On the wedding show before the divorce

Ruan Youran exerted strength in her hands, and Chu Nian was suddenly used to being so used to the wall. She was a little flustered in astonishment, and when she raised her head again, she met Ruan Youran's red eyes, and her hand was still on Chu Nian's collarbone. , looked at her and almost gritted her teeth: "Say, you are wrong!"

The vicious voice brought down tears.

Chu Nian saw that her shirt was not the one she was wearing when she left. She felt cold and wanted to struggle, but she was stunned when she saw the tears. After a while, she said softly, "I was wrong."

This was what Ruan Youran asked her to say, and it was what she had said thousands of times in her heart but never dared to say.

Ruan Youran resisted her forcefully and refused to move: "Say you will never leave again!"

Chu Nian looked into her eyes, and a line of tears rolled down her cheeks: "I... will never leave again."

Ruan Youran took a deep breath, stretched out her hand, and pulled Chu Nian into her arms, hugging her tightly.

too long.

It's been too long, she hasn't hugged Chu Nian like this, exhausting all her strength, as if she wanted to embed her into her soul.

Chu Nian huddled in Ruan Youran's arms, and the sad, painful and sad heart that had been hanging all this time finally fell to the ground. She let Ruan Youran hold her strongly. Although it hurt a little, her heart was sour and sweet.

Accompanied by light rain.

Ruan Youran fell into a deep sleep.

Her physical foundation was originally very good, but she couldn't stand up to the squandering of the past three years.

Now, she was drenched in the rain, and she was so busy all day, her heart and body were both hollowed out, and in the middle of the night, she started to have a low fever.

Chu Nian stayed by the bed the whole time, taking Ruan Youran's temperature from time to time and feeding her medicine.

Zheng Zhi originally wanted to stay with Mommy, but Chu Nian was afraid that she would be infected, so she was strictly prohibited from entering the house.

She could only look at Mommy from a distance: "Mom, Mommy is in pain."

She looked at Ruan Youran, even when she was asleep, she kept crying, flowing down the corners of her eyes, and she couldn't wipe it away.

Chu Nian felt uncomfortable. She knew that Ruan Youran must have known something. It was because of herself that could make her suffer so much...

When it was burning in a daze.

Ruan Youran had a dream, she dreamed that Chu Nian was wearing a white dress, looking at her with a smile like she did when she fell in love with the bookstore.

She picked a small yellow flower and put it in her ear.

The two are holding hands, their long hair fluttering in the wind, the picture is extremely beautiful.

But in the next second...

Chu Nian left suddenly, and the dream seemed to be divided. She was lying on the cold bed alone, pale and motionless.

Ruan Youran looked at herself right outside the door, crying heartbreakingly, and in the end, it started to rain.

Standing in front of a black tombstone, she murmured: "Ma'am, I'm here to see you..."

"No!...Chu Nian...Nian Nian..."

Ruan Youran's body was burning hot. At night, there was no other way, and Chu Qing also came over. She gave Ruan Youran an infusion, and sighed softly: "If this child continues to punish himself endlessly, even if his body is made of iron... I can't stand it."

Ruan Qiu was silent at the side, and Chu Nian also bit his lip, not saying a word.

Ruan Youran woke up at noon the next day. When she woke up, she smelled the smell of preserved egg and lean meat porridge. In the past, when she had a cold and a fever, she liked to eat the porridge made by Chu Nian.

She subconsciously looked down, but instead of seeing Zheng Zheng, she saw Chu Nian sleeping beside her bed.

It's been three years...

Even if they meet again, it will be filled with hatred mixed with infinite anger.

Ruan Youran hasn't had a good look at Chu Nian for a long time.

She is thin.

People are very emaciated.

The face is not as radiant as before, the skin is pale, and the lips are not the normal lip color.

Ruan Youran watched as tears streamed down her face. She lifted the quilt and wanted to get up, but Chu Nian took a step ahead of her, "Are you awake?"

Her voice was still a little fuzzy, Ruan Youran nodded, she didn't look at Chu Nian, but got out of bed by herself, went straight to the table, picked up the bowl of porridge that had been cold, and went to it quietly. Swallow.

Chu Nian watched from the side, his lips moved a little, he wanted to speak, but he didn't know how to speak.

"go to sleep."

Although Ruan Youran's voice was soft, it carried an irresistible force, and Chu Nian looked at her, "Are... are you feeling better?"

Ruan Youran nodded, still eating porridge, not looking at her: "Go to bed, sleep until you wake up naturally, I will cook for Zheng Zheng in the morning."

Although she still doesn't look at herself.

But the attitude has obviously eased.

Chu Nian's heart relaxed a bit, she dragged her tired body slowly towards the bedroom, the moment she was really lying on the big bed, she realized how tired she was.

The next morning, when Chu Nian woke up, he heard the conversation between Zheng Zhi and Ruan Youran in the living room.

Ruan Youran flipped through Zhengzheng's various children's books and picture books, "Tell me what's in your little head? Did you learn it all here?"

Last night, she really saw the scene where Zheng Zhi covered his eyes with his hands.

Is this something a three-year-old should do?

Proud of being upright, she pointed to her little dick with her finger: "Mommy, my mother gave me an IQ test, and I'm a genius."

Ruan Youran was speechless for a while, "You are pulling and combing crookedly, come here."

"kindness!"

Zheng Zheng walked over to Mommy happily on his little radish legs, and sat on her lap.

Ruan Youran wanted to laugh, "You are quite good at acting like a baby."

Zheng Zhi was a little embarrassed, Ruan Youran stroked her hair, it was a little yellow and soft, she was thinking about what to do to add some nutrition to the child.

While Ruan Youran was pinching Zheng Zheng, Zheng Zheng was humming a ditty.

As the sun fell, Chu Nian's heart was warmed by this scene.

"mom!"

Zhengzhi saw Chu Nian and stood up all of a sudden, she rushed forward and hugged her: "Are you awake?"

She thought her mother was sick again.

When I woke up in the morning, I would pace back and forth at the door.

Ruan Youran explained to her several times, but Zheng Zheng didn't listen, it was only later that he took her little hand and led her in, and Zheng Zheng felt a little relieved.

Chu Nian bent down, hugged Zhengzhi, kissed her soft face, and looked at Ruan Youran.

Ruan Youran didn't look at her, and said lightly, "Let's eat."

this breakfast...

Looking upright, she was stunned, all kinds of soups, soups, and a lot of strange foods that she had never seen before.

Chu Nian was also a little taken aback.

Ruan Youran almost bought all the things she found on the Internet that were good for the heart, such as pork liver, lungs... and violets... She made them all in different ways.

Chu Nian pursed her lips, Ruan Youran set her eyes on her for the first time, "Eat."

Chu Nian: ...

Sometimes, the strength of a lover is also very deterrent.

Chu Nian really drank the sea cucumber soup silently, Zheng Zheng was about to take a sip, when Ruan Youran handed her a tortilla: "Don't eat that, you will get angry."

Chu Nian: ...

Zhengzhi said "oh", and obediently took the tortilla, her small dark eyes rolled around and looked at Ruan Youran.

Ruan Youran frowned imperceptibly, she put down her chopsticks, looked at Zhengzhi: "Zhengzhi, what do you want to do, you have to tell Mommy? Don't hide it in your heart, otherwise Mommy won't know, It’s exhausting to guess.”

This was for Zheng Zhi to listen to, and Chu Nian who was drinking soup was silent for a while.

Zhengzheng is a little timid: "The weather is fine today, I saw a rainbow, Mommy, can I... go out and fly a kite? The little rabbit in my book has a good weather, and my mother will accompany her to fly a kite."

She rarely goes outdoors.

Therefore, I have never flown a kite.

Ruan Youran felt sad, she nodded, and kissed the honest face forcefully: "Okay, Mommy will accompany you."

yeah!

With Mommy's consent, Zhengzheng felt extremely satisfied. In the past, at home, there were doctors and aunts who took care of her. But Chu Nian was very principled, and as long as he said a word, no one would dare to soften his heart.

But now it's different, Zheng Zheng can see that the position of head of the family has been transferred to Mommy, she just needs to pretend to be pitiful to Mommy.

Ruan Youran originally wanted to buy a kite made by Peggy the Pig for Zhengzheng, but Zhengzheng disliked it being too naive, so she insisted on letting her two mothers make kites for her, and wanted a different one.

Ruan Youran had no choice but to check the tutorials on the Internet and read them bit by bit.

What, why is it so complicated? ? ?What fixed point, what twist three times? ? ?

Chu Nian watched silently from the side, and waved at her straightly: "Mom, come here, I'm going to make a kite for our family of three."

Chu Nian glanced at Ruan Youran, Ruan Youran swiped the phone and did not speak.

Chu Nian walked over, she was ingenious since she was a child, and Ruan Youran had been proud of this for a long time.When she was a child, Ruan Youran relied on Chu Nian for the handicraft class. She basically didn't do all kinds of coquetry and rolling by herself. At that time, she was very good at sewing a small clothes and making a toy pony carriage.

In fact, regardless of Grandma Ruan's complaints, Chu Nian's honest IQ really followed Chu Nian's.

Chu Nian was also looking at the tutorial on her mobile phone. She only read it once before moving her hands.

Ruan Youran pursed her lips, looking at the busy mother and daughter over there, sitting there in embarrassment.

In this way... it seems that she is not very smart.

Zhengzhi cooperated very well with Chu Nian. As soon as Chu Nian got busy, no matter what she was busy with, she would quickly get into the mood. She lay down on the ground and drew a picture of a family of three. festival, scrape your hand."

"Oh."

Zhengzhi nodded: "Mom, let me get you a paintbrush."

Ruan Youran looked at the busy one big and one small, and for some reason, her eyes were red again.

The mother and daughter have always cooperated very tacitly, but there was a dispute during the drawing of the clothes, and Zheng Zheng muttered: "The white shirt that Mommy wore yesterday is very beautiful, I want to draw the white shirt on it."

Chu Nian's hands froze for a moment, she ignored integrity and directly drew a pink dress for Ruan Youran.

Zheng Zheng was a little anxious, "Mom, if you don't draw skirts, the skirts will disappear when they fly."

Chu Nian usually loves the upright, so naturally she doesn't have the same knowledge as her in such trivial matters, but today, she seemed to be angry, and ignored the uprightness, and directly passed the white shirt she said.

Ruan Qiu didn't know where she got the news. She knew that her granddaughter was going to fly a kite, so she dragged Chu Qing to make a quick one at home and came here.

"Oh, my precious granddaughter, do you miss grandma?"

As soon as Ruan Qiu came in, he showed off the kite in his hand: "Look what grandma did for you?"

Looking straight, she was frightened, and she hid in Ruan Youran's arms at once.

Ruan Youran looked at the kite in Ruan Qiu's hand: "Mom, what are you doing, bring a bear?"

"Ah?!" Ruan Qiu became impatient, "Open your eyes and take a good look, am I a bear??? I am obviously Batman!"

What Batman.

Zheng Zheng looked very scared, felt like a pitch-black mass, and his eyes were still red.

Chu Qing was a little helpless, she patted Ruan Qiu's head: "You are old and can't keep up with the times."

Everyone knows.

Mrs. Ruan, who has reached the age of sunset red, hates that others say she is old. Without thinking about it, she directly snatches Zhengzheng from Ruan Youran's arms. She stares at Zhengzhi fiercely: "How old is grandma? Grandma knows Many, I know Peggy the Pig, I know the Wang Wang Team, I know the Submarine Small Column!"

Ruan Youran sighed, "You know so much."

The integrity cooperated very well: "It's so childish."

The two girls looked at each other, raised their hands upright, "Ollie~!"

Ruan Youran smiled and clapped her hands, Ruan Qiu immediately turned to Chu Qing when she heard her granddaughter said Oreo, "Quick, take out the Oreo biscuits I bought for my granddaughter, I'll tell her to eat it. "

Ruan Youran: ...

Upright:……

It is always impossible for people to be dissatisfied.

The time of more than ten years has passed in the blink of an eye.

On the playground, Ruan Qiu sat on the ground and watched with a smile on her granddaughter and Chu Qing flying the kite. Everyone in Chu Nian didn't let her run, so she sat on the side.

Ruan Qiu looked at Ruan Youran: "Are you still suffering?"

She could feel that her daughter had changed a bit, but she seemed to still have feelings for Chu Nian, the two of them rarely spoke, even if they made eye contact, Ruan Youran quickly moved away.

Ruan Youran looked at the blue sky, "Well, how can I not feel uncomfortable."

Ruan Qiu was a little helpless, "You child is really grown up. In the past, you and your mother were never separated, and you would talk about everything."

Ruan Youran was silent, she looked at the blue sky for a long time, until the white clouds floated in front of her eyes, she was a little dizzy, and then she said slowly: "Mom, I can't help feeling uncomfortable, you know? I have thought a lot about our In the future... I even want to turn my hair white with her for a moment, just like you and Mom, watching my granddaughter play happily, and remembering when we were gray-haired, the two old ladies hugged each other and walked forward with a smile, The setting sun is just right, and it stretches our shadows very long... I have thought about it a lot, instead of facing the setting sun alone and feeling sad and missing, can you understand?"

Ruan Qiu stopped talking.

In fact, she knew about Chu Nian's situation no less than Ruan Youran, after all, her daughter-in-law was a doctor.

She also wanted to persuade her daughter.

It's just that for some things, if you think about it in another place, those words of reassurance will become pale and powerless.

Let alone within ten years...

Even now, Ruan Qiu thought about it, Chu Qing would leave suddenly, and she couldn't bear it, she couldn't help the tears welling up in her eyes, and her heart ached.

Just thinking about it...

Not to mention that Jianjian faced death head-on like this.

Zhengzheng had a lot of fun, she had never laughed like this before, and Ruan Qiu felt her heart itch at the end. She ran to fly the kite by herself, and almost got into a fight with the person next to her because she was taller than anyone else.

Zheng Zheng laughed "giggling", she ran to Ruan Youran's side, picked up her small water bottle and gurgled water with her head up.

Ruan Youran looked at her, and Chu Nian who was not far away turned his head and looked at them.

"Mommy, what's the matter with you, are you unhappy?"

Integrity is very good at understanding people's hearts. In those years, when she received frequent treatment and couldn't go out, she faced doctors at home. Sometimes, because she was young, doctors couldn't tell the truth about many things for fear of scaring her.But a child wants to know the truth, whether she will get another injection, whether she will be pressed for a bone marrow puncture, etc., so she has learned to read people's faces, and sometimes she can guess honesty just by looking at them. to what the other person is thinking.

Ruan Youran touched Zhengzheng's hair, and Zhengzheng grabbed her hand: "Mum, tell me, I have many ways to help you."

She often said this to Chu Nian before.

Ruan Youran felt sore, she looked at Zhengzheng and smiled slightly: "Mummy has a very important person, she is sick, she can't be as healthy as us, Mummy is very sad."

Zheng Zhi thought for a while, "Then how many years can she live?"

Ruan Youran was taken aback, she didn't expect her to ask so directly.

Tilting her head upright, her eyes glowed like jewels in the sun: "I remember when I was two years old, I had a high fever for two days and two nights. I always slept, and then I woke up and heard my mother's cry." Weeping, and the doctor's aunt told her to write her name on something."

Ruan Youran huddled together in distress.

That thing... should be a critical illness notice.

Although...she has thought about it many times, what the mother and daughter have experienced and how much pain they will experience while wandering alone all these years, but it is not worth the honest and unintentional confession.

Zheng Zheng lowered his head, "At that time, I heard the doctor's aunt say that if I'm still not well, maybe I won't be better in a week."

Ruan Youran hugged her tightly.

Zheng Zheng raised his head and looked at Mommy: "I was also scared at the time, but then I thought about it... Mommy, I am already very happy. Look at the bugs, the birds, the chickens, the ducklings, they are all alive. So short, but still very happy."

Ruan Youran didn't move at all, she stared blankly at Zheng Zhi.

Zheng Zheng smiled and said: "And my friend Xiao Zhu, it is a red spider, it also disappeared after a winter, but we are very happy, at that time I thought, if I really leave to go to heaven It's also very good, I don't need to suffer anymore, but I am afraid that my mother will feel distressed, and I want to see my mother even more."

As she said that, she hugged Ruan Youran's head and kissed her hard: "Now that I'm with my mother and I've seen Mommy, I'm so happy and satisfied. I won't be afraid if I get sick, have a fever, or get an injection again! mua! "

Ruan Youran looked at Zhengzhi, just looking at her like that, at that moment, something cool slipped down the corner of her eyes.

Not far away, Chu Nian slowly walked over, she sat down upright, she still didn't dare to get too close to Ruan Youran, for fear that she would be disgusted like before.

Zheng Zhi hugged Chu Nian's "mua" and kissed hard again. After the kiss was over, Zheng Zhi turned to look at Ruan Youran: "Mommy, it's your turn!"

"what?"

Ruan Youran was still immersed in Zhengzhi's words just now, her heart was shocked, and she was still shocked by a child.

Zheng Zheng looked at her with a full smile: "All the children in the forest are like this. Mommy will go to kiss mommy, then mommy will kiss mommy, and they will kiss the baby together!"

In a word, it was a little unnatural for the two adults around me to say it all at once.

Ruan Youran's mouth was a little dry, while Chu Nian's face was blushing and she lowered her head. At this time, the light of the setting sun hit her face, the beautiful lotus face, making people salivate.

The author has something to say: Isn’t today’s sweet enough?