On the wedding show before the divorce

—Memories are memories, and have no power except sadness.

These words pierced directly into Chu Nian's heart like a poisoned needle, she didn't look at Sawyer, and slowly turned her head away.

Amid the cheers of the crowd, Ruan Youran wiped away her tears and walked off the stage. She took off the guitar and handed it to Sawyer. She looked at Chu Nian who was drinking alone in the far corner and pursed her lips.

Sawyer was very happy, "Rousi, you are amazing!"

"What did you say to her?"

In the past, when Suoya praised Ruan Youran, she would high-five her or just laugh and tease her, but now, her eyes are looking at Chu Nian, and her voice is cold and cold, which Suoya has never felt before.

Sawyer froze, she opened her mouth.

Ruan Youran's brows were frowned, and her eyes were sharp. At that moment, Suoya understood why her sister kept telling her not to mess with the Ruan family after she knew her feelings for Ruan Youran. I understand, in her impression, whenever she was with Ruan Youran, she was always smiling or sad, and never had such a terrifying aura like now.

"Don't provoke her."

After saying this, Ruan Youran didn't watch Sawyer walk towards Chu Nian.

Sawyer froze in place, she was still holding the guitar that Ruan Youran handed her, as if she still had her body temperature, but at this moment, her heart was icy cold.

Ruan Youran walked slowly towards Chu Nian, she didn't know if it was an illusion, she felt that the person she once loved had become so thin at some point.

"Chu Nian."

When Ruan Youran spoke, Chu Nian turned around and looked back at her, under the neon lights, tears glistened.

Ruan Youran was silent for a moment, she looked at her: "Go home?"

The word "go home" finally warmed Chu Nian's heart for a moment. She nodded and wanted to get up, but her feet staggered. Ruan Youran quickly supported her, "Have you been drinking?"

Chu Nian only drank a glass of cocktail.

In fact, according to her previous drinking capacity, this is simply superficial, not enough to watch.

But in the past three years, she basically didn't drink a drop of alcohol.

So she drank too fast, and she actually felt dizzy.

There was a familiar scent in the nostrils, and Chu Nian felt sad and uncomfortable. She leaned against Ruan Youran and murmured: "Uncomfortable..."

She is uncomfortable.

Physically and mentally exhausted.

Before she returned to China, she had vowed on the plane, consoling herself, that as long as Ruan Youran was happy, she could do whatever she wanted.

It doesn't matter whether she complains, is deliberately indifferent, or... falls in love with someone else.

As long as Ruan Youran is happy, she will bless her.

But on this day, when Ruan Youran just smiled and said a few words to others, Chu Nian felt his heart was empty.

Thinking that Ruan Youran would belong to someone else... That feeling was more painful than letting her die on the operating table.

Ruan Youran helped Chu Nian go out, she looked down at her pale face, and pursed her lips.

Sawyer walked over with a friend, "What's wrong?"

Ruan Youran didn't speak, she gave Sawyer a faint look.

Sawyer was actually a little nervous by that look, and an unknowing friend around him handed over the car keys to Sawyer: "Sawyer, take them back, there are still friends here to greet."

Nodding his head, taking the car keys, Sawyer looked at Ruan Youran.

Ruan Youran lowered her head and stared at Chu Nian, because she got off the plane directly, so Chu Nian only put on light makeup, which was not enough to cover her pale face and tiredness.

Walking to the door, Ruan Youran thought for a while, supported Chu Nian with one hand, untied the coat on her body with the other hand, and put it directly on her body.

Chu Nian's head has always been hurting. Over the years, the pain in her heart has long prevented her from feeling the pain in other places, but now, her headache is splitting, and she is suffering from it. The familiar fragrance brings a warm With the warm cover on her body, her nose was a little sore, but her head didn't hurt as much as before.

There was silence all the way, Suoya walked behind the two of them, she watched Ruan Youran supporting Chu Nian just like that.

From outsiders' perspective, Ruan Youran was just supporting her.

But Sawyer could clearly see the concern in her eyes.

During this period of time, Suoya felt the changes in Ruan Youran, and knew that she seemed to be coming out, so she told her sister specifically, pushed a lot of domestic work, and came to accompany Ruan Youran.

They formed a band, had fun playing together, and enjoyed the release brought by music every night and every night.

Ruan Youran on the stage was charming and charming, and Suoya felt itchy to see her. Everyone around her knew what she was thinking, and Suoya didn't hide it. If she loves, she loves, and she doesn't need anyone's consent.

The day before yesterday, something was wrong when Ruan Youran came here. She suddenly drank some wine and held her mobile phone sullenly.

Suoya didn't know that she had received Chu Nian's message, but just accompanied her silently.

Soon.

Ruan Youran took out a cigarette and lit it, which surprised Sawyer. She always thought that Ruan Youran didn't smoke.

Under the blurred moonlight.

Ruan Youran was melancholy and gloomy, as if every strand of her hair was highlighted and gloomy. She held a cigarette between her long-sleeved fingers, and her long hair was scattered on her back.

that feeling...

Sawyer can't forget it now.

Some are distressing...but even more charming.

After quietly smoking a cigarette, Ruan Youran got up, and Sawyer took a step ahead of her: "Youran."

Ruan Youran looked at her, and Sawyer looked into her eyes eagerly: "Can you...can you..."

She wanted to say give her a chance.

But under Ruan Youran's gaze, she suddenly couldn't speak.

Ruan Youran suddenly smiled, although it was a smile, but she was haggard. She patted Sawyer on the shoulder, and said in a low voice, "You will always be my friend."

What does one sentence represent.

Sawyer closed his eyes in pain.

She watched Ruan Youran slowly leave the lively crowd, watched her lower her head, and watched her look at the moon in the distance when she was at the door.

Loneliness is the carnival of a group of people, and carnival is the loneliness of one person.

Ruan Youran felt exhausted, she had long since lost the ability to love her.

She thought she would be very happy.

She seems to have regained the youthful days when she was unrestrained and didn't worry about caring for anyone.

She went to play, she went to make trouble, she sang, she carnival...

and then?

Why did she cry silently alone after returning home in the dead of night.

Who is she missing?

Who is she thinking about?

At the door of the house, Suoya helped Ruan Youran open the car door, and Ruan Youran helped Chu Nian to go down. Chu Nian was not feeling well, and he frowned and his face was sallow as he drove all the way.

Ruan Youran supported her, her gaze seemed indifferent, and her words seemed flat: "Okay, we're here."

only……

Who can be fooled by that concern?

Sawyer thought of the phrase "ordinary friends" that Ruan Youran said when he first entered the bar.

normal friend……

Sawyer wanted to laugh, but couldn't. She also wanted to be such an ordinary friend.

Ruan Youran turned around, she looked at Sawyer, under the moonlight, Sawyer's expression was desolate and lonely.

"Sawyer."

Ruan Youran called her name softly, and she could feel the person in her arms shaking slightly when she heard her voice.

Sawyer turned around and looked at Ruan Youran with tears in his eyes.

Ruan Youran smiled slightly at her, "You are a good girl."

Sawyer was about to cry, she looked at Ruan Youran: "But you don't like it."

She hates such good guy cards.

Ruan Youran was the first Chinese girl she fell in love with, and she just let go if she didn't want to.

Ruan Youran looked into her eyes, and said slowly, "I'm not worthy of your liking, so stop wasting time on me."

Sawyer is kind to her, why doesn't she know?

She refused many times, but Sawyer not only did not give up, but became more and more frustrated.

Such persistence... Ruan Youran understands that she did not treat Chu Nian like this in the past.

Sawyer choked up, tears rolled down his cheeks, and his blue eyes were touching: "What if I say I don't? Rousi, don't you give me some time?"

She believes that time heals all things.

She has liked people before, and loved deeply, and it is painful when she loses love, but she finds that in just six months, no matter how much pain, no matter how deep the relationship is, it will be washed away by time.

She felt that Ruan Youran just didn't give her this time, and didn't give herself this time.

At six months, she is very confident.

Ruan Youran was silent for a moment, she looked into Sawyer's eyes, and said slowly, "I have waited for three years."

After just one sentence, Ruan Youran shook her head, she stopped talking, and helped the person in her arms into the room.

Sawyer was nailed in place like a wooden stake, and she suddenly felt that she was very ridiculous... Yes, she still swore that it was a matter of time, she knew it all, but why did she forget it?

Rousi had waited hard for that person for three years.

Did she forget?

Turn on the light, and the room was filled with warm lights. Ruan Youran helped Chu Nian into the bedroom, and the room was filled with the smell of her body. Followed by sadness.

She's home...

their home...

In the dream, she was obsessed with wanting to come back and take a look, even if it was just a place.

In her lifetime, she never expected that she would come back alive.

Ruan Youran helped her onto the bed, took off Chu Nian's shoes, and she went to the bathroom to fetch a basin of warm water to wipe Chu Nian's face.

Wipe off the tears, and all the makeup on the face...

Ruan Youran looked at Chu Nian's face, her gaze stayed for a long time, after an unknown amount of time, Chu Nian slowly opened her eyes, and she looked at Ruan Youran.Ruan Youran also looked at her, and after a while, Ruan Youran got up and walked slowly to the next door.

That warmth leaves.

Chu Nian curled up on the bed alone.

She told herself to be strong many times, but when it really came to this moment... She was so painful and regretful that she was going crazy.

Chu Nian bit her lip and closed her eyes again.

Ruan Youran opened the sliding door next door, and Xiao Sao had heard the sound a long time ago, it wagged its tail coquettishly and wanted to jump on Ruan Youran, Ruan Youran picked it up and kissed its forehead, "Your mother is back, go and see Bar."

This is over.

Xiao Sao kicked Ruan Youran almost without hesitation, jumped out of her arms, and rushed into the bedroom like a spinning top.

When it saw the person lying on the bed, the black nose was bubbling with excitement, and it hummed and made that kind of aggrieved sound like an abandoned child.

Chu Nian sat down from the bed, she looked at Xiao Sao, just as she stretched out her arm, Xiao Sao leaped into the air, couldn't wait to jump into her arms, licked her face vigorously, trembling with excitement, all over her body The hair is piled up.

Chu Nian hugged her and wept, she kept kissing Xiao Sao's furry head, "I'm back...I'm back..."

Xiao Sao made a whining sound, and wagged her tail like an electric fan, and pressed it against her body with all her strength.

And Ruan Youran next door was sitting on the sofa, she didn't turn on the light, she sat there alone with tears streaming down her face.