back the rush of emotion in her heart. She hugged Zhengzhi hard.

The adults are busy with each other's business.

Nobody cares about honesty of mind.

That little child, from birth, has been accompanied by the fear that his mother may leave at any time.

She is uneasy, she is afraid, but she tries to smile and love her two mothers.

Is the child still like this?

Where's the lord?

Living in this world, perhaps because she lived for too long and was polluted by various external factors, Ruan Youran felt that her heart was not as transparent as a child's.

When Ruan Youran returned home with integrity, Chu Nian woke up suddenly. She was driven back and wanted to go to sleep, but how could she fall asleep.

Ruan Youran looked at Chu Nian: "Why did you come out without putting on a piece of clothing?"

Chu Nian froze for a moment, she didn't think too much.

Ruan Youran washed Zhengzhi's face and fed him formula milk. She carried Zhengzhi to Chu Nian's room.

Chu Nian followed behind, Zhengzheng was so excited that he couldn't even care about his low fever, "Mommy, can Zhengzheng sleep with Mommy today?"

During this time, Ruan Youran asked Zheng Zhi to sleep with her because she was concerned about Chu Nian's body. If she came back late, she would sleep alone.

What Chu Nian needs most is sleep.

Zhengzheng still needs to take a pee at night, and sometimes milk, she is afraid of disturbing her.

Ruan Youran didn't answer Zhengzheng's words, she stuffed Zhengzhi into Chu Nian's bed, and Chu Nian also thought that the child was not feeling well, and she would feel relieved to sleep with her at night, so she also got into the bed.

everything's ready.

When they looked up and thought of Ruan Youran saying good night, Ruan Youran came over with a set of pajamas. She washed her face, took off her coat, put on her pajamas and got under the covers.

Chu Nian looked at Ruan Youran in surprise, while Zheng Zhi grinned happily.

Ruan Youran wrapped her arms around her body, hugging Chu Nian and Zheng Zhi, "Go to sleep, I'll watch you two."

For a time, one bed, a family of three.

The long-lost warmth tightly connected the three wounded hearts together.

The author has something to say: This chapter is really sweet.